I kiss her back with all I've got. I kiss her like I never have before. It's passionate, but not at all demanding. We don't fight each other for dominance or try to push each other for more. We just enjoy the feel of each other I realize how sappy I'm starting to sound, but I'm not sure I care anymore. I'm starting to see that I don't mind the thought of spending every night in this woman's arms. Trusting her may not be easy, but I think it's possible. Maybe these feelings aren't as awful as I thought. I know that she's engaged to someone else, she's my teacher, and there's a bit of am age difference, but I don't care. We'll figure all those things later
"I love you too." Rachel whispers as we pull apart. I kind of figured that when she kissed me, but words can't describe how good it feels to actually hear it "What are we going to do? I'm engaged to Finn. Kurt and Mercedes are going to hate me for lying to them. I could lose my job-" I cut her off with a soft kiss
"Calm down, Rachel." I chuckle "I know that this won't be easy, but we'll figure it out. I'm graduating in a few months, so you won't be my teacher for long, I'm sure your friends won't hate you, but there will be some conflict there, and as for Finn," I take a deep breath before I continue "I'm sorry, Rachel, but I won't share you. It hurts too much to see you with him."
"Santana," Rachel's sighs heavily, running her fingers through her hair "That's easier said than done. I've been with Finn since I was sixteen. How can I look him in the eye and tell him it's over? How can I tell him that I can't marry him?" I wrap my arms around her and hold her tightly
"I know it'll be hard, but I'm here for you. However it happens, whenever it happens, I'll be by your side." I feel her nod against my chest "Where is Finn anyway?"
"I told him I was coming to check on you, so he said ok and left. He has to get to the dealership anyway." She explains as we pull apart "He said he'll be back for lunch." I just nod my head. It's not like I can get mad. Technically she's with him not me, but that doesn't mean I'm ok with it "If it makes you feel any better, Kurt and Mercedes will be there as well." I chuckle when she bites her bottom lip. She doesn't realize how adorable she is
"It does make me feel a little better." I smile before kissing her softly "I know we're talking about our relationship and all, but I've been dying to ask, how do you know Mercedes Jones?" Rachel smiles at my excitement, but can you blame me? It's Mercedes Jones!
"Mercedes and I went to high school together." She explains
"She went to high school here." I said as if she didn't know that. Actually everyone knows that she went to school here "You were a student here?"
"Yes I was. I actually grew up here." I look at her slightly confused. Lima is a very small town, how do I not know who she is? I thought everybody knew each other here "Are you a big fan of Mercedes?" She asks pulling me out of nh thoughts
"Who isn't? Although, I'll admit that I'm not as big a fan as Sam. That boy is like obsessed with her. He's got every song she's ever recorded and her episode of csi Miami on his iPod." I laugh at the craziness that is my best friend "I think his heart would stop if I told him that I actually met her."
"He's a huge fan, but you didn't tell him that you met her." She laughs
"I couldn't exactly tell him that she walked in on us making out." I feel guilty when Rachel stops laughing and nods
"That's true." I wrap my arms around her
"Everything will be ok." I whisper before I kiss her softly. Well it was suppose to be softly, but it grew more passionate when she grabbed my face and stuck her tongue in my mouth. Damn she's so aggressive today
"Santana!" Rachel and I pull apart and see my best friends standing down the hall. If it was anyone else I'd freak out, but Puck and Sam are cool. They already know that Rachel and I were making out, so I know they won't tell anyone. Plus, I trust these boys with my life. Rachel however, looks like she's about to pass out "We've been worried about you! Your mom called last night and said you took off!" Puck shouts. My first instinct is to tell him off, but I know I can't do that. Sam and Puck look so exhausted. I know they had to be up all night looking for me
"I'm so sorry." I whisper as I hug them "I should of called you guys, I don't even know why I didn't, but I'm so sorry." I feel like such a jackass. I could of at least tell them I was safe
"It's ok, San." Sam says as we pull apart "We're just glad that you're safe."
"Speak for yourself!" Puck shouts, causing me to flinch "I was so worried about you, Santana! It was killing me that I didn't know where you were! We were up all night searching for you! Then to find out that you were here with the teacher! You could of at least text us! Instead you show up here with her!"
"Enough!" I shout back "Don't talk about her like that! She really helped me out last night! I needed someone and Rachel-"
"Rachel?!" Puck shouts, shaking his head "You've been calling her that a lot lately! Are you sure that you don't have feelings for her? Because, you said so yourself that she was just another-"
"Stop! I'll tell you everything later, I promise, just please don't do this now. I'll tell you guys everything later."
