RenesmeePOV

I felt like my mind was going to explode. I wasn't in pain, I just had so many thoughts going on at one time. There were so many things my mind was trying to sort out and process, I couldn't even focus on Jacob and I running through the forest to the cottage. I knew my feet were moving and that his hand was in mine. I guess that's why it's helpfull being half-vampire, I don't really need to focus on running and my mind can think of more than one thing at once.

I couldn't believe that the Volturi had sent Momma a birthday card. It was terrifying to even remember that they exist, most of them time we act like they don't. We still follow all of the rules of blending in, keeping up apperances and making sure no one knows what we truly are. We just like to pretend that they aren't out there and pissed off for our incident a few years ago. I know that they still wanted us to work for them and use our abilities for their own selfish quest for power. I wasn't sure what they wanted or meant to accomplish by sending her a card. I don't think anyone in the family knew but I also knew that they wouldn't rest until they found out.

I felt so bad when Momma went into shock. She just sat on the couch, like a statue and stared at the necklace they had given her. I started to cry because I couldn't stand to see her that way. Jacob and Daddy were trying to get her to talk or move, I could tell how afraid they were. Grandpa Carlisle was trying to figure out a way to snap her out of and Esme was crying silently. Momma hadn't said anything for atleast thirty minutes and I could feel the tension in the room. The guys from LaPush were pacing around the room while Daddy and Jacob were practically yelling at Momma to say something, anything. Finally I whispered to her to please, say something. In that second I was in her arms and she was running through the forest. I was so startled by the quick movement, I started to cry harder and begged her to put me down. I knew she wanted to leave, I felt like everyone did. No one wanted the Volturi to come here and disrupt the life we have here. I knew that if we left now, I would be leaving Jacob and I couldn't do that.

I knew she felt bad for sweeping me up and running off like that but what she doesn't realize is that everyone else was feeling the same way. Everyone in our family would go out of their way to protect me and keep me safe. It was one of the reasons I loved them all so much. I was young when the Volturi origionally came for me but I remember it well. I remember the days they spent training, the weeks spent finding all of the witness we could. I remember the pledges to stand by us, no matter what the outcome was. All of that effort and danger just to protect me, to keep me safe. I knew that if I lived a thousand years, I would never be able to properly thank everyone who stood with us that day. Especially when it came to Jacob, he's spent my entire life keeping me safe from harm - from the moment I was born. I wish I could find a way to thank him, and everyone, for everything they have done for me over the years.

I sighed and glanced over at Jacob. He looked amazing running by side with his fingers laced through mine. We both started to slow down in front of the cottage.

"Are you feeling alright Ness?" He looked down at me with a concerned expression and wrapped his arms around me.

"I'm okay Jake, I was just thinking while we were running, that's all." I responded and hugged him back tightly.

"That's okay, sweetheart. It was a pretty rough afternoon. Do you want to watch a movie or something? Relax a little?"

"That sounds amazing." I grinned up at him and we went into the house, to the living room. He was browsing through our large collection of movies while I decided to freshen up in the bathroom. I had just been wearing jeans and a t-shirt today but the jeans had gotten a little bit of mud on them so I changed into a different pair. They were the same coal-grey color the other pair had been and they set off the royal blue t-shirt I was wearing. I loved wearing skinny jeans because they made my legs look so much longer than normal. I decided to quickly braid my hair into a messy fish-tail side braid. As soon as I felt I looked decent, I wandered back into the living room.

Jacob was sprawled out on the couch with a bowl of popcorn and a couple cans of soda. I wasn't even remotely hungry after all the drama that had happened today but Jake is constantly hungry. I've seen him eat an entire extra-large pizza by himself with two cheeseburgers. His ability to eat amazed me but all of the wolves were like that. Grandpa Carlisle said it had to do with their wamer body temperature burning off the nurishments quicker so they got hungry faster. Also, the phaseing and excessive exercise also helped them burn off the food quicker. There wasn't anything to be done about it until they decided to to settle down. Emily mentioned to me that Sam didn't eat as much now that he had quit.

I snuggled up next to Jacob on the couch and he pressed play on the movie. I honestly stopped paying attention to it as soon as it was on. All I could concentrate on was the heat from his body warming mine. I could feel every single place his body touched mine - from the arm he had wrapped around my waist, to my back pressed against his chest, to our legs slightly pressing together. I could feel my heart speed up and I closed my eyes remembering last night.

