CHAPTER 9
Quinn and Santana walked hand in hand in the hallways of McKinley High after the Glee club meeting. Brittany hesitated to confront Santana but she decided to continue anyways. "San!", she called out, running towards the couple. Santana and Quinn both turned their gaze to Brittany as they stopped walking.
Santana waited expectantly for the dancer to talk. "I...uh…can we talk" recognizing the presence of Quinn but didn't make an eye contact. "Like, in private?" looking at those dark brown eyes that are staring at her.
Santana searched for the Hazel brown eyes for permission. "I'll wait for you in the car, okay?" Quinn kissed the Latina's cheek for confirmation. Santana gave her a thank-you-smile. After Quinn was no longer in sight Brittany led Santana in the auditorium for privacy.
"San…" she made an eye contact with Santana.
Santana waited for the blonde's continuation.
"Did you like my song for you in Glee club?" the blonde asked as her introduction.
Santana smiled weakly knowing where this topic might lead. "Of course I liked how you sang the song, Britt. I just don't like the thought of it"
Brittany looked puzzled. "You didn't like the thought of it?" The song is about, loving a person, remembering the sweet memories and letting go. She wasn't sure which one Santana hated.
"Of letting me go. I know I'm being selfish, but I somehow want you to stay loving me and fight for me. But singing that song you kinda just told me that you're giving up and you're gonna move on." Santana said looking at ground, its not the kind of thing she's proud saying because its like telling Brittany that she wasn't contented with her girlfriend.
Brittany tilted her head and smiled sadly. "I'll always love you, San. Always. I'll probably gonna be in love with you forever." Her voice was filled with sincerity; this made Santana look up to meet her eyes. "But at some things aren't meant to be kept forever. You know you have to stop and let go when things aren't going right." She was holding back her tears but failed miserably.
What Brittany just said made Santana's heart ache. She knows Brittany has a point but she was thinking that it's a bit too early for giving up if the blonde really loves her as much as she loves Britt. "I've waited years, Britt. Years. For us to happen. But you? You're telling me that you're giving up. It's barely a month long!" Santana wasn't able to control herself; she yelled at the girl. It wasn't not pure anger, it was mostly disappointment and hurt. But this made the blonde cry even more.
Santana instantly regret yelling. She wanted to hug the blonde and comfort her but she didn't let herself do it. "Sorry," she apologized instead. "I was expecting. Maybe its because I'd do so much for you that I expect you to do the same for me." Now tears were welling in her eyes.
Brittany hugged Santana. It was tight, like even if Santana wanted to break free she would not be able to do it. "I'm sorry to disappoint you, San. I love you so much, I really do. And I'd be willing to do so much for you. Its just that I can't pursue my feelings for you anymore. And I thought that this is what you want; let you go. Because you have a girlfriend. You have Quinn."
Santana's Cheerios uniform is wet with Brittany's tears. She realized that Brittany was right. She should be happy because she has a girlfriend. And this would be a good thing for her current relationship. But she doesn't really know if she wants this. Because she wants Brittany but she herself told Brittany before that she should back off because she has a girlfriend. "Yeah. It's the right thing to do. But honestly, I need you and I'm willing to do wrong things with you." She shook the thought of it knowing that it won't be a good idea. "If Quinn wasn't in the picture."
Brittany sighed. "But she is. And its my fault"
"No Britt, its not your fault. And yes, she is already in the picture. And I've learned to love her. I don't want to hurt her" Santana confessed.
Brittany pulled away from the hug. "It hurts; knowing that you've learnt to love someone else more than me. It breaks my heart knowing that you love me less" she was staring at the ground. She's a bit ashamed to state her feelings.
