(Yosh! And here is the moment you've all been waiting for! X3 This is for all you MxM fans out there who have been waiting patiently for them to finally admit and show their feelings for one another. This is also my first real through and through lemon, so hopefully I didn't go and screw up too much. Lol.)
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Ch. 9: More than Air Itself
Matt looked into his friend's entrancing azure eyes as he remembered the conversation he had had with Yuna just the other day. He had admitted to her that he was harboring strong feelings other than those of friendship towards the blonde and she had told him to go ahead and tell Mello how he really felt. Were the gamer's feeling really that obvious? Had Mello known all this time? Unsure of where it would lead, Matt nodded.
"Of course I love you Mel." He said, energized by something inside him that he couldn't quite understand. "I didn't think too much of it at first, but--" he paused to take hold of the blonde's forearms and attempt to drown himself in eyes he could see so clearly without his trusty goggles obstructing his view. "Lately you're all I think about. I really do love you Mello."
Mello stared at his friend as he let what was said, sink in. He wasn't expecting an answer like this. He figured Matt would shake his head and laugh him off, saying to stop joking around. However, the red head didn't laugh it off. He was dead serious. The blonde slid off his makeshift seat and knelt on the hard tile floor in front of his friend. Carefully, he reached out to touch the gamer's cheek. He was so warm, but it wasn't because he had a fever. Mello looked into deep blue eyes, drowning in waves of hunger and a deep unyielding intensity.
"You mean it." The blonde concluded. His heart was pounding in his chest. This was so different. It wasn't like being with all those perverts or even Light. For some reason, just touching the red head made Mello's stomach feel like he had just swallowed a handful of butterflies.
Matt's hand on his own made the blonde straighten.
Matt smiled down at him, all the while never letting go of his friend's hand. "I do. And I want you to accept that. I want you to let me make you happy." His own hand reached out and caressed Mello's cheek. "It'll be just like back at Whammy's House. …Almost."
The blonde felt the butterflies go completely insane inside of him as he inched closer to the red head. He never thought that he would ever feel this way; wanting to be wanted so much in return and wanting to feel so much with just one person. It was as if Yagami Light had never existed and as Matt lent in and kissed Mello softly on the lips, it would have been just as well that Light had never been born.
Taking care not to hurt the blonde further, Matt helped him into a standing position and handed him the nearly forgotten towel.
"I still have to put the bandages on your wounds." Matt managed to breath out, wanting to take Mello right there on the bathroom floor, but not wanting to run the risk of hurting him any more than he already was. But the blonde merely shook his head and draped his slender arms around the gamer's neck.
"I'm fine. You've done enough." He murmured softly against Matt's neck. "They were only scratches anyway. Nothing I can't handle."
Completely aware of the exposed blonde in front of him, Matt could feel himself getting extremely hot. No wonder so many guys got off on Mello. There seemed to be this aura about the blonde that everyone just wanted to get under. The only difference in the matter at hand was that, Matt wasn't just some random pervert on the street looking for a late night all-nighter; he was Mello's best friend. The one person Mello could come to, besides his sister of course, and not feel uneasy or reluctant to rant his problems. Matt, unlike all the others, wanted nothing more than to be with the blonde no matter what and keep him safe from the entire rotting world that was out to get him. No, Matt was way different than all of Mello's other so-called lovers. He wanted Mello to be his everything; his earth, his moon, his entire universe, and in return wanted to be all that and more for Mello.
Relying purely on his instincts, Matt wrapped his arms protectively around the blonde, burying his face into the nape of his neck and taking in the soft scent of coco-butter shampoo.
"I don't want to hurt you." He spoke soothingly against Mello's bruised skin. "You've already been through enough."
Mello ran one of his hands through the gamer's hair. "You won't. I promise."
Upon agreeing, Matt draped the towel around the blonde's waist and took his hand so as to lead him out of the bathroom. The towel was only to keep up a modest air as they walked out of the bathroom and down the hall towards Matt's room. Once inside, the red head quietly shut the door behind them and flipped the lock into position so as to keep Yuna from walking in on anything.