I had spent the night as his house last night and being with him like that, casually eating dinner and watching movies, made me realize how passionately I loved him. Everyday I wake up thinking I love him and everyday I find new reasons and ways to love him. Our physical relationship was progressing but it was slow. I was so frusterated with him and I didn't understand why we were still waiting. I know that I don't have a lot of experience with these things but I know that I love him. I know that we're meant to be together and that nothing will ever change that.

I had accidently walked in on him, friday night, while he was changing. I had just gotten done showering and changing into my pajamas when I couldn't find my cellphone charger. I looked every where for it but when I still couldn't find it, I decided to go ask him. His shower had been off for awhile so I figured he was decent. Honestly, I didn't really think about the possibility of him being undressed when I opened the door. When I opened it though, it was clear I was wrong. He was standing by his dresser with only a towel wrapped loosely around his waist. I could tell my heart was racing and I was basically panting as my eyes raked over his body. His smooth, flat chest, down to the toned muscles of his stomach. His skin was a deep brown and was slightly damp from his shower. I watched a small bead of water run down his chest, to his stomach, to dissapear under the towel he had around his waist.

He had crossed the room to where I stood in a matter of seconds. Our had lips worked against eachother as our bodies were crushed together. I had though we were finally getting somewhere physically. He was practically naked and his bed was right there. I figured that this was the perfect moment but Jacob had stopped after a few minutes. I knew he wanted me though because I could feel his erection pressed against me. I let it go and ended up falling asleep on the couch. The next morning I woke up before Jake and I made him a bunch of waffles to try to make up for it. I keep feeling like I'm pressuring him even though I knew that was irrational. I knew he wanted me.

I smiled a little to myself at that thought and streched my body against his on the couch. He sighed contently and rubbed circles on my hip with his fingertips. I pushed my hips a little harder against his, purring just a tiny bit.

"Nessie... god, do you know what your doing to me right now?" He growled against my ear. He had access to that and the rest of neck due to my hair being tied on the other side. He quickly took advantage of it and began placing kisses along my neck. He nipped and sucked at the space directly behind my ear and I hummed contently.

"Mmm.. Jacob.." I whispered. His lips felt amazing on my skin. I felt as if they were burning my skin but in the most pleasurable way. I reached up to tangle my hands in his hair and he caught my hands in his, holding them up above my head. He pulled on them lightly, causing my body to turn onto my back. He rolled over on top of me, letting go of my hands.

"Renesmee..." His eyes were full of lust and love as he stared into mine. "I love you."

"I love you too, Jacob, with everything that I have."

He brought his lips down to mine and I felt like I was on fire. He tasted amazing and I couldn't get enough of it. I sucked lightly on his lower lip while he captured my top one. I moaned softly as his hands ran down my sides and stopped at my hips. He gripped them hard and I knew that if I could bruise, I would have bruises. I pulled away from his lips to get some air and attacked his neck with a series of kisses and nips. He laid his head on my shoulder and pulled my hips up against his. I could feel how hard he was and he was settled perfectly between my legs. He moved slowly against my hips and even through our jeans, I could feel him pressing against me. I gasped at the sensation and placed my feet on the back of his calves, holding him there.

His hands pulled on the hem of my shirt lightly and he lifted his head to ask me silently with his eyes. I nodded and he slowly lifted the shirt off my body and onto the floor. I watched his eyes wander all over my newly exposed skin. I was wearing a hott pink bra that lifted up my boobs slightly. I had a full c cup but the bra I had picked out this morning made them look even bigger. The color stood out from my skin and it was a soft silk material. Honestly, it was really gorgeous and I almost hated that I was going to take it off. Without asking him but never moving my eyes from his, I slipped the straps of my shoulders. He ran his hands up my stomach and across the tops of my breasts. He sucked in a lungfull of air before moving my hands back from my body. His hands slid across my breasts, over the material of the bra, squeezing lightly. I closed my eyes, reveling in the sensation of his hands on my body. He quickly undid the front clasp on the bra and pushed the cups to the side. I lifted my back off the couch slightly to remove the bra from under my back. In the process of lifting up, my breasts rubbed against his t-shirt clad chest and I could hear him groan softy.

