Chapter 9
When I woke up Saturday I almost went back under the covers. There was no Sandwich to make today. Alice said to come in and work a few hours in the bookstore if I wanted. I did not really feel up to it but that, money was needed so I went in. I decided to wear another dress she had given me to try for last night. It was soft and flowing like most of the ones she wore. I had to wear thigh high Stockings under it so I would not freeze and so the little boots she sent me to go with it would fit right. I had never worn thigh highs before and it just felt odd, but in a way, the sensation of it gave me something different to think about.
Luckily, we stayed packed throughout the day so I did not have much chance to think. By the end of the day, my feet were dragging though so I picked up a pizza for Opa and me. He said he loved pizza and could eat it 3 or 4 times a week so he really would like to keep it in the meal rotation. Not feeling up to facing him yet I decided to just drop it off at his door.
When I got close, I could hear Edward inside and he sounded upset. Opa was trying to calm him down but it wasn't going well. I felt bad that I was causing him such distress.
My heart felt like it was breaking but how could I give him my heart when it had barely been used before? I left the pizza next to the door and went on to my Apartment. Sitting in the dark, I stared into space for hours before I finally made up my mind to confront Edward about putting me on the spot. He said he was going to take it slow and this was so not slow. I was almost furious by the time I left out of the apt.
I realized I had left the boots in the apt and was ruining the thigh highs. Deciding I did not care until I got a splinter in my foot and started to cry. I felt like an idiot standing in the hallway crying over torn hose and a stupid splinter.
I finally got up, walked on to Edward's door, and realized I could hear him playing softly on his guitar while he was singing the most painful song I've ever heard. I tried the door so I didn't bother him and it was open. I walked in and he was facing out the window into the distance. He changed songs then and the new one was the most beautiful thing I had ever heard. I hit my knees as I sank to the floor. Somehow I felt grief that I wasn't letting this relationship progress.
Edward came and picked me up and moved me to the bed. I started protesting that that was the last place I should be and he said to get over it. That he would never attack anyone again or he would kill himself. I looked up and tried to explain why I couldn't let us happen. Besides the former event most of what I said sounded pretty lame. He listened for awhile while I rambled on and on and when I shivered he pulled a blanket over me.
I fell asleep still making excuses and woke up in the middle of the night lying at the bottom of a strange bed still. Startled at first to be somewhere other than my own apt. I looked over and spotted Edward sleeping. He looked like an angel fell to earth. I felt in my soul if I let this man go why would love ever find me again and that he was what brought me here to this place at this time. Deciding right then that I would give this a chance my heart lifted. I was so happy that I could tell Edward in the morning.
Needing to get back to my own apt and get on some pajamas and into my own bed I went around the bed to kiss Edward bye while he was sleeping. As I bent over his hand reached out and pulled me down to him. He whispered Bella; you are my angel, my love, my life.
I sank down against him and snuggled my back to his front. He reached over still asleep and put the covers over me. It was only then I realized that my skirt had risen up to my waist and he was sleeping nude. I felt his breath hitch as he woke up enough to realize what was going on.
He flung the covers off us and started to scoot back but I stopped him with a hand on his stomach. "Don't move, please" I asked looking him over or should it be drinking him in.
He was long, proud, and obviously happy that I was touching his body. And what a gorgeous body it was. I leaned over and kissed his stomach as I lightly ran my fingertips over him from his arches to his thighs. He started whimpering as I got closer to his cock and I couldn't believe the power I felt over him. He started chanting "please let this be okay, Please don't run from me. Till I grabbed his cock with one hand and started stroking up and down. I used the other hand to touch up and over his stomach then slowly and deliberately grabbed one of his nipples. He let out a low hiss and I looked into his eyes then and slowly lowered my head and enclosed him with my mouth. He tasted like velvet on my tongue I swirled my tongue over the end of him then licked him from root to stem over and over. He started wiggling around so I growled then grasped him firmer and took as much of him as I could handle in my mouth. I sucked and blew and licked and swirled then I grabbed his dangly bits and licked and sucked them too.
I couldn't believe what I was doing. Who was this girl and where did she come from? He started to move and I lifted my head and groaned out that he should stay perfectly still or I might have to leave. He stared at me for a minute then put his hands behind his back and slowly nodded his head. I went back to what I was doing. When I could tell that he couldn't handle much more I lifted my head and said "I'm going to Fuck you now don't move or it's over understand".
He looked up at me like I had struck him but again he nodded. I pulled off my underwear then and moved up his body till I was at his waist and slowly lowered myself over him. It was almost painful at first and I started to get back up. He moaned and said "please let me touch you, Please, Please, Please, let me touch you." I lowered my head in shame at how wonton I was behaving. I whispered okay and looked up as he took me at my word. He grabbed me firmly by my hips and told me to hold still then eased himself into me. I could not believe the things I was feeling. My core felt alive and as he pumped into me. I let myself go. He begged me to look at him so I looked up and he had the most peaceful look on his face. Then he said "Thank you for trusting me". A minute later his rhythm changed, he reached down with one hand and started to stroke my clit and just as I started seeing stars he jetted into me as I went over the edge. After we both came down and could move again, he kissed me gently on the lips and said wait here. He came back a minute later with a wet washcloth and pulled my skirt up and started cleaning me up. I fell asleep in bliss and dreamed of butterflies, rainbows, and a certain soulful man that gave me an orgasm to the stars. What else could a girl dream of?