"Now you're sure about this?" Matt asked as he pinned Mello to the door and began kissing down his neck and collarbone.
Mello closed his eyes, allowing a soft moan to escape him as the gamer found a sensitive spot in the nape of his neck and began to suck and bite at the area.
"I've never…Nn…been more sure."
Matt let go of one of Mello's wrists and yanked the now offensive towel away from around the blonde's slight hips. Neither of them paid it any more mind as it fell to the floor in a milky heap, being too preoccupied with each other. Another moan escaped the blonde as the gamer began to grind their hips together to create a much desired friction. Matt could just see Mello's own lust-filled eyes through the haze he had fallen into. So much he wanted to be inside his soon to be lover, but he forced himself to wait. He had to explore the blonde first and get a feel of every nook and cranny of his body; to be able to taste him until he was sure there was nothing else left of the blonde to memorize.
Mello gave a tiny gasp as Matt's right hand began massaging his stomach for a few seconds and continued on its course south. The red head soon found his target and kneaded the hardening member while kissing at the corners of the blonde's lips and eyes.
"If you want me to stop, tell me." He reassured the blonde as he started to direct them towards the bed. Mello only nipped playfully at Matt's ear.
"Stop worrying about me so much." He panted. "You said you loved me didn't you. And…you want this just as much as I do."
Matt nodded in agreement and figured that it was no use to keep worrying about what Mello could take and not take. And he did say he wanted to do this; that he would let Matt do this. Finally gaining a bit more confidence, the gamer threw all caution to the wind and crashed his lips against the blonde's. Mello could feel Matt's tongue asking for entrance the moment they connected and the blonde happily opened his mouth to oblige. The gamer tasted strongly of nicotine, but the blonde found he didn't mind the bitterness one bit. It was what made Matt, Matt after all.
Matt continued to run his tongue over every surface of the blonde's mouth, familiarizing himself with the sweet taste of chocolate and savoring every minute of it. With so much chocolate that the blonde packed away on a day to day basis, it was only natural that he would probably taste and smell of the stuff. And chocolate was such a sensual dessert. It started to send the gamer's hormones into overdrive.
"Mmm—Matt."
Mello felt himself being lowered onto the gamer's bed. The quilts and comforters that cushioned his fall were like soft clouds and the blonde was overwhelmed with the familiar scent of smoke and cinnamon. He never thought he would love the smell so much as he was right now.
As the blonde crawled back onto the middle of the bed, so did Matt; his eyes never leaving the blonde for a second. Mello loved those cerulean eyes. He liked the way they clouded over as he moved in front of them and the way they seemed to hold a mixture of apprehension and want all at the same time. He sat up, laying his back against the head board as the gamer advanced and halted close enough for them to feel the other's hot and already heavy breathing. Mello smiled as Matt's lips hovered over his own.
"It doesn't work if you're dressed." He teased, earning that cocky smirk from the gamer that he usually got when he was just about to beat a video game.
Matt laughed and planted a firm kiss on the blonde's half parted lips. "Maybe not," he replied as he pulled Mello beneath him and began another onslaught of kisses down the blonde's body. "But it sure as hell is sexy."
Oh Gods! That was the Matt that the blonde had known all these years. Mello found his body going completely insane by hearing the red head talk to him like that. Sure, men had talked to him like that before, but for some reason, when Matt began talking with that smug, overbearing tone, the blonde found himself wanting to shout at him for not getting on with it and fucking him already. He felt the gamer suddenly grab his thighs and push them apart and ended up biting back a moan.
"Don't back out on me now Mel." Mello heard Matt say huskily. "You told me not to worry, so I'm gonna do us both a favor and not give a shit whether or not I hurt you when I pound you into the mattress."
Mello gave a throaty laugh. "'Bout time."
