Chapter 9, finally! I'm so sorry for making you wait this long, but I had to deal with writersblock, a few dates.. and I had to visit the dentist last week, today and next week archhh I'm feeling very bad right now.

Feliciano's point of view

Ludwig has been living with us for a month now, even though he can't get along with Lovino.

My brother's a very difficult person when it comes to Germans..

I still remember the day my father told Lovino about the situation.. I was upstairs but I could hear him shout very clearly. " I don't want to live with that fucking Nazi !" I can't get this out of my head while I'm walking to the market together with my father. Ludwig's at home with Lovino right now and it makes me worried. Lovino treats him badly, he doesn't want to have dinner with him at the same table.. which is why Ludwig has to eat in my bedroom. He has been complaining about the lack of food everyday, saying it's all Ludwig's fault, even though Ludwig only eats four times a week.. Lovino made him clean the house everyday and told him to stay inside my bedroom for the rest of the day. My father didn't say a thing about it because he loves Lovino.

Ludwig's point of view

I watch Lovino sipping his glass of water . He seems to be angry about something, holding the glass tightly enough to almost break it.

" Is something wrong? can I help?" I ask him, trying to be polite.

" Yes, by getting out of my way, I can't stand looking at you" He replies angrily.

" I-I'm sorry , I thought.. maybe I could help you with your work for the Resistanza? I know a lot about..." but he cuts me off

"I won't tell you anything about it! I don't trust you. You will help us, then go back to the SS and betray us. I'm not crazy"

" I would never do that.. I respect you and your family a lot"

" Please SHUT UP! I hate you and the way you speak, your fucking accent makes it impossible to understand what you're saying!"

He's very harsh to me, but of course he's right..

Lovino forgets about the glass he's still holding and it slips out of his hands onto the ground.

" Fuck!"

" Let me help you" I try my very best to hide my accent, then immediately drop to my knees and start collecting the pieces of glass. It's still difficult for me to pick up small things and I cut myself several times, but I don't care I need to show him that I'm a good person.

Lovino watches me, clearly enjoying the sight of my bloody hands.

That's when Feliciano and his father enter the house, both holding a basket full of tomatoes.

" What happened?" Feliciano asks worriedly.

" I accidentally broke a glass and the Nazi wanted to help me clean up the mess" He's smiling broadly.

" Lovino how could you let him do that! Look at him! His hands. . "

" The bastard deserves it! "

I get up, wiping my hands on my shirt. " I think I should leave.. I'm nothing but trouble"

" What a wonderful idea!" Lovino sneers.

Both Feliciano and his father want to talk me out of it.

" I already made up my mind, I'll leave"

" Ludwig NO! There's no place to go!" Feliciano tries to hold back his tears.

" I'll think about something, don't worry about me" I don't know where to go but I need to get away and stop bothering this family. I don't want Feliciano to lose his family because of me.

"Feliciano, Lovino and mister Vargas , thanks for taking care of me. I'll never forget your kindness" I turn and go upstairs to collect my few belongings.

Feliciano's coming after me, he almost trips over his own feet to get to me.

" Ve, Ludwig don't go ! It's all my fault, where are you going?"

I'm on my knees , putting my stuff into the bag again.

" I'm going home to get my uniform.. then I go back to the headquarters "

" But Ludwig, that's insane! What if they think you killed Meier! and I-I thought you didn't want to be a SS soldier anymore"

" I have no other choice, I will tell them I got kidnapped by someone"

" But.. but.. but you're still sick! Ludwig please, I love you!" He's crying.

" Feli, come here" I wrap my arms around him and kiss him softly, my lips barely touching his. " Don't cry.. I'll be fine. Just promise me you will be careful little one. "

" When do we see each other again?" He doesn't stop crying.

" Soon. .I promise.. and then we will make love, like our first night together. Ich liebe dich Feliciano" I touch his cheek very gentle and kiss him one more time before I let go of him.

" I hate this.. please don't go! "

"I have to.. or your brother will kill me the next time. He can't get along with me.. and he's right, a German shouldn't live with you in this house.. Bye Feliciano, I'll see you soon"

Feliciano's point of view

I hate my brother for this! Why do I have to be this weak? I can't stop crying when he smiles at me, then turns and disappears down the stairs. I hear the front door click.

My beautiful German.. I already miss him, his smile.. his hair.. his eyes.. his body.

Ludwig's point of view

Leaving his house is the hardest thing I ever had to do. It feels very strange when I enter my apartment. Meier's body is gone and so are the bloodstains.

I'm feeling somewhat scared to be here all alone, being uncertain about the future. I decide to call mein Bruder...

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