A.N: So this is a bit different chapter. There's Alice's and Jasper's first kiss in this chapter. So please review. I wanna know what you think. Thank you for everyone who has already reviewed and I wanna thank you the people who read this too. I know there might be some spelling mistakes but hey, I did my best. ENJOY AND REVIEW!!!!!!!!

Jasper's POV

It was so close. I almost kissed her! What was I thinking?! I mean Alice is a great person. But still even thinking about kissing her is stupid. I'm a vampire. We would never have a future. I was soon home. I got in. Only Esme was home and I knew that the others wouldn't be back for hours. They said that they were planning to go hunting after school. I sat on the couch. Esme came in. " Is something wrong Jasper? " she asked. " No. Or kind of.......no.....I don't know. " I said. It probably sounded kind of silly but I really didn't know if something really was wrong with me. " What has happened? " Esme asked. " Alice knows that we're vampires. " I said. Esme's emotions didn't change. " Well that's....new but is that so wrong? " she asked. " No. But Alice didn't feel good in school so the nurse told her to go home and I took her. " I said. I was waiting Esme to get angry or something but she didn't. " And what happened? " she asked. " I told her how I became a vampire. " I said. Esme covered her mouth with her hand. " What happened after that? What did she say? " she asked. " Nothing. She didn't say anything. She wasn't even scared. " I said. I remembered how Alice looked at me the whole time when I was talking. And the feeling when I looked into her eyes. It was amazing. " I can feel that that wasn't all. " Esme said. She knew me too well. " What? " I asked. That was a bad lie. " Jasper tell me what else happened. " Esme said. I didn't say anything for awhile. " I can't. " I finally said. I really couldn't. " Jasper you are my son! I deserve to know what's wrong. You're making me worried. " she said. Oh great she did the ' I'm your mum ' thing again. That's how she always makes us tell what's going on. " Well I almost....I almost...almost..." I started. I didn't know how to say this. I knew that Esme wanted me to find someone. " Almost what? " Esme asked. I had to tell her. " I almost kissed her. " I whispered. Esme didn't say anything. " You almost kissed her? " she asked. " Yes. I'm a monster. How could I do that to her?! She probably hates me. " I said. " What I don't understand." Esme said. " I'm a vampire. And the last thing she needs in her life is a vampire! " I said. " How do you know that? " Esme asked. She was right.....no she was wrong! I can't be with Alice. I will hurt her. And I can't stand it if I hurt Alice. I just ran upstairs leaving Esme downstairs. When I got to my room I remembered something. Edward's birthday was coming. I wonder what he could want. So I left my room and went to Edward's room. I knew that Edward loved reading books. So I decided to go and buy him a book. But not right now. Then I heard Esme calling me. " Jasper! " she called. I ran downstairs. " What's up? " I asked. " Could you go to Port Angeles and buy something. " she said. " What? " I asked. " Edward's birthday is coming soon so I thought that could you go and buy him this one book. " Esme said. I couldn't help it..I had to laugh. " What's so funny about this? " Esme asked sounding a bit amused. " Well I thought that I'd buy Edward a book too. " I said. " Oh, I can buy him something else. " Esme said. " No, no, no I can go and buy the book you wanted to buy to him. I have some other ideas that I can use. " I said. That was a lie. I had no idea what to get for Edward. But I still went to Port Angeles.

Alice's POV

I saw it again. Jasper killing someone in Port Angeles. But this time it was different for me. I knew that it was happening soon. In an hour. How could he do that? The next hour I got those visions almost every minute. But then they just stopped. That's how I knew that the human was dead. Jasper had already killed that person. I was in my room, sitting on my bed and looking outside when I saw something. It wasn't like my normal visions. It was just quick flashes:

Flash one:

Jasper was sitting on the ground and shaking. It looked like he was crying. Then he got up and left.

Flash two:

Jasper sitting on a bed in a room. It was his room....I think. He looked depressed. The door of the room was open and Rosalie was there. " Is everything alright? " she asked. " Does it look like it? " Jasper asked. " No. That's why I'm asking. I want to know what's wrong. " she said. " I killed a person. I'm a monster. I don't deserve to live. " he said.

No that can't happen ! Was my first thoughts. That was when I realized how much I cared about him. I didn't even know him very well. The feeling wasn't quite love....or was it. This had never happened before. It felt like I didn't care what would happen as long as he wouldn't leave. I couldn't do anything else so I went to sleep. The whole night I saw those same flashes of Jasper being depressed and leaving. It broke my heart everytime. I woke up really early again. When I went downstairs my dad asked: " Is something wrong Alice? " He was worried about me. I didn't answer to him. I watched Tv for awhile before I went back upstairs. I didn't want to go to school but I knew that I had to. I wanted to find Jasper. So I decided to go to Port Angeles after school. I would say that I'm gonna go to buy a book. I drove to school. The day wasn't fun. I wanted to leave. In biology it felt even more lonely. I went to school's cafeteria with my friends. I saw the other Cullens. They were worried. Edward looked at me, then I got a short vision. It only told me that Jasper was okay. I sighed from relief. I looked at Edward. He looked reliefed too.

