Chapter 9 - Telling Rosie

I picked Rosie up from Lester and we drove towards home, she couldn't stop talking about how much fun she had with Lester and how he let her watch lots of Disney princess movies and even let her wath a DVD when she was going to bed, I was glad that she had fun.

As we walked into the apartment Rosie ran to Becker in the living room "Daddy" she squealed in excitment and he picked her up and hugged her "I missed you" she said and laid her head on his shoulder.

I looked at them and seen a tear fall from his eye, he put her down and kneeled down to her level "You know I love you, don't you?" he asked her and she nodded "I have to go away for a little while because daddy upset mummy, he didn't mean to but he did. I won't be gone forever and I'll still come and see you whenever you want me to" he explained to her.

She shook her tiny little head "No. I don't want you to go" she turned to me "Tell daddy that he doesn't have to go" she pleaded with me.

"Sorry sweetie but he has to" I said. Becker picked up his holdal with his stuff and made way towards the door, Rosie ran to him and latched onto his leg crying.

She was screaming for him not to go "Daddy I'll tidy my room, I'll do my reading" I could see the tears falling from Becker's eyes and I hated this, the situation but it was his fault. He didn't need to kiss that girl but he did and now we all had to suffer the consequences.

Becker picked her up and hugged her "It's not your fault, it's not... it's daddy's. Daddy was stupid and now he has to go" he whispered to her and put her down before closing the door behind him as he left.

A week later, Saturday, there was no one to look after Rosie because it was supposed to be my day off but I've been called in to go over some new security checks on the computer, plus Connor said that it's been acting up lately.

So as I approached the ADD I seen the last person I wanted to see... Becker. "Daddy" Rosie screamed with a smile on her face and ran towards him, it was the first time I've seen her smile since he left "Look what I made for you" she said and pulled out a drawing of her and Becker she did at school.

Since he left she has hated me, she doesn't talk to me unless she has to. She spends most of her time in her room playing with Barbie's or drawing pictures.

I looked at them, he had took the picture in his hands and smiled with joy when he looked at it "This is going on my special wall" he stated.

Rosie has been to see him twice since he left, he's staying at Lester's and in the room he's using he uses a wall for pictures and stuff, the pictures were mainly of him, me and Rosie or him and Rosie or me and him and Rosie's drawings. He called it his special wall because 'it's were the special things go' I remembered him saying to her.

She came running up to me with a smile on her face "Mummy can I go with daddy to tell off his naughty soliders?" she asked in excitment and I knew she'd play up all day if she didn't go so I just simply nodded and she ran towards Becker, grabbed hold of his hand and the two of them went off.

I sat down at the ADD and started doing the normal checks to see if I could figure out the problem and while I was doing that I went onto the CCTV in the armoury and seen Becker talking to three of his men, I then seen Rosie standing next to him pointing her finger at them and shaking her head.

Without anyone looking, I put my headphones in and turned the volume up to hear what was being said.

"Naughty boys don't get presents from father Christmas so your not getting any" Rosie said to them, like it was a fact, and stuck her tongue out at them "I'll get presents because I'm a good girl" she crossed her arms over he chest and I could tell that the soliders and Becker were trying their hardest not to laugh at her.

"Sorry ma'am" one of them said to Rosie, then turned to Becker and look serious "It will never happen again sir" he insisted and after all three men had apologised and Becker sent them back to their duties.

Then he picked Rosie up "You scared them" he said and she giggled and leaned her head on his shoulder "Daddy are you ever coming home? I like your bedtime stories better then mummy's" I turned the volume off and closed the screen that showed them and a single tear fell down my cheek.

There was a hand on my shoulder and when I turned around I seen Matt standing there with a tissue in his other hand, offering it to me. I thanked him, taking the tissue off him and wiping my eyes "She hates me" I said quietly.

Matt pulled up a chair and sat next to me "I doubt she hates you. I think she just misses having Becker there. Have you two come to an agreement about him seeing her?" he asked.

"No, we never really talked about it. She has seen his twice this week already but I'm scared she's going to tell me that she doesn't want to live with me anymore and that she wants to live with him" more tears rolled down my cheeks and I dried them again with the tissue.

He put his arm around my shoulder "Maybe you should let him spend the day with her on a Saturday or something. That way you get a break, Becker gets to see her so everyone is happy" he suggested.

I had thought about something like that but I didn't know how or when to bring it up to Becker so we could discuss it properly.

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