im are i deleted the chapter but i found some spelling errors and i had to change them. Enjoy the chapter


2 months later

I hadn't stopped thinking about Austin since that night with Trish. Not only had he led me on to believe that we could have had something, or even that I had meant something to him that night in the elevator, but he had proven all of my doubts and suspicions to be true.

It had been briefly liberating feel like all of the accusations you had of the modern world had been wrong, and that things were better than they seemed, but once again my hope was crushed by another disappointment. Even my parents had begun to notice a change in me. I no longer stayed up until 2 am talking and gossiping to my friends, I rarely went out to big parties where I could easily meet another boy and get hurt, and I couldn't bear the thought of listening to the radio in case his songs came on. I guess it's ironic that I was the one wanting to have amnesia of the night we had spent, while he carried on with no cares in the world. 'Life has a strange way of working itself out' I had always been told growing up. My mother claimed that if you wanted something enough you had to make sure that you wanted it more than you feared it and that you put everything into your passion to remove fear. But this is where I get confused.

If you put everything you have into passionately loving someone or something to the extent where you don't fear it any more, what happens if you lose it as I had lost Austin?

"Ally you just need to get over it!" Trish yelled through the phone as I spent yet another Saturday moping around in bed.

"There are millions of boys out there!"

"What's the use in boys anyways?" I muffled back, "All they ever do is break your heart."

"Look do me a favour and come out with me tonight? There's a huge concert in town and I have an extra ticket and it would be the perfect thing for you!"

"Will I like the music? I'm not really into this whole concert stuff recently."

"Yeah, there are like a bunch of acts performing, it'll be fun trust me!"

"Fine I'll be at yours at 5" I sighed, already regretting the words before they left my mouth

It's now 5 o'clock and I'm not sat in my room waiting for Trish and wondering why I even agreed to go to this stupid concert anyway. As the silence consumed me, I went deeper and deeper into thought, how I could have been so stupid, to let a guy break down my walls so easily, especially after what happened last time. How could I have let Austin Moon, world famous pop star, break down my walls and reach into my heart all in the time space of 24 hours, I feel so stupid. I knew he had millions of beautiful girls running after him, I knew he was on tour and I would barely ever get to see him, so why did I let this happen?

My thoughts were cut off by the sound of the doorbell, knowing it was obviously Trish I opened the door.

"Ready for a day full of fun!" she exclaimed

"not really"

Trish groaned

"stop being such a debby downer Ally"

"a debby what?" I'm so confused

"Let's just leave" she huffed

I decided not to say anything, we both got in the car and drove away. We rode in silence for about 15 minutes until Trish decided to break it.

"so my dad's friend kinda runs the festival, so my dad texted him and he got us both backstage passes, we get to hang out backstage with all of the artists, isn't that great" she squealed

"Yeah that's awesome" I could honestly care less, I'd rather be at home right now, mopping around whilst having a nice hot cup of coco reading a book.

"So who's playing at this festival?" I asked

She shrugged "dunno, just bunch of artists that are in the charts right now" I just nodded, not really bothered about the subject myself.

When we arrived the first thing I noticed was the huge line there was at the entrance, it was hot and I honestly was not in the mood to stand in a line, in the blazing heat surrounded by girls screeching

As we got out of the car I said

"Trish please tell me we don't have to stand in that line"

She smiled "do you really think that people with backstage passes have to get in that line?" I just stared at her

"To answer your question we don't, we have to go to security and show them our passes and they'll show us where to go" she laughed

"Oh thank god" I breathed, Trish let out another laugh.

"come on let's go" she said

As soon as we found security it was surprisingly easy to get backstage, as Trish said we just had to find security and show them our passes and they showed us the way. We got some dirty looks from some girls in line, but im not gonna lie it felt good to be able to just pass through and not have to wait in such a long line.

When we got backstage cool air from the air conditioning hit be instantly, this was amazing, there was a huge table filled with snacks and drinks, you had 4 huge sofas for everyone to sit on, later you had the side curtain where you could see the artist performing on stage. You had people casually chatting away with one another, others eating their snacks, and some other watching the current act performing, I think it was the band All Time Low? But I wasn't a 100% sure

"isn't this amazing!" Trish squealed

I smiled "yeah it is Trish, I would have never thought this would happen to someone like me, thanks for brining me"

She immediately brought me into a hug

"aww no problem Ally, I couldn't just leave my best friend mopping around all day"

I laughed.

As the day went on I slowly forgot about all my troubles, it was now 7 o'clock and we had been here for 2 hours, during that time trish and I ended talking to to Louis Tomlinson girlfriend Elenour, apparently One Direction were performing here, although I have no met them yet. We also rocked out to 5SOS, let's just say I never fangirled so hard, they were amazing live, and I've honestly never had this much fun in years.

Trish and I were casually drinking our drinks whilst watching Ella Henderson set when I heard someone call my name

"ALLY!" I looked at trish confused and turned around looking for the person who called my name

"ALLY OVER HERE" I looked at the direction of the sound and saw Dez running towards me

No no no no no, if Dez is here that means so is Austin. My thoughts were cut off when dez wrapped his arms around me in a hug

"i..um… what are you doing here dez?" I stuttered

He looked at me confused "um, Austin is performing here, didn't you know? He tried texting you but you never answered"

"um sorry, I haven't really been on my phone lately" I muttered looking down at my shoes

"okay… well let me get Austin for you, he's going to flip we he hears you're here" dez exclaimed

I snapped my head up immediately

"NO!" I shouted

Dez stared at me, obviously shocked by my outburst

I stared at Trish, she looked back at me with sympathy in her eyes, obviously knowing I couldn't stay here, not whilst Austin is around, I couldn't face him yet.

"Don't worry dez… i…um….gotta go now, I was just telling trish about how I had to leave"

No waiting for a response I grabbed my bag and turned around, only to be bump into someone and fall flat on my ass, and to think this day was going so well.

"crap" I muttered

I got up brushing any dirt i had on my shorts.

"im so sorry" I said as I picked up my bag

"I wasn't loo-"

"Ally?" I froze, immediately recognizing that voice, the voice I had tried to forget for the last 2 months.

After I couple of seconds I decided to look up, coming face to face with those beautiful chocolate brown eyes.

"Austin" I breathed

A smile immediately appeared on his face "oh my gosh ally", he took a step forward, as if on instinct I took a step back, confusion was clearly written across his face

"ally?" he took another step toward

"Go away Austin" I muttered, my heart ached when I saw the hurt and sadness appear on his face, It made me want to go to him and give him a hug, kiss him, as if everything was okay, as if nothing happened but I couldn't. I couldn't just forget about all the pain I've been feeling these last 2 months. My heart was broken yet again and this time it was because of him, I only have myself to blame for letting him in.

So I straightened up, re-adjusted my bag on my shoulder, and pushed pass him, whilst muttering

"goodbye Austin"


Hehehe, hello, how long as it been a year? more than a year? i dunno man. i have no excuse except that life just gets in the way sometimes. If you are from the UK you are aware about how important GCSE are and ive been busy with that these last year and a bit

pluuuuuuuus, i've had writers block and lack of motivated. sorry sorry. i had half of this chapter already written for about a year now and as i was looking through my desktop today i found it, so i decided to carry it on and post today hehe.

I honestly don't know when i'll post again, im honestly sorry for that but i don't know, i guess when i have free time. so come at me with you knives and pitch forks, i deserve it but honestly guys, im really proud of this story and i hope you love it just as much as i do. I'll try to update as soon as possible.

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