Notes:
-Sorry for the delay but it was difficult to write this chapter because I don't understand love relations. I'm so alone and I like it jajaja I'm joking ;) Also I have some many ideas that I wrote different chapters at same time.
-Some of the dialogue and scenes are taken from 3X12. I don't owe any of this, they belong to the CBS, producer and screenwriters
-The lyrics are from Despina Vandi's song: Fantasou apla
Callen and Robbie were at their secret place, Griffith Observatory. It wasn't really a secret because it was full of tourists and locals every day. However, it was perfect for them. They could relax and escape from their works. It was a sunny afternoon and the sun was starting to disappear. They were sitting on the edge of a wall with Los Angeles at their feet sharing some chicken bought in KFC.
-"I never thought I was going to like this place" said Robbie
-"Why do you think that?"
-"Well, you know L.A. isn't my ideal city. Very big, full of posh people"
-"And what is your ideal city?"
-"For example: Durham. It isn't too big, 'few people', natural environment. Except from the weather, it's a lovely city"
-"You miss your home?"
-"Kind of. Don't get me wrong, I have been far away from home many many times but this one is different. I know more about Hetty. I met you"
-"Hope that was the best part of it"
Callen get closer to Robbie and hug him with one arm.
-"It was" said Robbie looking at Callen. He kissed the man's cheek. Callen feel that Robbie's mind was far away.
-"It's everything alright?" asked G
-"Yeah. Sure. Of course." said Robbie trying to smile
-"You know you can talk with me" said Callen
-"It's just that I'm gonna miss this"
-"What do you mean?" asked G
-"Never mind" said Robbie.
-"It's alright babe" said Callen
-"Have you called me babe?" laughed Robbie
-"I think I just did it"
-"Don't ever say that again" said Robbie
-"You don't like it?"
-"Nope" said Robbie "What if I call you honey or sweetie?"
-"I will have to kill you" joked Callen
Robbie ran his hand down G's cheek and whispered in his ear "Honey". Callen started a tickle fight and kissed Robbie on the lips. They watched the sunset embraced.
…
-"Can I ask you a question?" asked Robbie to V. Robbie was lying on the couch and V was sitting beside him. Both were watching TV. Susan was upstairs in Hetty's office working.
-"That's a question" laughed V
-"You know what I mean"
-"Okay. Shoot"
-"That's my question. Would you teach me to shoot?"
V was caught off guard. He turned off the TV with the remote control. "Why do you want to shoot?"
-"I want to be a NCIS agent" V laughed loudly. "I'm being serious"
-"You are not good for that"
-"You don't know that"
-"Oh, I know it" said V "But the question is why" Robbie looked down and V discovered the answer. One of V's qualities was to read people, like a psychologist. "I see. Have you talked to Hetty or to him?"
-"I want but I don't know how to start"
V phoned Hetty with his cell phone. He talked to her for some minutes, although his answers were Yes, I know, but and so on.
-"Get ready, I'm taking to the NCIS"
-"I thought I was punished"
-"You still are. Hetty wants to talk with you and I'm looking forward to seeing it"
-"I thought we were friends"
Both laughed. They were friends but V always teases the English man. Robbie got ready and the two men went to the NCIS headquarters. Hetty was waiting in her office drinking tea with a very serious look. She didn't say anything to the men, just an approach signal.
-"Here we are" started V "Robbie has something to tell you"
-"We can leave it for another moment" said Robbie
-"Be strong" said V "Come on"
-"Could you leave us alone Mr. Larke?" asked Hetty
-"I'm waiting outside"
V left Hetty and Robbie talking. The old lady was looking directly to Robbie with her arms crossed and without saying anything. Robbie was feeling intimidated and small. He shrinks in the chair.
-"So, an agent?" asked Hetty
-"Yes"
-"You want to serve this great nation?"
-"I won't call it great nation" said Robbie
-"Try again"
-"I want to change the world"
-"You want to change the world" repeated Hetty "And how are you going to do that?"
-"I don't have a plan yet"
-"Why?"
-"Why?" repeated Robbie doubtfully. He sighed and said: "Because I am in love"
-"Try again"
-"Because" Robbie stopped for a moment. His only reason was G "Because I don't want to leave him"
-"Mr. McNamara, he is not going to allow you to work here" said Hetty "Agent Callen loves you so much that isn't going to put you in danger"
-"I can be trained to avoid dangers"
-"It's not that simple" said Hetty "You are not like them"
-"I can be one of them"
-"I know you can" said Hetty "Does he knew your intentions"
-"I know the answer, I don't need a confirmation"
-"Maybe you'll get surprise" said Hetty "Mr. Callen isn't like you think he is. He will understand your decision."
