"Leah, what is that about?" Sam asked putting his grip on me, to stop me.
"Sam, it's nothing okay!" I said frustrated trying to get loose from his grip.
"No, it's not nothing. There's something going on here. I can sense the tension between you two." he said holding my arms tighter.
"Look, Sam. Just drop it. It has nothing to do with you. It's just nothing okay?" I said taking a deep breath, again trying to get away from his hold on me.
"Leah, are you in trouble?" he asked determined to not letting me go.
"No!" I cried. "I am not in trouble!"
"Your lying. Remember, I know you very well. I know when you are lying to me. You cant fool me." he said.
"Why does everybody think they know me?" I asked frustrated. "Everybody thinks they know me very well. Well guess what? They don't know me as well as they think they do."
I am in a very foul mood.
"Are you in trouble, Leah?" Sam asked again holding my gaze.
Oh Jesus Christ. Why wont this man let it go?
"Leah." he said. "Do owe him money or something?"
"Sam." I begged. "Please just let it go." I said as I pushed his arm's off me.
"Leah, please tell me what's going on." he begged. "Don't shut me out."
My foul mood just got worse.
"You're the one to talk, Sam!" I yelled.
Gosh, what a hypocrite.
"You shut me out too, remember? If I remember correctly three years ago, you threw away everything we had together so you could be with my cousin. You shut me out, Sam! I was so hurt. It killed me that you would go throw what we had so that you can have this fling with her. I hope it was worth it! If I am shutting you out now, than it serves you right."
"Leah." he said. "I am sorry. I never meant to hurt you. But don't shut me out. Are you in danger?"
"No, Sam I am not in danger." I said. "I am okay. You don't need to worry about me. I am not yours anymore. You don't need worry about poor old Leah. I don't need your pity, Sam. I can take care of myself. I have a man anyways. And he takes care of me just fine." I said lying about the last part about him taking care of me.
"Lee, how can you say that? I am not pitying you. I care for you. I always will. You know I do Lee-lee. For as long as I am here in this world, I will always have this need and desire to take care of you."
"Sam, I know you care. You have an imprint. Her name is Emily. You pledge to take care of her. Isn't that part of the whole deal? You made your choice to leave me for her. I don't need you to worry about me, or for you to take care of me. I am doing fine. I got through college, and now I have an amazing job. I have a boyfriend. I have a place to live. I don't need you to worry about me. I am grateful that you saved me from that creep. But please don't spend your time worrying about me. And that guy who showed up is my ex boyfriend before you. I can handle him. I am not in danger. I can handle myself." I said rambling.
"So this current boyfriend are you serious about him?" Sam asked expressionless.
"Yes. We been together for two and half years. In fact today is our anniversary. So yea, we are pretty serious." I said. The anniversary he forgot. I thought sadly. The anniversary that he wanted to go out and have an affair with another woman. It was suppose to be a happy day.
I wonder what he is doing now? I have three probabilities on what he might be doing. A: Go out and get wasted, like he always do when there is a problem. B: In the apartment drinking his sorrow away, waiting for me. Or C, go to that slut's place and have sex. Take your pick, it is one of those three possibilities. Sober is not one of them right now. I know him. It was the same thing I do when I was with Royce. I drink away my problems, the same way he did. I just don't drink nearly as much as Jake does. But I been sober the day that I messed up. I promised myself if I can keep my horrible secret hidden, my bargain is that I would never drink again. So far I kept the end of my bargain. That is if Royce don't rat me out.
"Oh." he said. "Do you plan on marrying him?" he asked.
I looked at him. Why is he asking me these things?
"He never asked me to be his wife." I said carefully. To be truthful, I never really thought about it. I only dream of being one person's wife. And that person is standing right in front of me. And that man is married to my cousin.
"Do you want to be his wife?" he asked.
"Okay, what is up with the questions?" I asked warily.
"I want to know, Lee." he said. "I am just wondering. So do you want to be his wife?"
