This chapter sevres quite a bit of angst but theres also smut in it.

This chapter makes me sad though. Very sad D: angsttttt

Dedications: EmoVampireRiska, fan girl 666, animewolfprincess96, XxGaarazLovexX, ashley the twisted, purple-ducks


Kyou woke up slowly and saw that Hiro was laying next to him and winced.

Damn it...

He got off the bed quietly. Being a cat he had stealth. That was one good thing about the stupid year of the damned cat.

He walked out of the room and slipped into the shower. It was around 5 in the morning but Kyou needed to think things through. He lusted Hiro like no tomorrow yet it shattered his heart to think that Torhu had turned him down. He didn't know why he felt so broken about it he just did.

"God damn it Kyou..." Kyou hissed to himself and felt like punching himself until he forgot why he was so heartbroken. Hiro was there for him. Maybe he should be grateful for that. But he didn't seem to budge. But if he had Hiro he might as well enjoy it right?

Kyou shook his head and couldn't help the slight smirk he had on his face. He didn't know what cause him to snap but somehow he just... wanted Hiro. And that's exactly what he'd get.

~+ * +~

Kyou got out of the shower in a rush and walked into his room and locked the door. He discovered that Hiro was just waking up and blushed horribly as he set his eyes on the older male so turned his head.

"Hiro." Kyou cooed and Hiro blushed horribly and looked up at Kyou.

"H-hai Kyou?" He watched as the water slowly dripped off of Kyou's hair and Kyou chuckled darkly as he sat at the bed.

"Do you like me Hiro?" The question seemed innocent but you could see that Kyou wasn't hinting anything innocent at all of that question.

"H-Hai Kyou..." Hiro nodded and Kyou's lips were close enough to taste.

"How much?" The movement of the cat's lips brushed against Hiro's and Hiro shivered.

"A-A lot." Hiro looked into Kyou's crimson eyes and slowly they were shut and curiosity killed the cat as his lips pressed against Hiro's.

Hiro felt weird like something wasn't right. He pulled away and left Kyou confused.

"Stop..." Hiro whispered.

"...Stop..?" Kyou looked like he's never heard the word before but when it sunk in Hiro knew that the look in his eyes was rejection.

Just another person to reject him...

"N-no. Don't." Hiro said and shook his head slightly. "Don't stop."

Their lips re-met and Hiro's whole face turned red and his heart sped up. He loved knowing that he was kissing his idol Kyou but something seemed off about the whole thing. He didn't particularly know what it was but it was obvious that Kyou had different intentions.

Kyou straddled Hiro on the bed. His weight pressing against Hiro making the sheep shiver and moan slightly. This is the farthest he's ever gotten to Kyou. It didn't help the matter that Kyou only had a towel on.

For around 10 minutes it was just kissing. Most of it was rough and Hiro didn't know what to do but tried to keep up with the older Sohma. It was just difficult.

Their tongues met and Hiro didn't know what to do with his. He moved it against Kyou's in a way that he heard the muffled moan which made him feel slightly better about the whole ordeal. But what really gave him an ego boost was what was pressing against his lower body. Kyou was hard. Not that Hiro wasn't, he was painfully hard. Kyou must have known since he slipped off Hiro's pants and shirt. The sudden breeze of cool air made Hiro shiver.

Kyou pulled away from Hiro's lips which made Hiro slowly open his eyes and look at the red head with half lidded eyes. His cheeks were stained pink and his lips were puckered slightly so he could breath. His heart beat wildly against his chest and Kyou just took in the sight, ashamed of himself for doing this but found that he was on autopilot and was merely watching from the sidelines as his body touched Hiro in the most sensitive of places.

His padded fingertips lightly ran down Hiro's body, his thumbs lightly circling his erect nipples getting a sharp breath in reply to the action. Kyou then pulled down the brunette's boxers to discover the red swollen erection, throbbing, just begging to be touched. That, Kyou didn't have a problem with so roughly attacked it with his mouth getting a shrill of surprise from the younger.

"K-Kyou!" He gasped, making it a loud whisper.

To Kyou he felt he was just watching all of this happen from the sidelines. That the guy who was causing these reactions from Hiro wasn't him. But he knew it was.

"M-More." Hiro begged and Kyou chuckled while Hiro's length was engulfed in his mouth.

Kyou couldn't believe what he was doing. As each minute passed he got more and more horrified of what was happening. He couldn't even watch as he took Hiro. The muffled screams of anguish. Kyou closed his eyes so he didn't have to see Hiro cry at the pain of being taken for the first time.

"Stop!" Kyou yelled to himself. It didn't make any sound, seeming to yell mentally. "STOP IT DAMN IT! HE'S HURT!"

