Sex Ed
9
"I'm sorry Bella, Edward and I have some business we need to take care of before you two marry. There are some legal matters to attend to and Alice wants to go with us to work out some wedding details."
"What legal matters?" I could hear the panic in my own voice. I didn't want to hear about Edward leaving. Whatever it was surely Carlisle could handle it alone.
"We need a certified copy of your birth certificate and we need some documents made up for Edward. Of course, you know I have his mother's ring, along with some other items I need to give to him. These are just things that need to be dealt with before the wedding, that's all."
"So Esme, Jasper, Rosalie and Emmett will stay here with me?"
"Yes dear, also I am having another cottage built….since Edward was so kind to clear a spot." He tried very hard not to smile. "It will give you some privacy when you are married and also keep us close enough to help out with any issues that may arise."
"What issues?" I wasn't sure I wanted to know the answer to that.
"Being a newborn is unpredictable. You will be very strong and we just want to make sure nothing happens."
I knew he was referring to me attacking any boaters who happen to wander too close to the island and it sent a chill down my spine.
Carlisle left then and returned with a machine on wheels. He placed what looked like black window panes under my legs and covered me with a lead apron. Nobody left the room when he took the x-rays and I had to remind myself they didn't have to worry about cancer or exposure.
When he left, Esme and Rose began my morning routine only this time Alice was too distracted to dress me. I persuaded Esme to let me wear shorts and a simple t-shirt. I felt like myself again.
Rose carried me to the chaise and Carlisle was waiting on the couch. "I have great news Bella!"
"Edward is staying?" I asked excitedly.
"Oh gag," Rosalie mumbled just loud enough for me to hear.
"No, dear, but you can begin using crutches this weekend. Your legs are healing very nicely and a lot faster than I predicted."
"Oh." I tried to act happy but what use were my legs if Edward wasn't here to walk with me.
I sat back and sighed. Carlisle and Esme joined hands and left the house. I'm sure they wanted some alone time before he went away. Rosalie came to sit down by me on the couch. She looked at me as if she wanted me to ask her something. I finally gave in.
"What?" I asked.
"Do you want some advice about how to deal with Edward?"
"What do you mean? Edward and I get along just fine."
"Every man is different Bella. Try to think of them as cars. Some men are sports cars and some are trucks. They idle at different speeds. Take Emmett, he's a race car; stripped down to the bare essentials concentrating on the engine only, he is built for speed and endurance. Jasper is a Mercedes; he's dependable with very little maintenance, looks great and can take a lot of abuse. Carlisle is a Bentley, classic, beyond most people's comprehension. You treasure a Bentley when you're lucky enough to have one."
"So, what is Edward?"
"Edward is a Volvo; he is nice looking, safe, and conservative. He doesn't like surprises and doesn't do well with change."
"So… I shouldn't ever surprise Edward?"
"I'm just saying take things slowly with Edward. He is a great machine, but don't drive him too hard."
"Are you making some sexual metaphor, cuz frankly I have no idea what you're talking about."
She chuckled and shook her head.
"Edward has already changed so much since you came into his life. I guess I am saying be appreciative of how far he has come and be patient with him as you lead him even further. Don't get so frustrated that you want to give up."
"Oh, okay. I can't imagine ever wanting to give up on Edward though."
Rosalie reached out and patted my hand. "Honey, there are days I want to rip Emmett apart and burn him myself."
I had to laugh along with her. I finally understood what she meant about seeing Edward for who he really was. I could see Emmett was fun loving but very irreverent. I am sure that would drive Rosalie crazy sometimes.
Jasper's calm even keel would be maddening if you were as animated as Alice and wanted him to react to something. Edward could be brooding and over cautious. I have already had times when I was so exasperated with him. I knew Rosalie was telling me marriage wouldn't change that.
"Thank you Rosalie, I really needed to hear what you had to say."
She just winked and turned her attention to the window. "Hold on, Alice is coming."
Alice burst into the room like a Tasmanian devil. "Guess what?" she said to both Rose and me. "The guys are giving us a concert tonight!"
Rosalie looked excited, actually giddy for her.
"Concert?' I asked.
"Yeah," Alice continued. "They do this every once in a while. They are really quite talented and never let us know what they are going to perform."
"Like a band or like karaoke?"
"Nothing like Karaoke," Alice protested. "They all play instruments. Emmett is best on the drums but he plays guitar every once in a while. Edward plays piano and guitar and Jasper plays piano, guitar and a few brass instruments."
"Jasper's forte is jazz or rockabilly," Rose interrupted. "Emmett loves rock… head pounding rock, and Edward usually sings some depressing song like 'Iris' or 'Hallelujah'. Carlisle always sings just one song for Esme, usually a gushy love song."
"Maybe Edward will sing something up beat tonight, you know, for Bella." Alice sounded hopeful.
"What did I just tell you about change?" Rose said directly to me. I laughed.
"Do you guys ever perform?" I was instantly worried. If this was a vampire version of the Partridge Family I was going to have to back out right now. I couldn't sing at all!