-"I don't know Hetty" said Robbie "I'll be sad if I leave him and I'll be sad if he left his life for me"
-"Why are you going to be sad? I thought you were happy with him"
-"I am happy with him but I can't let someone change for me. To leave so much behind. There's a little voice inside me that says: You don't deserve it"
-"How can I make you change your opinion?"
-"I don't think you can"
-"Just talk to him" said Hetty "If things don't how as you expected then I'll see what I can do"
"I want to talk you" texted Robbie to Callen. Few minutes later Callen answered.
"Middle of an important case" Robbie didn't reply to that and Callen noticed so he decided to call him. He could because he was inside Sam's car going to find a suspect.
-"Sorry" said Callen
-"It's okay." said Robbie.
-"Robbie, babe" said Callen. Sam smiled a little bit. He had never heard Callen say that to anyone. Callen noticed that "Maybe you should slow down a little bit"
-"Maybe you should remember our rule to not criticise each other's driving"
-"I'm not criticising I just don't want to lose the Five-0 guys" said Callen. They were in a joint mission with the Five-0 Hawaiian cops
-"We talk later" said Robbie ending the phone conversation
Callen hang off the phone call and sighed deeply. Inside the car there was an awkward moment between Sam and G.
-"Maybe you and I should retire on a nice warm island" said G broking the silence
-"What about my family?" asked Sam
-"You could bring them"
-"Oh, thanks"
-"Mean it. After this is all over, we gotta settle down somewhere nice and quiet. Some fishing, golfing, building things"
-"Kind of things?"
-"I don't know" said Callen "Whatever guys build when they are retiring. Hobby stuff."
-"Hobby stuff" repeated Sam
-"Yeah"
-"You don't fish and you don't golf"
-"I'm not retired" said Callen
-"You don't have any hobbies. Only way a guy like you retire is with a bullet"
-"Nice. Thanks." said Callen "Tell that to Robbie next time you see him"
-"What I meant to say is I can't see you giving this up. Alright?"
-"Then say that. Don't jinx me by saying I'm gonna get you know what. I've been you know what several times"
-"Alright, alright." said Sam. They stay silence until Sam realizes one thing. "Are you thinking to give up?"
-"It's a possibility" said Callen
-"What!?" asked Sam "Since when you made that decision?"
-"A couple of days ago"
-"Why? How?"
-"I have notice that Robbie is absent with me. I think it's because he is leaving soon."
-"When is he leaving?"
-"Two months and six days"
-"So, are you going to England with him?"
-"I thinking about it seriously"
-"Have you talked with Hetty about this?"
-"Not yet. I want to talk with Robbie first"
The case was solved before night falls in Los Angeles. Callen picked his bag from the Locker room and left the headquarters. He went to Apollo's lounge because it was a day when Robbie has to work and the young man has something to tell him.
The concert was going to start so Callen sat down at the bar. When he found Robbie, G made a good luck sign with his glass. The concert went very well. It was very lively and colourful. Robbie approached Callen and kissed the man's neck.
-"You still surprise me" said Callen
-"It's an innate quality that I have" smiled Robbie
-"One of these days you have to tell me how you know so many different songs"
-"Musical culture they call it" Robbie ordered a glass of water with lemon.
-"So, what you wanted to talk before?"
-"It's not an appropriate topic to talk about here"
-"Wanna take you home?"
-"Thanks"
Robbie drinks his drink and picked his stuff. He went inside Callen's car.
-"If you don't mind, I want to go to my house"
-"No problem"
Half of the journey was silence.
-"You look distracted" said Callen
-"Me? No, no." said Robbie "It's just that I was thinking about stuff?"
-"What kind of stuff?"
-"Your work" said Robbie
-"Oh, really?"
-"Yes" said Robbie "Do you mind if I become an agent?"
Callen was so surprised by the question that abruptly slowed the car. There was a car behind them that nearly crash with them. G didn't know what to say. He was going to let Robbie risk his life.
-"Robbie. You can't be an agent"
-"Why?"
-"Because you can't. I can't lose you. Not like that"
-"Alright" Robbie didn't want to continue with the topic because he wasn't going to convince Callen. "Could you take me home?"
Callen left Robbie in his house and said goodbye with a kiss in his cheek. G needed to think. Robbie's plan was too dangerous. He wasn't even prepared. G hated the idea to see Robbie die on active service.
...
The team ended successfully another case and G was finishing some paperwork. He didn't have time to think about future. His future. Was it time to settle down with a family? To leave his work and live in 'peace'? To stop worrying about returning safely each day?
However, he couldn't do that to his team. They have lived many things together. Good and bad and dangerous. G wasn't that prepare to leave those things behind. Sam was right; Callen wasn't a man that gives up so easily. Callen was a man of action not someone who gets angry if his favourite TV series is cancelled. Callen was a lone wolf.
