Hey! So here's the new chapter! The song is Lucy by Skillet! :) Enjoy loves!


Alexis's POv

Today's the day. We all go see Lucy. A dozen roses. I swept off all of the leaves. "I'd give up anything to have you back" I cried

Hey Lucy, I remember your name. I left a dozen roses on your grave today. I'm in the grass on my knees, wipe the leaves away. I just came to talk for a while, got some things I need to say

I wish that I could have held her. I imagined a little baby that looked like a cross between Campbell & I. She's in heaven. She's that little piece of heaven that'll always be mine.

Now that it's over, I just wanna hold her
I'd give up all the world to see
That little piece of Heaven looking back at me

God I want her! But of course I'm just to selfish!

Now that it's over, I just wanna hold her
I've gotta live with the choices I made
And I can't live with myself today

I'd always count down the days until her birthday. I remember counseling. They told me to say her name since I knew that I'd refuse to since I knew that I'd just break down again. No matter how hard I try I know I'll never get over her.

Hey Lucy, I remembered your birthday
They said it'd bring some closure to say your name
I know I'd do it all different if I had the chance
But all I got are these roses to give
And they can't help me make amends

Please, can I just have her back! I wanted her back so badly when I lost her. The very next day after I came home from the hospital, I tried to commit suicide. Just so I could see her.

Now that it's over, I just wanna hold her
I'd give up all the world to see
That little piece of Heaven looking back at me

It's all been done. I just hate my deicions

Now that it's over, I just wanna hold her
I've gotta live with the choices I made
And I can't live with myself today

I had a dream last night. Campbell & I were in the delivery room. I had Lucy in my arms. It was a new start for a family. It was the we'd never have.

Here we are, now you're in my arms
I never wanted anything so bad
Here we are for a brand new start
Living the life that we could've had

I watched her grow from a beautiful baby in to a gorgeous woman. We'd walk hand in hand. I never wanted it to end. I looked in to her eyes one last time. She walked off & waved to me. I'll see you in heaven where we'll be together forever

Me and Lucy walking hand in hand
Me and Lucy never wanna end
Just another moment in your eyes
I'll see you in another life in Heaven
Where we never say goodbye

That's when I woke up & came back to reality. I just wish it was real

Now that it's over, I just wanna hold her
I'd give up all the world to see
That little piece of Heaven looking back at me

My choices will always be the one thing that got in the way.

Now that it's over, I just wanna hold her
I've gotta live with the choices I made
And I can't live with myself today

I want that start. Lucy in Campbell's arms. Why do I always ruin everything?

Here we are, now you're in my arms
Here we are for a brand new start
I got to live with the choices I've made
And I can't live with myself today

We'll never walk hand in hand. But until I'm in heaven we'll never end. I'll just have to wait

Me and Lucy walking hand in hand
Me and Lucy never wanna end
I've got to live with the choices I've made
And I can't live with myself today

I love you Lucy. Forever & always. Never together but always & forever

Hey Lucy, I remember your name


Alexis's mom's POV

I need to tell & Nathan (Couldn't resist. lol you'd know if you follow Alabama Capital haha) her older brothers are coming home. They know nothing about Lucy.

Alexis's POV

Campbell held me as I was weeping. Alli & Jake came. Everyone was crying.

"Alexis, we all just wanted to say that we're all sorry for blaming you. W're gonna fix it. Everything will be happy again" Jake hugged me

I smiled. We all said that we love Lucy as we took one last look at her grave.

"Thanks guys. I couldn't have done this with out you. Let's go back to my place." I said to them

"Alexis can I talk to you for a moment?" Cody asked

I nodded.

"Can we please go back on what we used to be?" He asked

"Listen Cody, I really really like Sky." I looked in to his eyes

"Tell me we can at least be friends" He stated

"Of course" I smiled to lighten the mood

We all went back to my house. Greyson & Alli getting all flirty again. Jake & Gabi mending there relationship. Perfect. I opened the door. I saw my brothers Caleb and Nathan (Lets just say they do look like the Caleb & Nathan from Alabama Capital lol).

"Caleb Nathan!" I screamed & hugged them

They hugged back. They gave me that 'we know what you did and you're in trouble' look. Uh-oh

"Who's Lucy?" Caleb asked concerned

"My daughter" I whispered

"We thought you were smarter than that! Alexis you're such a smart girl you had everything going for you! Why would you out and get knocked up by some Campbell kid" Nathan spoke up

"Who is he anyways!" Caleb yelled

Everyone looked at Campbell. No no no!

