I was a bit shocked by that. My father was a congressional candidate that just happened to be coming to our school. What were the odds of that? I then realized just what she had said before that.
"Wait, you slept with my dad?" I asked in horror. I was extremely grossed out.
"He was helping me take care of you and gradually we began to fall for each other." Mom explained. "It didn't last long because I didn't want anyone to find out about it."
"So if Noah is my father then who is my mother?" I asked her. She was silent.
"I don't want to talk about that right now." She declared. "You should probably go to bed."
So I know that she definitely knew who my mother was. I always thought that I was just a baby put in some sort of adoption program or something. Maybe I could talk to him to see if he would tell me anything.
I guess right now it would be best for me to go to bed. Now I had two things that I needed to think about. I had to figure out how I could keep up my two relationships and also how I was gonna figure out who my mother was. I changed into my nightgown and got into bed.
In the morning, I woke up and went to pick up Jordan. I had noticed that she appeared to be gaining weight. Her purple didn't seem to fit the way that it used to anymore.
"You're going to need some new clothes soon." I told her.
"I know but I haven't even told my mom yet." She explained. "I don't know how I'm gonna tell her. I can't believe that Lexi made me quit the cheerleading squad. I thought she was my friend."
"Well she does have a point." I told her. "You can't cheer if you're pregnant."
"But she didn't have to cut me off like that." She pointed out. "Just because I can't cheer anymore doesn't mean that we can't be friends. Can we change the subject?"
"I found out who my father is." I explained.
"Who is he?" She asked me curiously.
"Noah Puckerman. He's running for Congress." I explained as we pulled into the parking lot. "Even weirder, he's supposed to be stopping by the school to campaign today. I don't know if I should talk to him."
"I think it would be great if you talked to him." Jordan stated. "So how are your other issues going?"
"I don't know how I'm going to continue to be able to date both of them." I responded. "I really like Marissa. She makes me feel so good."
"I didn't need that information." Jordan replied as we walked into school.
"I didn't mean like that." I stated as I rolled my eyes.
"Well don't you think that this is kind of unfair to Edmund?" She asked me. "I mean he wants to be with you and you're not being honest with him."
"I need some more time to figure this out." I said before we walked into the choir room. I noticed that Kayleigh seemed to be there with Whiskey. She was singing to him.
Sneaking out, pick me up on a Friday night
We don't know where to go but we'll be alright
You're here, you're mine, your foot on drive, nothing could kill this vibe
Breaking in through the fence to the old arcade
Favorite game always the same play the night away
You're here, you're mine, you're by my side till we run outta time
Doesn't matter where we go we could run away as long as we're together it's okay
But I'm still awake and baby nothing's changing
Everybody says we're so messed up
But nobody knows I'm so in love with you and all you do
All the matter really matters that when we are together my heart's on fire
Breathing in the wind, you take me higher
And I'm never coming down
I really hope you stick around
Every night lie awake, you're stuck on my mind
I really hope that you think about me all the time
I never want to let you go, no
Everybody says we're so messed up
But nobody knows I'm so in love with you and all you do
All the matter really matters that when we are together my heart's on fire
Breathing in the wind, you take me higher
And I'm never coming down
I really hope you stick around
I really hope you stick around
The two of them kissed before more people began to file in. Mom came in not that long after that.
"Okay, so before I announced this week's theme. I want to say that there will be a surprise guest at this afternoon's rehearsal, so don't miss it." She told us. "Now this week is our last week before Sectionals. I'll have the set list up on Friday. This week's theme will be Rock."
That was a pretty broad theme. I'm sure that I could find something to put my current emotions into. I would have to figure out what those emotions are first, though.
During school that day, we had an assembly. I guess since this is where he went to high school, this is where Noah decided to do this, but it might make sense to be around voters. Maybe it had to do with the fact that he seemed to be pretty chummy with Principal Anderson.
He basically gave this speech about how he was a big supporter of the arts because the arts helped him when he was in high school. I wonder how many of these people knew that he knocked up an undetermined girl. I don't think I can fault him for giving me away. Raising a baby in high school probably isn't as hard as they say, but it still makes it a lot harder to have a social life and it could have been my mom's decision.
