History Exam. Piss Easy. Well it would be if I couldn't stop looking over at Katie. It just doesn't really look like her. There's a look on her face that I'm so used to recognising. Then I realise, Jesus, Its Emily.

I wait for her after the exam. She's clearing out her sister's locker. When she shuts the door I'm there waiting for her.

She grins at me.

I grin simultaneously back.

"Nice job" I say, taking my finger and smudging the make up bruises on her face, I'm struggling not to take my finger all the way down and run it round her perk breasts.

"Don't! It took fucking ages!" she says pushing my finger away.

"Yeah, well, wish I had someone to pass my exams for me" I say more seriously.

"Yeah…"

"I hope your going to finish the job and dump Freddie for her as well"

"Oh, That's over, Katie knows it"

"Yeah, it was an eventful barbeque" I say reminiscing "Adultery makes a party go with such a swing"

"Its not funny, Effy hurt her" she says defensively

"Like I said, it was eventful" I raise my eyebrows.

I think she finally gets what I'm getting at.

I change the subject

"You should dress up more often" I tell her, looking her up and down. Her tits are practically standing to attention in her top.

"There Katie's" she says motioning to her outfit

Oh, That explains it.

"Yeahhh, you look nice" I say smiling again "From the neck down"

I'm teasing her, but I really mean it.

She looks so sexy.

I realise what I'm thinking, and I'm scared it's showing on my face, I start to walk off.

"Naomi…" she says, always calling after me.

I turn around and explain

"I think I'm going away for the summer, Spain, Cyprus perhaps, By myself, spend sometime by myself, you know? Do some thinking, by myself…"

Shit how many times do you wanna say by myself Naomi? Fucking Hell.

Her face falls, I feel horrible, and I don't even know why I'm doing this.

"About what" she says looking slightly pissed off.

We both know where this is heading.

"Lets just be friends, okay?" I hear myself saying out loud.

I tell her to have a good summer, and start to walk off.

Jesus Christ.

I can't take this.

Then I hear her say "I'll miss you" in that husky voice of hers that drives me crazy, and then I realise. I stop dead in my tracks, turn around walk straight back up to her and kiss her full on the mouth.

I've got her backed against the locker, I don't seem to care we're in the school corridor.

"I can't stand it" I mumble in between kisses, close to tears.

"It's okay" she mumbles back

"Jesus" I hear myself moan.

I can't stop kissing her, I don't want my lips to become separate from hers, the only thought going through my brain is to be with her. I hear people coming; we break apart just in time, as a bunch of lads including Freddie come round the corner.

I grab her hand and we start to run off.

Freddie calls after her, thinking she's Katie, we just ignore him.

We run straight out of school, and all the way back to mine.

I pull her straight through my bedroom, slamming the door behind me.

I've got a full on adrenaline rush, of just wanting to be with her.

I turn and look at her, I lunge myself on her, kissing her, rubbing my hands all over her, its not long before all our clothes come off. I've got her pinned to my bed, nibbling every inch of her I can. This time we can make as much noise as we like, she moans and I moan louder out doing her every time. She's doing things with her tongue that make my eyes roll into the back of my head and bite down hard on my lip. When we've finally made the other equally as satisfied we collapse in my bed together.

She runs her hand up my back, giving me goose bumps.

"You okay?" she asks me.

"Yeah" I say smiling slightly.

"What about your mum?"

"This is my room, no ones allowed in here"

Okay that was a lie, any moment now the guy who thinks he's Jesus will probably come walking in. But I don't care.

I roll over and lie on my stomach, so she can run her hands up and down my back.

She starts explaining how she has to share a room with Katie and how they are always doing things together.

I listen patiently.

"No secrets, there's no point" she concludes

"And what about this one?" I say challenging her.

She avoids the question by running her hand down my back again.

"Naomi?" I hear her say, whenever she says my name it brings a smile to my face.

"I want to tell people" she says.

"That your gay?" I ask interested.

"I wanna tell people about us" she says

Holy shit. Tell people, what the fuck does she mean by that?

"Come to the college ball with me" she asks "Like we're together"

"I don't want to do that" I hear myself saying.

