CHAPTER EIGHT
THE SUN STILL RISES
Skye's POV
You hear a small animal whimper. You wonder where the hurt animal was. You wanted to find the hurt animal and take care of it. Never allow it to be harmed ever again. There was another whimper. You suddenly felt warm hands on your skin; and your your eyes shot open. You backed away in fear as you looked on the face of Grant Ward. He was sneering at you as he reached out for you once more.
"You are safe now Skye. It's just me." You bang your head against the head board at those words. He was just trying to trick you. Trying to make you believe that you were safe; then he would just hurt you all over again.
"Please little one believe me." He whispers as tears rolled down his cheeks.
You blink as his face shifted into that of Coulson's. Your heart rate spiked up as you realized that he was trying to trick you. Trick you in the worse way possible. How dare he make you believe that he was Coulson – that Coulson was truly here with you. That you were safe. Well you won't going to play that game. You teeth came out.
He backs away. "Look inside yourself; Skye. Please look inside your own heart. You know what's true and what's not true."
"You are mine." Grant hissed in your ear. He pulled back so you could look into his dark dangerous eyes. "You have always been mine." He smirked as he lifted your chin higher with his right forefinger. "Now I can have you as I always was meant to be. Without bloody Coulson always showing up. Once we are done here; then I'm going to take you hard and roughly right there on his desk. Making sure the video is live for him to watch. Watch me fuck his precious little girl into submissive." He leaned tightly into you; "He's going to be tearing out his hair as he sees your face as you come over and over." His breath his hot and sticky against your ear.
You grew dead inside. This wasn't the Grant Ward whom you had always liked. This wasn't the Grant Ward whom you felt so comfortable with that you openly shared your lonely and loveless childhood to. This wasn't the Grant Ward whom you started to feel those feelings for that were not solid but which truly scared you too death with. This Grant Ward you had no idea was even there.
He pulled away from you. Reaching up to push back the hair from your face; "I wonder what Jemma would do when she watches me take you. Over and over?" He leaned forward and licked your cheek – then over your nose – then to your other cheek. "Her desire is going to rise higher then it ever had ever been."
You swallow at the thought of Jemma watching as he raped you over; and over again. You begin to shake at the thought. "Please don't do this" You beg.
He pushes you against the wall harder. "Don't beg; Skye." He replied in a low rough voice. "Don't try to tell me that you didn't want this from the very beginning."
"Not like this." You strutted out. "I want it to be private." You don't get anything else out past the hiss as he punched your stomach.
"Stop lying." He growled his angry eyes lock onto yours. He tilted his head; "Just for that – I'm going to take Jemma as mine also."
Your eyes widen. "No!" You shout out.
The next thing you know you are crashing onto the metal ground with him heavy on top of you. You fought for breath as your breathe was knocked out of you. You felt his hot steamy breath against your skin.
"Just for that Skye darling; I'm not going to take you against the wall. I'm going to take you right here against the dirty metal." He pushed his waist roughly against you. You could feel the growing bulge there.
You begin to fight against him. Trying so desperately to get him off you. You had to get him off you. If you didn't then he was going to do the thing that you are most afraid of happening once more to you. You had to be strong. You had to fight him off. Right. Now.
He slammed his right fist against your face. You saw blackness.
Your heart feels like it's going to rip right out of your flesh. Tears were rolling down your cheeks. You opened your mouth to beg him not to hurt you again. But; then you thought of him telling you that you may not speak otherwise it would be worse the next time. Your mouth shuts tight. You could take the pain. You were used to the pain after all. You didn't keep your voice locked up to protect yourself. You were protecting her.
She wasn't strong enough to endure the pain that this evil spawn of the devil had in store for her. Her face came to your minds eye very quickly. Her open and valuable face. Her bright smile that actually met her hazel eyes. You would do anything to protect that smile; and those eyes.
You knew what you had to do. You had to be brave and do this in order to protect her. You unclench your arms from your shaking chest. Keeping your eyes locked on his smirking face you sat forward. You very slowly reach towards the button of your shirt. You knew what he wanted from you.
You were going to freely and willing give it to him. Unbuttoning the first button. You pray this will protect her from him. The rest of the buttons followed after the first one. You slip out of your shirt.
You move forward on the bed to reach him that much sooner. You blink and Coulson's face comes into focus.
His wide eyed shocked eyes still locked onto yours. Tears rolling freely down his cheeks. You tilt your head in confusion. As you realize that you don't feel the Bus underneath you. That you don't feel the narrowness of the pod bed underneath you. Everything came rushing back to you. You managed to get away from Ward – before he actually managed to rape you. You got back to your team. Your family. You went to a safe house; and you locked yourself in your room. You wouldn't let anyone in expect for Agent Romanoff. You were flown to the Avengers Tower where you would be living now. You and the team.
