Okay you guys I know it's been a loooong time. That is why I wrote much more this time!
Just incase you guys may feel lost here is a recap: Jacob came back from date with Patty. (Business related date). Nessie got jealous. Went home to find shelter. Edward is pissed again. Jake is clueless. (but still hot ;)
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Chapter 9
Jacob's P.O.V
I hung up the phone feeling more confused then ever. Apparently Nessie was upset. And the worse part is that she was upset with me. I started to think of all the reasons why she would be upset but I was coming up with nothing. The only thing I could imagine was the fact that I had almost kissed her. And even though that may have been out of line I don't see why that would make her hurt. My chest tightened at the thought of her in tears making me come to a conclusion.
That's when I knew that I simply had to go see her. I had to face this all in the face. Glancing at the clock next to my bed I saw that it was getting closer to midnight now. I jumped out of bed shoving the covers away and quickly began to find a pair of and shorts and shoes to put in the bag I would carry with my wolf mouth. I figured I should just walk out my house in my boxers. No one would see anyway.
I quietly opened my door hoping to not wake up a possible slumbering Patty. It was completely dark but because of my wolf characteristics I could see exactly where the stairs were at the end of the hall way. I started to tip toe my way over to the end of the hall but as soon as I came by Patty's door, it opened.
Crap
"Well, Jacob. It took you long enough to come find me." She said in a mere seductive whisper.
I came to a sudden halt and before I could exhale she was pulling on my wrist, bringing her body closer to mine. I couldn't move but she definitely could. And the way she licked her lips told me she could move in a lot of ways. Trying to stop this before it got farther, I was about to push her away when I felt her chest collide with mine. I felt two mounds of cool and creamy skin against my warm toned chest.
She was naked.
I felt the spark immediately and my blood instantly started to pool in my southern area. The air seemed to thicken.
Her lips were kissing on my neck over and over again, making there way down on my chest. The bag I had been holding feel to the floor with a thud as she licked over a nipple. She began to moan as she rubbed circles with her hands on my back muscles that coiled at her touch. It had been a long time since I have--
"Let me help you with this tension you have. I could relieve you in more then one way" she said against my chest.
I let out a silent groan and my hands on there own automatically wrapped around her curvy hips. As soon as I touched her my chest throbbed once, and it took my breath away. It felt like I heart attack was brewing in my chest. The pain was gone as soon as it came but it was enough to snap me out of the hazy feeling I had been in. They were too circular. Her hips were too wide. Her butt was way too big. It was nothing to what I imagined when I imagined having sex again.
She stopped kissing my chest and pressed her nipples against me once again as she started to kiss my jaw. For the fun of it I moved my jaw to get closer to her lips, though I was not intending to kiss her.
As soon as her lips got closer to mine another searing pain struck at my chest. For once second I couldn't breathe and I found myself about to bring my hand up to my chest.
I let go of her waist and I took one very small step away from her. And instantly the pain was gone.
I didn't have to think about what was going on and why I felt that pain. I had an imprint that was old enough for me to love. I was made for her and she was made for me. The imprint pull wouldn't let me physically pleasure other women. It was always suppose to be her.
The problem was that I still wasn't use to the image of actually having Neisse that way to myself. I couldn't exactly see her as my mate. I had never kissed her or held her in a romantic way. Everything between me and her had been friendship and playmate wise.
I had played horsy with her for god sake. I had fed her when she was a baby.
It wasn't easy to imagine having sex with someone you took care of as a baby. But as a man with an erection it wasn't that hard either.
She had grown up to a beautiful young lady. Curves in all the right places. Bronze curly hair that always smelled like vanilla and coconuts. And her skin. Well her skin was pale white. Always the perfect compliment to my dark skin. Yes, she was made for me. There was no denying.
I was supposed to be protecting her. I was supposed to be keeping her away from pain. And yet I have some how hurt her. And like an idiot here I am letting another women put her hands on me.
"What's wrong?" Patty asked reaching out for me but I immediately took a step back.
Suddenly all I could see was Renesmee's face inside my head.
"Nothing Patty. I mean…-sigh- look I really have to go do something. Just please..get some rest. Go to sleep. I'll see you in the morning."
And before she could respond I was already flying down the stairs heading out the front door desperately trying to get away from the situation. I was hurting for Ness and my erection was killing me for what I haven't had in so long.