This is it, this isn't going to end happy.

"Why not?" she asks

I roll over and reply "Emz, its nobody's business"

"Why?" she says angrily "Who cares what other people…"

I cut across her

"EMILY. I'm not…" I hesitate "I'm not like you, I'm not sure, like you are"

"What aren't you sure of?" she asks me.

"Can't things ever be complicated?" I say back, with a hint of mystery trying to defuse the argument.

"Fine, you like boys too" she says back.

I take a breath

"Maybe" I say pondering "Maybe I only like boys, apart from you"

It's like someone's smashed a mirror.

"Oh that's fucking great" she says angrily rolling over "Your so in touch with yourself aren't you?"

I don't say anything, I just bite my lip.

"Come to the ball with me" I hear her say, a hint of pleading in her voice.

I shake my head, shit.

I feel her climb out of bed and start fishing around on the floor for her clothes.

"Don't do that" I say. I don't want her to leave; I'm just not ready for something like that yet.

"No you don't do that" she snaps back angrily.

I roll over to look at her, as she pulls on her bra.

"I'm not your fucking experiment" she says.

I sit up, shit, what have I done?

She pulls on her skirt

"Where are my…Fucking…shoes?" she mutters angrily.

I just sit there watching her fumbling around, I don't know what to do.

"Oh fuck it! Keep them!" she says

She pulls up her top and says, "I'm tired, so sick and tired of it! We're still holding hands through a cat flap aren't we?"

I can see the hurt in her eyes, that and the reference to when she let me sit there holding her hand because I wanted to, because I wasn't ready for anything else yet, after I'd ditched her, upset her so much, makes the tears start to well up in my own eyes.

"Have fun in Cyprus" she says and walks out slamming the door behind her.

Fucking hell, I take a deep breath, and lie back down. I roll over to where she was lying, its still warm, I break down, I cry.

I wake up the next morning, a plan fully formed in my head, as if my brains been working on it all night, I go round to the Fitch house, and I apologise to her, and I agree to go to the ball, she's done so much for me, its about time I returned the fucking favour.

Okay, harder than it sounds, I dither when I get to the Fitch house, walking slowly and hesitantly up to the door. I raise my hand and go to press the doorbell, when a woman comes stumbling out of the door into me.

I say hello, just to be polite and smile at our collision.

I explain who I 'am and that I'm a friend of Emily's.

For some reason her face drops.

She invites me in, even though she's just said they're still asleep.

I try to say I should go, but she insists I come in.

Fucking hell, mother Fitch is about to chew my ass, I can feel it.

I sit gingerly at the kitchen table.

I get a lecture about how I'm not to fuck Emily up, she's not gay and she's trying to just break free from being in Katie's shadow, and that is all.

What fucking bullshit.

She practically tells me to get the fuck out, and I oblige making a hasty exit for the door.

Now fucking what?

I try calling her all night, she doesn't pick up.

The next day in college, im completely unfocused.

I can't take it, I stand up and walk out of the room, even when the teacher calls after me asking me where I think im going.

I get into the corridor, pull out my phone and dial Emily again.

I don't wanna hear the dialling tone, I wanna hear Emily's husky voice picking up the phone, wiling to give me a chance to explain.

She does.

"What?" she answers coldly

"Emily! Please! I have to speak to you! Don't hang up!" I say frantically

"Fine, you can meet me for coffee" she replies.

I sigh with relief.

I walk straight out of college to go meet her.

I see her straight away in the shop window, I take a breath before entering.

"Emily" I say when I walk in.

She turns round, and takes off a pair of sunglasses. Holy shit on an alter. This girl is unbelievable, its Katie.

I take seat and ask

"Was that you on the phone?"

"She shouldn't leave it lying around" Katie replies meanly.

"So?" I ask her.

"Leave her alone, she's mine"

"She can't help what she is Katie, neither can I"

"Oh yeah? Seemed like she could help it when she was fucking JJ" Katie snaps back coldly

No.

No.

She never.

"What?" I say.

She rambles on about how JJ is quite keen after Emily saw to him good and proper.

