Hey there, I decided I'd put up another chapter tonight because I had the time.
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"Yeah, yeah you fucking are." He was going to close the door but stopped himself "And since Theia is obviously not here, she's been missing or six hours. She's gone." I was fuming "When was the last time you saw her?"
I said nothing
"When, Reid?" he demanded
"Stop pretending like you care about her, you're just into her friend." He opened his mouth as if to say something horrible but he thought about his words and closed his lips. A screaming match wouldn't do well with me. "Just come on, there's a cop in her dorm room, he'll want to talk to you."
"I don't wanna go." I said and sat on my bed boredly looking at the floor
"FOR CHRIST'S SAKE, Reid." He jarred himself abruptly as he yelled and his arms shook "Just fucking come with me."
I got up off the bed and grabbed my hoodie and walked down the hall. It was about 11:20pm now, lights out was only twenty minutes ago.
"Curfew just passed, she's probably on her way back." I mumbled on the way to Theia's, fear crept into my thoughts as my walking slowed to a crawl, I didn't wanna go in her room. I didn't want to take the chance that she might be there. I didn't wanna face her.
"Just leave your burdens out here, no one has to know what you did yet, it';s not about you right now." He murmured "Just give your statement."
"Yeah."
I walked in and there was Caleb, some of Theia's friends, and Heidi, crying her eyes out.
"I don't know where she could have gone! I don't know where she went!" she sobbed hard in fear and Tyler went to go hold her as the police officer turned to me.
"Are you Reid?" I nodded "I just need you answer a few questions ok?" I nodded again. "When was the last time you saw Theia Dainan?"
"Around five o'clock."
"There was word that you two were having an argument..." he lead on
"Yes." I answered
"what was this argument about? Money? Your relationship?" He asked
"We're just fr... yeah, our relationship, as friends."
"Any reason why she would run away?" he questioned
"No, I don't think so."
"So, what were you two arguing about in your relationship... as friends." he pried
"She, just just thought I couldn't take care of her, you know, like I couldn't help her." I said honestly and everyone one in the room got quite
"Do you have any history of violence or family problems... it says in your file that you've had some troubles with your dad." I cringed
"Yeah, just arguments." I replied, getting frustrated
"No physical violence?" my head snapped up
"I wouldn't put a hand on Theia." I urged "I would never hurt her..." my eyes lashed to Tyler and he looked away "...not like that..."
"I didn't say that boy." He said smugly "You got something on your mind?'
"Yeah I do, I think you've got no idea who Theia Dainan is, she's fine, she just needed some time to cool off. She's not incompetent like some of you. She doesn't need to be treated like it either. it degrades her. You're all ignorant. You spend so much time trying to help her you hurt her. You all have no idea what she needs."
Everyone was stunned, some looked angry, but it was me alone, I was singled out, alone in my own little state of red.
"Easy now son, there's no need for that talk, if she's not back by morning then there will be a missing persons' report out, due to the, umm, unique circumstances. You kids have a safe night alright?" The police men turned to walk out and I tried to follow them.
"Wait Reid, where are you going?" asked Caleb sharply
"My room." I bit back shortly
"Aren't you going to help look for Theia?" timidly asked me
"She's fine"
"She's gone. For I don't know how long and-" I interrupted her before the tears started flowing again
"She's just a stupid girl, and I can't take this. She's fine." I burst out suddenly
"What's wrong with you today?" demanded Caleb "What's going on in your life that this is so unimportant?"
"I'm fucking fine alright? She's just a stupid god damn girl that has no idea what she's doing, if she could see, none of you would be here." I exploded and Heidi burst into tears again
"No, if you weren't a psychopath we wouldn't be here!" She screamed
"Yeah you were the last person to see her and you dragged her out of the room." Caleb pushed himself off o the wall where he was standing and aproached me but Tyler got in his way
"Oh what now Baby Boy? You gonna be a man?" I pushed him hard and Caleb lurched orward in his defense. Tyler put his arm out to stop him.
"You have no idea how bipolar, sick, and twisted you are. I have kept my mouth shut though hundreds of girls because they were dumb and couldn't spell "compassion" so I didn't think they could give it as much as you could. But this is Theia, Reid, she was the girl in pre school that came to class one day and couldn't see anymore. She couldn't find her friends, she can't see herself, she can't feel vanity or pride or lust or any of the shit you're known for. She's quite possibly the greatest person, Reid, she's a person, and the greatest one I've ever known." raged Tyler with a red face "You remember what happened the last time a girl went missing? Do you? It was Sarah! You know what happened, you know how close that was!"