"Don't bother, I don't want to hear it." Puck says before he storms out of the school. I start to run after him, only to be stopped by Sam
"Give him some time to cool off." I nod before turning to Rachel, who still looks mortified by the way "I'll go check on Puck." Sam says before running towards the door
"Don't worry about them." I say before holding Rachel's hands "They won't tell anyone what they saw. They know that I've been trying to get with you."
"You're sure they won't say anything?" She asks nervously
"Positive." I say before kissing her one more time "Class starts in like twenty minutes, so I'm going to shower in the locker room and change in my cheerio uniform that's in there. I'll see you later."
"Ok." She whispers before I head towards the locker room
Puck has been avoiding me all day and I can't take it. He's never been so mad at me before. Sure we've fought, but not like this. I know that I should of let them know where I was last night, but I didn't think that he would get this pissed off. It's so weird not talking to him. Sam even spent half of lunch with me and the other half with Puck, so we wouldn't think he was taking sides. Right now I'm headed to history and I'm determined to get Puck to talk to me
"Hey." I say as I approach my best friend "Please talk to me, Puck."
"I have nothing to say to you." He says, turning his head away from me. I feel tears build up, but I immediately stop them. I hate him being mad at me
"Santana," Rachel says from the front of the classroom "take your seat, please."
"I'm sorry." I whisper before sitting down at my desk
The rest of the lesson was spent with me trying to talk to Puck and him ignoring me. He wouldn't even look at me. I really need him right now. I know that he talked to my mom earlier and I have to know what she told him. I know that I got mad at my mom, but that doesn't mean that I want her to worry. Besides, I'm going to see my Dad as soon as the bell rings and I'm sure that he'll make me talk to her at some point
RING!
I watch as everybody jumps out of their seats and rum out of class. I try to talk to Puck again, but he rushes out of the room before I could get a word in. This totally sucks! I know he's angry with me, but I need to talk to him. Why can't he see how sorry I am?
"Are you ok, Santana?" Rachel asks, sitting at her desk
"He hates me." I say before I sit on top of her desk "He has every right to hate me."
"He doesn't hate you, Santana." She says comfortingly as she grabs my hands "He's just upset right now. I'm sure he'll get over it."
"I hope so." I say before kissing her "He's never been so mad at me before."
"You guys will be fine, I promise." I don't know what it is about Rachel, but I believe her. I believe everything she says "Now, I've got to ask you, where are you planning on going tonight?" I should of known she would ask that
"I'm going to my Dad's place." I say before jumping off the desk "I'm actually headed over there right now."
"Have you told your Dad?"
"About the fight with my mom?" I ask
"No." She shakes her head "Does he know that you're a lesbian?"
"Oh that." I chuckle "Yes he does. I actually told him when Brittany and I started dating. He's totally cool with it, said he already knew. Brittany and I aren't exactly subtle. If my mom paid attention more she probably would of known too."
"You and Brittany must of been very...affectionate if he saw it so clearly." Rachel says, her voice layered with jealousy. No! she can't do that!
"Don't do that. Don't sit there and act all jealous when Britt and I aren't even together anymore. Not when I have to watch you and your fiance together!" Rachel instantly looks guiltily, and I don't want that. I don't want to push her into leaving him. She has to do it when she's ready "I'm sorry, Rach. I shouldn't of said that."
"No, you're right. I can't get jealous over a girl you're not even seeing anymore. I'm sorry." I just nod before kissing her again
"I've got to go." I say as I grab my bag "I'll text you after I talk to my dad."
"Ok." She says, standing up and walking me to the door "I love you." I smile before kissing her. I will never get tired of hearing that
"I love you too."
I drive into my Dad's driveway and put my car in park. I know that he won't be happy when I tell him I yelled at my mom, but I hope he'll understand. I really just need for him to listen to me before my mom calls and says I attacked her. What if she already did call him? Shit! I didn't even think of that! She probably called him last night! He was probably worried all night too. I get out of my car and walk towards the door. I'm going to have to face him sooner or later. I walk through the door and see my mom sitting on the couch talking to my dad. They haven't even seen each other since the divorce. What the hell?
I KNOW WHAT YOU GUYS ARE THINKING "AN UPDATE? IT HASN'T BEEN OVER A MONTH." LOL I GUESS MY WRITER'S BLOCK WASN'T AS BAD AS I THOUGHT. I HOPE YOU GUYS LIKED IT! PLEASE REVIEW!
