Okay, I know I used to update really fast, but I'm sorry that I don't right now, I have other things in my life. Don't hate me? I've also become really obsessed with twitter… Without a doubt, it's part of my life now, and I don't know how it happened, it just did. :) I'm really happy you guys review. It makes me feel a lot better about myself…. You guys really boast my self-esteem, which like a lot of teenagers is not the highest. *sighs* Anyways, yes, I've been busy. I have this whole Odyssey project due soon, so I've been working on that for a while. I have a large hate for Odysseus by the way, just putting that out there. :) But as I was saying, thank you so much for reviewing. I really love every single one of my readers/favoriters/alerters/reviewers so so much. :)

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Okay, please do not hate me for this chapter. Things get pretty weird. Okay, and slightly dark. You've been warned.

Italics: Flashback


Just as soon as he kissed her, he pulled away. Why the hell did he do that? He wasn't supposed to do that. No part of him should have kissed her. He knew the consequences. He knew them fully well. Annabeth would start asking questions that he wouldn't have an answer to. He looked away from her, not wanting to meet her eyes and see that innocent look in her eyes. The innocent look that would be ruined by-

"Perseus Jackson," that voice bellowed, "What do you think you're doing?"

Percy quickly stood up, facing the voice, "Hey Gabe. What are you doing here?" He tried to add a pleasant tone in his voice, but in only came out a snarl.

"Don't try to get cute with me. Whose the lady with you?" Gabe surveyed Annabeth as he absorbed in her curly blonde hair, "Is she your next victim?"

Annabeth got angry at the accusation, "Excuse me, I am not Percy's victim. How dare you say that to me?"

"Oh so this looker has a mouth too? I guess blondes are good for more than one thing," Gabe laughed, "You've always been able to pick the good ones Percy, just like you mom. She picked me didn't she, and I'm sure she doesn't regret that."

"Shut the fuck up," Percy yelled, "I don't give a damn if you insult me, but don't ever insult my mom. She didn't want to be with you." Percy couldn't help himself. He was afraid of Gabe but if there was one thing he couldn't stand for it was anyone insulting his mom. Sally was too perfect to receive any hate.

Gabe snarled, "I see you finally got the balls to do something in your life, Jackson. It's good to know you're not as weak as you were when you're mother was still alive."

The anger was bubbling inside of him, and he would've fought back, but she was there, watching everything. He couldn't let Annabeth see. He didn't want her to see anymore of his screwed up life than she already had seen.

"Come on, Annabeth, let's go," He started pulling her away from Gabe, "We should probably go check up on Thalia and Nico." Annabeth knew arguing was a bad idea, so she did what she could and nodded as she started walking with Percy to the hospital.

Percy sighed, glad Annabeth hadn't asked him anything, though fear quickly flashed on his face, suddenly hearing the last phrase Gabe said as it repeated in his mind.

"Don't worry Percy, she's next."

And all it did was make Percy remember every night he spent with Bianca, and the night he completely ruined her.


It wasn't supposed to happen this way. Bianca wasn't supposed to die because of what Nico and Percy did. Her and Thalia were meant to be the good part of the family that everyone was proud of, while Nico and Percy were the rejects. If anyone should have died that night it should've been Nico or Percy, not Bianca. She was innocent: more innocent than a butterfly. She was happy, vitreous, pretty, and basically the epitome of perfection.

Or so everyone thought.

She wanted attention. She was sick of feeling useless in comparison to her younger brother. He seemed so much more composed than her. Their dad expected a lot less of him than he did of her. He didn't have the pressure of being a perfect child like she did. She didn't want to be perfect; she just wanted to be herself.

And that's when she thought of it: if she were to act more like her brother, she wouldn't have such high standards to live up to. Part of her knew it was selfish, but the world was selfish, human nature was selfish, so why couldn't she be as well? All her life she did what was expected of her, but no not now.

