Chapter 8

Hi peoples! So this is a BIG chapter… not in length because I cut it in half… but you know … 'revelation' and all. And I gotta tell you. I'm freaking terrified. Like really stark terrified. I mean there's this whole ' what he did to me was so bad' thing building… I'm worried its not actually that bad. I had loads of ideas ( Hannah if your reading you know what I'm talking about', but I had to be, you know realistic it. It couldn't be anything like… he shot her dad with a paintball gun and killed him or like… he choked her in her sleep with hot chocolate sauce ( which I'm now eating/drinking. YUM).

I have more mocks next week, so it will have to be after that when I update, but I'll try as soon as possible. Without further adieu… here you go. I hope you like it, really I do. And please review.

Disclaimer: I do not own twilight or anything involving it. Cry me out is however mine so if you use it, I'll go batshit crazy on you. I'm kidding.

BPOV

" Happy birthday Bells!" Charlie announced to me as I descended the stairs.

" Oh, you look beautiful." Renee said a splashing mess from painting, her new flavor of the month. The two of them greeted me with bursting smiles at the bottom.

I groaned, tugging on my brown hoodie, " I look the same as I have every other single day mom. Really. Dramatic much?" I took the piece of toast off the plate Charlie was holding and bit softly into it. He coughed loudly

"I know I'm late, okay?" I muffled through the bread and sweet melting butter.

"Yeah," Charlie winked. "But lucky you, you have something to get you there in time." My eyes widened.

"Oh no freaking way." I'd guessed, I'd joked, I'd never thought it was possible though. I wrenched open the door, and there standing in the driveway was the most perfect glowing red truck I'd ever seen.

I looked back and forth between it and my smiling parents, standing on the porch. "Oh, you guys are amazing." I flung myself into their arms and laughed loudly. My dad held up the keys as I stepped back and I grabbed them off him, treasuring them in the palm of my hand.

" I love you guys." They laughed again as I stroked my hand along the paint. Sure it was a bit chipped and sure, it was obviously an old truck but it was my painted chipped and rusty old truck. When I turned the keys in the ignition, I had to stifle a moan of happiness.

Driving into school, I felt like a queen. Some of the richer kids, cough Edward cough, had cars, but none of them had trucks like mine. As I stepped out of my new favorite toy, careful to mind my feet and their … you know clumsiness, Emmett enveloped me in a hug.

" B! Happy birthdeee," he sang.

I squealed as he swung me round. " B? Really?"

"Well it had to rhyme."

He put me back on the round, slowly, knowing me and scuffled my hair. Around us we were getting funny looks. The popular guy with the not so popular girl. Odd. But… it didn't really matter. We started to walk and he kept smiling out of the side of hi mouth.

" What?"

" I remember you were you were only this high", he raised his hand up to the top of his hip.

" Stop that! I'm the same age a you."

Ahead of us I spotted a bronze head of hair. There's only one person in the world with hair that colour. Emmett spotted it too.

"Yo ED!" He shouted. He was leaning up against one of the lockers looking intently down at someone who was blocked by the sea of teenagers. He turned towards us at the sound of his name and I couldn't help but burst into a glowing smile. When I saw him yesterday, for a second all I could feel was fear. He was drunk, not as drunk as usual and I expected it was wearing off by the time I came round. But still it was a shock to the system, but I never thought he would just magically get better after rehab, It would take time.

Edward raised a hand and then went back to looking at Rosalie. Rosalie? He said something to her, nodded and then she glanced once at me and Emmett, smiling a little and walked away. With Edward by her side.

My smile dropped. "Wha?" Emmett and I said together.

Emmett balled a fist and punched it into the middle of his other hand. Weird. Very, very weird. The bell made us both jump.

"Gotta rocket Bella", he grinned, but his eyes were still worried. Edward with Rosalie… well they were kind of friends, but … well usually he'd at least acknowledge me… but today… on my birthday he didn't.

Mr. Harris my English teacher started to tell us that he was going to starts on Keats and I gazed out the window, ignoring everything. The view wasn't anything spectacular, just the parking lot and the trees, the forest. But better than Mr. Harris pimply face.

