Hi I am sorry I haven't updated in a long time. I am trying to get some other stories out the way so I can concentrate on this one and a new one I want to start. I hope this is ok. I tried writing from lots of POV's so that the story moves faster and you get more insight. Let me know if you like it or not. JCCx
APOV
I was lying on my bedroom floor with a pad of paper and pencil in my hand. I was designing the babies' bedroom. I had made it neutral, to show Bella and Edward. I of course knew the gender of the baby but I wasn't about to spoil the surprise for them. That also meant hiding my thoughts from Edward. But that wasn't that hard to do as he was too busy worrying about Bella. He was in full father mode and it was adorable. I had never seen him so happy but I knew him well and I could tell he was terrified. Just like all expecting fathers.
Bella was now three months into the pregnancy and she was positively glowing. She still hadn't told Charlie or Renee but would have to soon. She spent most of her time at our house, which we were all grateful for. We tended to worry less when she was around us. She had a less likely chance of ending up in hospital. It also gave us a chance to pamper her. She was the first and only pregnant Cullen after all.
I had already spent the majority of my budget but I was finding loop holes in the budgets idea. Jasper didn't have a budget, and we have a joint bank account. Also the Cullen family as a whole didn't have a budget, only me (How could Edward get out of it so easily?) so things like room decorating and furniture could come from all of us. This Cullen princess would have a palace.
EsmePOV
Bella and I were in the kitchen. We had started cooking together now that she was here so often and I couldn't think of a better way to spend my time. I loved Bella like my own and I loved to spend time with her. It gave us a chance to talk and have some fun. Mother and daughter bonding.
We had decided to bake a Victoria sponge today. Bella was craving strawberries so Edward and Alice had gone out and brought back the entire stores supply of organic strawberries. Because we had so many we decided we were going to cut them in half and put some in the middle of the cake as well. After it was in the oven Bella sat at the breakfast bar. She had a bowl of strawberries in front of her and was eating her way through it.
"These are really good." She smiled pointing at the red heart shaped fruit.
"I don't know if I ever had one when I was human. I will have to trust your judgment." I laughed and sat next to her at the bar.
"Do you remember much of your human life?" She asked quietly. Probably afraid to upset me, but I had come to terms with it years ago and Bella was so sweet nothing she could say would upset me.
"I remember my husband and having my son. I remember meeting Carlisle when I broke my leg and jumping of the cliff. And the pain of the change. Only the life changing events have stayed but that isn't necessarily a bad thing. I think it helped me accept this life. It is almost like having a clean slate and being able to build new memories on it. New memories to replace the old once." I explained.
"Do you ever wish Carlisle hadn't changed you?" She asked softly.
"Never" I said smiling and taking her hand. "And it will be the same for you."
RPOV
I paced my room, going from corner to corner wall to wall. I could hear Bella talking to Esme down stairs and now was the perfect time to speak to her. Should I just approach her and say it or be more subtle, maybe go for a walk or sit in the garden? Would she want to speak to me at all? I have been a bit of a bitch in the past. Well a lot of a bitch. I just needed to bit the bullet and go and ask her.
I walked down the stairs and into the kitchen. Esme and Bella were laughing about something, and by the looks of it it was the bag of flour surrounding Bella's feet. When I walked in they both turned to look at me with shocked faces.
"Bella, would you mind going for a walk with me?" I asked. She looked at me and then Esme.
"Don't worry honey I will clean up." Esme said smiling.
"Thanks" she said and then turned to me. "After you." I walked towards the door and then out of the house. I stopped at the bottom of the porch and then walked at Bella's side. Once we were in the woods I turned to her.
"This probably seems odd." I smiled. It was hard for me to not be cold but I kept reminding myself that she hadn't done anything wrong.
"It is a little strange." She laughed. "What is it Rosalie?"
"I wanted…I…I wanted you to understand that I don't hate you. I know it comes across like that but it isn't how I feel." Bella listened intently and let me speak. "It is just that you have everything I wish I had. You have the choice to be changed, a man who loves you and a baby. True I have Emmett and he loves me but I thought maybe if you knew my story it would help you understand."
So I told her my story. About my father; Royce, Vera and Henry, the attack, Carlisle changing me and then my revenge. I told her how my life changed once I met Emmett and how I had seen her make the same changes in Edward. I told her about my desire to be a mother and how I still felt cheated out of the chance. But once I was finished what she said surprised me.
"Rosalie, you have had a hard time. And I am so sorry for what you had to go through, but if you hadn't experience that you wouldn't have met Emmett. You are so perfect together. You create and equilibrium I have never seen, without each other you are incomplete. You are strong and brave and I know you would give your life for Emmett. I have never thought you were a bitch you are just very intimating and I appreciate you sharing this with me."
I stared at her in shock. Edwards love was just starting to become justified in my mind and I realized how special Bella was. In this moment of enlighten meant I saw my life from a different angle. Maybe what happened so long ago was meant to happen. Maybe I was never meant to be with Royce and that fate had a hand in my life now. Bella had done so much for our family and now she was helping me. I, the one who shunned and hurt her.
"Thank you Bella."
EPOV
I sat in Carlisle's office reading through text books on maternity and children. My family thought I was going over board but I was just trying to be the best father I could. I wasn't really ideal for the role but I could make the best of it. I had been here all day and was with Carlisle until he got called to emergency surgery. But he told me to stay as we still had something to talk about apparently.
When Carlisle came back through the door he was out of his work clothes and in his casual attire. From his thoughts he wanted to get home to Esme but he knew we couldn't have this conversation where anyone would be able to hear it.
"Edward, we might have a problem on our hands." I was instantly worried and on edge.
"What is the matter Carlisle?" I asked quickly.
"Nothing at the moment but I just wanted to warn you. Bella is the first girl ever pregnant with a part, we are not sure how big yet, vampire baby. The Volturi are going to be interested son. We need to keep this quiet, no one can know."
How was it? JCCx