Eyes wide you whimper as you move backwards away from Coulson.
Jemma's POV
Feeling eyes locked on you; you just kept staring at the closed door. The connecting door that lead into Skye's room. Your chest tightened as you finally felt her coming awake. She was so scared. So very scared. All you wanted to do was jump out of bed; and rush into her room. Gather her up in your arms; and never let go. But you couldn't.
"You may go now." You find your voice filling the air.
"I don't think so." A firm female voice spoke.
"Please leave." You beg.
You don't hear anything behind you.
"I wish to be alone." You spoke once more.
"That's not wise." You hear as Agent May stood from the chair. She soon came into the line of your eye sight. "You don't know how truly bad off you were last night; Jemma." She was looking down into your eyes with such compassion.
"I'm not going to leave her." Your eyes went back to the closed connecting door. The door that led to Skye.
Agent May sat down next to your hip. You feel her warm hand on your hip. "You may not want to leave her; but right now you may not make the right choices."
Your eyes turn in her direction. "I'm not suicidal Agent May."
She takes a deep breath. Thankfully she didn't make any other comment. You did wonder about the very understanding look in her eyes. But you didn't want to deal with it right now. All you wanted to think and feel was Skye. Once Skye was safe once more – then you would find out about Agent May's past. You had a very strong feeling that although you weren't interested in going into her past at this moment in time – that she wouldn't shut you out later on in the future.
"As long as Skye remains on the planet Earth. Then so am I." You said in a calm and steady voice. "I'm not going anywhere."
She searches your eyes for a long moment. You can see the sheer relief in her eyes when she realizes that you spoke the absolute truth. Finally standing up. "You know where to find me."
You watch as she makes the way to the door that led out to the hallway. "Melinda." You spoke. "Thank you taking care of me. Also for caring so much for me."
She nods.
After the door shut softly; you turn your eyes back to the connecting door. Your heart began to clench even more then when you first realized that Skye was awake. You were relieved that you were left alone in your room. You knew that Agent May was correct. Break downs like yours the previous night would not prevent the one whom had the break down to be alone for a good seventy two hours. But you meant what you said. As long as Skye was on Earth – you would remain.
Well expect for that one time. Technically you still remained on Earth. You were just falling through the Earth's sky to the ground – without anything to protect you when you landed was all. But you were above water. When you hit you would sink – it wasn't like you were going to crash into the land – where you would have broken ever single one of your bones. You would have just drowned was all. But; you promised never to do that again – and you apologized for that. All night long. Several nights after wards. Sides you were just free falling to your death to save her life.
Your heart stopped at the thought of Skye's stricken face when you saw her once more on the BUS. The sheer fear and pain in her eyes would hunt you for the rest of your life. "I will never leave you again." You whisper towards the connecting door once more.
"Never leave me. Never leave me. Never leave me. Never leave me." She whimpers as she crawls even more against you. Luckily for you your back was against the wall. All you could do was hold her tightly against you.
"I'm never leaving you." You whisper into her ear. You begged her to believe you. To trust you. But you knew that you lost all the trust you had earned; when you jumped from the plane.
Her arms tightened around you as she let out a high whimper. "Never leave me." Was breathed into your ear as she finally grew limp in against your body.
"I promise you with my very soul; Skye; I will never leave you. Never willing ever again." You whisper into her ear. "I love you with my entire soul Skye. I thought that if I jumped then you wouldn't have had to go through the agony of watching me die. A slow and painful death. I saw your eyes when I was seriously at the end of my hope of coming up with a antidote at the last second. When I found the rat died after 10 seconds of being injected of the serum. I desperately needed you to live even through I couldn't. I needed you to be by Fitz's side to help in life." You had to stop speaking due to having an light hyperventilating attack.
"I'll be good now on. I promise I'll be good. Just don't leave me." She whimpers into your neck.
Your heart shattered at her child like voice. What you did just to follow S.H.I.E.L.D's protocol; and to save her life from you has drawn even deeper meaning of what it would have been like for Skye. Your chest tightened as you realized how selfish you had been to have given up after ten seconds of the mouse dying. You knew better. You knew the serum WAS the antidote. You should have waited a little longer for it to take a permanent affect.
"I won't be bad anymore." She whines into your ear. "I won't make you mad at me anymore. Just please don't leave me."
Tears rolled down your cheeks as you tried to make shushing noises through you mouth. You didn't know how to calm her down. You knew that your words just weren't enough to calm her down. She simply wouldn't believe you. After all how could she from all the other people whom she had trusted leaving her. But you knew that she had to calm down otherwise she could go into a serious hyperventilating attack. You didn't want to alarm everyone on the bus. You couldn't handle the fear in Agent Coulson's eyes when looked at Skye. You couldn't handle his deep disappoint in you that you couldn't keep Skye calm. You knew that if he saw Skye now then there would be no way on Earth he would allow you anywhere near her ever again. Not even with the rest of the team around. He would reassign you in order to protect Skye from you.