"You're Campbell!" They both began to charge towards him. I stopped them

"Don't Caleb Nathan! Stop! It's in the past, besides she's dead" I blocked them

"I need to blow off some steam" Nathan said as he opened the door

Caleb followed him. Great my brothers hate me. I tried to ignore it. I heard a knock at the door. I opened it and saw Sky.

"Hello" He smiled

"Hi" I gazed in to his crystal blue eyes

"Uhm, Cody called me last night & told me about your's and Campbell's kid" He said

"Oh..." I trailed off

"I brought you these" Sky held out brightly colored daisies. They were gorgeous.

"Thanks!" I hugged him & took the flowers

"So uhm, how are you?" Sky asked

"I'm hanging in there." I was drowning in his eyes

"Can I... kiss you?" He asked for my permission, how sweet!

I nodded and moved in. Our lips touched. I got butterflies. I couldn't move. We must've stayed like that for minutes.

"Great, our little sister is a slut" Caleb marked

"Please, stop" I whispered

"What do you have to say for yourself? You're so lucky Nathan is still outside! Turn my back for what? To find out that you were pregnant at 13. Wow, just you know what. I'm going to pull myself together for mom. I don't wanna see you with this guy anymore! Go! Get out of here!" Caleb yelled

"Sorry, bye" Sky told me before leaving. He was gone in a flash

"Go inside." Caleb sighed

I walked in & sighed. Then it hit me. Since when did Cody have Sky's number?

"Who was that?" Alli asked

"Just Sky. Look what he gave me" I showed her the flowers

"Wow, those are so pretty!" Gabi said

"Yeah!" I squealed

"Look, there's a card" Alli pulled it out

"Alexis, sorry for your and Campbell's loss. Hopefully because I know things won't change between us. Love Skye... XOXO" Alli read

"Awe that's so sweet! You guys should totally be official!" Gabi gasped

"Yeah, just one problem. My brothers don't approve" I stated

Alli, mie, and Cody's phones began to go off crazily. Tweets from fans. Apparently there was am article in J-14 about Cody & I.

"You're kidding me right! Boyfriend #3?" Nathan yelled as he back in the apartment with a copy of the most recent J-14

I was extremely irritated. "Piss. Off" I told them stern

"You don't talk to us like that young lady." Nathan grabbed my arm

"What you're not gonna hit me? Think I'm pregnant again?" I gave him and Caleb a skeptic look

"What has gotten into you? You're not the little girl we used to know. The one who was smart, kind, and as sweet as can be" Caleb asked

"Exactly I'm not a little girl anymore. I lost my daughter because of selfishness, I tried to kill myself... TWICE. And I've screwed everything up. I lost my dad because he had to pick ME up from a friend's house. My friends wouldn't talk to me because I made them spill every secret. I've been to hell and back. It can change you," I pulled my arm away

"Uhm, we're all sleeping over so we'll be in your room" Greyson said and took Gabi with her with the rest following

"At least pretend that we still at least can tolerate each other. For mom, and Campbell is our new step-brother." I said and went to my room

I slammed the door. One of my pictures fell. It was the one of my dad.

"Fuck" I whispered. I began to cry as I picked up the pieces. Greyson went up to me & held me.

"That's all I am to them. Their slutty little sister who ruins everthing" I cried. I knew they were listening from the outside of my closed door.

Greyson & I stayed solemn as he held me. I pulled myself together. Someone knocked on the door. I knew it was Caleb. We had a secret fpr can I come in, yes, & no. Can I come in- knock..knock...knock knock. No-knock kock. Yes- knock. I went up to the door, knock knock. That was the first time I've ever denied him enterance.

"C'mon Lex, let me in"Caleb said

"No, just go away"I replied


Okay, wow! You guys are amazing! I've gotten so many nice comments! Ahh right when I get home from school tomorrow I'm going to write another chapter! How do you think dinner will go? Sneak peek? I think yes, you guys deserve it!

"What the hell do you think you're doing?"

"JUST GO AWAY! I HATE YOU & YOU HATE ME BITCH!"

"I'm not giving up on us."

"Just... Fuck off"

"Am I really worth it?"

"The unheard cries of a depressed teen"


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