The next week passed by slowly. Magnus was over almost every day, and Alec cried himself to sleep every night. One night, Magnus slept over. Alec had no spare bed, and he didn't want to ask Magnus to sleep on the couch, so they slept in the same bed. They didn't do anything, they just slept.

Alec knew about Magnus' feelings, but he kept forgetting about it. Every time he wasn't looking at Magnus though, he could feel his gaze on him. It was getting hard. He knew he had to make a decision, but how could he? He liked Magnus, of course, who wouldn't? But he still loved, and missed, Scott. It had only been a week.

Once in a while, Alec thought Magnus was going to kiss him. When they caught each others eyes, and they both stopped talking, just staring at each other. He never ended up kissing Alec, though. Sometimes Alec wasn't sure if it was a good or a bad thing. He liked Magnus, but he wasn't ready for a new relationship. But sometimes his hands itched to fix his hair or his makeup, if it had smeared even the slightest.

Scott hadn't call him since he was at the hospital. Alec hadn't tried to call him. He wanted to, desperately, but he knew he needed to move on, or at least try to. All of the memories they had shared made Alec tear up.

Today was one of the days where Magnus sat next to him in the couch, watching him, while Alec was reading. It was hard for him to concentrate when he did that, but he tried. He was reading one of his favourite books, Life as we knew it by Susan Beth Pfeffer. Or, well, he was trying to, but Magnus kept watching him.

"Stop staring at me," Alec said. "It's uncomfortable."

"Sorry. You're just really beautiful."

Magnus had been pretty blunt about his feelings for Alec over the last week or so. Alec got uncomfortable every time he said something like that, he couldn't help it. He liked getting compliments, he wasn't used to it, but he wasn't sure if it was a good thing when it came from Magnus. He was always flirting with Alec.

Alec looked up at him and met his eyes. Cerulean blues meeting yellowgreens. "You're always saying stuff like that," he said quietly.

"That's because it's true."

Alec started biting his lip and looked down again. "But it's not."

"Alexander, do you think you could ever feel enough for me to go out with me?"

"What?"

He turned his entire upperbody towards Magnus and looked at him.

"You heard me."

"I.. I don't.."

Magnus was looking him in the eyes. He did that awfully often, and Alec got speechless every time he did that. His eyes were so beautiful.

"Alexander, I just want to know. If not, I might as well stop flirting with you this way, because it's obvious you get effected by it, and I don't want to make you uncomfortable."

Alec bit his lip and looked down, put the book on the table, where Magnus' coffee was standing. He pulled his legs up under his chin in the couch, and wrapped his arms around his legs.

"I don't know, Magnus," he said honestly. "I don't know. I don't know if I'll ever get over Scott. I don't know if I'll ever be ready to go out with you, or generally be in a relationship with you."

Magnus nodded, slowly, hesitating. "Should I stop flirting with you?"

Alec shook his head, slowly. He wasn't looking at Magnus, so he didn't see the huge grin spreading across Magnus' face. But his voice revealed his happiness so much that Alec had to look at him.

"I won't stop, then."

Alec was blushing, a deep crimson red. He couldn't help it. Magnus did this to him pretty much every day.

"Am I staying over here for tonight?"

Alec shrugged. "If you want to..."

"I always want to, Alexander."

"My sister is coming over later, though."

Magnus nodded. He didn't seem to mind. He had heard some things about Isabelle Lightwood, but not much. Quite frankly she sounded like a pain in the ass, but anything to stay with Alec for the night.

"Sure."


"Alec! How do you know him?!"

Isabelle was 'whisper-shouting'. Magnus was in the kitchen, getting some coffee, and Isabelle and Alec was sitting on the couch together. Alec was curled up in the corner with a blanket, like he was most days, and Isabelle was leaning close to him so he'd be able to hear what she said.

"W-what? I told you he was going to be here, Izzy-"

"You said Magnus! Not Magnus Bane!"

"What's so special about him?"

Isabelle gasped and looked horrified at him. "He's a fashion model, Alec!"

"He is?"

And then Magnus walked into the room, carrying a cup of coffee for himself and one for Isabelle. He put Isabelles in front of her and sat down in the armchair on the other side of the table. Alec looked at him. He was goodlooking, very. But it never struck him that Magnus could be a model. Maybe it was the eyes.

"Right! I picked you up a magazine, Alec," Isabelle said, taking her bag and pulled up a fashion magazine. She put it on the table, but Alec didn't look at it.

