Note 9
Qui-Gon,
I'm sorry too. I didn't mean to sound like I was going off on you. It's just that since I am such a young person…I'm young because the queen is young, and all the handmaidens must be the same age as the queen, so that they can serve as her decoy…anyway, since I am so young, very few people will look up to me. It's the same way with the queen, only worse. Many of the other government leaders think they know better because they are older, and it is very frustrating for her. I was just being hard on you because I am frustrated with our current circumstances.
Let's get off this planet as soon as possible. The sooner we reach Coruscant, the sooner we'll be safe.
What? You freed Anakin? What are you going to do with him? He's only 9 years old! What if the Jedi Council doesn't accept him for training? Then what? You just put a little boy out into the real world. He will have a hard time finding a job…most people wouldn't want a 9 year old to work for them. Are you going to send him to an orphanage? And what about his mother? How will he make a living? How will he survive in this galaxy?
I mean I'm glad he's freed…but what will this mean for him?
What does Anakin want? I mean; does he want to train? And if so, you shouldn't make any promises. You will still have to go before the Council, and if they don't accept him, he's going to be heartbroken.
You are right, I don't want to see this planet again for a LONG time.
With the right thing at the center of a love relationship, love will not become an obsession. I have never been in love myself, but I know what I want love to be for me. I will never let it control me, and I believe that you Jedi would be able to control it enough so that you could have relationships. Love is a very beautiful thing in it's purest form. Through it so much good can be accomplished. I think you just have to keep your relationship centered on the right thing …and if so, then your relationship wouldn't be so bad, would it?
If you have your relationship centered on the right things, you wouldn't be controlled by it in the sense you're talking about. Love should control people though…I think. I'm talking about the agape love. The kind of love that you love another person just because they are a person. You see a person in need, and you help them. That is love. If you have that kind of love at the center of your life…and the thing that love comes from, then there are no risks. Love can be purely good.
Those are my beliefs. I know I'm not a Jedi, but I think you Jedi would be happier if you were allowed to enter a relationship. You would be able to share things with another person. I don't think it would be so bad.
Please get back here as quickly as possible. Let me know what Anakin's reaction is to being freed.
I must attend to the Queen. I'll contact you again once we are in the air.
I have returned.
I'm so glad that you and Anakin were able to make it back safely to the ship. What was that thing that you were fighting with? It seemed to be an evil Jedi or something. It carried a lightsaber too. Everyone aboard the ship was very worried for you. It looked like the fight was pretty tough. Do you believe that thing was after the queen? But why would that thing be involved with the Naboo Invasion?
I'm glad to be off that planet. It was a little too warm for my taste.
I had trouble sleeping, and when I went for a walk around the ship at night, I noticed Anakin was up too. I gave him a blanket, and tried to comfort him a little. He's very homesick, and he misses his mother. Maybe you could comfort him in some way too. He made me this necklace that he carved. He told me it was for me to remember him by. I told him I didn't need it to remember him, but it was very kind of him to do that.
Do you have doubts about the Senate? Senator Palpatine seems to. When we land, he will meet with the Queen, and then I will learn more. He thinks other Senators may not see Naboo's plight? How could they not? It appears so obvious to me. What do you think is causing his doubt?
I'm sorry that Anakin's mother couldn't be freed. She seemed like such a kind person. It's too bad there's still slavery in the galaxy. I wish there was something we could do for her. She loves Anakin very much, and he loves her. I hope it was wise of you to take Anakin with us to Coruscant. If anything happens on the way, we're responsible for his life. Even if Anakin wants to train, will he be able to? You think the Council will accept him, but you don't know for sure. How can you train him without the Council's permission? Don't you have Obi-Wan to look after too?
I don't like Tatooine because of all the sand and heat. I don't think anyone would. Sometimes I think you Jedi put too much pressure on yourselves. You are almost making it wrong to be human.
Emotions CAN affect judgment, but only if you let them. You can also be smart about your emotions. You have too many restrictions. I'm glad I'm not a Jedi. I don't think I'd be able to handle it.
I don't dislike you entirely. I don't like a lot of the decisions you have made, or the way you go about conducting yourself, assuming that everyone will approve of you.
I agree that questioning is good too, and yes, I can learn from it. I can become even more certain of my opinions or beliefs.
I admit, I WAS impressed with his win also. Who would have thought a nine year old human boy could win a pod race? Yes, LOL, Anakin does seem to be a very determined little boy. He's determined in more than one area. He is still trying to convince me that we're getting married in the future.
This "attachment" thing doesn't HAVE to be part of love, you know. And I don't think it's the attachment thing that is the root cause of jealousy, anger, suspicion, doubt, greed, etc in a relationship. None of those things that you labeled are real parts of love. In fact, I would go as far as to say they are counterfeit love. Each one of those demonstrates a lack of trust on the person feeling them's part. I actually think that those things you just listed are caused from sin, and believing half truths about what real love actually is.
I'm sorry…I just do not understand this connection between your "attachment" items and the Dark Side. I don't even understand the Dark Side to begin with. I'm not a Jedi, so you'll have to excuse my misunderstandings.
I'm sorry, but I just felt so strongly about the topic of love. You're right…I didn't really know the Jedi stance on this issue, and I am sorry.
I don't believe that what I called "cheap love" is real love either, but some people insist that it is love. I'm glad we agree that sex has nothing to do with the formulation of what love is. I didn't mean to imply that you felt otherwise, Master Jedi. I said it to state my own opinion, not to imply what I thought you thought.
You might not be able to control whether or not you are going to be jealous…at least in your eyes, but you can decide that you're going to trust the other person, that you're going to decide to love the other person, and that you don't have to be afraid of what anyone else might think, or what your husband thinks…because the two would be committed to the same thing. It's a higher standard…it's with the standard of love, not the standard of the general galaxy.
I agree that actions do not simply make a person moral.
The only reason this "attachment" thing might be considered as instinctive in love is because, like I said earlier, the things you describe as attachment, stem from sin.
I don't understand what you're saying about love. I believe it CAN be independent of the other things that you described.
You're probably right about Anakin, though. He will get over his crush on me soon…hopefully when we are separated, and he'll forget all about his feelings for me.
Thank you, Master Jedi.
Well, we are approaching Coruscant now. Does anyone know we're coming right now?
Padmé
