Inside Light
Interlude One
A/N : Yes, this is the first interlude. I expect MANY reviews telling me how to improve? You will right? Because I would for you if you asked!
Anyway, I hope you enjoy. Once again, a bit short, but the chapter after this one is the best one yet, In my opinion. I really put all my skills to the test!
Enjoy!
I AM TRYING THESE INTERLUDES IN RYU'S POV. He will be a little OOC in his mind. If you don't like the way it is done, than I will remove and redo it. But I wont know unless you review!
His hand was still in my own. During the talk, it seemed as though I had memorized it, every line, every fine detail. In the middle, the part about his mothers grave of small stones, I had gripped it hard, not wanting to let go, not wanting to leave him behind.
A feeling of cold had swept over me, making me want to get a blanket, making me want to curl up alone to think about all of this. But I wouldn't do that. I wouldn't let him go.
I realized the room itself was silent. I also realized that Faust's hand, ever so slightly…was trembling.
As I looked up at him, he noticed Faust's head turn away. I lifted my free hand to put it on the soft skin of his face. He turned slowly to look into my eyes with the beautiful orbs he had, and suddenly, I felt so inferior. I was just me, Ryu, what could I do for him? What made me good enough to be here right now with him?
I noticed with a shock that Faust wasn't crying. I saw that his eyes were wet, but tears weren't flowing down his face like I was so used to. But, that didn't change how hard all of this was for him. I could see the strain, the tears in his eyes threatening to spill at any moment.
I admitted to having flinched quite a bit throughout the confession. When his father punched him, even for the first time, I had a sudden urge to find the man, hoping he was still alive, so that he could be the one to kill him. I wanted to scream and curse at the top of my lungs…I didn't want to imagine anyone laying a hand on Faust.
I looked back at Faust, saying all I could. " I don't know what to say, Faust…That is…" I had wanted to say terrible, or horrible. But that didn't cover it. No, it really didn't. I still felt like a moron, though, for not finishing my sentence.
"Ryu, may I…"
"Yes, what is it?" My heart was fluttering. I couldn't make it stop.
" I just want to take a break…Just for a few minutes…"
I nodded. " Of course, Faust. You take all the time you need." I didn't want to clue him onto the fact that I needed a break too. All of this was really taking its toll…On both of us.
Faust nodded, expression on his face similar to Ryu's. It changed quickly though, as Ryu felt the doctors face in the crook of his neck, followed by wetness, the wetness of bitter tears.
Fausts hand had broken from my own. Now, the surgeons arms were around me, and I couldn't help but put my arms around his waist, his thin waist, too thin.
So, we sat, each sob of Faust's ripping though me like lightning. I wanted to fight this, wanted to stop this, take all of the bad memories away and replace them with good ones, with me.
I held on as tight as I could manage, the silence of the room, of what seemed to be the entire house, was broken every few seconds by a choking, painful sob. I felt my own eyes getting a bit moist—But I blinked them back. I had to be strong.
After what might have been half an hour, Fausts sobs stopped completely. My neck was still wet from the outburst, and I still felt the doctors eyelids brushing against my skin every time he blinked, making me shiver. He held onto me, not wanting this moment to end. I didn't either. But, then, with him being so close…It flashed through my mind.
Faust looking up at me from a bed, naked body showing scars with no embarrassment.
Myself, Ryu, laying gentle kisses over his neck and chest, leaving small marks, not of pain, but of love and trust.
Making love to him, making a deep connection, making sure he knew that he was there, making sure that he knew his feelings were real.
I blinked and shook my head slightly. That thought wasn't real…yet, at least…Not yet. Maybe someday…It could come true.
But for now, I had to focus on learning the rest.
I gently pushed Faust away, my hands on his bony shoulder, looking at him intently. I took my hand, and like something out of a paperback romance novel, brushed his tears away.
" Do you know what, Faust?"
He shook his head at me lightly, and even from the few words he spoke, I could hear the strain.
" No…What, Ryu..?"
