P/N:
hello! I got a great response for the last chapter and wrote this up
quick. Sorry about not sending out the sneak peek for the winners so
I'm updating this quick and another chapter sometime soon
this
week. So yea. Please read!
Disclaimer:
I don't own Naruto. Plain and simple.
Chapter
9
Maybe
Hinata woke up the next morning with a searing headache and when she
tried to open her eyes, the little light that got into her room
burned. She tried to sit up but something was keeping her down.
Instead of investigating she shut her eyes and tried to remember what
had happened yesterday. She remembered going to McDonald's to see
Sasuke and he told her a scary story...then nothing, only swirls of
color and the feeling of being very happy. Sasuke's god-like face
swam in and out of her vision at different intervals; she remembered
gun shots and something that tasted like cotton candy. She then
remembered walking along the beach but not why, all she knew was that
Sasuke was there. Then she remembered splashing in the water naked
with Sasuke. Oh she surely remembered everything that happened then.
He kissed her and she remembered it being the best feeling in the
world. Then they snuck back to her house and she passed out.
She opened her eyes again and the light didn't hurt as much this time she saw an arm draped over her stomach, and to her surprise one of her arms was on that arm and the other's hand was threaded through soft hair. Hinata turned her head slightly to the side to see Sasuke's head resting on the crevice between her neck and collar bone and she could feel one of his legs in between hers. Surprisingly she didn't feel uncomfortable at all. She the turned her head to the other side and saw the time. Seven 'o'clock. Hmmm. Wait. WHAT! Hinata panicked, missing one day of school was okay but if she missed two she was going to be really behind. Hinata put a hand on Sasuke's shoulder and gently shook him awake. He glared up at her with weary eyes. He shut his eyes again for a long moment before opening them again. Sasuke then sat up and rubbed his eyes and face, god damn he was tired. He felt like he'd been run over by a truck. Hinata wasn't much better though, her whole body hurt because of Sasuke slapping her into the water. They both had enormous headaches and it hurt Hinata just to sit up. Sasuke looked at her and felt extremely sorry, it was going to be extremely hard for her since that was her first time taking drugs. Sasuke brought her up into his lap and began to massage her shoulders; it should take some of the tension away. Hinata didn't know what he was doing at first but she relaxed into it and laid her head back on his shoulder. Her whole body felt like jello. He pushed the straps of her shirt down he had better access and Hinata closed her eyes at the feel of his warm hands on her skin. Hinata's head lolled back to rest on Sasuke's shoulder. Sasuke bent his head down and kissed the mark he had made on her neck last night Her hands found their way to Sasuke's knees and she squeezed them lightly when he gently nibbled at her neck. Hinata had never felt anything like this before, it was even better than being high. Hinata closed her eyes and just concentrated on the feel of his hands on her body, hands that had stopped massaging her shoulder and were now rubbing her belly and making a slow trek upward. Then Sasuke's phone rang. Sasuke reluctantly pulled his phone out of his pocket and pressed talk.
"Sasuke where the hells are you!" a voice hissed through the phone and Hinata blushed, it was Naruto, the sound of his voice racked tremors through her body.
"I'm busy." Sasuke said nonchalantly.
"Well you need to get here quick. Tsunade's looking for your ass since you've missed so much school. She's probably going to call Itachi." Naruto informed and then a loud crash was heard over the phone.
"Shit! I almost got caught. Hurry!" The line ended and Sasuke sighed as he got up off of the bed.
"N-N-Neji has some clothes. If, if you want..." Hinata trailed off and Sasuke nodded.
She pointed him in the right direction and then got dressed for school as well. They both got done in record timing and were out the door and headed for school in thirty minutes flat. Hinata fiddled with the edge of her sweater sleeve as they drove to school in Sasuke's car. The drive was silent but there wasn't really isn't anything they could say. Did the tender kisses and touches mean nothing since they were high? And what about this morning Sasuke pulled into the school and parked in the back he then turned to Hinata and motioned for her to get out with him. Sasuke paid no attention to the fact that they were super late, he just walked right in with Hinata scurrying after him. When he opened the door to the classroom everyone looked at him. The girls ran up to him and hugged him, saying that they missed him and were worried about him. Guys clapped him on the back and asked him for the real reason why the he had been out and all the while Hinata was pushed into the background. She ran her fingers through her hair and pushed a few locks behind her ear. Of course Sasuke would forget about her. She was nothing special, nothing at all. She found her seat, sat down, and got out her books. She began to steadily work on the assignments on the board. Sasuke glanced at her from over the heads of the people around him and frowned. Hinata probably felt that he'd forgotten her but he hadn't. Now he felt bad, and he didn't know why. He shouldn't feel bad about this...not over some girl. But Hinata was different and the memory of her face in the moon light kept playing in his head. She was so beautiful, even now. He didn't want to take his eyes off of her. He was surprised when Naruto went straight to Hinata and it looked like Hinata was afraid to see him.