"Ness... Nessie.. you are so beautiful." His voice was full of awe. I opened my eyes to find him staring down at me lovingly. I felt a blush creep onto my face as he gently cupped my face with both of his hands. He lowered his lips to mine and kissed me softly. I kissed him back as his hands moved from my face, to my shoulders and then finally, my bare breasts. He palmed both of them in his hand, squeezing and massaging softly at first and then harder. I moved my feet from the back of his calves, to either side of him, spreading my legs wider and allowing him to position himself perfectly between my legs. Thankfully the couch was huge and roomy enough for us to move around without being too cramped.

His lips left mine and kissed a path down my throat to the tops of my breasts. He ran his tongue over the tops of them and then dipped down to get between them. I tangled my hands in his hair and scraped my nails along his scalp. He looked up at me with the most intense look of lust I've ever seen. He kept eye contact with me while he lowered his lips to my left nipple. My back immedately arched into his mouth and I gasped from the sensation. He flicked it lightly with his tongue before enveloping it completely in his mouth and sucking. His right hand was still on my left breast, kneading and massaging. He slid his thumb and forefinger around that nipple and tugged on it softly before pinching. I tugged gently on his hair and let my hands trail down his back to the hem of his t-shirt. I pulled it up and over his head which allowed his bare chest to lay against mine.

His lips crushed mine with a passion that could have caused an earthquake. His chest rumbled against mine with a growl that was so low and fierce, the walls almost shook. I pressed my hands against his chest, pushing him back slightly. I ran my hands down the smooth muscles to his flat, toned stomach. I tugged at the button on his jeans and it popped off in my hand. I ran my hand between his legs lightly and found his long, hard erection. I rubbed it softly at first and then harder while his lips found the sesative spot between my shoulder and neck.

"Mmm.. Jacob. I want you... please?" I moved my hands to his hips and pulled him down against me.

'Oh, Nessie, I want you too.. so badly." He reached down a pulled my hair out of my braid, threading his fingers through it and pulling my face to his. He kissed me softly, softer than before but it was still full of passion and love.

"Mm, honey, I want this so badly, baby. We can't right now.. we have dinner.. your parents." He kissed me in between each word he spoke and I knew he was right. I sighed. I was so frusterated, I could feel myself throbbing between my legs. I need release so badly. I whimpered slightly as he ran his left hand from my hair down my side to my hip, pausing slightly to pinch my nipple.

"Mmmm, Jacob..." I whispered as he began kissing his way down my body, pausing to place light kisses on each of my breasts. His looked up at me when he got to the edge of my jeans. He raised an eyebrow and I nodded. Slowly, he undid my jeans, pulling them down and sitting them on the floor next to the couch. He traced along the waistband of my matching lace thong and I hummed contently. I wondered when my parents would be back but I could hear the movie still playing so it's probably only been an hour. I doubted they would be back too soon.

Jacob traced his fingers in between my legs, over the silk fabric that was wet from my excitement. He kissed his way around the waistband and ran his tongue lightly from hip to hip. I could feel the muscles in my legs and stomach tighten from anticipation. He raised his eys to mine and slowly pulled off my underware, never breaking eye contact with me. When he finally looked down, he growled lowly.

"God, Nessie, you are so beautiful." He slid his index finger between my wet folds and I gasped.

"I love you so much, Renesmee." He spread me apart with his fingers and stroked me lightly.

"Mmm.. I bet you taste as good as you smell..." He slowly lowered his mouth to my lower lips and ran his tongue between them.

I hissed at him and was mentally begging him to continue. It's possible I was actually speaking but I wasn't sure. I felt like my mind had turned to mush, all I could focus on was the sensations that Jacob was creating between my legs. I did know, however, that I was extremely glad my aunts had forced me to wax. His tongue continue making delicious paths through my lips, from my clit down to my opening. He raised his eyes back to mine and I felt my heart flutter. I never realized how sexy he would look with his head between my legs, pleasuring me. I moaned and my eyelids fluttered closed. He slid one finger inside me and I gasped.

"Ohmygod, Jacob. Ohmygod." I wasn't even coherent at this point.

"Mmm.. Nessie, let me hear you.." His voice was dripping seduction like I had never heard before. I thought that if he said my name like that one more time, I might come just from that.