That was all the gamer needed to continue. At an almost agonizingly slow pace, Matt started to run his hand along the length of Mello's member, enjoying the way the blonde's breath hitched in the process. But he knew he could get more if he tried, so that's exactly what he did. Smearing the pre-cum over Mello's tip with his thumb, the gamer started humming an off-tune while taking in the entire beauty that was his blonde companion. Mello squirmed as he listened to the red head, mewling desperately, as Matt licked at the head teasingly, in hopes that he would just hurry up and take him already. It didn't take long for Matt to oblige; taking the blonde fully into his mouth and bobbing and sucking hard like a kid would suck on candy. A loud moan escaped the blonde and he arched into Matt, grabbing two fistfuls of that soft red hair, but the gamer made sure to pin Mello's hips to the bed so that he wouldn't choke.
"Matt---I'm--" Mello panted, trying to get more friction in the warm, damp confines of the gamer's mouth.
"Mm?" There was another conceited smirk on Matt's face as his mouth released the blonde and he came up to look him in the eye. "What was that?"
Mello tried to shoot the gamer a dirty glare though his lust-clouded vision. "Don't stop." He whined. "Why did you stop? I didn't tell you to stop."
The gamer planted a chaste kiss on the blonde's lips; that smirk never leaving his features. "I want you to come for me." He purred into Mello's ear. "But not yet."
Mello squirmed uncomfortably beneath the red head. "Mm—Matt—that's not fair."
Matt's smirk grew a bit wider as Mello grabbed a fistful of his striped shirt. "Here." He took hold of the blonde's anxious hands and guided them down to his belt.
Mello fingered the leather belt before unlatching the buckle. When did it become so hard to think? Above him, the gamer pulled off his shirt and threw it to the side, where it landed in a pile on the floor. As Matt, now rid of his shirt, once again took him into a deep, passionate kiss, Mello found it harder to steady his hands to unbutton the red head's pants and pull the zipper down. Once he had accomplished his task, Matt kicked his boots and his jeans off the rest of the way, forcing them too to land on the floor, and then took hold of Mello's left hand and guided it down to the noticeable lump forming in his checkered boxers. Mello could hear Matt make a guttural sound as he began to massage the gamer's erection.
"Mello--" He groaned, pushing into the blonde's hand as he worked him.
But Mello could still feel his own burning problem and wanted to get the relief he so desired. Reluctantly letting go of Matt, Mello wrapped both his arms around the gamer and ghosted his lips over his, panting heavily.
"Matt—I want…I want you inside me."
The gamer gave the blonde a sincere look and pressed his lips against Mello's softly. His heart was beating so rapidly, he thought it might tear out of his chest. As gently as he could, he unwound Mello's arms from his neck and pushed them back onto the pillow beside the blonde's head, entwining their fingers.
"It might hurt." He whispered, releasing Mello's right hand to wipe a strand of damp hair from the blonde's face.
Mello smiled up at him. "I don't care and you said you wouldn't either."
This made the gamer nod in agreement. "I was just forewarning you. Here." He held three fingers to Mello's lips, which Mello took gratefully into his mouth. The salty taste was so delicious to the blonde as he ran his tongue over every digit and sucked until they were coated with his saliva and Matt pulled them out. The gamer then began kissing the blonde's face and humming short tunes as he grabbed hold of Mello's legs and pulled them up to his shoulders. It wasn't long before he felt one of the red head's fingers enter him. Mello gasped and tensed; his panting escalating.
"Shh—just relax." Matt cooed gently, pressing his forehead to Mello's. "Relax."
After a few seconds Mello complied and relaxed; allowing the gamer to insert a second finger.
"Nn—Matt--" The blonde squirmed, trying to get used to the uncomfortable feeling. Matt pulled him into a loving kiss, slipping his tongue into the blonde's mouth to distract him as he began to move his fingers to stretch out the blonde. Mello arched his back; his throaty moan muffled due to Matt kissing him.
