FEAR AND DOUPT: Chapter 9
That evening Damien and Steve were allowed to remain in the same room as each other. Neither spoke after the events that happened earlier, and both wished they never said or did anything that would make these Avenges of this world hate and fear them.
But as time passed on, the silence was getting to Damien and it drove him mad. Especially when he saw Steve sitting in a chair at a table next to a wall, and just starting at that wall as if pretending there was a window there. Damien rolled his eyes in annoyance.'
"Oh come on Steve say something will ya? It's been what? 7 hours since it happened! I'm bored!" Damien whined, as he walked over to sit on the chair on the opposite side. Steve just remained focused on the blank wall.
Damien then started tapping his fingers on the table and grinding his teeth which he knew Steve hated. He then went as far as hitting Steve's feet from underneath the table trying to get him to move.
Steve finally turned to look at him but gave him a death glare. "Knock it off Stark, you are acting like a child." Steve snapped.'
"And so are you! Playing the damn silence game! I'm not talking to anyone! I'm pissed off and angry! So I will pout and say nothing! And make everyone else's life miserable!" Damien said in a mocking and childish voice.
Steve continued to glare at him.'
"Honestly Stark knock it off. I'm just tired." Steve finally admitted, in a defeated voice. Stark just sighed. "Who cares what they think Steve! They aren't going to kill us or torture us, so why so glum?" Damien asked half heartedly.
"Just, tired I said." Steve insisted. Damien frowned. "What are you depressed or something?" Damien asked. Steve just rolled his eyes.'
"No. I'm not depressed." Steve assured him. "Look Damien, we are trapped in this room, in a parallel world, completely different from our own. Different set of rules and laws.. the works…we..we don't know how they deal with their criminals and killers. We could be put away for a very long time; or we could be put to death…" Steve said the last word quietly. Damien winched at the word 'death". He did not want to die.
"I honestly think these Avengers on this world is better than ours. I don't think it will come to that." Damien said with confidence.
"I hope so." Steve said with a sigh.
'But that' is not really what's bothering you is it?" Damien asked with a little curiosity.'
"You know Damien; some times I wonder if I really did kill Bucky" Steve admitted. "What do you mean?" Damien asked confused.
"It's the same thing with your brother. NEITHER one of us wanted to really kill anyone, and yet we thought we had good justifiable reason to kill them. Did you really want to play hero and be famous that bad? Did I want to be in the army so bad I was willing to kill my best friend for it? Something doesn't add up. The whole time, I never felt like I was me that day. I swear It felt like I was being controlled by some outside force." Steve said, biting his lip in deep thought.
"I'm scared Damien. We weren't ourselves. I mean you have always been the hermit type of a guy. Your brother was the social one. Right? Did you really want to be famous that badly?" Steve asked.
"No, Not really. I did regret it the moment he died. I never felt such fear, shame and guilt for anything that badly before. If I could take it back, I would. My brother was never a jerk you know. He looked out for me. I…I loved my brother. I miss him everyday." Damien admitted sadly
"And I missed Bucky every damn day, since then." Steve said in a saddened voice.
"What do you think it means? Do you think someone or something was controlling us?" Damien asked, fear evident in his voice.
"I don't know. If that is the case, then that makes me even more afraid than ever before. I no longer feel like I am in control or ever was. I don't trust myself. So actually Damien. I don't mind them locking us up. We can't be trusted." Steve said in a stern voice.
"Still, what difference would it make? I mean in this world; you were supposed to be captain America. Maybe it was just fate for Bucky to be killed by you?" Damien tried to explain.
"I don't think so. Something isn't right here Stark, and we need answers. Not going to find them in here though." Steve said in a defeated voice.
"Come on, look on the bright side, this room is pretty cozy for a jail cell." Damien said with a smirk. "That doesn't mean anything to me." Steve said in a bored voice, Damien just sighed.'
"Well if we were controlled by someone else, then who could it be? And what about Clint?" Damien reminded. Steve raised an eyebrow at the mention of Clint from the other world.'
"You know his secret right? By all means he should be in here with us. He's no better!" Damien insisted his voice rising.
"Keep your voice down Damien, we don't know if they are listening to us." Steve said a little paranoid. "Who cares if they are! Clint killed the Natasha of his world! Did he ever bother to tell the damn Avengers of this time that terrible truth!? No, why would he!? Then he would be considered a killer and a monster like us! At Least we had the balls to admit it!"
'" At least we confessed!" Damien said angrily. Steve again tried to hush him and calm him down.
"And besides…Clint…he doesn't know we know." Steve said in a low whisper. "What do you mean he doesn't know we know?" Damien asked confused.
"Barton…he told me something the last time we saw him. Clint thinks he murdered Natasha, of his world. Which is why he took off. But in reality, he's innocent." Steve explained.
"He told these Avengers that Natasha was just dead, not murdered by him. "Steve explained.
"AT least he was smart enough to keep his mouth shut." Damien thought to himself.
"But come on! No! He's just like us!" Damien insisted.
"No. He's innocent. No one made him kill anyone. There were false memories implanted in him when he was captured by Loki. He never actually killed her. We killed. But he didn't kill anyone. He just thinks he did. If he knew the truth, he would have never left his world." Steve said, feeling guilt ridden even more now.
"He'll hate us if he knew the truth. He was on our world for awhile you know. Walking around with this false sense of guilt and shame and thinking he was a murderer. We…I knew he was innocent. I knew…. but I kept it a secret…I still don't know why. Maybe it made talking to him easier. If he thought we were both killers, he would not fear hanging out with me so much. We would have that in common." Steve tried to explain.
"You got to be kidding me! He killed her!" Damien kept insisting. Folding his arms in anger. "No. We just made him think he did.' Steve said sadly. "He's not like us Damien. He should not be locked up like us." Steve tried to make stark understand.
"This isn't fair! We killed! But he never did, he just thinks he did! Maybe we were given false memories too?" Damien said hopefully. But Steve shook his head no.
"I'm afraid not. It did happen. Bucky is dead and so is your brother." Steve said sternly. Damien's heart snake. "Well I hope they can't hear what we are saying, because if he finds out he's not a killer, and we lied to him the whole time he was with us, he's going to hate us even more! He made some pretty stupid decisions thinking he was a killer like us!" Damien said. Steve sighed.
"If Loki and Barton are behind his Natasha's death…and we knew…we should have said something." Steve said guilt ridden.
"What difference would it have made! He's innocent and we are guilty! Even if someone or something else made us do it, we are still killers!" snapped Damien, as he slammed his hand on the table, startling Steve.
"Calm down Damien. We need to figure out what or who made us kill. And look at the time gaps…they had the ability to jump worlds for decades now…Loki would seem like the best and obvious one responsible. He's just been playing us all for fools.
"We're killers because The God of Mischief made us do it! Like they will believe that!" Damien said with a loud groan.
"Either way, If and when Loki and Barton come, they will blackmail Clint. Clint thinks he killed Natasha. If Loki or Barton use that knowledge against him…he might be forced to do things he doesn't want to do. He might be too scared to tell these Avengers the truth…" Steve said wordily.
"In that case we have to tell him." Damien said more nervous than before.
"I'm afraid so." Steve said.
AN/ Hope that was not too boring. It was just a chapter to reveal some more secrets! Next chapter will have some action in it! Review please if you would like an update!
