Okay, so I like promised a Jacob chapter but I never expected this chapter to be so long so for the time being, Jacob will not make an appearance. But but but! This is a little Edward Bella chapter and I just love writing their communication together. The start happens a little before Bella requests to see Jacob in Edward's room so I hope you like it!
And many thanks to the wonderful people who reviewed the previous chapter! You people make me want to quit playing my FB games and write and finish the chapter sooner!
Dear diary,
I still can't believe it. Edward gave me a library today. Can you believe it? A library! You can only imagine the excitement that's inside me right now. I didn't get to explore it much today but I managed to look through a few shelves and pick some books that looked interesting and let me just say; I can't wait to start them. I'm literally tingling on the inside just by thinking about the new worlds that are waiting for me to be explored.
Thinking about books makes me think about Jacob… Is he alright? Are his wounds healed? Is he being properly cared for? These are some of the questions that have been haunting me these few days. I wish there was some way I can see him to make sure he's okay. I miss him.
Yes, I miss him so much. I miss the days where we just sat down and read a book together. I miss him holding me close and kissing me as I was always the slow reader. Whenever he finished like the whole page, I would still be halfway through. He never complained though, not even once. Instead, he would kiss me and send Goosebumps down my neck.
Maybe I could ask Edward if I could go see him? No. I can't do this. Edward's already been so kind to me, I can't just abuse his kindness and use it to my advantage. Shockingly, I'm starting to care about him. I don't want to hurt his feelings but I really want to see Jacob. Do you think it's too much?
I don't know what to do… HELP!
Bella
As Bella sat on her bed and closed her diary, she was conflicted. As she bit her lip, she was contemplating whether to ask Edward if she could see Jacob. She doesn't know why but she's got this itching feeling that she would hurt Edward's feelings if she asked. She couldn't find a reason why this would hurt Edward but she just had that feeling.
After a few minutes of thinking which included pacing around the room and pulling her hair, she decided to just give it a shot and go ask Edward. At most even if he said no, she would have an ease of mind knowing she tried. Will she?
As she left her room, she suddenly felt a little lost as Alice or Edward was always with her when she was out of the room. She never really ventured out of her room on her own before. But she had a rough idea of how to go to Edward's room.
She would first head down to the dining room before heading over to his room. There's sure to be another way but she was most comfortable with this path and she sure didn't want to risk getting lost in the castle. It was huge.
As she continued to walk down the familiar path, she kept on thinking if it would be better to just go back. Would chickening out be easier than this? She was just so nervous about it. Oh she wished Alice was with her right now. It was always nice to have an extra opinion even if it meant your master's sister giving it to you.
Before she knew it, she was standing outside Edward's room. Chicken out! Don't even think about it! Go back! Don't do it Bella! The little voice in her head kept on screaming at her to turn back but it seemed like at that moment, her body disconnected with her brain as she opened the door and entered Edward's room.
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"I want to see Jacob," Bella said.
Edward stood up and went to the bookshelf and continued staring at the book that Bella was reading the previous day. He knew that this would eventually happen but he didn't think it would be tonight or anytime soon. In a way, he was always avoiding the subject of Jacob. He didn't want to cause Bella unnecessary heartache.
"Edward? Are you okay?" Bella asked. As he turned around to look at her, she was standing behind him looking down and playing with her fingers. She was feeling just as awkward as he was just now. "Look, I'm sorry I bothered you. Forget I even said that. I'll leave now," she chattered before leaving the room.
As she was about to walk away from him, he seemed to be jolted from his daze and his hand instinctually went forward and grabbed her arm before pulling her to him. What he didn't expect was the electric flow that flowed through their contact and that he had used a little too much of his strength to pull her and she landed with her head hitting his chest. With his arms wrapped around her, they stared into each other's eyes and Edward got lost in the beautiful chocolate brown orbs.