She's saying it intending to hurt me, and it's working, I can feel a burning lump in my throat.

"It's not true" I say scrunching up my face and shaking my head.

"You hurt her" Katie says "And now she doesn't want you"

These words have the most impact on me out of everything Katie's said.

She's right, I did hurt her, and I can feel it right now.

She gives me a bitch smile, stands up, and starts to walk off.

"Why are you so horrible?" I ask her, I can feel the tears burning my eyes.

She snaps back how she loves her more than I ever can, then threatens me telling me not to turn up to the love ball, or else.

She walks out, leaving me in the middle of the shop a mixture of revulsion washing over me.

I slowly get up and walk home.

How could she sleep with JJ? I had a chance to sleep with Cook, and I passed it up because of her, because I felt something for her, okay I've been confused, but she's supposed to really like me, and she slept with JJ? Fucking hell, it's too much.

I climb into bed, I can't even cry.

Fuck it, and Fuck Katie, I'm going to this love ball, and I'm going to confront Emily, sure she feels like shit, but so do I.

I get out my dress and start getting ready.

I get a taxi, it drops we straight outside the college.

It makes me want to vomit, it's all done up with big light hearts and stuff.

And then I see her, Emily, she's next to Katie, and they're with JJ and Freddie.

I walk up to them. Emily turns and sees me, she smiles, I don't look at her because I know I'll weaken, so I turn my attention to JJ.

"Aww, how sweet" I say "Out on a foursome"

"Look at you JJ!" I say to him "Suave"

"Well, Should be fun, Emily's great in the sack, isn't she JJ?" I say harshly

JJ stutters looking from me to Emily, I look at her, she looks horrified.

"Naomi" she starts "I wanted to tell you" her voice has gone all shaky.

I suck it in.

"Yeah, but you didn't did you? Hun?" I try to compose my face; I know I'm about to start crying.

Her face is what makes me want to cry, it's completely devastated.

"So if you'll excuse me" I say and I walk in.

I lean against a wall when I get in there. I don't even know what to do now.

"OI!" I hear, before I can even turn around, Katie's dragging me into an empty classroom, she's fully attacking me, stupid fucking bitch.

I call her a mad cow and she slaps me round the face, I reel backwards in shock.

"THAT'S FOR FUCKING HER UP!" she shouts at me

"THAT WASN'T ME!" I shout back

"SHE'S MY SISTER!" she screams pushing me again "YOUR JUST A SLUT!"

"TAKES ON TO KNOW ONE" I scream back using my clever Naomi Campbell reflex tactics.

She tells me to go fuck myself.

I get really mad now "YOU DIDN'T NEED TO BLAB ABOUT JJ! YOU JUST LOVED DOING IT DIDN'T YOU!" I shout at her

"SHE DESERVED IT!" she shouts at me.

How the fuck can you say that about your sister.

I look over her shoulder. Emily's standing there, looking completely crushed.

Katie registers my face and looks behind her.

"What did I deserve Katie?" Emily says hurt and shocked.

She walks off, Katie runs after her, begging her not to walk away, Emily turns and starts punching her sister in the face, they start frantically fighting.

Doug gets punched in the face when he tries to split it up.

I stand helpless from the sidelines, everyone gathers round watching as Emily completely beats the crap out of her sister.

JJ and Freddie come and stand by me,

"Naomi, I, I, She loves you, I know she does, she said I was just a pity shag, it didn't mean anything" JJ says frantically looking backwards and fourth from me to the fight.

"It's okay JJ" I tell him.

Emily suddenly stops, she helps her sister up.

Everyone's watching,

"I'm not you Katie," she tells her sister.

She takes off her shoes and dress and hands them over.

"I like girls" she says

"No, I like a girl"

"No, I love her."

"I love…her" she says, her eyes filled with tears and she motions over to me.

She loves me, and I love her.

I hold my hand out.

Katie nods her head, as Emily walks over to me, takes my hand, and we walk out together.

Its time to tell her, I think, as we leave holding hands.

"By the way, I love you too" I say

"I know" she replies.