[BILL POV]
I was alone.
The room felt cold and empty. But above all, I feel guilty. I feel like I forced her into something... something that she didn't want. She was forced to... please me. Give in for my pleasure. Damn. I walked to my side table and took my pack of cigarettes. I went to the balcony to smoke. I always smoke to relax myself. I stared into the dark sky. My phone suddenly rang. Tom. "Hello?" I said. "Hey, how was it?" Tom asked. I sighed. So vulgar. "S'alright. Thanks for the pills," I said. "Yeah, okay." Tom said impatiently and hung up. Tom said that the pills were effective. He said he used that to make sure that the girl won't be pregnant. I sighed. I wished I didn't have to take those pills. If I weren't a rock star... you know the rest. But I am famous. It's too late to turn back. I'm tired, I thought to myself. I finished my cigarette and washed my face to shake it all off. I went to bed. I lay down, feeling empty without her. It was a long day, a long night, and it took me forever to fall asleep.
The next day...
The sky began to lighten. It was a new day.
I got up and took a quick shower. I dressed in a tank top and jeans. I went to the hotel's swimming pool where the guys where having breakfast. "Guten morgen," Tom greeted. "Guten morgen, Tom." I answered. I sat down and Aya handed me coffee. "Hey, Aya." I said after taking a sip. I put my cup down. "Where's Alex?" I asked. Tom took a quick glance at me. "She's in her room. She said that she doesn't want to eat," Aya replied. "What's wrong?" Georg asked. My heart leaped. "Well... she went back late last night. I heard her. She doesn't look well this morning," Aya explained. I was worried. Maybe she was mad at me. I hope not. I looked at Tom. He seems to have noticed my expression. "Did you guys see the new movie trailer? It looked awesome, "Tom started and the topic shifted. They were all talking about the new movies while I sat silent. After a while, Aya and Gustav went back to the hotel and Georg followed. Tom and I were left alone. "You're quiet today," Tom said. I sighed. He got me. "I feel... guilty," I admitted. It was my first time. "Naturally. You're a virgin," Tom retorted while holding his cup. "Was," I corrected. I kept on thinking about Alex's reaction. Will she get mad at me? Will she hate me? Damn. "Look who's her," Tom said, breaking me out of my delusions. "Hey, Alex. Good morning," Tom greeted, I shot a dirty look at Tom and he chuckled. "Morning," Alex answered. She sat down on the chair nearest to me. Tom took a last gulp of his coffee and sad "I'll leave you two to talk." Before I could react, he got up and went inside. I looked at Alex. She was avoiding looking at me. This won't work. I had to make a move. "Alex," I said. She turned her head slightly. "About last night..." I started. It was hard to speak. Just do it, Bill. "I'm sorry," I blurted. "I-I didn't mean to bring it up to that point," I continued. I was so guilty. I wanted to kill myself. "I don't blame you," she finally said. Her voice was music to my ears. For a moment, I forgot everything. I sat there, awestruck by her beauty. I put my right elbow on the table and let the side of my face rest on my palm. I stared at her, smiling stupidly. I was letting my fantasies run until I noticed the expression on her face. "What's wrong?" I asked. "Nothing," she replied. I sighed. She was such a bad liar. "Yeah, right." I said with a smirk. I moved closer to her, taking my chair with me. Sitting near her, I moved my face closer to her ear and whispered "Tell me." She sighed. "I feel... uncomfortable. Like I did something wrong," she said while staring ta the floor. She looks... sad. I hated seeing her sad. I wrapped my arms around her waist and gently nuzzled against her neck. I felt her warm hands on my arms. "Bill, stop. Someone will see..." she pleaded. "I don't care," I replied. I suddenly felt my phone vibrate. Scheisse. I reached into my pocket and pressed my phone against my ear. "Hallo? ... Bill ... Ja ... Ja. Danke," I hastily said. I sighed deeply.
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