But in the other hand there was Robbie. The happy English man that doesn't care about the future. The most different optimistic peculiar person Callen has met. The guilty one that has made G to rethink his life. Robbie was the only one which Callen let into his life. He is the only one who told him his secrets. His concerns. His past. However, Robbie's intentions were hard to assume.
"Why does it have to be so difficult?" said Callen to himself. He couldn't choose. G stretched in the chair and covers his face with his hands. He decided to leave with his work unfinished. He wasn't concentrating. He needs some fresh air. Callen got in his car and went to Robbie's home to surprise him.
With the windows down and the air touching his face, Callen started to remember all the things he did with Robbie. The day he met him; when Robbie made such a good impression and introduction to Callen. The day when Callen realized that he wanted to know more about the young man. Their first date. Their beach days. The day when Robbie came to NCIS with a birthday cake. They trip to Las Vegas. The nights at their secret place.
Callen grinned. Robbie had marked Callen for the rest of his life. G wondered how it was possible. He took many precautions to not get too attached to Robbie. But with the English man things were different. He was attractive, not only in a physical way but also in a physiological way. Callen didn't know how and when he dropped his guard with Robbie and stop being himself.
G finally reached Robbie's house. He knocked the door and rang the bell. However, no one opened the door. There was someone inside because some lights were on. G put his ear to the door trying to hear the inside. He listen the sound of guitar. Callen tried again knocking the door and ringing the bell, this time loudly.
-"We don't want anything, thank you" said Robbie from inside
-"It's me". The young man opened the door with a big smile. Nonetheless, Callen feel that Robbie wasn't happy as he pretended. Robbie's eyes were red. He was crying. Callen didn't want to push forward so he decided to kiss and hug Robbie. "What were you doing?"
-"I was writing and composing"
-"Cool! Can I hear it?"
-"It's not finished"
-"I don't care"
Callen sat down on the couch in the living room while Robbie sat on a chair in front of G with some kind of guitar.
-"You want the original version or the English one?" asked Robbie while he was searching for the perfect tune.
-"What's the original?"
-"It's in Greek" said Robbie "Do you know Greek?"
-"Nope" said Callen "I'll pick the English version"
-"The Greek" said Robbie cutting the conversation
Robbie started to play the song without looking at Callen. He wasn't able to sing that song for looking at his boyfriend.
Fandásu aplá to rádio horís tragúdia
fandásu aplá tin ániksi horís lulúdia
fandásu aplá stathmús horís na ipárhun tréna
échi tha 'muna horís eséna
Fandásu aplá mia karaméla díhos glíka
fandásu aplá éna kafé yemáto píkra
ìsos metá na katalávis pos to théma íne na 'ho eséna
Callen did not understand any single word but he feel it was sincere. He deduces it was about their relationship. It was Robbie talking to him. Still, G got lost in the young man strong voice and the sound of the guitar. However, the music suddenly stopped.
Robbie stood up and went out the living room crying. He didn't even look at Callen.
"Robbie" said Callen following him. "Robbie, come back. Please" The young man locked the bathroom leaving G out. Callen hear crying from the other side. "Robbie, why are you crying?" He didn't get a response. "The song wasn't bad. I like it. You have a beautiful voice" That wasn't working. G tried to open the door. "Could you open the door?" G tried to act like Robbie. "I want to use the bathroom".
Suddenly Robbie said something. "There is another one upstairs"
-"I want to use this one"
There was silence for some long seconds and Robbie opened the door. Callen looked at him. Robbie was sad looking down and tears falling. Callen was feeling sad too. He lifted Robbie's head but the young man avoided eye contact.
-"Look at me, please" said Callen "I beg you"
Robbie do so. Their eyes met. The English man was feeling stupid. He saw sadness and worry inside the man's blue eyes. He hugged Callen tightly.
-"I, I'm sorry G"
G tried to comfort the English man the best he could. He ran his hand gently on the back of Robbie.
-"I'm being so childish" said Robbie between sobs
-"Don't say those things. You are not an idiot"
-"I am, Callen" said Robbie "It had to be a perfect night and I am here crying like a fucking baby. It's frustrating"
-"Shh" said Callen "It can be a perfect night. Clean your face. I am going to prepare you dinner"
While Robbie was in the bathroom, Callen went to the kitchen to cook. It was a big kitchen full of food. It was completely different from his. G didn't know where to star and what to cook. He opened cupboards and drawer looking for a cook book. He found one. He opened and started to read. The recipes are way too difficult to him. By surprise, Robbie scares him with a shout. Callen jumped a little bit.