" Bella Swan."

My head swiveled toward the front of the classroom.

"You're wanted in the office."

I blinked. Why the hell would I be needed in the office? I hadn't done anything. Hell I hadn't even been in the freaking school two weeks. It had to be paper work or something like that. I got my books and nodded to the teacher, slipping out of the room. The halls were scarily empty, the only sounds coming from the vague voices of the many teachers as I passed their classrooms.

When I eventually reached the office, I knocked but no one answered. I pressed the handle down and the door swung open.

"Hello Isabella", Edward said, looking out at me from under his sooty eyelashes.

I stepped back. " What are you doing in here?"

" Come on in", he bowed mockingly.

I lowered my brows in confusion, half shaking my head. " What is this."

Behind me he locked the door, and the sound was oddly unsettling.

" Hello Bella," An overly sweet voice said.

Okay. Now I was more confused than a turtle in a hedgehogs bed. "Rose?"

Edward moved to step beside her. "I realized I never gave you my answer Isabella."

" I know you didn't and stop calling me that," I snapped, annoyed at him for putting me in this strange situation. Really I felt butterflies fizzing around in the pit of my stomach. Something was most definitely wrong.

He stretched out an arm and put it round my waist, pulling me in and crushing his lips to mine. It was all wrong, rough and bad and insincere.

" Get off!" I pushed him back.

He wiped his lips with the back of his hand, and spit on the ground. " You're so fucking boring Isabella."

" Edward… Calm", Rosalie said laying a finger on the top of his arm. He took a deep breath in through his nose, closing his eyes. As he breathed back out, his eyes flung open and he glared.

"I don't love you. I don't love you, and I never will." My heart just dropped and I stared at the floor, completely … just... how could.. how could he… and so cruelly.

"Actually Rose and I have been together for ages."

"Like tighter together" she added.

Breath, Bella Breath. I didn't know it was possible to feel like this. It's like the whole world around me has just fallen away. I start to tremble.

"When you confessed I really had to try not to laugh. I mean did you really think someone like you, boring, limp, ugly Isabella Swan, would look anyway good with me? Did you think I would actually want to be with you? That you ever had a chance?"

"Edward… stop. Okay I get it you don't love me. Fine. There's no need for this."

He gripped Rosalie's hand tightly and my eyes couldn't help but rest on their fingers intertwined. It was the only thing that existed for a moment.

" I'm sick of you stalking me, sick of you following me around like a stupid little puppy. It was fun for a while, we had a nice laugh about it, but I'm over it. From now on can you just stick to your own fucking life?"

I swallowed and bought my eyes up to meet his. I taught maybe I'd see some sign that he was joking, some sign that this was all just some stupid act. Till I saw stone cold resolve. And amusement.

" We are sorry, Bella, but you really just wouldn't take no for an answer. We even considered a restraining order", she giggled.

My eyes widened and I took a step back. "I I I… Edward … you're not serious about this are you?"

He looked straight at me when he said. "Deadly. You were never supposed to be a part of my life. You really weren't supposed to be a fucking annoying stalker."

When he said that my calm appearance came crashing down. I started to shake and I really couldn't breath. It was like my airways were closing or something. I kept my eyes on the ground. Edward was….

" Open the fucking door now. " Emmett bellowed from outside. " Right now Cullen. I'm going to fuck your brains in."

Edward sighed and slipped by me, right be me, opening the door. Emmett thundered in. I'd never really seen Emmett angry, never seen him curse. Ever, but he pummeled into Edward, his fist raised and swiped him right across the jaw. Edward knocked into the photo copier and Rose rushed over to him. Emmett turned to me. "Are you okay, Bella? Bella?" He shook me.

"Is she alright?" Mr. Harris and the principle came in through the door.

Emmett took my hand kneeling down in front of me. " Bella honey, I need you to talk."

I couldn't look at him. I was so humiliated so embarrassed so… " How did you know? I managed to get out."

He took a deep breath. " It was on the intercom." I looked up at the ceiling. "Oh god." I let go of Emmett's hand. I pushed past the teacher trying to help me. The bell rang as I hurried down the hall and people came out of there classrooms giggling and laughing.

