I tried my best not to babble on this letter - short and sweet. Renee's was a suprisingly hard letter to write, and I think that's because we see the least of her out of all the main characters in the books. However, I tried my best, and please don't hesitate to let me know if there should be any changes.
Enjoy:
Mom,
I don't know how much you know about my illness or how much both Charlie and Carlisle have told you. I am ill, and despite Carlisle's attempts and Edward's promises, I don't think I'm going to make it. There's only so much buttering up I can do, but when it all comes down to it, I think I'm going to die.
I bet you're a little annoyed, really, because we've hardly seen each other for so long and my phone calls get less and less frequent. There's a simple answer, and I know you'll agree: I fell in love. I understand that will never really make up for it, but it's an explanation you've got to accept. I guess it was hard to let me go, but in a way, it makes this separation easier. There is a small distance, now, between us, so when I go, you won't hit the floor as hard.
Do you remember, Mom, when Edward and I came to visit you last year? Edwards's parents, Esme and Carlisle, had bought me the tickets as a birthday present before he left and I'd never accepted such a present so thankfully. It was just so great to spend some time with you! And it was great to get some heat at last, after spending so much time in cold, rainy Forks. And you got to meet Edward properly.
I always wondered what you thought of him, whether you liked him, whether you thought I deserved such a gentleman, and basically your opinion of him. I find it hard to think you wouldn't like him because I do. We've always been very alike, Mom, and I'm so pleased that you brought me up the way you did. You always tried your best.
About you and Phil; I don't know why but I think you always assumed me moving to Forks was because of Phil, it wasn't really. I liked him enough, and I got on well with him. I didn't move because of Phil, I moved for you. You deserved to find love, like every one does. Being a mother really shouldn't take away that right. I saw the way you looked at him, pure love, and I finally see it in my own eyes. I didn't want to stand in the way of that - it wouldn't have been fair.
I think you know me very well (just as well as Charlie and Edward) so you know what foods I don't like, what things make me cry, when I'm lying.
Then you should know that I'm not lying now when I tell you I'm happy. I'm in love. And if I die, then I'll be dying a happy woman.
I need to ask you something, okay? Maybe, if you want to, you could share this letter with Phil, because he might have to help you! We all know how you can be. Do you remember when you were travelling back from your teaching course when I was ten? You left your suitcase in the trunk of the cab! We spent ages trying to locate it, you were so embarrassed!
Anyway, Mom, I need you to look after yourself. You know me, right? Well, I know you. I need you to try and keep things in some kind of order, remember to put the trash out in a morning and turn the tap off instead of letting the bath water run over. We both know you're capable of forgetting! And mainly, Mom, be happy. You found the love of your life now, and its unfortunate that it's not Charlie, but not the end of the world! I love you both, and that doesn't change because you're not together. So live your life fully with Phil, and do all the wacky things you did before… but safely! Please!? I don't want any visitors for a very long time if I go!
Is it every mother's dream to see their daughters get married? I don't know, especially with a mother like you! I was so scared to tell you Edward and me were engaged because I knew how against young marriages you were! Charlie was furious when he found out you gave into me so easily – I think he was hoping on you being the one to be hard on me. You gave me those beautiful hair clips that must have cost a bomb, and I felt so guilty accepting them.
I love you, Mom, forever and ever. You're like me in a lot of way, but unlike me in others. You don't embarrass quite as easily as me, nor do I forget as much as you. But we share something that every mother and daughter should share, if not something stronger. You were always more than a mother to me, Mom, you were my friend as well which is always something I valued – a Mom and a best friend all in one? Sounds like something of a commercial! Give my love to Phil, he's been great too, but keep most of my love for you.
Live your life as if I were here, Mom, as if nothing has changed.
Just in case
Bella, xx
I really hope you liked it, and as I said, it was quite difficult. I hope I included a good mixture of the past and the future, amongst the present too. I wanted Bella to remember some of the funny times with her Mom.
I would really really appreciate reviews on this! Especially being as Edward's letter is extremely close! You want to read his letter, don't you? I won't be so sure if you don't review :P
Sorry for being evil! I just know this story is getting a lot of hits, and not many reviews. They would be very much appreciated :)
Thanks for reading! x