"One more." Matt managed to pant as he inserted the third and final finger into Mello and began stretching him further. Mello's breath hitched and he felt like his heart was about to burst under all the touching. It hurt like Hell, but he knew that he had to relax. After a few moments, Mello finally got used to the feeling and gave Matt a soft kiss to let him know that he was ready. The gamer pulled his fingers out of the blonde and removed the boxers that were restraining him. Once they were removed, Matt positioned himself at Mello's entrance, kissing him fiercely as he pushed inside of him. Mello moaned loudly and arched his back as Matt filled him.
"God, Mello." Matt grunted through clenched teeth. "You're so tense. Relax. It's not like you haven't done this before."
"I'm—trying--" Mello gritted, trying desperately to ease his breathing. "Gods! I'm surprised you even—fit."
The gamer laughed. Even when the blonde was having sex with his childhood best friend, Mello was still Mello.
"You're such a prick."
Mello smirked, relaxing a bit as the pain subsided. "Yeah, I know."
Without warning, the gamer began to move; slowly at first, but soon picking up speed, pulling out and thrusting back into his blonde lover as if it were the only thing keeping him alive. Beneath him, tears were streaming out of the corners of Mello's eyes as Matt claimed him. The pleasure was almost unbearable as the gamer continued to strike his prostate again and again, throwing the blonde into a swirling, heated bliss.
"Nn-Ah-! Matt—I'm--"
Matt took hold of the blonde's neglected member and began pumping it in rhythm with his thrusts. He loved the sounds his Mello was making beneath him as the gamer dominated him. He had never thought that the blonde was even capable of making such beautiful noises. Even his face seemed the most amazing thing he had ever seen as they melded together.
"Come on Mel." The gamer huskily persuaded the lustful blonde. "Come for me."
Unable to control himself any further, Mello obeyed, releasing himself into Matt's hand while yelling the gamer's name in the process. Matt wasn't too far behind, thrusting into the blonde several more times before spilling his seed inside of him.
Finally submitting to his exhausted muscles, Matt collapsed onto his blonde lover. Mello couldn't help the sleepy smile that graced him features as he looked down at the red-head and began gently stroking his hair.
The gamer sighed blissfully before catching the blonde's gaze. "You do know what this means, don't you." He stated, reaching up and pushing a stray strand of blonde hair away from Mello's face. Mello raised an eyebrow quizzically.
"Oh, yeah? And what's that?"
Matt grinned; placing a soft kiss on the blonde's bruised lips. "It means—that no one else can have you. I'm the only one who's allowed to touch you like this."
A small laugh escaped the blonde's lips at hearing this. Usually, he would have told whoever said such a thing to piss off and go fuck himself; that he belonged to no one. But for some reason, when Matt lay there, looking at him the way he did, Mello couldn't find a snide remark to reply with. In all honesty, he liked the idea of staying with the gamer.
"Alright with me." Mello finally replied in mock disappointment. "I guess I can give up all those hot, rich guys and stay with you."
Noting the sarcasm in the blonde's voice, Matt flashed him a toothy grin and pulled out of him, earning a disapproved moan from Mello. As he lay beside him, he pulled Mello into his arms and kissed his forehead.
"I love you, Mihael."
Hearing his real name made the blonde stiffen. Matt had no problem picking up on his sudden discomfort.
"You alright Mel?" He asked, catching the look of unease in Mello's eyes. "What'd I say?"
But Mello shook his head. "It's nothing Matt." He explained. "It's just…he called me by my real name. It makes me hate it even more."
A sigh of relief escaped the gamer as he listened to his lover's story. "Oh. Is that all? Geez!" He laughed. "I thought that those three little words were my downfall."
Mello closed his eyes and cuddled closer to Matt, breathing in the proverbial scent of cinnamon. "I'm sorry. I love you, Matt. More than anything."
"I'm sorry too." Matt reassured him. "I won't call you by your real name unless you tell me to."
He heard Mello mumble a thank you before finally falling asleep. Matt watched the blonde in his arms for a while longer before succumbing to his own exhaustion.
"I love you Mel. You don't have to worry anymore. I won't let anyone hurt you. I promise."
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o.o I actually did it. X3