Your heart hurt so deeply that you felt like it was going to squeeze until it burst. You tried to will yourself to calm down. It wouldn't due to get so worked up that you would have to fight for your life. Skye needed you to be strong. She needed you to remain alive. She needed you to remain on Earth. She needed you.
Skye's POV
"You are safe." His voice said in a calm voice. "You are safe."
Shaking your head side ways; your eyes wide as you stare into his eyes. Your heart beating rapidly in your chest. It felt like it was trying to break through the flesh. You had just mistakenly confused Coulson with that monster. You were about to strip in front of Coulson; and offer yourself to him. For him to take your body.
"Skye." His voice broke through your rapid fire thoughts. "Breathe."
You didn't deserve to breathe. Not after what you had just done.
"Baby girl; breathe." A very familiar voice spoke to your very soul.
"I don't deserve to live." Your soul cried out.
"Yes you do." The voice was loving. "I need you too."
"No one needs me too." You whimper through your soul.
"I need you to." The voice was very small.
"You don't deserve love, Skye." His voice hissed into your ear as he pawned your right breast. His waist crushed into your own against the steel of the bus. You let out a grunt of pain. "I can't even believe that you are stupid enough to believe that anyone can love a unlovable bitch like you." He licked her chin; and bit her neck roughly.
You couldn't keep the tears from falling down your cheeks. You couldn't believe that his words were hurting you so much. You have been hearing them ever since could remember. Your very first clear memory was of your foster father touching you; and telling you that you would never be loved. You saw your foster mother standing in the door way just watching as her husband was hurting you. She found you looking at her; and she spat out that you were the most unlovable child in the entire world – that was why your parents didn't even want to set eyes on you after you were born. You were four years old.
"You think Coulson loves you?" His hot breath hits your skin. He looks up with fiery eyes. "He's just using you Skye. He only using you till you aren't needed anymore. At first he was going to leave you stranded somewhere. But now that he knows that you are an 0-8-4 once he's finished with you – he's going to put you in the Fridge." His hand rose to lock against your neck. "Do you know what the Fridge is?"
You silently nodded.
His lips turned thin. "I'm saving you from that torture. At least with me I can protect you."
You spat in his face.
He leaned down into your personal space. Well more into your personal space. "Just for that darling Skye; I'm going to have you watch as I take her. I'm going to have her lock eyes with you as I enter her sweet body. Over and over again."
"N-no." You whimper.
"I was going to take pity on her. Kill her after I was finished." He looked straight into your eyes. "But because you are defying me … I'm going to allow her to live. Live the rest of her life with the sight of your eyes watching as I take her over and over again. I'm going to make her live with the knowledge that you watched as I rape her. I'm going to make her live with the image of you coming with my name screaming from your throat."
You feel his full body weight even more against your body. His left hand rose up and clasped against your neck. "I'm even going to allow her wide eyed dog alive. Even he won't be able to begin to help her heal after I'm through with her." He leaned down and kissed you hard. "See what defying me is going to cost you Skye?" He breathed against your lips. "But at least I won't allow you to be tortured, and hurt like you would in the Fridge. I'll protect you."
"I will stay with you without complaint. I will fuck you without saying anything negative. I will be your slave for the rest of my life. Just leave them alone." You beg.
You can tell that you were getting to him. That he truly didn't want to do the things that he had just described to you. That he really didn't want to hurt you. That he was still inside there. You just needed to find the way to reach him; and help him back. He could still be saved. "Please Grant don't hurt my family."
Hurt run though his eyes. "You don't understand Skye." He whimpered above you. "Y-" then he was gone. Just like that he was gone. The monster was back. "They aren't YOUR family Skye. You DON'T have a family. How can you have a family? You are a 0-8-4. You don't even know if you are even human. If you have human blood running in your system." His hand gripped your neck. "You don't get a say in anything." Rage run through his eyes. "I will do what I had told you. Too you. Too her. Too him. You three will be destroyed. You three will learn what life is truly about."
"I KNOW what life is all about." You reach up to place his face in your palms. "Don't you understand Grant. I KNOW what life is about. I KNOW that life is pain. I KNOW that life is hurt. I KNOW that life is hate. I KNOW that I will NEVER have love in my life. I KNOW that I don't deserve it." You plead. "Don't make two innocent souls learn this lesson. It will destroy them." You whisper as tears rolled down your cheeks. "You HAVE me Grant. I'm NOT going anywhere. I'm NOT going to leave you. You don't NEED them. You HAVE me. Let me be enough."
