Chapter 9
As soon as they left the building, Nessa backed Radar up against it. "I want you so bad." she purred as her lips found his. Radar embraced her with intensity and kissed her deep, giving in to his longings.
His head started swimming and he pulled away from her lips breathless. "I need to sit down." he panted then pulled her a few yards away from the officers club to a bench at the edge of the camp. They sat quietly holding hands. Nessa's head fell to Radar's shoulder and he pulled her close.
"Radar? I'd like to ask you a very personal question, you don't have to answer it if you don't want." Nessa approached carefully.
"Sure." answered Radar a bit timidly.
Nessa paused, "Have you ever made love?" she asked gently.
Radar felt embarrassed immediately. He felt like lying but then thought better of it. "No." he sadly replied. It was quiet a few moments then he nervously asked, "Have you?"
Nessa sighed, "Yes," She averted her eyes from his, in shame. "But I regret it."
"Why?" asked Radar with curiosity and concern.
It was quiet a moment as Nessa thought of how to proceed. She gave Radar a fleeting look before she started to explain.
"I fell in love with a college professor when I was studying to be a nurse. I thought he loved me. We had an intense affair - until I discovered he was married." Nessa explained, trying unsuccessfully to muffle the distaste in her voice. Radar gently pulled out of their embrace and looked at her sympathetically. She continued, "I fell in love with him and he broke my heart. I didn't think I could ever trust or love again. It wasn't easy for me to finish school. I thought about transferring schools - but I only had one more semester to go, so I stuck it out." She paused, looking out into the night, remembering her past. "I cried after almost every one of his classes. I joined the Army shortly after getting my nursing degree. I was seeking some kind of stability or strength I guess." Nessa finished, looking down at their intertwined hands.
Radar didn't know what to say. He felt so bad for her. He cared for her so much and wondered how anyone could be so awful to her. Then he wondered if she could ever love him. "I would never hurt you or lie to you." he tried reassuring her. He squeezed her hand in his.
Nessa looked into his searching eyes, "I know." She touched his cheek, "I never thought I could love again - but then - I met you." She huddled into his arms again feeling his warmth. Radar held her close and thought about never letting her go. "I wish I never made love to him. I wish I could have given my innocence to you. I want to make love to you Radar," admitted Nessa, her voice faltered as her feelings flooded her body.
Radar became overwhelmed by the realization of what was happening. His heart started pounding and he fought back a fleeting urge to panic. Am I finally going to make love, to the most beautiful woman I have ever seen? He was stunned, he couldn't speak, he just clenched Nessa tightly as he tried to reign in his feelings.
"Will you make love to me Walter?" she begged. Nessa never used his real name before and it only served to punctuate the seriousness of what she asked.
Radar wanted to scream out, yes! yes!, but fear clouded his ecstasy.
"Do you like Hawkeye?" he felt stupid as soon as the question left his lips but his fear of getting hurt got the better of him.
"What?" she asked with amazement, pulling out of Radars grasp.
"I – I see the way you look at him. Do you like him?" asked Radar nervously looking away from her disbelieving eyes.
"Oh Radar, of course I like Hawkeye, he is a wonderful man. He's a brilliant, handsome, funny man and if it weren't for you, I admit, I would have fell for him. I probably would have slept with him and then I would have been left in the dust, like all the other women he's concurred." Nessa lovingly looked into Radars worried eyes and caressed his cold, rosy ear. "I didn't fall in love with Hawkeye, I fell in love with you, sweet, gentle, caring, innocent, adorable, you - I love you." Nessa pleaded to Radar as she finally confessed her secret to him.
Radars heart almost stopped. He never heard those words from anyone but his mother. His expression was one of stunned admiration as he looked into her beseeching eyes. "I love you." he sighed.
Radar pulled her to him and kissed her with abandon. After taking his pleasure from her lips he started devouring her neck and ear with a desperate groan. "I will make love to you. Oh, I want you so much Nessa." Radar hissed in feverish passion.
Nessa was thrilled by his sudden advance. She let out a trembling moan that made him insane. Radar felt like he was loosing control as his hands worked over her body.
Nessa's eyes rolled closed with ecstasy. "Can we go to the supply tent? That's where people go when they want to be alone, isn't it?" she asked as she ran her fingers up the back of his neck into his hair.
Radars hand also traveled into her soft curls. "Yeah but someone else is using it tonight." he looked and sounded so frustrated.
"Oh baby, its ok." comforted Nessa. "Will we be able to get it tomorrow night?"
"I think so - but I think might have a better place for us?" he smiled as a plan worked in his mind. "We can use the VIP tent. It's strictly off limits - but I have a few favors I can pull in."
"I don't want to get you in trouble," worried Nessa.
Radar shook his head in disappointment. "We could both get in trouble just being with each other." he sadly pointed out. He touched her face and hair as he soaked in her beauty. "I don't want this – I mean us, to happen in a supply tent, but I don't want to get you in trouble either. If you don't want to – I'll understand." Panic grabbed him more firmly this time.
"I don't care about getting in trouble." Nessa said firmly.
"I don't care either." Radar fervidly whispered as he hugged her tight.
Nessa sighed, "We'll just have to wait one more day."
"It'll feel like forever." Radars body was throbbing everywhere. He just had to get into that tent.
They held onto each other for a time. They didn't want to kiss anymore; it was just too hard to stop. They got up and quietly walked off, hand in hand.
They stopped in front of Nessa's tent. "I had the most wonderful time with you tonight." Nessa hugged him.
"The only way this night could have been any better is if we were back home." Radar said as he held her. "Are you sure you want to meet me in the VIP tent tomorrow night?" he asked, always unsure that a woman like Nessa could really want him.
"Oh yes Radar." she whispered in his ear. She then took his ear between her lips and kissed it softy.
Radar squeezed her before he found her lips once again and kissed them wildly. Radar ripped his lips from hers, "I can't let you go." said Radar dolefully, holding her possessively.
"I don't want you to." Nessa whispered back.
They embraced for what seemed like forever. Nessa felt so in love. Her insides were on fire. She trusted him, adored him, loved him more than she has loved any other man.
They pulled out of their embrace and held hands as they admired one another. "I guess we had better say goodnight." said Radar sadly.
"Sooner we get to bed, sooner tomorrow will come." Nessa said lovingly touching his face. Radar looked in her warm eyes and smiled.
Nessa opened the tent door. "Sweet dreams Walter." she said quietly so she wouldn't disturb her bunk mates.
"Sweet dreams Nessa." Radar sighed as his hand reluctantly fell away from hers.
Nessa's coveting eyes pierced Radars before she let the door shut between them. She was serious, so serious about him. She wasn't going to let him get away, she would have him tomorrow night, she would have him forever.
Nessa smiled as the nights events ran through her mind. She turned around to see, Ginger, Kelly and Louise sitting on their bunks staring with expectant faces. She looked at them and groaned. She sat on her bed and began taking off her boots.
"Well?" asked Ginger.
"Well what?" said Nessa, changing into her long johns.
"How was your date?" asked Kelly.
"I don't kiss and tell." said Nessa.
"There was kissing involved then." prodded Louise.
Nessa got under her covers, with a smile on her face that she couldn't get rid of. "I'm sure you'll hear the rumors tomorrow. I don't want to ruin it for you all. Goodnight girls." She turned off the light over her cot and hunkered down for the night.
"I wonder if Radar is a good kisser." said Louise with an amused voice.
"I wonder if he knows what a kiss is." said Ginger.
Nessa knew what they were trying to do. She didn't give in to them. Boy dose that boy know what a kiss is, Nessa mused before she drifted to sleep with dreams of the future.