It was about a second later before Bella pulled away and her face had turned beet red. Edward thought that her blush was adorable but he quickly silenced that thought. She is nothing more than your companion. Don't forget that. He kept on reminding himself that.
"Edward, I am so sorry," Bella apologized as she tried to remove the blush from her face by slapping her cheeks.
"There's nothing for you to apologize for. If anything, I'm the one at fault," Edward gulped. The proximity between them was still too close and he felt a little uncomfortable. They were like two opposing poles of a magnet now and no matter how much he tried, she kept pulling him in. With all his willpower, he pushed him legs to move a step and went to sit on the couch. "We'll discuss your wish but I would much prefer if we were sitting down on the couch." Edward smiled and Bella walked like a robot towards the couch and sat on the opposite end.
"Ok, so if I'm not wrong, you wish to see Jacob?" Edward asked. Bella simply nodded and looked at him. "May I know the reason why?"
"It's just that… well… I haven't seen him in like such a long time and I really miss him. I don't mind if it's just an hour or even five minutes, I want to see if he's okay and also for me to tell him that I'm doing well here with you and Alice and tell him to not worry about me," Bella chattered before taking a deep breath.
"So let me get this straight. You would like to see Jacob and maybe spend some time with him? Is that correct?" Edward asked. Bella nodded and looked at him with an innocent expression. Edward looked down and sighed. He didn't know why but he couldn't say no to her. Another thing that he didn't understand was this itching feeling he had towards Bella's fiancé. He never felt like this before and he didn't understand it and most of all, he didn't like it. "I shall grant you your request. Alice will bring you to the Tower to see Jacob tomorrow. I'll give you the whole day to spend with him and Alice will bring you back when you're ready to leave. Is that okay?"
Bella's eyes beamed with excitement. "Yes. That's very okay. Thank you so much Edward. Thank you." Bella smiled happily and Edward got that itching feeling back. Something about her current state of happiness bothered him. It could possibly be because he had little to do with him bringing her that joy but it was the thought of being able to see Jacob that brought her this euphoria.
"If that's all, I'll bring you to your room then," Edward said as he stood up.
"Oh it's okay. I think I can find my way back," Bella said.
"The lights are out Bella. I highly doubt you'll be able to find your way back. At eleven every night, the lights of the entire castle would be turned off."
"Oh, I didn't know that," that was all Bella said before he took her hand and led her out the room. The electricity flowed again but this time, Bella didn't let go as it was pitch dark and her human eyes were too weak to see through this darkness. Because of this, Edward had to work extra hard to push that inner animal in him away.
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Bella woke up earlier than normal the following morning. She was just too excited about her day with Jacob that she couldn't sleep. After an excruciating close to three weeks of not seeing her fiancé, she missed him like crazy and just couldn't wait to spend some time with him.
After she did some stretching, she eagerly went to the bathroom to take her shower without Alice having to pull her out of bed for once during her stay in the castle. She made sure to lather rinse and repeat. She wanted to be in the very best form for this special day.
When she went out of the bathroom, her clothes were already laid on the bed. What was strange was the black cloak that was placed beside her light blue blouse and dark jeans. It was long that it would probably fall to her ankles and it didn't seem to be made of cotton as it was a little shiny. Maybe it was coated with something but when Bella went to touch the material, it was smooth and soft. It didn't feel hard or stiff as she expected it to be. Shrugging her shoulders, she quickly put on the blouse and jeans that Alice had prepared for her.
The moment Bella finished buttoning her jeans and fastening her belt, Alice came bouncing into the room. "Good morning Bella!" she cheered as she gave Bella a hug. "Okay, we've got lots of things to do today. Edward has already briefed me on what to do. I'll be the one bringing you to the Tower as Edward has some things to do. Anyways… Edward will run through everything after breakfast so c'mon c'mon! We've got so much to do and so little time!" Alice chattered as she left the room dragging Bella along.