The door slammed behind me and I began to head for the woods still only in my boxers. That's when it hit me.
Why didn't I just jump out the window???!!!
My paws were hitting the ground rapidly. My whole being was shaking with movement. I had to be near her.
'Well hello there Mr. VampireWhipped' said a voice that was way too feminine to be mine or my conscience'
'Hello there Mrs. IHaveNoOneToGoBackHomeTo' I replied feeling slightly amused with our sense of humor.
'Ha-ha. As much as I could mouth you back, you are terribly right' Leah said. And the fact that there was no trace of sadness or pain didn't go unnoticed.
'I know. So what are you doing out there?' I asked as I looked into her mind and saw her sitting by the rocks near the cliffs. I could feel the peace emanating from her and her surroundings. It caused my running through the woods to slow down as I began to inhale the night's breeze. Slowly the pain that had been consuming began to fade.
'Just felt like having a…midnight swim, I guess. It's a beautiful night' She said with a light voice that reminded me of the old Leah I use to know. The Leah that wore dresses and laughed so all the time that people couldn't help but join her.
'That Leah doesn't exist anymore, Jake' she said but there was once again no hint of sadness. I looked into her mind and I saw her looking up to the full moon. Her fur was dancing in the wind.
Leah had become softer over time since she was in my pack. Technically I am still alpha of our mini pack but every so often when we come across Sam's pack, Sam or I bows down and hands down the Alpha power so we can become one again. After maybe a run together or after all of our shenanigans are done we go pack to our packs like it is suppose to be.
It's that simple.
We are still all one pack. One pack physically and at heart. But when we come home, it's just me Me, my amazing beta Leah, Seth, Embry and Quil.
The isolation Leah has gotten from the separation of the pack is what Leah has needed all along. She has needed Sam to let her go so she could heal on her own. And even though we all know she still loves him with every bone in her body, she is learning to embrace him, and the new person Sam forced her to become…
I looked up to the sky and glanced at full moon myself. It was shining bright and illuminating the ground I ran on and the water Leah looked at miles away.
'Shouldn't we be howling or something' I asked her thinking of the Hollywood version of us wolves.
She didn't respond but we both just mentally laughed.
It was short lived since the pain my imprint was going through was radiating through me once again. It was almost as if I couldn't be happy if she wasn't.
I once again began to think of what I could have done. And once again, I came up short.
'How do you not see it, Jake I mean about Renesmee??' Leah's voice filled my head again
'How can I see anything!? I'm so confused!' I replied as I began to sprint again. I let go of all my thoughts and let her see everything that has been happening.
The pain in my chest grew more and more the closer I got.
'How about maybe considering that she may be attracted to you too and that she is just as scared as you are?' she replied with a matter-of-fact-tone that I imagine was suppose to make me feel stupid.
'Leah, it can be that. I don't think—'
'Don't be stupid Jacob. . . If you feel it now, don't be surprised if she does to. I think we all know that you can't fight an imprint' she said as her mind briefly showed a picture of Sam and Emily together. Surprisingly she didn't cringe at this. The picture made me think of Patty and the way she clinged to me when we were together.
'Oh yeah. Her too! I'm pretty sure you've killed her with jealousy by having Patty around like she's your mistress' she called out.
What?
Bewildered I looked into her mind but then saw her moving towards the water. Where was she going?
'Fix it Jake. You'll be surprised how much a girl can say when you take the time to talk to her. And by the looks of her in your mind, you'd have to be as dense as you to not see the signs.'
She just insulted me and made me feel better all in one statement.
'Wait-what?! What do-' she cut me off.
"Well I'm going for that swim now' She said cheerfully.
And before I could register anything she mumbled a good night and phased into her human form.
I saw the house before I was even out the woods. I could see that most lights were still on. The closer I got the more I could smell them.
Sure, I've spent half of my life around vampires. That doesn't mean that the horrendous smell always goes away. It's faded very much over time, but it still made my wet nose crinkle.
I was now standing in the back yard of the white mansion. Without hesitating I phased back into human form and dressed myself with the little clothes I brought. I could feel the tiny beads of sweat making its way down my neck as I struggled to get myself decent in seconds.
