To Stephanie Meyer,
I love you my goddess of creation for your inspiration in giving me Carlisle to use in my own twisted way. I beg of you to just lone him out to me on the weekends. I will sign in blood that I will return him at least mostly whole after I have my wicked way with that tight ass of his, and have practiced bouncing quarters of his chest. All hail to the glory of his mighty mightiness.
My readers,
I have burned up all my reserves. Working now to get this chapter to you allowing me if I am lucky to get 4 hours of sleep in before work in the morning. I hate to say it but I worry I may soon have to push things back to a chapter every other day. I will do my best not to do that to you I promise. Each of you have been so loyal to this story, with your reviews, and words of inspiration which keeps me going. Every single one of you are helping this story come to life. If you didn't review and keep me going this story would be lost a mess of paper in a growing pile that never gets read. Thank you all. In this Chapter keep your reading eyes open, something strange is happening that begs for your reviews. Hope you love it!
My Beta,
You are the axis that I revolve around. Without you this story would be a horrid jumble of misspelled words, and unreadable nonsense. I bow down at your feet to worship the glory that is xTeamJacobx.
Hidden Desire
Chapter 9
CPOV:
My thoughts stopped at the knock on the door. Jacob walked in, his face a mix of emotions, his smell stronger in the tight space of the bedroom.
"We tried everything to wake her," he explained. " But nothing worked. I was so angry, I was yelling at her, trying to get her to react. I was ranting, threatening to leave. That's when I noticed something. When I had started threatening your life. promising to tear your body apart... that's when she came back. She sat upright and screamed one word... your name."
My eyes filled instantly with unshed venom tears at the thought of not being here when she had called out for me, when she had needed me. "How did she get sick? I read her chart, but it only says it started with a fever."
Jacob snorted loudly before yelling at me. "Typical fucking vampire, you all just left not ever considering the outcomes from your actions. What the fuck did you think would happen when she is left alone in the rain in the dark and in the forest?"
"What the hell are you talking about?" I roared at him placing myself between his shaking form and Bella's frail body.
"We found her laying on the wet ground cold, alone and shattered. Sam smelled the stink of vampire everywhere. Which one of you was it huh? Let me guess it was good ole Fuckward huh? Sam carried Bella home as fast as he could. It should have never happened. You fuckers need to wake her up. Then you all need to back the fuck out of her life for good. Anything could have happened that night, even worse than this she could have died."
I watched the boy, his frame seeming to emit a humming noise as he shook harder with his rage. I understood it, his anger mirrored my own. It seemed to be a living thing in the room with us. "I will handle Edward have no doubt about that. But right now you need to leave before someone gets hurt."
"Ha! Are you threatening me old man? Want to see if you can take me?"
I was prepared to haul his ass out if necessary. The boy was upset, and new to being a wolf so he wasn't in control of his nature. If he phased this close to her... No I won't let anything hurt her anymore, she has been through enough.
"You have no right to tell me to leave you blood sucking bastard, you weren't here with her while she suffered. You didn't hold her hand in the hospital. Where were you when she was all alone?"
His words hurt, stinging as they were meant to, the truth always did. "I am here now, and I wont be leaving. I understand you care about her but she is mine, and you are a threat in your current condition, one that I will take out if I have to. I know that Bella cares about you boy, and I don't want to have to hurt you."
"What the hell do you mean she's yours?" He looked confused by this statement, offended by how possessive it made me sound of the girl that I had abandoned. More than anything, it made him look angry.
"Now is not the time Jacob. Now leave or I will be forced to remove you," I threatened.
"Just try it, go ahead," he said, raising his chin in defiance.I moved to wrap my hands around the front of his shirt push him back through the door. I moved with enough speed that it took him off guard, but it didn't take long for him to catch up to the action and fight back. His hands gripped me and his eyes turned a bright yellow in the light.
"It's time someone taught you damn Cullen's that you aren't the only fucking scary things to go bump in the night," he spat, flecks of saliva flying against my face."Don't fight," a small, broken, delicate voice head snapped around, those roughly spoken words making time stand still. Nothing moved as the air seemed to drain from the room. I looked back at Jacob still in my grip and then before either of us so much as blinked Jacob was in the hallway.
"What the fuck was that." Jacob roared and charged again, only to come to a stop against a wall of nothingness.
"I need to talk to him alone Jake, please."
"Isabella?" I turned again, her eyes were closed and she lay still. Thinking I wassimply going insane and imagining her voice, I looked back to the boy as the door slammed to a close in his face. The pounding started immediately as he pummeled his fists against the wood, throwing his body into it as he tried to get back inside. He screamed at me to let him in. Only I hadn't closed the door. It was her. How had she?
"Jake please, I am fine go downstairs I have to talk to Carlisle first then I will see you."The pounding stopped as I turned again to see her eyes open, those brown depths pulling me in. I watched as one finger lifted and beckoned me I even thought about moving, I had sped towards her. One second I was here gazing down at her in shock, the next I was beside her, my lips crashing down, kissing her soundly.
BPOV:
I had listened long enough to the fighting. I had heard the threats, knew that my best friend was a werewolf. I remembered everything and now he wanted to hurt Carlisle. I couldn't let that happen. I used that fear to give me strength, allowing me to claw my way out of the darkness. As soon as I hit the surface the fog lifted, all my memories coming back with an incomprehensible force, the confusion finally a sense of peace at being in control of myself again, Isighed softly. I felt stronger in my mind, stronger in knowing that I was back. Another raised voice caught my attention. Ugh, my best friend and the man I wanted more than anything stood no more than 3 feet away ready to rip each other to shreds. Men...