They soon arrived at the dining room and had a quick breakfast of cereal with milk and fruits with Edward. Afterwards, Edward brought Bella to his room to brief her on what was going to happen next.
"Okay, so in order to get to the Tower, you'll need to leave the castle and that would mean leaving you vulnerable to the Shadows," Edward said and Bella froze. She clearly remembered that horrifying near death experience she had with the Shadows. "You'll be safe as long as you listen to Alice. She'll be the one bringing you to the Tower. I would bring you myself but there are things that I need to do here. You'll be perfectly safe if you do exactly as she says. Don't hesitate for even a minute. If she tells you to run and leave her, do it and don't look back. Is that clear?" Edward asked and Bella nodded.
After that, Edward asked if Bella wanted to bring anything on her visit to Jacob and she said she would like to bring some books from the library. So, he went and grabbed a small backpack from his closet and followed her out the room and to the library.
There, Bella picked a few random titles that she found interesting and placed it inside the backpack. After that, Edward brought her back to her room and grabbed the cloak before bringing her to the front gates. He gently draped her cloak over her leaving the hood on her back. As he did that, Alice came over and she also had a backpack on her back and she was also wearing a cloak with the hood over her head.
"Ready?" Alice asked and Bella took a deep breath before nodding her head. "I've prepared lunch for you and Jacob. So this is what's going to happen, I'll bring you to the Tower and to where Jacob is located. You'll have until dinner to spend time with him. I'll be waiting for you outside to keep you safe. Got it?"
Bella nodded eagerly. "Okay. Lunch, time with him and we leave at dinner time. Got it."
"Oh and one more thing Bella. I'm sure Edward has told you to listen to me so I'm going to tell you what's going to happen once we step outside the gates. Once outside, we won't be protected by the shield around the castle so if we were to be attacked by Shadows, we'll have to defend ourselves. Because of this, I want you to stay as close to me as possible and to always have your cloak on. This cloak will be your protector for the whole trip. The dark color makes it blend well with the surroundings making it more difficult for us to be spotted. In addition to that, it has a special coating around it so it will sparkle when light is shone upon it just like a vampire." Alice quickly reached into her pocket and took out a few gems. They looked like diamonds but were of different colors. Some were blue, some red and some green. "These gems are able to give off a very bright light that can destroy Shadows but the light they emit doesn't last long so we'll only use them during emergencies. When I tell you to close your eyes I want you to do exactly as I say alright?" Bella quickly nodded and placed her hands on Alice's and Alice smiled. "I promise I'll keep you safe but you'll have to trust me."
"I trust you and thank you for everything Alice," Bella said and gave Alice a hug before she turned to face Edward. He looked clearly worried about everything. She reached out and took his hands in hers and looked at his face. "Thank you for letting me do this," she smiled.
He smiled back at her and took her hood of her cloak and pulled it over her head. "Be safe Bella," he said and with those words, the two ladies stepped out of the castle barrier and towards the Tower.
And they're off to the Tower! Yeah! I promise a Jacob chapter next. *Pinky promise*
On a lighter note, I watched Vampires Suck on Thursday and I loved it but it still couldn't beat Eclipse which I watched on Monday. Oh and Happy Belated Birthday Bella!
Our good friends the Shadows would be making a little appearance for the next chapter if you would like to know. But don't worry; no blood will be spilled. It'll be too cruel and I'm sure everyone would like to see a little Jacob right? He's lonely in the Tower. Don't worry Jacob; you're going to get a whole afternoon with your lovely Bella soon!
So that's about all, do leave a review as reviews make my heart melt as much as Edward not wanting Bella to go and pulling her to his chest! Heh~
Question for this chapter: What are some of your favorite books other than Twilight?
*Hint* Bella brought some books over to the Tower and I have no idea what book titles to include. Do help me out!
And I'm off to dinner with my cousins who just loves to play Pokemon on my Nintendo DS. Bye bye~
Lil Vamp Girl