Nothing happened. When Hiro eased up a bit Kyou began to move, pushing himself deeper inside of the hot tightness of Hiro.

"Ahhgg.." Hiro shifted uncomfortably but said nothing to object.

The thrusts got faster, like Kyou's body didn't care if Hiro would get hurt. There was probably blood, he couldn't tell. But Hiro didn't tell him to stop. He laid there quiet with his eyes closed tightly and a few tears running down his face.

"AT LEAST SLOW DOWN!!" Kyou cried out desperately but it seemed that his body responded quite the opposite and he sped up. Kyou let out a few grunts but nothing more than that. Not a moan of satisfaction just grunts.

Finally Kyou went slower and it eased up Hiro's expression. Hiro opened his eyes and saw that Kyou's were closed.

"K-Kyou." He choked out and Kyou's eyes opened, asking what without using words. "I... I more than just like you." He wasn't even sure if what he said made sense. He just said it.

It was his way of saying he loved the older Sohma.

Kyou looked at him with a soft expression and leaned in and kissed Hiro's cheek, no longer going slow.

~+ * +~

Hiro laid on the bed exhausted and looked at Kyou who's eyes were sewn tight it seemed.

"Kyou." Hiro whispered and Kyou who just now seemed to be back in his body opened his eyes and looked at Hiro's tiny form. His hair was stuck to his face and neck from sweat and his chest rose and fell quite quickly. His body wasn't used to that but towards the end he seemed to get a bit used to it. Having no preparations or lubrication it was quite hard though. Kyou did manage to make Hiro cum after Kyou was done satisfying himself though.

"Yes Hiro." Kyou whispered back and felt a load of guilt.

"Why did we do that?" Hiro asked after a few seconds of quiet.

"...I'm not sure Hiro." Kyou said honestly and looked up at the ceiling. His body reacted to Hiro for some reason. He didn't like it. He was so completely ashamed of doing that to Hiro.

"Kyou..." Hiro said again and Kyou glanced over at Hiro who was looking up and then glanced over at Kyou. His big chocolate brown eyes.

"Yes Hiro." Kyou said breathlessly watching the glistening sweat twinkle on his skin from the slow rising sun.

"Even though it hurt a lot... I'm glad it was with you..." Hiro blushed and turned away from Kyou's stare which was shocked. His mouth hung open a bit but Hiro didn't pay any attention to it. "You're still a worthless cat though." Hiro struggled to say, trying to earn back any points of being seme but realized he'd always be uke. But he didn't really mind to well.

"Shut up ya damn sheep." He was never so glad to hear Kyou said damn sheep.

"I'll make breakfast." Hiro stood up and Kyou stopped him by grabbing his arm. Hiro looked like he was in a lot of pain. There was blood. Not a lot though.

"I'm sorry." Kyou whispered and Hiro turned to him confused and Kyou kissed him. "Take a shower. I'll take care of breakfast." Kyou said and Hiro nodded slowly and Kyou helped him to the bathroom with a smirk and walked back into the room and pulled on his boxers and took his bed sheets and walked downstairs with them and put them in the wash. There was quite a bit of blood on them.

Kyou walked into the kitchen and found that his hair dried really awkwardly and sighed and that's when Torhu walked in and she paused.

"O-Oh Kyou!" She blushed, Kyou just realized he was in his boxers still and sighed.

"Sorry Torhu." He walked upstairs and got dressed. He was about to walk out of the room when Hiro walked in.

Kyou cursed to himself and scowled. He hated the reaction his body gave him and he quickly walked out of the room leaving Hiro slightly confused but he still got dressed.

I can't believe that. Why the hell did I do something so stupid. I took my cousins--- UGH I can't believe it. I really can't. What kind of sick pervert am I? Why the hell did I do it anyway? I know I'm in love with Torhu but could it be possible that the only reason I did that with Hiro is because of some sick part of my brain trying to fill the empty void of not having her?

I don't know what I would do if Hiro would tell me he loved me. I'm not sure if I love him. I honestly do think I used him as a replacement but why would I use him like that? No one deserves that. No one at all.

Hiro walked downstairs and stood next to Kyou for a minute to see what he was doing. Once Hiro looked at whatever Kyou was cooking he looked up at Kyou. He was up to Kyou's shoulder.

"Kyou?" Kyou couldn't find it in himself to answer Hiro. Kyou just closed his eyes for a minute and heard the soft sigh and Hiro walked into the living room.

I don't think I could ever make up what I did to Hiro. I didn't deserve the second chance. He might have liked it but I bet he thought I did that because of some form of love when I did it out of my own selfish desire. And that's why I wish I'd never have to look into those beautiful chocolaty colored eyes again.


ANGST! lol. Review? :3