-"That means you are happy and calm now?" said Callen
-"Yeah, I think. There's a silent storm inside me that's killing me" said Robbie "So, what's for dinner?"
-"I don't know. These recipes are hard to understand!"
-"Come off it!" said Robbie grabbing the book "Let me see, let me see" Robbie looked for an easy recipe. However, there were plates that are slow to do. "Let's see what we have on the fridge"
-"I told you" said Callen. Robbie answered hitting Callen's head softly with the cook book. "Ouch"
-"Stop complaining" laughed Robbie.
The tension between them had disappeared. It was a happy environment but both, Robbie and Callen, knew they have to talk about the future. Robbie was leaving L.A. in two months exactly.
-"Do you like fish?" asked Robbie with his head inside the fridge
-"You could say so" said Callen leaning against the hob
-"Great" said Robbie. The English man taking out a tray covered on silver foil. "Do you mind if I put some music while I'm cooking?"
-"Not at all except if you put Dollie" said Callen trying to tease Robbie
-"Just for that you won't have dinner" Callen approached Robbie with a puppy face. "God, don't do that again"
-"Why?" G kept the silly face
-"Because you look like a fool" laughed Robbie
Callen tried to help Robbie in the kitchen but he wasn't very helpful. He never had cooked although he made easy plates. He accidentally hinders Robbie so the English man ordered G to sit down and don't move. Robbie finished cooking. He prepared fish and chips for them. Meanwhile, G set the table. They have dinner in silence exchanging love glances and smiles. In the background some music was played. One song makes Robbie to stand up: Nous les amourex from Jean-Claude Pascal.
-"May I have this dance?" asked Robbie to G making a reverence
-"Sorry, but I don't dance" said Callen
-"Please"
-"I can't say no to you"
Callen stood up in front of Robbie without really knowing how to start. Robbie took the initiative guiding Callen's hand to his shoulder. Then Robbie put his hand on Callen's hip. With the other hand he grabbed G's free hand strongly. Following the music, Robbie started to move and so do Callen.
-"Let yourself go G"
-"I'm trying"
Callen wasn't a good dancer. He was like a dizzy duck. His moves were awkward and short. He tried to relax and follow Robbie's instructions. G finally did it and his moves followed the music. Robbie and Callen looked at each other. They could see the soul of the other. It was a mystical connection between them. They realize in that moment that they need each other.
The song ended but they continued dancing. It was like they fall into a deep trance. After their moment of downturn, they need these. Their bodies move as one. They could even know what the other was thinking. Both were thinking about future.
-"I want to be with you" said Robbie broking the silence
-"We are going to be together" said Callen
-"What do you mean?"
-"I want a life with you" said Callen kissing Robbie.
-"What about your work?" asked Robbie "It's more important than me" Robbie tried to separate from Callen but the men didn't let him.
-"Nothing is more important than you"
-"I can't let you give up your life here"
-"But you can let me abandon you?"
-"No. I mean" said Robbie "I don't know what I mean" He cry again
-"Why do you throw me away from your side?" said Callen "Don't you love me anymore?"
-"Of course I love you. More than anything. That's why I can't"
-"But why?"
-"I just I can't, okay" shouted Robbie
-"So, that's it? You are breaking with me?" said Callen. A romantic night has become a farewell night.
-"I don't want to break with you"
-"Then just tell me why you are doing this!" shouted Callen "After all I've done for you"
-"You did it because you want it"
-"I did it because I love you and this is how you pay me" said Callen "All this has been a game for you."
-"That's not true" said Robbie "You're the best thing that ever happened to me. That's why I can't ask you to change"
-"You have change me" said Callen "Maybe you don't realize but you did. I can't imagine my life without you" Callen hugged Robbie tightly "I won't let you go"
Both of them cried. They draw out their feelings. Robbie calm down while G still crying. At that moment, Robbie realized. Callen was the appropriate for him. Callen understand him and protect him. They were two jigsaw pieces that matched perfectly.
Callen and Robbie were embraced long time in the middle of the kitchen without moving. They didn't know how much time passed, minutes maybe hours. They didn't care.
-"Why don't we go to bed? It's late and you need to rest" said Callen. Robbie nodded and guided G to their room.
Robbie changed clothes while G just undressed. They went to the bed. Callen was face up looking at the ceiling while Robbie was resting his head on G's chest. G ran his hand through Robbie's hair up and down and making circles. Both stay in silence thinking and enjoying the moment.
Robbie was feeling very bad for Callen. He wasn't treating his boyfriend very well. Callen was fighting for the relation and Robbie was running away from his happiness. Although he has many concerns inside his mind, Robbie falls asleep quickly.
-"I know you don't want but I am going with you" said Callen when he feel the deep breath of Robbie. G kissed the English man's head and tried to get some sleep.