"Oh my god did you hear?"

"Bella swan?"

"Stalker."

I crashed into the girls' bathroom, throwing myself into one of the cubicles. And started sobbing. There was just this hole in my chest now, this humungous, dark hole. How could anything ever feel right again?

EPOV.

I broke her. I knew it. I just knew it. But I had to do it. This pain she would need to suffer from, to get away from me. To get away from the monster that I was. It wouldn't take her that long, I hoped. Even if we had ever gotten together… it wouldn't have been for as long. Better now, than later. Better she get away from me and be able to live her life. Better for everyone.

Emmett couldn't even look at me. We were outside the principles office, sitting in green cushioned wicker chairs. Evidently using the schools intercom system was not allowed. But we knew that, Rosalie and I. But we knew we'd have to make it a clean break before she would ever give up. That girl just had too much faith in me.

" Why did you do it man. After everything that girl has done for you."

Bella. Bella who could have been my Bella. " I had to do it Em. I had to. You were right, I was only going to cause her pain. I'd only hurt her more in the long run. I need her to be away from me. I'm sorry." I turned away with shame as red hot tears began to fall like flaming lava down my face. " Oh god I'm so sorry."

BPOV.

"Hello", a high pitched voice called. Someone rapped on the door. "Hello! Open this door crying girl."

What the hell? I kicked at the door furiously to make her go away.

"Look here", the voice said. "I'm trying to help. Come out, come out wherever you are." I flushed the toilet which was full to the brim with my tissues and opened the door to tell the voice be on her way.

Standing in front of me, beaming was the tiniest girl ever, with shoulder length black hair and sparkling eyes.

She cocked her head to one side. "You don't look so good. Are you Bella?"

I nodded miserably. Everyone knew.

" I'm Alice. And I'm the chairperson of The "Boys Are Devils" club. Wanna join?"

I smiled weakly at the peppy girl. She opened her arms. "Come here." I didn't move. For god sake." She gripped me, pulling me in for a hug. "I know you don't know me, but I think we should be friends. How about we burn down the Cullen's house tonight. And roast marshmallows over the remains."

This time I laughed. I liked Alice from the first moment I met her. Out of all the people in the entire school, she was the one person who tried to make me feel better. When we came out of the toilets there were a lot of stares, a lot of laughs and whispering.

" What's your fucking problem?" Alice cried as we walked. She was strong for an imp. When we came to the principals office, I knew he would want to see me. Alice glanced up at me. "Let's ignore Mr. principle for today."

I nodded. " Yes. Lets."

I walked into Emmett's burly chest as I turned away from the office.

"Bella", he grabbed my shoulders. "Are you okay? Oh god, I'm so sorry about that jerk, I'm so sorry." Like Alice he pulled me into him. When he let me go, I gave him smile. "I'll be okay Em. You don't have to worry about me. Alice is going to take me home."

" Yup" she popped her p." Alice pointed to herself then me." Girl time."

He gave her an odd but amused look. " I'll call you later then. Promise."

I nodded, and went home to cry. Again.

EPOV.

I got zero sleep last night and I was like a fucking walking zombie. I'd ruined Bella. She was the talk of the school, along with me and Rose.

It was pretty much fifty-fifty on who they talked about more. Bella the stalker and Rose and Edward the couple in love. Or Edward and Rose the dickheads, Bella the sweet innocent. I kept having to tell myself it would all be worth it. Eventually. I hoped.

Rosalie got into my volvo, kissing me on the cheek. I tried not to shudder. " Lets go boyfriend." As part of the deal, I agreed to go out with Rose. It didn't matter. I was sort of numb. I'd just have to hope that she was like At school we were shot with curious look upon deathray look. Emmett was short with me. But he still talked to me. And then the halls went quiet. Bella. The doors opened, and by her side yapped a small dark hired girl. And Bella was smiling faintly. She looked down at the floor as people stared. I was bracing myself for it, bracing for the look she would give me, betrayed hurt, sorrowful, angry. Instead she looked right by me. As if I never existed. She just walked. Right. By.

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