He pushed another finger inside of me as his mouth worked its way to my clit. His tongue ran circles around it before taking it into his mouth and sucking. I reached down and put my hand in his hair, twisting my fingers through it and pulling on it softly. He hummed against my clit while simultaneously pumping his fingers inside of me. I could feel stomach tighten and my begin to shudder around him. He bit down on my clit and I was over the edge, crashing into my first orgasam.

"Jacob.. oh.. Jacob.. oh.. ohmygod..!"

He removed his fingers and moved up to kiss the top of my head.

"I'll be right back, sweetheart." I heard him go into the bathroom to wash up and I continued laying there, stunned. I had no idea how Jacob knew to do that to me but it was amazing. I streched my body out on the couch and yawned. I was so tired.

"Honey, Renesmee.. Baby.. wake up. Bella texted, they're on their way back." I heard Jacobs voice and I wanted so badly to tell him to shut up and please go the fuck away. I groaned in protest and he shook my shoulder.

"Do not make me pour water on you..." He trailed off and I was up in an instant, standing in front of him completely naked. His eyes raked over my body and he smiled. "That's my girl. You're so beautiful. I love you."

He pulled me into his lap and kissed me before helping me find all the pieces to my outfit. I figured I probably reeked like sex so I took a quick shower before putting on the same outfit I was wearing but with different underware. By the time I was done getting dressed I could hear that my parents were home. Momma gave me a curious glance but neither of them said anything. I'm sure they knew, it's not like we could really hide our thoughts from Daddy.

We ended up going to the big house to have dinner with Seth who had been staying there for the past month. His mom had been fighting with Leah really badly for some reason and he had needed a break. The Cullens didn't mind at all and I think Esme was glad to have someone around that she could feed and take care of. We had a quick dinner of spaghetti and garlic bread with Seth and then they had to leave to run patrols. I was feeling tired still from earlier and decided to go home instead of hanging out with the family. As I stood up to leave Momma followed me. She didn't say anything as she ran beside me but I knew something was coming.

"Ness, can I tuck you in tonight?" She looked a little sheepish as she asked me.

"Of course, Momma, anytime."

We entered the cottage turning on lights as we went. I found some gray sweatpants that were Jacobs in one of my drawers and put those on with a plain black t-shirt. I returned to my room after changing and snuggled under the covers while Momma sat at the edge of my bed.

"Nessie, I really don't want to have to have this conversation but I know that your dad won't be able to handle it. We both know that you and Jacob were experimenting earlier.. which is fine. There's nothing wrong with that although I would appreciate it if you kept if off the couches." She scrunched her nose at the thought and I turned blushed crimson.

"Oh my god, I'm so sorry.. we weren't planning to. It was just -"

"I know, the heat of the moment." She interuppted me and gave me a grin. "I know how these things go Renesmee, I may not be alive but I have lived. I just wanted to make sure that you're not being forced into anything. I know Jacob well and I know his feelings for you but I want to make sure your both ready for this. A physical relationship does require a lot of trust and maturity. However, if you believe you can handle it, then I trust you."

"I'm ready." I answered honestly.

"Well, that's good, honey. I'm glad you guys are together. I do know, however, that I am your mom and you probably don't want to talk about this with me. I remember your Grandpa Charlie trying to have this same conversation with me. It was horrible." She laughed at the memory. "If you have any questions, Rose or Alice would love to answer them for you. I want you to talk to Carlisle also. We don't know if... well, pregnancy is an option or not. I don't want you to have any suprises."

"Me either, well, not right now..." I trailed off. I didn't want to think about children right now. I was getting too tired to even talk to Momma anymore. She snuggled down next to me after she turned off my light. She hummed my lullaby in my ear and I fell quickly to sleep. I dreamed of being on the beach with Jacob, our bodies twined together as the waves crashed around us.

Author's Note:
Finally!
I don't think Nessie could of handled any more frustration.
I feel bad for Jacob, though. I think he needs a little lovin'. ;)

Origionally this chapter was going to include the usual sunday dinner,
However I wanted to get this up and it's a bit longer than normal.
If we like the longer chapters, let me know.
I'll start combining them.

Up next?
Our first family dinner, a very awkward talk with Carlisle, a little poker
and a couple of other suprises. I think we might get introduced to
little Grace Noelle, as well. (She's Sam & Emily's daughter)
Love Always, Court

PS: how do we feel about the story so far?
is it moving along alright or do I need to speed things up?
I have a ton planned so just let me know if it's boring.