"We are the official mosh pit," Alice said while jumping up and down with her eyes closed demonstrating. "Somebody has to feed their egos," she added.
"Just wait Bella; you are going to love this. They are quite sexy when they play rock star!" Rose said with a smile.
Great, just what I needed; Edward looking sexier than he already does right in time for him to leave me here by myself. I tried not to let my concern show and spoil the mood for Alice and Rose.
I spent the remainder of the day going over wedding details with Alice. She was showing me different dresses on her lap top and having me sketch out details as she relayed them to me.
I was so relieved when Edward finally returned. I wanted to jump off the chaise and run to him, but had to settle for pushing all the magazines and drawings from around me so he could lie next to me.
"Bella," Alice complained. "Don't just throw everything down. This represents a lot of hard work."
She was busy picking up things from the floor as I pulled Edward close to me and attacked his mouth.
"I missed you," he said still pressed to my lips.
"This day was way too long," I confessed. "I hate being away from you and now Carlisle tells me you're leaving."
He glanced around the room and then picked me up to carry me to my bedroom. After locking the door he sat me on the bed.
"Bella, I hate to go but I just can't see any other way. I have some things that only I can take care of." He smiled knowingly and continued. "Plus I have a few surprises for the future Mrs. Cullen."
"Why can't I go with you?"
"You need to continue healing, and I hate to remind you, but you are kind of slow."
I knew he was only teasing me but the thought of him leaving was just so painful and I couldn't help the tears that began to fall. I couldn't believe how different I had become in such a short time. Maybe Elizabeth was trying to save me too. I didn't know love could be felt so deeply, to the point it was a painful pleasure.
"Oh my sweet Bella," he whispered as he kissed my neck. "Don't cry, love. We have forever to be together."
I hated feeling like the desperate, clingy, girlfriend. I tried to buck up and be supportive but every time I thought about not seeing him I fell into despair.
I finally wiped my eyes and decided to change the subject. "I hear we get a private concert tonight."
He instantly smiled. "Yeah, we indulge ourselves every once in a while. Why have musical talents if you never use them… right?"
"Boy, are you asking the wrong person!" I laughed. "I heard Carlisle is having another cottage built."
"Yeah, he is hoping to offer enough money to have it finished in time for the wedding."
"Exactly when is our wedding, Edward?"
"We are planning for about one month from now. It will give you time to be walking again and time for us to get everything in order."
"Is anyone coming here for the wedding?" I decided to talk to him about the suspicions I had that the girls weren't telling me something.
He hesitated adding to my suspicions. "Well, I'm not sure, we have some cousins in Alaska and Carlisle has some old friends in Italy. Honestly, I am not up on what Alice has planned so it might just be our family."
"Our family," I liked the sound of that!
He smiled a huge grin and pulled me over on top of him as he laid back. I had to bend my knees keeping my air casts elevated but just feeling his body so close to mine took away all my worries.
I put my hands around his neck and used the leverage to pull myself up so our faces were even. The sensation of my body being dragged against his made him moan and his eyes darkened as I stared into them.
"Edward, do you like it when I rub against you?" My sultry voice even surprised me.
"I like everything your body does to me," he moaned.
I reached in between us and pulled up his shirt so I could see his beautiful chest. He did the same with mine, not removing it but simply pulling it up. My hot skin against his cold upper body made me shiver.
I put my hands on the bed next to his head and pushed myself back down his body moving as slowly as possible. I began gradually licking his skin on his perfect, smooth chest. When a low rumble started in his belly I asked him how it felt when my tongue touched his skin.
"It feels so warm and it gets me so excited," he answered, without opening his eyes.
"Can I kiss you lower Edward?" I asked pushing his boundaries.
He didn't answer so I added more, "I will stop when you tell me."
His head made a barely perceptual nod so I kissed my way to his belly button. His legs parted allowing me to move lower on the bed. I could feel him harden between by breasts and had to force myself to concentrate on his stomach and ignore what I was feeling.
Again, the rumble rose in his chest. I laid my head on his stomach and stayed perfectly still until it passed.
Having no idea what I was doing I pushed back onto my knees, which was awkward with the air casts, and breathed hot air over the front of his jeans. He instantly growled and grabbed my arms pulling me back up to his face. He flipped us so fast I didn't realize what was happening until he was now laying over me with his legs spread to both sides of mine.
"Oh God, Bella, don't move," he managed to say through clenched teeth.
"What are you feeling Edward? Tell me what you feel," I demanded.
"The heat, your breath, your scent, it's too much," he confessed.
"You don't want my blood Edward, you want my body." I tried to talk him back into reality as I softly ran my fingers through his hair. "It's okay to feel this way. I feel it too. Tell me what you want to do to me. Really think about it. What do you want?"
He moaned loudly and I continued to press him. "Tell me Edward, if we were married what would you do to me right now?"
"I would taste you," he confessed. "Not your blood, your..." I felt his face move further into my hair in embarrassment.
