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chapter nine - Erin's nightmare
'i love you zip, i always have and i always will' it just slipped out, Ian looked at me and then at the floor like had done something wrong or he didn't know what i was going on about, or even like he didn't know who i was,
'Erin it over, i can't keep putting myself through this, we broke up and we are never getting back together again, we both agreed on that, oh, i'm leaving McKinley and i'm never coming back' Ian replied and he walked away from me with out even looking back, he got in to his van and drove away, i was just standing there with tear and my make up mixing together as they streamed down my face and the dripped on to the floor, i then chased his van, and then next thing i know is that he has stopped like he has changed his mind, as i got closer i realised that he had stopped at a red light not because he had changed his mind like i thought, but then there was a loud bang and lots of flames and smoke, his van had been hit my an 16 wheeler truck, i shouted 'noooooo Ian nooo you can't be gone, you can't leave me like this' i knelt at the reckage of his truck where blood streamed past my feet and i just cried harder than before.
then next thing i knew i was at the police station being questioned on what had happened, i just said 'i told him i loved him, he got into the van and drove away, i chased the van and the next thing the van was in flames and there was blood coming out of the reckage i was crying because the one person who i loved and understood me was gone and was never coming back'
when i blinked and opened my eye's i was at his funeral, my mum and little sister each side of me trying to stop me from crying as his coffin was being brought down the isle, at put over the whole, the priest was saying the speach, what thought to be the same on as he said at Ashley and Ashlyns funeral, but then said 'would anyone like to come and say their last goodbye's to him, i stood up and said 'you were the only one i loved and will ever love, my heart will be with you and no one else, and i will miss you, i dont know what i did to make us break up the way we did but if i could go back in time i would do the whole thing over again, goodbye my zip and i will always be your pip' as i finished the sentance i just burst out crying and i put his favourite black rose on his coffin and sat back down, as the coffin was being lowered it was like no one else was there just me and i couldn't believe that he was gone and he wasn't ever going to be coming back. i blinked one last time.
when i opened my eye this time the funeral was over, i was still in the gravy yard where he is barried at i'm at a tomb stone it says 'Ian Kristopher McKinley, Son, Friend, and Goth 1989 - 2006 may you rest in piece forever' i was standing at his grave dressed in black, with a a bunch of black roses, i knelt down and put them at the base of his grave then began to cry like i never had before then, some one came and said 'miss Ulmer, you have had been gone for one day before coming back the last time you did this i had to call the police to get you to leave his grave' they were saying that i dont leave his grave and if i did i would come back a day later with some flowers.
then i woke up crying with Ian laying next to me fast a sleep