" Its all over now."
Faust looked at me, and from the look on his face, I was sure that he would cry again. But, he must have held that in well, and he nodded. " I know…"
" I understand it is painful for you to think about it, Faust, I know. Well, I guess I shouldn't say 'I know', I never had anything like this happen to me…" I spoke the last part quietly.
Faust, to my suprise, smiled lightly. 'God, I wish you would smile more.'
"Consider yourself so lucky, Ryu. Did you have a father and mother? At home with you, I mean…?"
Ryu heard the necromancers voice crack when he said 'father', but he paid it no mind.
" Well, mom was around a lot. Loved me to pieces. But dad…" I saw Faust look at me, horrified for a moment, but I quickly continued. " Dad left right after I was born. Never saw him."
Faust look relieved. I shook my head—He had never hated his own father. He figured if he had left, he must have had a damn good reason.
Faust put his head down, eyes on the carpet. "I'm…sorry."
I couldn't stand hearing him say that. I picked his head up, my hand on his chin.
"No, Faust. Dont you dare say your sorry. I'm fine. Your the one who—"
Silence. I had a shaking suspicion that I had just said something really dumb.
Faust only looked at me, his expression unreadable. "I'm the one with the problems. I'm the psycho."
"No, Faust, I wasn't going to--!"
"Yes, you were Ryu. You were going to say that!" Faust seemed inconsolable now. I mentally kicked myself in the balls—How could I do that? By now, I was barely listening, letting myself go blank inside. All I was really focused on were Faust's beautiful, pouty, and slightly feminine lips.
" Ryu, you know you were going to say—"
The kiss was sudden, yet expected. It was gentle, and mindful, yet dominating and oppressive. I was frightened now. This was only step one, but what was step two? I hadn't even thought about it.
I debated for a moment, but in the end, I pulled away, albeit slowly, tugging on Faust's loser lip as I did. I was still only two inches away from Faust's face, looking into the abyss of his sorrowful eyes.
"I'm sorry Faust, I—"
Faust put both hands on the sides of my face and leaned in for another kiss, sweet, tasting like strawberries. I felt like a chick being swept of my feet, and I ran my tongue over his top lip, asking for entrance.
He let me in.
I had bad thoughts running though my head—no, not perverted—Thoughts that Faust had gone back to his other state, back into his mind. But the intensity of it proved him wrong, as his tongue entwined with the doctors, their eyes closed in ecstasy.
After a few seconds feeling nothing but pleasure, I felt my hands moving on their own, pulling his doctors coat down off his shoulders, exposing the beautiful shining skin underneath.
Faust froze.
I paused, mentally screaming at himself for being so foreword. I drew my lips away, sadly, from Fausts, and put the coat back on, then put my hands in my lap, head bowed.
Faust spoke softly. I looked up at him, the light coming through the windows focusing on Faust as if he were an angel.
" That was…"
Ryu thought of how that sentence would end. 'Terrible…Cruel…Hurtful…One of those…'
"…nice…"
I couldn't believe it.
"N…Nice? You really…liked that?" I expected him to bolt out the door by now.
Faust put his head down, and in the close distance, I could almost feel the sadness he emitted, and the hope.
"You touch me, and I feel…I dont feel scared…"
I couldn't even express how happy I was to hear this. So I was good enough to be there, I was worthy.
" Thats…I told you I wouldn't hurt you…"
He shook his head. I was confused. " No, Ryu, you don't understand…Even when Yoh and Horo walk by and graze my arm…When anyone touches me, anyone.."
I was amazed.
" It hurts when they touch me…But not you Ryu…you are different.."
I was quiet. For a few minutes. And then , I worked up the nerve.
"Than, could you let me…Can I hold you? While you tell me more?"
The doctor seemed to remember why they were there in the first place, and his expression sombered. But, he nodded to my suprise and happiness, and I opened my arms. He sat in my lap, and I spooned him gratefully.
"Tell me Faust…"
And he spoke again.
END INTERLUDE
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