Santana lifted Brittany's chin. "I want you to know that I never loved you less. I'd never be able to do that. Maybe its just that my love for Quinn grows faster each day." Santana wanted to tell her that she still love Brittany more but she didn't think that it's the right thing to do. She looked at those blue eyes that never fail to drown her like an ocean. She still saw sadness and hurt. "Sorry if that didn't make you feel better"
Brittany shook her head and gave the Latina a weak smile. "No San, I'm okay. No need to feel sorry." She cupped the Latina's face and wiped the tears in the girl's face. "Listen to me. I'll always be here to be your best friend. I will never stop loving you. I just need time away from you. To adjust. It really hurts to see you with somebody else and I need to learn to get used to that. But I can't do that if I continue hoping that maybe someday you'll leave her for me. I need to distance for a while. I just…" the blonde cried harder than before.
"Shhh. I understand. I totally do." Santana said as she cupped the face of the blonde too and rested her forehead in the girl's forehead. "We'll still be seeing each other though. In the hallways, classes, glee club…" Brittany held Santana's arms.
The blonde smiled, this time it was somehow peaceful. "Quinn is waiting for you in the car. You should go. You don't want to test her patience too long" she was still holding her smile.
"Yeah. Guess you're right." She kissed Brittany on the forehead. After pulling back, "Goodbye" she gave her a smile. "…for now" she trailed off.
"What took you so long?" Quinn asked as if she didn't know the answer to her question.
Santana entered her car. "Sorry, babe" she kissed Quinn's cheeks. She didn't bother answering the question since she know s Quinn know the answer to it.
"Since you made me wait for like an hour" Quinn exaggerated. "You should treat me to Breadstix" she smirked.
Santana stopped starting the engine, her head turned to the blonde beside her. "I can't, babe" her look was apologetic. Then she continued what she was doing and drove. Quinn's face fell.
"What do you mean you can't? Well, didn't you bring enough money? Because I'm in a good mood I'll give you the privilege to eat with me, I'll pay for it. For now" Quinn smiled. "But you'll pay me tomorrow" she continued knowing that Santana doesn't want her to pay bills when they go out on any date. Her smile faded as soon as she saw Santana's expression on the rear view mirror.
"I'm really sorry, Quinn. I have some other plans today." She said not removing her sight on the road. She looked at the mirror, "How 'bout tomorrow? I'll take you out somewhere more expensive and classy"
"You can't just bribe me like that. What is this plan that's more important to our date anyways?" Quinn was in her serious mode.
"I'll tell you tomorrow, okay. I just need to do some stuff." She shrugged.
"Why can you answer to me like that like this is not a big deal? Why don't you just tell me now? You didn't even tell me yet where you've been yesterday. And now you have plans that are more important than our date?" Quinn is now annoyed.
"Quinn, please. If you said that we'd be going on a date earlier I would've been prepared. But you just told me and I wasn't able to cancel it while I can so I need to go there." She explained, sounding a bit annoyed.
Quinn was getting angry, "Need to go where?" her tone risen a bit. She raised her eye brow. "Does this plan of yours concern Brittany?" she did not hide her suspicion.
Santana's eyes widened. "Wh-what? No!" she looked at Quinn as she stopped the car because of the traffic light. "Of course not." She sounded defensive.
"Really?" Quinn asked making an eye contact.
"Really" Santana said firmly convincing Quinn that she's telling the truth.
"If you say so." she dropped the subject.
They spent their ride home guessing about the song that they would sing for one another.
After she dropped Quinn in her house she went straight home. She opened her laptop and signed in in skype. She grabbed her phone from her pocket and started texting.
Hey! I'm online. Sorry to keep you waitin'
-San
She received a text from someone immediately.
Its okay Babe. Always willing to wait for youJ
She got annoyed. She was pissed that she has been called 'Babe' again by the texter even though she always tell not to call her that. So she replied.
I told you not to call me that…
-San
She opened the reply, that she received faster than the speed of light.
Sorry, Honey. I'll remember next time. I'm signed in. So wanting to see you.
So what do you think guys? Please let me know…
Next Chapter will be coming sooner XD