I looked up to where Nessie's two windows were. I sighed in relief when I saw them open with the lights on. I looked at the two trees next to the house and planned out my jump. Measuring the distance between the tree and the house I tried to imagine the momentum it would give me so I could land right inside Renesmee's room. Preparing for my leap I took a couple steps back and then jumped using all my calf muscles. Like a pro I jumped off the side of the house gracefully pushing myself far enough to grasp on to a thick tree branch. I spinned myself around letting go at the right time and before I knew it I landed in her room with a graceful and silent thud.
It was oddly silent and when I frantically looked around the room my eyes finally fell on her. She was wrapped around a blanket on her bed. Her curls were displayed out on her pillow and her eyes were closed.
Subconsciously my feet took me towards her. Before I knew it I was sitting on the edge of her bed. She was so close to me that I was intoxicated with her scent.
Leaning down closer to look at her peaceful face I could see the dried tears on her face. Guilt instantly pounded through me.
So this is my fault.
The planes of her face were perfectly aligned and she looked so beautiful unconscious. My heart swelled up at just being able to be near her. I needed to fix this. I needed to get her back. I just wonder how she'd act…
I was about to awake her from her slumber to talk to her when she started to mumble. Renesmee never ever talked into her sleep.
"Jacob" She whispered, sighing in her sleep.
Oh God, she was like her mother in this way too!
My heart soared at the one word I heard. A small smile played on my lips as my chest began to pound hard.
She was dreaming about me!
I couldn't help it and I knew it was wrong. I was about to violate her privacy by doing this. But I was in her room uninvited and this couldn't be any worse. I began to pick her hand up carefully within mine. Without waking her I pressed the palm of it onto my cheek. And just like I expected, her dreams began to fill my being.
Even though I had heard her whisper my name I didn't think she was actually dreaming of me.
For some reason I expected vibrant colors and a mixture of faces and simply a jumble of things.
Instead Renesmee was dreaming to the scene on the beach where we almost kissed. As I started to remember that day I couldn't believe it had been merely days ago since it happened. It felt more like months.
In the dream she was wrapped in my arms. Her heartbeat was beating frantically against my chest which was pressed against hers. Her lips were dying to touch mine and her fingers were trying to some how reach me.
In reality my common sense was gone. I couldn't breathe right and my heart now thundered in my chest.
Colors danced around us and butterflies roamed near us as our lips got closer. And then suddenly the colors began to fade and the picture became fuzzy. I pressed her hand closer to my cheek but it didn't stop this amazing movie from fading.
No! I want to see what happens! I want us to kiss!
I could still feel my arms around her. I could still feel the hunger to kiss those lips.
Letting go of her hand, I opened my eyes that I didn't realize had been closed and found myself leaning down in front of Nessie's face. Her eyes were wide open in surprise and I had no doubt that she was awake.
She was here and she was real. My chest was ready to explode at just the fact. I could feel a calm move within me.
I balanced myself by holding my upper body up by having one outstretched hand on either side of her head. She was now looking up at me, with rich red lips barely parted.
They called out to me…
Suddenly all problems began to fade and I found my forehead pressed to hers. Her presence sank into my skin.
Wait…this is Nessie. You can't just…kiss her…you can't…..
No matter how hard I tried I couldn't stop myself my lips reached her nose and I kissed the bridge of it. Looking down I saw those red lips again and my will was gone.
I found myself going moving down a little more reaching for her lips. It was tantalizing. It was so slow that time crawled within my body.
I felt heavy and light all at the same time.
My lips were now aligned with hers and for once I looked at her eyes. As soon as our eyes connected she gasped, loosing her breath.
I almost expected her to push me off of her in that moment, but before I let her do anything I bent down and brushed my lips with hers. She responded instantly.
For one second I felt softness and a fire light up inside me as if I were made out of gasoline. For one second waves crashed and angels sang. For one second, we kissed. But then the next second…the door flew open ripping us apart.
The kiss had died before it had the chance to live.
Practically jumping off of Nessie's bed I saw Edward standing in the door way looking more then vicious. His stare was burning holes into me like swiss cheese. Looking away I searched for Nessie. She was staring at me as if I were some unknown creature. As if she was a human witnessing a shape shifter for the first time.
I could tell she was debating whether to be mad at me or not.
I was about to beg for forgiveness when Edward broke loose.
"Did you just think you could sneak in through her window?! Did you forget the important fact that we are vampires? We can hear you! We can smell you! And you! You are not allowed around my daughter!' He said with the scariest voice I've ever heard.
Why is it that out of all times I chose to use the window now??!!!
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