Oookay… didn't see that coming.
"Would you want me to taste you too?"
He took a deep breath before he answered. "I wouldn't make you do that, Bella."
I was shocked. I didn't understand why he thought it would be something he would have to make me do. Didn't he realize I wanted him as much as he wanted me?
"Edward, honey, look at me." I gently pulled on his hair.
He pulled his head back and slowly raised his eyes to mine.
"I want to taste you. I want everything you want. I want to feel you deep inside me," I could tell my face was turning red but I soldiered on. "I want to give myself to you in every way and I hope you will do the same for me."
"I'm learning Bella, please be patient with me."
"We'll learn together," I assured him. Feeling much more confident I ran my hand down his side to his hip. "Can I touch you Edward?"
He slowly slid to one side so his leg was still across me but his torso was more exposed. I opened my hand wide to touch as much of his skin on his abdomen as I could. I could feel it turn warmer when I left my hand still for a moment. Slowly keeping my eyes on his, I lowered my hand to the zipper of his jeans. His eyes fluttered and finally shut as he let out a big sigh.
I didn't push him I just kept my hand still to let the warmth radiate down to him.
"You have no idea how that feels," he breathed.
"I think I do. Edward, touch my breast," I implored.
Without opening his eyes he moved one hand to my chest still over my clothing. It was my turn to sigh. We stayed that way for several moments then his hand moved to my skin and slowly slid under my bra. The cold of his hand made my nipple react instantly and I unconsciously moved my hips into him and squeezed with my hand.
He threw his head back and arched into my hand encouraging me to squeeze him again, this time I moved my hand up and down slightly adding friction to my movements, but continuing to remain outside of his pants. When his eyes opened I saw they were solid black.
"Edward," I said calmly. "Feel my hand, feel how warm it is as it moves up and down your body." I was trying desperately to keep him focused as I applied more pressure to my hand. "Does it feel good, Edward?"
"Bel…..Holy fu…." He quickly shut his mouth, pulling his lips into a tight line, intent on not speaking again.
He shut his eyes tightly but didn't stop me from my movements. I moved faster with more pressure and he rolled all the way onto his back and grabbed a fist full of the blanket in both hands. He was now moving his hips in rhythm with my hand and his breath was coming faster and faster. I knew he was close and I only hoped he would let me do this for him and not pull away.
I had to say something to keep him from over-thinking what was happening. I leaned over to whisper in his ear, "Soon, we will be married and I will be able to taste you."
My words had the desired effect. He pushed my hand away with a lot of force and pulled into a tight ball as his body convulsed and feral growls ripped from his lips. I wrapped my arms tightly around him kissing him lightly and telling him over and over again how much I loved him.
When his breathing finally slowed he turned to look at me. His eyes were golden again and he put his hands on my face pulling me to his lips. "Bella, I'm sorry I had to push you away, but I don't know if my venom is dangerous to you."
"It's okay Edward. You trusted me and let me do that for you and that means so much to me."
"I can't imagine trying to live without you. You brought so much happiness to my life." He began kissing my jaw and neck.
"I feel the same way, but knowing you're leaving is like having a hole ripped in my heart."
"I'll be back as soon as possible, I promise."
"Edward, can I tell you something?"
He looked at me very concerned. "You can tell me anything."
"I'm afraid."
He realized exactly what I was talking about and pulled me closer to him. "I hate the fact I will knowingly be causing you pain."
"I only remember things your mother told me when I need them. I can't remember if she told me anything about the change. When Carlisle changed you were you aware of anything around you. Could you hear anything?"
"Yes and no. At first the fire is too hot and you are aware of your screams…," he stopped to look at my face. "Are you sure you want to hear this?"
"Yes, and be very specific please."
"I knew I was yelling out and I knew someone was there but I couldn't really connect anything. As time went on the fire receded and I was more conscious of my surroundings but it was very confusing. I could hear things like a tree branch swaying and a fly buzzing, even Carlisle pants swishing as he walked. It took time to process everything."
"So when I wake up I will be confused?"
"I'm not sure Bella; you are choosing to do this and will be better prepared than any of us were. I don't know what effect that will have. Love," he said looking into my eyes, "you don't have to do this. I will love you no matter what."
I felt my face turn red.
"What?" He said eyeing me apprehensively.
"I was thinking that what we just did was so much fun there is no way I'm living the rest of my life not having all of you."
His eyes dropped but not before I saw the guilt cross his face. "I shouldn't be so disrespectful. I'm sorry, but when I'm with you…."
"Don't," I pleaded with him. "Letting me show you how much I love you isn't disrespectful.
Edward grinned from ear to ear, "I think I better get cleaned up before my brothers get back or I'm afraid you will feel disrespected."
"Too bad I can't carry you into the surf naked," I teased.
He stopped moving and looked back at me. "Too bad you can't stand yet, or I would invite you into the shower."
He continued into my bathroom laughing the entire way as I tried not to swallow my tongue!