She always knew Nico did drugs. She knew it since basically square one. Although she wanted to stop Nico, because no matter what, she loved her brother, she knew she couldn't. Nico was Nico, and no one could change that, besides she had her own problems to deal with.

The one thing she was unsure of by this point was how she started doing cocaine like her brother. There was always a part of her that told her to stop, but then she would be perfect again, and only negative things would come out of that. Cocaine made her happy. It made her feel that perfection was actually something she wanted, and that she actually had family who loved her for her and her personality not because of her looks and grades and that she actually had friends who cared.

The cocaine made her feel wanted. More wanted than she had ever felt in her entire life.


Cocaine wasn't the only thing that made her feel wanted. Percy did too. He was her cousin, but the looks he gave her didn't make her feel like that was all he wanted to be. She had a feeling Percy knew she was a cocaine user by now, but he still treated her the same, like she wasn't as disgusting as her brother. No one ever made her feel this way, and it just proved to herself that like everyone else, she was human. Bianca had feelings, and she didn't care if those feelings were to her cousin, Percy Jackson.

At first, it was just a subtle, small infatuation. Whenever Percy would come over for Nico, he would give her a small smile and a wave. Their cousin relationship wasn't too strong; they barely even talked before this year, but all the sudden, something sparked in Percy that made him start to talk to Bianca, and Bianca liked that. She liked the newfound attention. She liked it so much that she began to crave it, crave him, and by this point it, didn't scare her.

All she wanted was to be happy, and who cares if she broke some laws to be happy. Her feelings for Percy wouldn't go away; she knew that. She didn't care though. He made her content and she didn't want to change it.

As the days past the looks got more romantic, though Bianca didn't protest. And then it happened. They were alone, Nico wasn't around and Bianca was all out of cocaine, but suddenly that didn't matter to her. All she needed was Percy.

"Percy," Bianca looked up to him, smiling, "Nico's not here. He's hanging out with Connor and Travis."

"I know, Bi," he grinned, "I'm not here for Nico though. You should know that by now, Bi. Couldn't you tell that I really wanted you?" He winked.

She felt her face flush at his words as she confirmed that Percy wasn't there to be just cousins, "What do you mean?" She feigned innocence.

He gave her a flirtatious smirk, "Come on, Bi. You know I don't want to be your cousin. If you know what I'm saying."

She nodded, still blushing, "I know what you are saying Percy," she looked down, "I don't want to be just your cousin either."

His face flashed with fear, but he quickly shook it up, and then they both leaned in.


Their relationship was kept a secret. They couldn't let any of their families know. Even if Bianca desired attention, she knew not to throw Percy in the spot light with her. As much as she hated to admit, Percy changed her for the better. Little did Nico know, she actually quit cocaine fairly quickly after she started, because she had a new addiction: Percy. Nico thought she was addicted as ever, and she was fine with that. After all, it seemed better than knowing she was in an incestuous relationship with her cousin.

"Bi, what are you worried about?" He flashed her a grin, "Something bugging you?"

She shook her head. Percy was the only thing that made her happy. She didn't care that he was about three years younger than her, "Nothing, Percy. I'm just really glad I have you."

The look of fear reappeared on his face, "Are you sure I'm all you need?"

"Of course, Percy, you are the only person that matters to me right now," she glanced him a curious glance, "Why?"

"No reason, Bi," he frowned and gave her a shaky grin, "I just wanted to know if you were really into this relationship."

"Percy, this relationship is the only thing I live for nowadays."

And that's perhaps what scared Percy more than anything.


Bianca didn't know what was happening. Her and Percy's secret relationship seemed perfect one day and then the next it just seemed to fall apart, causing her life to as well. Nico thought it was the drugs, while her dad thought it was a teenage rebellious phase. One minute Percy was smiling at her, but the next his gaze would shift towards someone else, anyone but her. It frightened her that she was losing Percy.