I was surprised however when he showed up in our Glee club rehearsal.
"What's Mr. Politician doing here?" Jaque asked.
"I'm here because I was in Glee Club when I was your age." He explained. "I was hoping that I could talk to you guys, because I dealt with my share of problems too."
"What qualifies you to be here?" Lexi questioned. "Can you sing?"
He smiled and took the floor.
You call to me and I fall at your feet
How could anyone ask for more
And our time apart like knives in my heart
How could anyone ask for more
But there's a pill God knows I haven't found it yet
I'm dying to, God I'm trying to
Trying not to love you only goes so far
Trying not to need you is tearing me apart
Can't see the silver lining down here on the floor
I just keep on trying I don't know what for
Cause trying not to love you only makes me love you more
So I sit here divided just talking to myself
Was it something that I did was there somebody else
And a voice from behind me is fighting back tears
Sat right down beside me whispered right in my ear
Said I've been dying to tell you
"Trying not to love you only went so far
Trying not to need is tearing apart
Now I see the silver lining and what we're fighting for
And if we just keep on trying, we could be much more
Cause trying not to love you, yeah trying not to love you
Only makes me love you more, only makes me love you more"
So my dad was a good singer. That was an interesting piece of information. I couldn't help but wonder if my mom sang to.
"Excuse me, I hate to interrupt, but are you related to Jake Puckerman by any chance?" Thomas asked.
"He's my younger half-brother." Noah answered. "I take it you're a fan of his music."
"Yes." Thomas declared with a blush.
"Then how about you sing his biggest hit?" Noah suggested as Thomas took the floor. "You know he started out in Glee too."
It's been a while since I saw your face maybe it's helped me move on
But I met a girl not a day too late and of her I'm awfully fond
And I hope my remedies don't go as I try to try to let you go
Cause it's awkward oh so hard to see the similarities
She's got your hair and she's got your eyes
She's got exact same horoscope sign
She may be pretty, she's something new
But that means nothing she aint you
She's got your hair and she's got your eyes
She's got your 90s sweatshirt style
She may be pretty she's something new
But that means nothing
She's got your hair and she's got your eyes
She's got exact same horoscope sign
She may be pretty, she's something new
But that means nothing she aint you
She aint you, she aint you
We all clapped as he finished that. That was an awesome song that he wrote about her divorce from Marley Rose. It was too bad he was never able to follow it up with a second hit.
After rehearsal was done, Mom signaled for me to stay behind.
"Noah, this is Beth, you're daughter." Mom introduced.
"It's nice to see you all grown up." He said to me I awkwardly gave him a hug. "The last time was just after Finn had died. You were almost 3."
"Why didn't you want to stay in my life?" I asked him.
"I needed to find myself." Noah answered. "I was confused because my best friend had just died and then I joined the Air Force."
"Who is my mother?" I questioned.
"I can't tell you that right now." He declared. I'm guessing Mom told him not to. I sighed. "It doesn't matter who your biological mom is. Shelby is your mother."
"I just want to meet her." I explained. "I love you Mom, but I really want to know more about my biological parents."
"Well, I can tell you whatever you want to know about me." He offered. "Do you want to get dinner by any chance?"
"Sure." I answered.
So that night, the three of us went to Koehler's. I noticed Kayleigh was at the counter once again, so I decided to talk to her while I had Mom order me a milk.
"Hey." I greeted her. "So you're dating Whiskey."
"Yeah, even though I feel like he's getting too close. I haven't been in many relationships." She answered.
"Well part of being in a relationship is getting to know someone." I pointed out.
"Well I'm not someone who really likes to open up to people." She declared. That made it kind of interesting that she was telling me. "You'd better go to your table. Your mom's probably waiting."
I headed to the table, disappointed that she didn't want to talk to me. He told me quite a few things about how he wasn't a very good guy in high school. He did a lot of stupid things and dated a lot of girls, including my sister briefly.