Do I want to be his wife?
A long time ago, if he asked me this, I would of immediately said yes. But now with all the problems, the last thing I want is marriage. I love Jake. Well most of the time. I love him when things are good between us. So do I want to marry him? Right now, no. But Sam don't need to know that. Sam don't need to know about my problems with my boyfriend. After all he got his perfect wife waiting for him when he gets home anyways. Speaking of why is he here?
"Yes." I said. "If he proposed I would say yes. And by the way why are you here in LA?" I asked.
"I am here on a business trip." he said.
"Oh." I said. "Emily must be lonely."
"It's just a few days. Plus she has Carrie- Ann to keep her occupied."
"Carrie- Ann?" I asked.
"Yes, she's our daughter."
"Oh." I said my heart shattering. Hearing for the first time he was getting married to Emily hurt like hell. But that was a while back. But hearing he had and daughter with her hurts even more. Especially when he is standing right in front of me when he told me this new information.
I am jealous. I wish more than everything in this world that I could be the one he called wife. I wish it was me that he had kids with. I wish it was me he imprinted on.
I am so jealous that I am not thinking straight. I saw Jake walking out of the bar across the street. He was stumbling.
Oh great. He's drunk again.
Than the idea struck me.
This is as good as any time to introduce my boyfriend to Sam. I will show him that I moved on.
"Jake!" I called crossing the street.
Sam followed me.
"Leah!" Jake said slurring.
"Hey, baby." I said when I reached him.
"I miss you baby" he said tears streaming down his face.
I felt bad, as angry I am with him. Sometimes drunk Jake is so vulnerable like a child and my anger just fades away. And my need for taking care of Jake takes over.
"Hush, baby." I said gently. "I know."
He leaned in and kissed me drunkenly. "I- I do- d-don't want to fight with you." he whispered in my ears.
I almost couldn't understand him. Gee, how much did he had for drinks? I wondered.
"I know, honey." I said soothingly like a mother would do for a scared child.
"I am s-s-ory." he stumbled again.
" Baby, not now. Save your strength. You need it. Come on baby, there's someone I want you to meet. Jake honey, this is Sam Uley." I said pointing to him.
"Hi, Sammy! This is my girlfriend Leah! Don't you think she's pretty?" Jake slurred stumbling a little bit once again. I take my hand out to stable him.
"Baby, careful. How much did you have?" I asked.
"Five shots!" he said proudly.
"Hon, that is way too much. That's more than you ever drink before" I said leaning to kiss him in the lips. "But it means I will take care of my baby as always."
"I love you, angel." he said. I smiled. Angel is his nick name for me. He calls me Angel because he said I was pretty and perfect like one. It has been a while since he called me Angel.
"I love you too." I said. This is probably one of the better days since the day we were tickling each other the other day. Than to Sam I said. "This is my boyfriend I been telling you about."
"Oh." is all he said.
Jake stumbled again.
"Jake, honey." I said stabilizing him again. "I got you. Come on we need to go home. All right good seeing you again, Sam. Have a good life." I said to him.
"Leah." he said grabbling my arm. "Why are you with him?"
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"He's not the guy for you."
(alternative)
( two months later five in the evening)
"Leah?" Sam said as he walked in to the living room. "What's wrong?"
"Seth is going to marry that bitch, Kim." I said. "He knows I cant stand that gold digger. I cant believe he is going to marry her. She is going to be my sister in law!"
"Baby, keep your voice down or you are going to wake Azusena up."
"Sorry." I said sheepishly. "I cant stand her, Sam." I said lowering my voice in a few decibels.
"I know, honey." Sam said rubbing my back.
"We got to stop it. That bitch want nothing but my brother's money. I wont let my brother get hurt."
Well here we have it. Leah is mad and is trying to show Sam she moved on. And on the alterantive she is trying to stop her brother's wedding to Kim. All I can say is More drama on the way. Review please. I will update when I got the time.