He promised he would be there. She really believed him too. As much as she hated to admit, she loved him. She thought they would be together forever. She was childish, naive even. Even though they weren't officially broken up, she could feel the relationship slipping through her fingers. She gave everything to him, everything a seventeen year old could give. Her first kiss, first love, and sadly her virginity. She hated herself for falling for Percy, but she loved him still. She couldn't help it.

"Bianca," Nico pleaded, "Just because I do coke, doesn't mean you have to."

She smiled, laughed and lied, "But Nico, it makes me feel good."

"Bianca, I don't want you throwing your life away over something like this, like I am," Nico tried to smile, "Just because I thrown my life away, doesn't mean you have to."

She scoffed as she looked at her brother. Too late.


"Hey Percy," Bianca smiled trying to lean in for a kiss, only for Percy to try away, "P-Percy? What's wrong? What's going on?"

Percy bit his lip, "Bianca, I'm sorry. It's, it's hard for me to say this to you."

"Just spit it out, Percy," Bianca nearly screamed, angry at Percy for breaking her already broken heart, "You've already broken me. What worse could you do?"

He looked down, ashamed of his actions, "Bianca, I've never really wanted to be more than just your cousin."

Her world froze.

What?

She looked at him, not wanting to believe the words coming out of his mouth, "What are you talking about, Percy? We have had this relationship for three months and now you tell me that you never wanted it in the first place. What the fuck, Perseus? How can you fucking treat me like that? Leading me on, all for nothing."

"Bianca, please. I'm sorry. You don't understand. I had to!"

"You didn't have to do anything, Percy. You were the only thing I needed in this life, the only goddamn thing and I find out it's all fake! That there was never an us to begin with!" She wanted to kill Percy. He killed her on the inside. She had nothing to live for at this point. He was everything, the only actual person in her life that was supposed to be there. Key word: supposed.

"It's complicated, Bi," He paused, frowning at her, "It was either this, or he would get you. I couldn't let him have you, Bianca! Not you! You're my fucking cousin, my family! How was I meant to react when I found out Gabe would rape you if I didn't have sex with you first! How the fuck was I, Bianca?"

"You expect me to believe that your step-father was going to rape me? Yeah, right! Your step-father isn't like that Percy! I don't know what kind of drugged up world you live in, but stop lying! You just wanted to play my heart. See if you could get your cousin to fall in love with you. Well congrad-fucking-ulations! I hope you're god damn happy, Percy," she shouted.

He fell to his knees, "Please, Bi, believe me. I wouldn't lie to you like-"

She cut him off, "Wouldn't lie to me? What have you been doing for the past three months or so?"

"Bianca, you have to believe me. I wouldn't do that to you if I didn't have to! I was protecting you, Bi. Please!"

"Why would I believe I hypocrite?" She snarled.


That's what lead her to be in her room, clutching the rope with her whole being. She readied herself, making herself look the best she could as she prepared to embrace death. She had no ties left to

"Bianca," Nico paused seeing the rope in her hands, "What are you doing with that?"

"I can't do it, Nico. I'm sick of everything here. I hate every goddamn thing."

HIs eyes froze in understand, "No, Bianca. Don't do it. You can't do this to us. You can't do this to me."

"You can't tell me what to do Nico. I'm older than you. I want to do this. You can't stop me, Nico. No one can. I'm done with this."

Nico didn't know what to do. Time seemed to stop in front of him. She happily walked of the chair keeping her alive, and her neck snapped instantly, leaving behind the world she grew to hate.


Okay, I'm really sorry it was kind of short. I started writing this about 5 hours ago, but I got caught up in a Classic Disney movie marathon. :) I miss my childhood. *nostalgic sigh* Anyway, I really hope you enjoy, but I have some things to clear up. One, I do not support rape or incest. Two, I'm sorry if any of this chapter offended anyone; I didn't mean it to be taken that way.

Please review though. I'll love you forever! :) You're reviews are the butter to my toast (though sometimes toast is better without butter, but uhh, never mind…). REVIEW. :) Also sorry about that lack of Percabeth…. Whoops. I wanted to get some of the past out in the open. :)