I decided to meet up with Marissa after dinner. I still didn't know how to talk about bisexuality to my mom. I don't think she would have a problem with it, but I still didn't know what to say about it.
"So is there anything that you wanted to tell me about yourself?" I asked her.
"How about you tell me something first?" She responded.
"I met my dad today." I told her. "Noah Puckerman is my dad. I guess I should be proud that he could go to congress. I still want to know who my mom is though."
"Well maybe there's a reason they don't want you to know, like she's in prison or something?" She opined.
"I still want you to tell me something." I stated.
"Okay, this isn't easy for me to say." Marissa declared before she took a deep breath. "I came out at my old school. At first everything went well, but then I was at a party and this guy got me drunk and he…"
"He what?" I asked, afraid of what she was going to say next.
"He raped me." She explained with tears in her eyes. "There wasn't any evidence and I didn't think that anyone would believe me. I haven't told anyone about this."
When the days are cold and the cards all fold
And the saints we see are all made of gold
When your dreams all fail and the ones we hail
Are the worst of all and the blood's run stale
I wanna hide the truth, I wanna shelter you
But with the beast inside, there's nowhere we can hide
No matter what we breed, we are made of greed
This is my kingdom come, this is my kingdom come
When you feel my ear, look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide, it's where my demons hide
Don't get too close, it's dark inside
It's where my demons hide, it's where my demons hide
They say it's what you make, I say it's up to fate
It's woven in my soul, I need to let you go
Your eyes they shine so bright, I wanna save that light
I can't escape this now, unless you show me how
When you feel my ear, look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide, it's where my demons hide
Don't get too close, it's dark inside
It's where my demons hide, it's where my demons hide
I hugged her tightly and gave her a kiss. I knew that couldn't have been easy for her to tell me and I was glad that she did.
"I don't even know his name." She added.
"Well it's not going to happen again." I promised.
The next day after school, I went to find Jordan and noticed that she was talking to Edmund about something.
"What was that about?" I asked once she was done.
"I was just telling him that he should ask you to the winter formal." She declared. "Are you sure that you want to do this. I can tell her on my own."
"Yes, I'm your friend and I'll help you with this." I stated.
We went to Jordan's house and as she said, her mom was home. Her mom was a woman of about average height with long brown hair.
"Mom, I need to tell you something." She said slowly. "I can probably just show even."
Jordan lifted her and her mother saw her baby bump.
"I'm pregnant." She added. Her mother just walked over and hugged her.
The next day, we went to Glee Club and I couldn't help but overhear Kayleigh telling Whiskey to stay away from her. I didn't know what was going on there. I prepared to sing my song. I knew I needed to break up with Edmund soon, but I couldn't yet.
I'm not strong enough to stay away, can't run from you I just run back to you
Like a moth I'm drawn into your flame, say my name but it's not the same
You look in my eyes, I'm stripped of my pride
My soul surrenders and you bring my heart to its knees
And it's killing me when you're away and I wanna leave and I wanna stay
I'm so confused so hard to choose between the pleasure and the pain
And I know it's wrong and I know it's right And even if I try to win the fight,
My heart would overrule my mind and I'm not strong enough to stay away
There's nothing I can do, my heart is chained to you
And I can't get free, look what this love does to me
And it's killing me when you're away and I wanna leave and I wanna stay
I'm so confused so hard to choose between the pleasure and the pain
And I know it's wrong and I know it's right And even if I try to win the fight,
My heart would overrule my mind and I'm not strong enough to stay away
Not strong enough, strong enough, not strong enough, strong enough to stay away
Not strong enough, strong enough I'm not strong enough to stay away
As we were leaving school, I noticed a cop car out front…and then I noticed Kayleigh was inside of it.
So Kayleigh is in trouble, what will this mean of the Glee Club's chances at Sectionals? Also we learn a bit about Marissa's past and Jordan told her mom she's pregnant. The songs in this chapter are "Stick Around" by Watercolor, "Trying Not to Love You" by Nickelback, "She Aint You" by New Hollow, "Demons" by Imagine Dragons, and "Not Strong Enough" by Apocalyptica and Brent Smith. Please don't forget to review.