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"Hey Hinata. Long time no see." Naruto said and Hinata looked up, shocked to see him.
She had completely forgotten about him while she'd been with Sasuke. When she was with Sasuke all the hurt went away and she forgot about everything...but now it was all rushing back and seeing Naruto made her feel like a hole was being ripped into her heart.
"I haven't heard from you in a while." Naruto said and Hinata stared at her desk.
Naruto took her chin in his hand and brought her face up to look him in the eyes. Those cerulean eyes that she would dream about and get lost in. He caressed her cheek and then kissed her full on the lips. Hinata just stared forward and didn't move. The kiss wasn't what it used to be and none of the others felt like the ones she'd shared with Sasuke...why was she even thinking like this! Naruto broke away and then ruffled her hair. Out of the corner of her eye she saw Sasuke walking towards them, Hinata hoped he didn't see her and Naruto kiss.
"Hey! Sasuke!" Naruto said and playfully punched him in the shoulder. "Glad you made it."
Sasuke just nodded and then Naruto launched into some elaborate story about something or another that had happened to him. The whole time Sasuke completely ignored her. She didn't want to be ignored but she should be used to it. Sakura Haruno came up behind Sasuke and she wrapped her arms around his waist, he didn't pull away. Hinata couldn't take it any more. She got up and left the classroom and didn't ask the lazy teacher for a pass. She just ran. She ran past thousands of doors and water fountains, everything just blurred together but she didn't care. What had she done to deserve this treatment? Was it because her father didn't love or was she just unlovable? Her vision began to go blurry but she didn't stop running until her waist was caught by one of the outdoor picnic tables. The tears ran down her cheeks and she let out a choked cry. She knew that Naruto didn't mean a word that he said, he'd cheated on her and he would probably had done it many times before. And Sasuke. God she didn't know anything about him! And yet she'd let herself get high with him and let him see her naked. She was such a fool. Hinata's fingers gripped the table top like it was her last thread to reality as she slumped down to the floor. How many times had she promised herself that she wouldn't cry anymore! Why! Why was she still crying?!
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"Hinata
darling. I made your favorite!"
A
woman spoke softly to a rag doll with short black hair and white
buttons for eyes. The woman had long inky black hair that spilled
over the mattress and kissed the bed frame even though she was
sitting up. Her skin was deathly pale and there were white bandages
around her eyes. A thin cotton gown hung limply to her slight frame,
a ghost of what once was. Her smile was sweet and her words sweeter
but there was something not right about her. A small girl sat at the
woman's bedside in her Sunday best. A nice baby blue sundress and
white sandals with flowers on them. She had white and stained blue
daisies in her small hands that she'd picked up earlier.
"But
mamma I'm not hungry." The small girl said but the woman only
smiled at the doll in her lap and fingered the coarse hair.
"Now
don't argue with your mamma. You know I love you." She smiled
eerily at the doll and the little girl beside her stamped her
foot.
"I'm not a doll!
Mamma!" she pleaded. "Look I brought you flowers! Your
favorite."
The
woman didn't hear a word the girl said. She just smiled at the
doll.
"Please don't
ignore me mamma!" she cried and tried to reach out to her mother
but the woman slapped her hand away.
"Stay
away from my baby!" the woman hissed at her and held the doll
close to her body.
The
little girl cried like most kids would and vainly tried to wipe her
tears away.
"Shhhh. It's okay Hinata.
You're mamma is here and she loves you." The woman smiled at the
doll and fingered the doll's hair. "Now eat your supper its
getting cold."
Hinata awoke in the same position as before. Sasuke hadn't come this time. No one was ever going to come. Maybe if she'd died all those years ago...maybe her life would've been better. Maybe.
Dear
Diary,
Please don't ignore me.
P/N:
whew! That's a lot! I didn't even know I had that much in me. I was
inspired by a nightmare I had last night. I don't usually get
nightmares but I blame it on watching that Coraline movie. Well
please review and tell me what you think. There will be more insight
on Hinata later. Bye!
