Rachel paced anxiously as Finn watched uneasily, "Rach just sit please; you're making me nervous"
Rachel plopped on the seat next to Finn, "I'm sorry I can't help it. We are going to find out the sex today and it makes out the sex so real"
Finn looked at her skeptically, "This will make it real? Not the hormones, the nausea, the weight gain, or the movements. But this?"
Rachel nodded, "We are going to hear the heartbeat, and proof there's a living thing inside me. Then we will know the sex and be able to name it and decorate the nursery for it and know this baby is coming"
Finn looked at her shocked this time, "Rach, are you trying to tell me you want to keep it?"
Rachel looked at him eyes wide, "No! I mean not, No, I don't want to keep it. I mean, No, I don't know what I want to do yet"
Finn felt his hopes drop as he replied, "Oh" and hung his head.
Rachel didn't have time to respond because her name was called. Finn held her hand as they followed the nurse back. The nurse took her weight, she'd gained 15 pounds in the 5 months she'd been pregnant. Not bad for her small frame. She then took all Rachel's vitals, she was perfectly healthy.
Now she was lying on the table waiting for Dr. Wu. Finn never let go of her hand as Dr. Wu applied the cold jelly to her stomach and prepared them to see their child. Rachel's grip tightened at the sound of their child's heartbeat and Finn's mouth hung open as their baby appeared on the screen.
"Do you want to know the sex?"
They both nodded, "It's a girl"
Rachel began crying as Finn smiled, "She's beautiful"
Once the doctor left Rachel changed as Finn gazed at the picture. Rachel came out and smiled at him, "Ready to go daddy?"
Finn looked up at her with tears in his eyes as he pulled her into a hug, "Thank you Rachel, thank you for giving me the most amazing gift ever"
Rachel held onto him tightly for few seconds before leading him out the door.
That night Rachel lay in bed massaging her daughter and thinking of her future. Rachel loved her so much already and only wanted what was best for her. That's when she began doubting herself. What kind of mother would she be? What kind of future did she have? What would happen with Finn? Then she heard his words repeating in her head, thanking her for their child and she knew he was going to break his heart when she gave their child away.
But Rachel was raised to be smart and level headed and two 16 year olds would not be suitable parents. Her daughter deserved the best and for once Rachel knew that wasn't her.
Quinn knocked on Rachel's door as a courtesy before barging in, "Hey girl! What's up? Finn called me all concerned after your doctor's appointment saying you were too quiet and sad looking"
Rachel shrugged, "It's nothing"
Quinn gave her a 'give me a break' look. Rachel groaned, "It's a girl"
Quinn smiled, "Mine too, what's wrong with that? I thought you always wanted a daughter"
Rachel nodded, "I did. I mean I do, but when the time is right"
Quinn nodded in understanding, "Oh, I see"
"Seeing her hit me hard; she's a real person relying on me. I'm not ready, I'm 16 and I have dreams. I can't be a Lima loser; I can't be a mother yet. I'll ruin not just my life but hers and Finn's too. I can't do that to all of us"
Quinn nodded sympathetically as she held her sobbing best friend. She knew Rachel was doing what was best; she just hoped Finn would understand.
Later that night…
Finn waited impatiently for someone to answer the door, he was still leery of Rachel's dads so he was sure to always be respectful which meant knocking when he went over there. Rachel opened the door surprised, "Hi Finn I wasn't expecting you tonight"
Finn smiled kissing her cheek as he watched for her dads, "They're out shopping"
Finn smiled and kissed her on the lips lifting her up and carrying her inside as she shrieked with delight Finn set her on the couch, "I have a surprise for you, well it's more for the baby, but here open it"
Rachel's smiled fell, "Oh how sweet"
She tore open the package to find a silver rattle and a pink onsie that said 'Daddy's Girl'.
"Finn it's…"
He quickly interrupted her, "That's my rattle when I was a baby my dad bought it"
Rachel felt the tears sting her eyes, "Finn I think we should talk"
Finn's bring eyes fell as he braced himself, "That's never good"
Rachel grabbed his hand, "I've been thinking about our futures a lot lately and I think it in all of our best interests to give her up for adoption"
Finn felt his anger rise, "You decided this is best? Well what about what I think?"
Rachel sighed, "Finn you're not really thinking logically right now. This is what is best we aren't ready to be parents"
"No one is but they do it"
"We are still in high school. What about college or careers?"
"Oh I see you're worried about Broadway. Poor Rachel Berry stuck in Lima with her loser boyfriend and bastard child losing any hope of being famous. You are so selfish Rachel!"
Rachel felt the sting of his words but didn't get upset it would do no good to yell at him, "Finn listen…"
"No, you don't get to make this decision without my input"
"You promised me and my fathers you would support me and any decision I made, or was that as long as I decided what you wanted?"
Finn shot off the couch, "Finn where are you going?"
"Away from you, call me when you have come to your senses"
Rachel laughed sarcastically, "How about you call me when you're done acting childish. This is exactly why we wouldn't be good parents"
With that said Finn stormed out the door slamming it behind him.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Uh oh, angst is back! The next story arc that will start in the next chapter will have angst for Puck and Quinn and it kind of wrote itself. Their angst will open Rachel and Finn's eyes. But lead to Quinn and Rachel angst again. Not to mention Puckleberry will rear its head again as Rachel struggles with doubts and fears. But I can guarantee you the last chapter will be a very happy one. Hope you are all enjoying the ride it's far from over still. I am having a blast writing this!