There was nothing left in him. "You will suffer for this." He looked you dead in the eyes. "How dare you plead for their souls. You STILL think that you can save them. You STILL have hope. You STILL think …." He jerked his head free from your hands; and he stood to his feet. "I'm not going to have you right now. You DON'T deserve to be taken in private. I'm going to have the men watch me as I take you." He raised his foot and kicked your side. He kicked it over and over again ….
Everything went black.
You fight the arms that have you wrapped up into a firm board chest. You had to get him off of you. You couldn't allow him to lay his hands on you. You had to get free so you can protect her. To protect them. Top protect your family. But how can you when he was trapping you with his arms. You had to get free of him. You had to save her.
His arms just tightened.
You hear a high pitched whine.
"Let. Her. Go." Your head jerked forward at the sound of that voice. You knew that voice. Your eyes locked onto the scared hazel eyes of Simmons. He has her. He got his hands on her all ready. How? He just took you hostage not even thirty minutes ago. He just threatened what he was going to do too her just seconds ago. How did he get his hands on her? A high pitched whimper sounded in the silence of the room.
Jemma's POV
"Why didn't you let me stay with you last night?" His voice spoke behind you.
You remain silent.
"You let me comfort you after she got shot. When she was fighting for her very life. You leaned on me as we waited for her to wake up. You leaned on me as she was recovering. You trusted me to hold you up when you had no strength yet as you waited to know her fate." You hear his body lean against the wall. "Why aren't you trusting me now?"
"I do trust you." You whisper.
"If you trusted me. Then you wouldn't have kicked me out last night. You would have allowed me to comfort you." His voice carried such sadness. Your heart cracked knowing you caused this hurt in him. That you couldn't find it in yourself to even try to fix it. All you cared about was Skye. That's all you care about. Until Skye allows you back in; everything, and everyone doesn't matter.
"I shouldn't have allowed you in talking me into joining the team. We were better off in the lab." His voice held such sadness. "You and I together. Working our experiments. We got to work on any samples for as long as we wanted in the lab."
"I wanted us to both have lives outside of the lab. I didn't want to spend my entire life in the lab." Your voice chocked as you rose it. "I couldn't leave you behind; Leo. I couldn't. I wouldn't. I won't." Your eyes drifted from Skye's closed door to meet his concern hazel orbs.
"I know." He softly spoke. "I know."
"What am I going to do if she won't allow me in?" You whisper heartbroken.
"You'll breathe." He replied. "You'll simply breathe."
"It hurts." You chocked out. "It hurts so fucking much."
His hand rose and rubbed against his chest. Where his heart was located. "I know." He chocked out. You weren't surprised that he was feeling what you were feeling. But; you knew that he was only feeling seventy percent what you were feeling right now.
Suddenly you jumped from the bed; and before you knew it you had jerked the door open. You rushed into Skye's room to find her hyperventilating, and struggling in Coulson's arms. You feel her stark fear coarsening through your heart. You felt like you were dying with all the fear, and pain that Skye was feeling.
You hear a high pitched animal whine. Your heart stopped. Your eyes just stare in front of you as you watched Skye trying to fight Coulson from hurting her.
"Let. Her. Go." Your voice rings deadly out.
Skye stopped moving. Her head jerked up wards; and you saw the fear and disbelief in her eyes. They very quickly turned into stark fear. A high pitched whimper sounded. Before you could move forward to wrap her in your arms her mouth opens.
"No!" She cries out. "No! He can't have you. He can't! I won't let him hurt you." Her eyes wide and out of force. "Jemma; believe me; I will protect you. With my dying breathe I will protect you." Tears were running freely down her cheeks.
Your heart was pounding once more. "You have protected me, Skye." You softly say as you move forward. Your eyes locked on the fragile woman on the bed. You finally reach her and wrap your arms around her. "You have protected me." You repeated. "I'm safe. You are safe. We are safe."
"I'm not going to let him hurt you." She sobs into your chest. Her gripe around you tightens. "I'll die before I allow him to lay one hand on you." She pulls back; and her hand raises to cup your face. "You know this don't you?" She searches your eyes with her own. "You know that I will protect you with my life. He's not going to hurt you." She's begging you to understand her.
Your hands rose between her own, and you hold her face in the palms of your hands. "Skye!" You plead trying to get through her hysterical cries. "Skye I'm safe. You are safe. We are safe." You beg her to believe you. To trust you.
Her forehead crashed into yours. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." She whimpers over and over. "I promised you that I would keep you safe. I failed you. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."
Pulling her tightly against you. "You didn't fail me." You whisper in her ear. "You have kept me safe. You protected me. You got me away from him before he could do anything to me." You feel her body shake causing the bed beneath you to shake.
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." She kept repeating. "I'm sor..." You were suddenly holding a limp body in your arms. You buried your face in the knack between her collar bone; and neck. You wept silently at how broken she was in your arms.
END CHAPTER EIGHT