"Don't fight."
The words hurt, my throat was raw as if someone had taken sand paper to it. I tried to swallow the pain away but there was no relief, the pain still lingered my mouth, too dry to allow me to swallow.
"Isabella."
I saw that Carlisle wanted to be alone with me, wanted Jake to give us some space to talk. Then Jacob was gone, the door closed firmly. I could hear Jake outside pounding, wanting back in but I needed time. "Jake please, I am fine go downstairs I have to talk to Carlisle first then I will see you."I forced my eyes to stay open, as I watched Carlisle standing looking at me. "Carlisle." His handsome face lit with happiness when I said his name. I tried to reach out to him, but I couldn't find the strength to lift my arm. I settled instead on lifting one finger to gesture him towards me. He was by me in an instant his lips devouring mine. Oh... This was worth every single second that I had spent in the dark. His lips tasted better than anything I could ever remember tasting. So handsome, so sexy and mine... All mine.
Smiling up at him when he pulled back I forced more words out, "Hello Beautiful."A smile from him, was all I had time to register before his lips found mine again. This time in a slower softer kiss, one that had my toes curling and my legs melting. I rejoiced in the kiss, mine... this man was mine. I couldn't stop the thought from playing over and over. Now that I had him back I would never let him go again. Finding the strength, I lifted my arms to wrap around his neck when he started to pull away. "Don't go!" I pleaded.
"Baby I am just going to grab you some water for your throat I promise I will be back before you can count to 10."I dropped my arms not sure if it was because of the raging thirst or the weakness that let him escape.
One.. Two…Three.. Four… Five…
I smiled when he was back at my side, a cup with a straw sticking out in his marble hand. Well he was fast... I had to give him that. Trying to lean up to take a sip, I soon figured out that wasn't an option. Ever observant Carlisle could see the same thing. He leaned towards me, holding the straw at an angle, allowing me to gulp down the cooling liquid. Mmm, had water always tasted this good? It soothed my sore throat and the coolness washed away the sand. I whimpered when the straw left my lips, causing Carlisle to chuckle.
"Not too much at once baby, your stomach can't handle it." He set the cup down on the night stand and moved as if to sit in the empty chair at my bedside.
"No, too far away." I whined. "Please just hold me, I need to be in your arms to prove you're really here."He lifted me without any effort, so strong he balanced me easily as he moved into the bed with me now cradled to his chest, his back against the headboard. His strong arms wrapped around me, holding me tightly as he ran his hand through my hair."Carlisle why did you leave?"
"What do you mean?""I just don't understand you kissed me earlier, and then kissed me again just now, and it seemed like you wanted to kiss me as much as I wanted you to. If that's true then why did you leave that night? Was it just the heat of the moment? I would have understood if you felt like it was a mistake, that you didn't want me in that way."
"Isabella I kissed you that night, just as I kissed you today because I wanted to. I have wanted you since I saw you that first day at the hospital. I want you now even more."
"I don't understand. If you want me then why did you leave me?"
I watched his eyes darken, the amber leaving and a pitch black taking hold. I laid my hand against his cool cheek and he leaned into it, kissing my palm before speaking."Let's just say that I was under the impression that you wanted us to leave, that you felt used by my kiss and confused. That you felt bad about hurting Edward and afraid of us. So I left, ashamed of myself for the way I had behaved. I wanted to give you the space I thought you needed."
"Carlisle, the only regret that I had about our kiss was the hurt it would cause Edward and Esme. And that I should have felt worse about kissing you but instead I was left wanting to do it again and again."
"Oh sweetheart you have nothing to feel bad about. Esme is not my mate, she never was. We are nothing but friends, we have never been more than that. As far as Edward is concerned, he knew all along that you were his singer and he still wanted you for his mate. Nothing we said would change his mind. I tried to let you see for yourself, I didn't want to take him from you if you could be happy with him. The problem is I got greedy I couldn't stop myself from tasting those lips at least once."
"Carlisle I have loved you from the first time I saw you, I just didn't understand it at first. Then when Edward and I started seeing each other I thought I was just attracted to your vampire beauty. I fought against it for so long. I won't fight it anymore. You are mine Carlisle Cullen, and I am not letting you get away again." I gripped his shirt holding myself to him.
"Bella, I am, have, and always will be yours. Never doubt my love for you. I will never be so foolish as to leave you again." His lips found mine again in a soft kiss that calmed my fears of losing we fell silent I couldn't hide the yawn that slipped from my lips. My eyes growing heavy, sleep calling to me again. "Carlisle I don't want to sleep, what if I won't be able to wake back up."
"Shhh, baby it's fine, I promise. Your coma won't come back and I will not leave your side. I will hold you while you rest and when you open your eyes I will be right here with you in my arms I promise."His arms tightened even closer around me as if to prove his words. Laying tight in his embrace, the comfort he gave me lulled me into the rest my body needed.
Ok all, now you have it our sexy Carlisle is back in action. Hmm what was that with Bella? Weird huh.. REVIEWS I NEED EM!
Love you like I love my coffee in the morning, I cant see in color without it. Tisa
