Chapter Nine

I didn't leave my room after that. It took hours for me to finally stop crying. I wanted to be with Jesse, to explain that I did trust him. When he was asking me I froze up but I knew now what I should have said. I decided that there was no point in sitting around and crying so I got back to work on my homework and tried not to wonder where Jesse was.

Jesse's POV

I went to the beach, to the spot where Susannah and I went all the time. I was going through shock. My Susannah, was hurt. By a ghost that only came around her because of me. But then she waited to tell me. I didn't know what to think, what to do, how to fix anything.

I knew that I wanted to bash that Jeff bastard's face in. I wanted to kill him, to watch him die by my hand. I knew that this could never happen. For starters he was a ghost when I met him. And he was now gone thanks to Paul.

That also bothered me. Slater had to know before me? I realize he found out from Jeff. But it still hurt. I just wished Susannah trusted me enough to tell me the truth right away.

But on the other hand I had no idea what she went through. To be violated by a man that way…it was unimaginable. For him to take her precious gift away from her, without her permission, a gift that I had been trying my hardest to protect...

My selfish side was furious that he took my one love's virginity. I did not blame Susannah one bit. It was all him. He took something that he can never get back. Susannah had been asking for me to do it for the longest and I resisted. And Jeff heard me resist. Could this have been prevented if I had just given in to Susannah's wishes? Her first time could have been with somebody who loved her, somebody who cares, it could have been with me. None of this would have happened if I weren't so stubborn.

I glanced at my watch. It had been two hours since I left Susannah's house, my thoughts and confusion keeping me from there. I realized that I needed to be with her. I didn't even take enough time to see if she was really okay. I cursed and ran to my car.

SUZE'S POV

I was still sniffling a little as I did my homework. I sighed and decided to get up and go to wash my face in the bathroom, hoping that would help with my currently puffy eyes. Before I could even reach the door, Jesse was bursting through it. I looked at him, looking all out of breath like he had just sprinted up the stairs to my room. He took in my appearance as I cursed my puffy eyes.

He closed the space between us with one small step and ran a hand across my face. I relaxed at his touch so he cupped my face and kissed me. His hands traveled from my face to my waist as he hugged me to his chest, seeming relieved that I was close to him. When we finally parted he spoke.

"So that was okay?" he asked, looking uncomfortable.

"Of course," I said quietly.

"Susannah I think we should talk," he looked sad. I wondered what he would say.


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