"You can't just barge into my life and expect me to feel guilty about myself because she was the one that ran away, why should I care, if I'm alone I don't deserve to be hated for something I'm allowed to do. It's not like we're together and she's not my girlfriend, I don't savor her kisses or pity her for being different. I'm the real world, I'm the fight she has to face."
"You've made that clear, I wish you weren't my friend some days so I could kick your fucking ass. It's not even about you right now"
"She never needed any help anyway, she's fine on her own. Don't baby her. I shouldn't have to promise to never let her go. She ran away. If you care about her and what ever I do, don't fucking tell me." I turned to walk away
"Hey!" someone turned me around by grabbing my shoulder, it was Heidi "You aren't her friend, I get that, but I am, and I wouldn't be able to live if I lost her. So it's not because I pity her, good god, all of this is for me because my life is black and white and the same ol same ol without her. She's my best friend and I could never be her crutch because she's different, she's my light, she helps me get up in the morning, she's so inspiring that she wills me to get up when all I want to do is come crashing down. She, is my friend. And I'm scared without her." the tears streamed down her face and didn't ever seem like they would stop "Will you please help me?"
I looked at her and I didn't know what to say, so I didn't say anything. I shut the door, and sat down on Theia's bed, I was the only one touching anything that belonged to her, not her bed, her desk, her clothes, or even her floor mat that she liked because the furry carpet tickled in between her toes. Funny, I remember her saying that from a month ago. She brought it up randomly in conversation with her friends, she didn't say it to me, hell, I wasn't even on the same side of the commons, I Used to eavesdrop on her. I thought it was cute, and I guess I remembered it.
I let my head drop in my hands and I knew I had so much to regret tonight, I don't deserve to be anywhere except on my knees. All the times I've felt insecure have never hurt anyone this badly, I deserve to be an outcast. I had never felt so ugly before. I felt down right repulsive. I felt like this would never end and to feel what I could never have again.
Theia, and my self respect.
"Tyler..." I looked up at him, but he didn't look back at me "...I need to shower." his head perked up and he nodded
"Alright, I'll come get you if she shows up." I nodded
"Thanks." I walked back to my room and got my shower supplies and went to the showers and hoped to wash the filth off my body. I made that girl fuck me out of spite and I threw her away like trash to get back at Theia, just to hurt her.
"Because she hurt me..." It dawned on me. She had gotten under my skin enough to hurt me. When she said I couldn't take care of her she didn't mean because she was blind, she meant I couldn't love her. That I couldn't love anyone. And it hurt me.
I hurried to put my pants on and stopped to run a towel thought my hair when I heard the door open to see caleb walk in. He looked angry.
"Hey, is she back?" I asked
"No, not yet." He replied, I rushed and put on my shirt and picked my shoes up and tried to wawlk out of the bathrooms so I could be there when she got back.
"Tyler told me about what you did Reid." I stopped in my tracks
"That was a mistake, and it was a mistake that's none of your business."
"She is my business. I'm her-" I broke his sentence with my own
"Ex boyfriend. I know. I'm the man in her life right now. And I'm going to go see her when she comes back." I brushed past him and suddenly I was pushed back into the lockers with a burst of energy and held there. The pressure was intence but Caleb was holding back a great deal of power on me.
"You won't speak to her again. I will hurt you if you do." he warned, but I let him have his say this time.
"You can't do that Caleb, It's not too late for me to be the good guy." I shot back "Why do you have to be the hero every time?"
"I couldn't believe that Theia took an interest in you, you're not worth anything. Not if you could cheat on her. That's what you did. You cheated on her." I lowered my head
"I know..." I summoned a small amount of energy "but you did too." I broke free and exploded the force back at him with a direct hit.
"Ugh!" he was pushed back twice as hard as he pushed me "You're not even worth her giving you another chance, you're just a fuck up Reid, you ruin everything and then you laugh about it."
"I'm not worth her giving me another chance, but she deserves an apology once I tell her the truth." I told him as he picked himself up off the floor easily "Now I want to be there when she gets back, alright? I fucked everything up with her and she's going to hate me for a long time, but I would never hide anything from her, after all. She can see right through me."
RxR
