I know it has been centuries since I last updated but I got grounded for failing in Chemistry and Trigonometry (I know I hate both math and Science too). So please Pray, or do anything that you can (like wish upon a falling star) to at least wish that I've got good grades with no failures this quarter I would Really Appreciate it. Or in other words
No Failures = More internet / Free time
More Internet/ Free time = More Story Updates.
But For Now I shall let you read two new chapters.
Enjoy
Chapter 7- Core
"You should look around." Ezkiel told me after declaring that my name will be.
"Look around?" I asked him with confusion.
"Yes look around," he made a gesture to everything that I could see. Everything that to me looked impossibly real. Everything and anything had an immortal touch to it.
"Do you see this place? This represents the new you. Whenever you pick something up that represents a part of yourself …" he hesitated and searched for the right word. "Whenever you intake something with your five senses you gain information about yourself." He again made a hand gesture as if saying everything was mine.
"Should I use all the five senses?"
"No, once you use the right sense information will be given to you."
"What if it needs two senses?"
"Well it would depend. On some things if you use both senses the same information will go to you. But most likely you will receive new information in yourself."
"But will I know?"
"You will know."
"But how?"
"A voice will utter in your head. A voice that is undiscriminating soft and understanding, yet wise and majestic."
"Does that voice know me?"
Ezkiel smiled.
"He knows you very well."
"But do I know him?"
"No but he was always there with you when you were still your old self. Ready to comfort you when you were sad. To remind you what is right from wrong. To give you a sign that you are in danger."
"Is he still with me?"
With this Ezkiel just smiled at me again.
"He is with you until the day you die."
"Oh…"Well who is this person? Ezkiel went a little bit closer to me.
"I will be back to see how much of yourself you have explored."
"Can I eat something? Or a drink I feel a bit dehydrated now."
"Yes you can. The fountain water is drinkable and if you go outside there are gardens with a bountiful fresh harvest." He said this before I see him fading away.
"I will be back soon Lea." Then he was gone.
Since I could explore myself I decided to start with the drinkable fountain water. I leaned in to see what I looked like. Perhaps if I knew my physical appearance then maybe I'll figure out more of myself. But when I saw the reflection in the water a part of me was disappointed. I don't know by how much but within me I knew that what I was feeling right now was disappointment.
To me everything looked the same.
The only difference aside from the featured surroundings that I could see…
Was what I would think that I was myself for the current state, well at least that's what I hoped it would be.
What this soul,
My soul
Would determine as myself…
Was nothing more than what I had hoped for…
Nothing more than a translucent like mist.
You could see my hands, my fingers, my shoulders but everything was just an outlined part.
Everything that I could see to what my soul actually is, was just enough to what a child's general definition of a girl, or a woman would be. Long hair, a beautiful figure and slim legs, since the term beautiful is not a specific God must have lowered it to being that of an average woman.
Everything that needed to be detailed was lowered to being an average everyday part. That was shaded with translucent mist.
But if that was the case, how come I could still use my senses?
I could still touch the texture of the velvet pillows.
I let my misty hands grab a handful of water. I brought my hands towards my lips and sipped on and on until I drank most of the water from my hands.
That I would say the water was sweet, and it was very delicious to drink.
Then a voice came in my head
This is Rose Water
It comes from the juice of the Rose Petals. It symbolizes your natural charisma with effort in a few areas. Just like the Rose Water the Petals needed to be placed in several processes. But with Motivation, Patience and Effort you will be able to be very charismatic.
After the voice said this, a question hung upon me once again.
How come, that I , my soul, a soul who does not know her own name until just recently…
Why would I still savor the delicious taste of that drinkable fountain water?
Then with that another question came into my mind.
Why could I still see?
I did have a talk- wait a minute!
A talk?
But why should I talk when I am not-but wait!
I can hear!
Why am I not forbidden to hear?
I can speak!
I spoke to the Man named Ezkiel…
I splashed some water on my face. I did it to refresh my mind. It is quite strange indeed. Maybe I do really need to explore myself with all this going through my mind. But wait, I remembered something…
Ezkiel said that whenever I use my five senses…whenever I use them I regain information of what I am…
…Information that would lead to my identity.
An Identity that my soul could regain and come back…
I realized that I was still leaning on the edge of the fountain. I straightened myself up and decided to explore this part of myself. I saw some rose petals that floated on the water, and some had sunk to the bottom of the fountain.
I took one of the petals…
…once I touched it I felt something in my head.
The Rose Petals symbolizes many things,
First it symbolizes your feminine side and that even with people seeing you as unladylike inside you are for you are a female.
As you touch it's texture you can feel that it is soft. You are soft even in the eyes of others you are hard as stone.
Lastly as you might have observed it is the Rose Petals that's given you the sweet taste of water from the fountain. This symbolizes your ability to give both happiness and usefulness to those who would treat you carefully and patiently. Just like how one makes rose water they will need to be with you for a long enough time for you to give them usefulness and happiness. If they are with you for a short time then they should be with you properly to bear the same result.
After the voice said this. I found myself exploring my surroundings and using different senses to find out about myself. And Who I am.
So now Lea is "exploring" who she is…