"Just put it with the others. You know I'll never read them, so why do you insist on buying these every month?"

Before Isabelle could grab it again, to put it in the pile with the others, Magnus grabbed it. "You don't read them?" He sounded a bit sad. Alec looked at him.

"What's wrong?"

"This is my magazine," Magnus said, turning it so Alec could see the cover, which was a picture of Magnus with a million stripes in his hair with all the colours of the rainbow. You could only see him from the shoulders and up, and he was in a pose, but it was definitely him. Alec blushed.

"I didn't know that."

Magnus nodded, looking sad, and put the magazine back down on the table. Why does it bother him so much, Alec thought. It didn't make sense. It was only a magazine.

"If it helps, you look great on the cover."

Alec couldn't help, the words just slipped out. He hadn't meant to say them out loud. He blushed a deep crimson red, and crumbled even more into his corner of the couch. Magnus' face lit up in a huge grin.

"Thanks."


Soon Isabelle left, and Alec and I were left to ourself. For a little while, none of us said anything. It was quiet in the apartment, and after a while I couldn't take it anymore. So I decided to break the silence.

"Did you mean what you said earlier?"

He looked up at me. "What did I say?"

"That I look good on the cover."

"Oh," Alec said, blushing bright red. "Yeah... I meant it."

I smiled and looked down on my hands. He had actually given me a compliment. He hadn't done that since he told me he liked my eyes a week ago. He had implied things he liked about me, but never a direct compliment.

I wanted to kiss him so badly. But I knew I couldn't.

"You're just not ready for a relationship, right?" I asked, and looked at him. He shook his head slowly, not looking at me. I had already known the answer to the question, so I don't even know why I asked.

"But..."

I looked at him. "But?"

"But maybe I will be."

My heart skipped a beat and a grin spread across my face.

"You know, we don't have to jump right into a relationship... If you wanna try it out, without any real commitment... We could do that."

He hesitated for a moment. "You're not supposed to be my.. what's the word.. rebound."

I didn't know what to say. I didn't want to wait for him. But I needed to be with him. I was beginning to get addicted to the days we spent together, just sitting around. But I didn't want to be his rebound, either. I wanted him to be generally happy to be with me. Not just being with me because Scott left him.

I looked down, not knowing what to tell him.

"I wanna be with you," he whispered. "But I'm afraid it's just because of everything going on with Scott."

I looked at him. "Well, what do you think?"

"I think.. I think I wanna be with you for you. But I can't be sure."

I smiled. Maybe there was a chance after all, maybe I could actually be with this beautiful man. Maybe some day, he would really be mine. Until then, I just had to be patient.

And hope I didn't ruin everything for myself.


When I woke up the next morning, I couldn't help but smile. At some point during the night, I had curled up next to Alec, putting my head on his chest and an arm around his waist, and he had put an arm around my shoulders. All while we slept. We fit together well, according to me at least, and maybe some day we could be together. I snuggled up closer to Alec and shut my eyes, trying to go back to sleep.

That, however, was impossible. I couldn't forget about lying in the same bed as Alec, and how close we were. After a while, I slowly sat up and looked at him. His eyes fluttered open then.

"I didn't think you were awake," he whispered. "I didn't want to wake you up."

I smiled. "I woke up a few minutes ago."

He sat up and looked at me. He looked me in the eyes and took my hand.

"You look so sweet when you're sleeping."

For once, I actually blushed. I didn't happen often, barely ever, but Alec here somehow effected me much more than anyone had before. What was it about this guy that maked my heart skip beats all the time?

"Thank you," I said quietly, and leaning in to kiss him on the cheek. He turned his head, though, so I ended up kissing his lips. I blushed then, and I could feel the warmth from his face. I pulled away after a few seconds and looked at him, a smile playing at the corner of my lips.

"What are we going to do today? Just hang around here?"

He smiled at me, looking down on our hands. "We could watch a movie," he suggested quietly. I nodded.

Maybe this was going to fast, but I didn't care. He was so amazing. Those blue eyes kept haunting my dreams, and that sweet, shy smile was almost too adorable to bear. He wouldn't leave my mind, he never exited them, but I didn't mind. This was Alexander, and I had no way to keep him out from my mind.

Even if I wanted to.


AN: Hiiii. So, the winner of my competition has been found! . .Tan was the lucky number 20, and that's who the drawing will be dedicated her. Go congratulate her!

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