Edward's POV

We didn't know where Jasper was. He was just gone. We were worried. " Where could he be? " Rosalie asked. She was really worried. Although she didn't show it but she really liked Jasper. Jasper was playing her twin brother cause they looked like each other. When Rosalie had a problem with something and Emmet couldn't help, she ran to Jasper. Then Alice came in. She didn't look good. I mean her face looed like she would've seen a ghost or something. What's wrong with her? Bella and Rosalie thought at the same time. She got a vision. It was about Jasper. He was okay. " Jasper's okay." I said. " How do you know that? " Emmet asked. " Alice saw it. Or if he's not okay now, then he will be. " I said. Then I heard how Alice sighed from relief. What?! Why was she reliefed? She didn't even know Jasper! Then she saw another vision:

She was sitting on the ground with Jasper. Jasper's head was on her shoulder. He was crying. Or that's what it seemed like. Alice was running her fingers trough his hair and telling him that everything was gonna be alright.

Okay...what was that about? Something was really wrong. Jasper wouldn't let any human that close. He didn't even let us that close sometimes. Then Alice remembered what happened yesterday. Jasper had almost kissed her. What? " Is something wrong? " Bella asked. " I'll tell you later. " I said. A few minutes later Rosalie and Emmet left. " Well are you gonna tell me? " Bella asked. " Do you think that it could be possible that....that Jasper could be in....I mean...." I started. " That he could be in love with Alice? " Bella asked. " Yeah, how did you know? " I asked. I was a bit confused. " Well I've noticed the way Jasper looks at her. And the way that she looks at him. " Bella said. " You could've said something. " I said. So she knew about this? What the......why didn't she say anything to me. " Yeah, I could've but you've seen how much Rosalie likes her. And I don't want to get in trouble. " Bella said.

Alice's POV

I just sat on my chair in the cafeteria. I was thinking about Jasper. " Did you hear about the guy that was killed near Port Angeles? " Mike asked. I started focusing on what they were talking about. " Yeah, it was so sad. " Angela said. " What are you talking about? " I asked. " You haven't heard about it? " Mike asked. " No. " I answered. " Well this guy was killed near Port Angeles...." Mike started. " He looked so bad that even his family didn't know him first. It was some kind of animal attack. " Jessica continued. " Oh. " I said. " I hope that the person who did that will die. " Eric said. That felt bad. Even though I didn't kill him I knew that Jasper didn't want to kill him. " Yeah, I won't be going to Port Angeles this weekend. " Jessica said. " I'm going to Port Angeles today. " I said. " What? " Mike asked. He looked worried. " Why? " Angela asked. " I'm gonna go to buy this one book... " I said. I didn't want to listen to them anymore so I went outside.

Four hours later

I got home and just threw my bag on the floor. My dad wasn't home so I just left to Port Angeles. I knew that he would work late. I drove to Port Angeles as fast as I could. When I got to Port Angeles I parked my car in front of the book store. I quickly bought Romeo and Juliet and took it into my car. I noticed that there was a black Mercedes behind my car. Then I started looking for Jasper. I used my visions to know where to I found a little dark street between two buildings. There was no windows. Then I saw him. He was sitting on the ground and shaking. It seemed like he would've been crying...but without tears. I ran to him as fast as I could. Although it was difficult with high heels. Jasper looked at me. He was crying now I was sure. I knelt down next to him. " Go away Alice. " He said. " No I'm gonna stay here. " I said. " You don't even know how dangerous I am. " he said. I didn't say anything. I knew that he was dangerous. But I didn't care cause I knew that he wouldn't hurt me. " You won't hurt me. " I said. Jasper looked into my eyes. I looked around the street. Why did he come here? Not the best place in Port Angeles. " I took the body away." Jasper whispered. He thought that I was looking for the body. Jasper burried his face into his hands. " It wasn't your fault. " I said. Then he started shaking again. I wanted to hold him and tell him that everything was gonna be alright. So I did. I wrapped my arms around him. Jasper turned a bit so that his head was on my shoulder. I ran my fingers through his honey blond hair. " Shhh...It's gonna be okay..." I said, still holding him tightly. " No it won't! I'm a monster! " Jasper said. " No you're not. " I said. " I killed him Alice! That makes me a monster! " he said. " But you regret it. So you're not a monster. Monsters are heartless. " I said. " I don't have heart." Jasper whispered. " Yes you do have a heart! You're a good person. I don't get how your heart fits into your chest." I said. He burried his head close to my neck. " I don't deserve your help Alice. " he said. I could hear a southern accent in his voice. It made me smile a bit. " Of course you deserve my help." I said quietly. " No. I don't deserve even a word or a look from you. " Jasper said and pulled away from my arms. " You're right. You deserve so much more. " I said. His look melted my heart. " Why do you care? " he asked. I didn't answer. I didn't know what to say. The same feeling that I felt before came to me again. Jasper looked deep into my eyes. He came a bit closer. And after that I came a bit closer. He was so close. His nose was touching mine. Then he gently placed his lips on mine. It was better than I thought it would be. He moved his lips carefully with mine. He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me onto his lap. I just wrapped my arms around him. Then he pulled away. " Well that was...I can't find a word to describe that..." he said. Well he was right. I couldn't find the words to describe that either.