AN: Let me apologize for to things: First I am so sorry for the long wait between updates. I was going through some mager writers block and life has been very busy with school and work. Second I am terribly sorry for this chapters shortness. I don't like how short it is but I didn't know where else to end it,and decided that instead of waiting another week till I fiqured it out I may as well post what I had. I am not to happy with this chapter and to me it feels like this story is moving slowly, to slowly. That might just be the writers opinion though lol so... ya anyways here is the next chapter of WYD and I really hope you guys like it. I AM working on the rest of this story and I think it is going to be around 45-60 thousand words so around 20-25 chapters so it is still relitively early so I hope I am able to improve :) As always your reviews are greatly apprieciated and please let me know what you guys think :)
Kaname sighed, this was not what he had wanted. He ha dnot wanted to frighten the boy away. He was still amazed with the boys self restraint when it came to his blood, not many vampires could be able to resist the blood, especially when it was so freely offered. Hell no vampire would want to, except of course for Zero. Kaname was determined to find out why Zero was so determined to refrain from tasting his blood. Kaname had no qualums in sharing his essence with the exhuman, he did not see the problem with it. It was the rest of society that had a problem. No, Kaname would not just let Zero leave, but nore would he make him stay. He would find the boy, and he would talk with him. Maybe if he explained to Zero that it was okay for him to share in his blood, his home, and even his…heart, maybe if he told him of his feeling, maybe then he would finally listen. Finally give into his urges and satisfy both of their desires,
Kaname knew that things were moving rather fast, he knew that there was still a lot that he did not know about the boy, but he was determined to change that. For the first time he was beginning to discover who he was, who he wanted to be. And that was thanks to Zero. The normal way that Zero treated him, without any formalities, just showed Kaname that he wasn't a pure blood at heart. That was just his title. Zero, unconsciously, showed him that even though he had responsibilities as a pure blood, he did not have to give up everything for his 'job'. He could be himself as well, he could find a comfortable balance. He could have a power and he could have freedom; he could be respected and feared, but he could also be happy. And their was something about the ex-human that made Kaname want to share his happiness with him. He wanted to build his life and shape his happiness around Zero, so that they could be happy and free together. He only hoped that Zero felt the same way. Kaname suspected that he did, but he also knew that Zero had some pretty deeply rooted fears, and he was guessing that those fears were what were stopping Zero from taking advantage of this opportunity. Because God knows it wasn't because of Kaname's Pure blood status, Zero had shown through his actions that he didn't really care to much for things such as social status. Whatever Zero's fears were Kaname was going to find them, and then he was going to destroy them. Such a beautiful, passionate man should not live in fear, not in fear of anything. Just as such a beautiful man should not live alone, without someone to love him. Kaname wanted to be the one to love Zero, the one to care for and cherish him. He knew that it sound sappy, but he really did want to become the love of Zero's life. He knew where his intentions lay and what his feelings were, now all that was left was to go and find Zero and find out if Zero wanted the same things. If he did than, great. And if not…well Kaname wasn't sure what he would do than. He just hoped that it didn't come to that.
His energy was draining, he knew that it would not be long now until he finally succumbed to the exhaustion. He still pushed himself though, despite how tired he was, he was determined to get as far away from Kaname as possible, he didn't want to pose a threat to the Pureblood, as if that were at all possible. He knew that if Kaname where in front of him right now he would be unable to resist the allure of his blood, Zero had denied himself to long, for the taste of blood, the feel of it's slippery contents sliding down his throat dousing the fire that resided within him. He just hoped that he would be week enough to not be able to properly attack the Pureblood, he hoped that he was so slow that Kaname would have no trouble at all stopping him from reaching his neck. But Zero feared otherwise. He knew from his past experience as a hunter, before he was turned, that a starving vampire was a dangerous thing, especially a starving ex-human. He had seen level E's do the impossible when they became truly hungry. Although he had a sinking suspicion that Kaname would be able to take care of himself if it were to ever come to that, which it wouldn't because Zero was leaving, and he wasn't coming back. He was done putting the Pureblood in danger, even if these past few days had been the most amazing days he had ever experienced…he refused to stay here and gamble away Kaname's safety.
Another wave of hunger crashed through him, causing him to reach down and clutch his chest clawing at the skin, trying to make the pain go away. His feet had slowly stopped moving and by the time that he noticed this he was past the point of caring. He was far enough away by now wasn't he? Zero thought so, he had been walking for what felt like days he was sure that he had to be a good ways away from the Pureblood by now. It's not as if Kaname was going to comw looking for him anyways right? Zero saw no reason why Kaname would. Zero was, after all, a monster, and he was pretty sure Kaname had seen that in him when he had almost taken the mans blood for the second time back at the house. So no, Kaname would not come looking for him. Which was a good thing, Zero rationalized. It was good that the man had enough sense to hate him after discovering what kind of monster he was. It was a good thing…..no matter how many times Zero thougth it, or how many different reasons he came up with….he still couldn't believe it. A good thing? No, it was a not a good thing that such a beautiful, powerful, wonderful man hated him. Zero would be crazy if he thought that was a good thing. Didn't he deserve happiness? Didn't he deserve to spend his time with a man who was as wonderful as Kaname? The answer, despite how much it hurt him to think it, was no. He did not deserve Kaname, and Kaname sure as hell deserved better thatn him. With all the people Kaname had saved with his ideas and plans. With his dealings of the blood tablets and the way he had started up that school….Kaname had done so many wonderful things and Zero had done nothing. He had done nothing….but endanger that wonderful mans life. He wasn't worthy of him, not by a long shot. So it would be better for everyone if he just left, which was exactly what he was doing. He was leaving, and despite how much it hurt him to do so….he knew it was the right thing.
