So when I had finally gotten up the nerve, I went back to Kurt's house. This time the door opened easily. I crept in quietly, shutting the door gently behind me. I pressed my hands on the handle, sqeezed my eyes shut, and prayed that it wouldn't creak. The door softly clicked shut and I turned to sneak down the hall.
But instead I found myself facing Kurt.
He glared menacingly down at me. "What are you doing here?" "Just thought I'd pop in for a minute." I squeaked, caught very much off guard. "You aren't welcome here anymore, remember?" He said pointedly. I swallowed my fear and lifted my chin defiantly, shooting a glare back. "You forced me into taking these lessons. You cant just back out now." "As a matter of fact, I can. Especially after what you pulled last night. Someone should check you into a mental facility."
I stepped back, stung by his sharp words. How could he speak to me like that? I was brave enough to come over here after what I had seen last night, wasnt I? I hadnt told anyone either-Not that they would believe me anyway. But the point was, I had overlooked the fact that he was a sadistic, immortal, blood drinking lunatic and came to see him...
Maybe I did need help...
No... he was just being a jerk. At least I hadn't freaked out or tried to find a werewolf to protect me from him. And here he was kicking me out! Not that what I did last night was all right, deffinately not. But it wasnt entirely all my fault, how dare he try to make it that way!
My fists balled up and my body hummed with adrenaline and resentment. "Now listen here," I spat, with as much venom as I could muster,"YOU'RE the one who pulled me into this. YOU made the first move. And the second. And the third. Like you said before-If you hadn't wanted me to find out, you wouldn't have let me get this close in the first place. But I am, and I know what you are. The damage is done so just man up and deal with it!" I breathed hard, seething. His face hardened. Then he leaned down so his eyes were level with mine and spoke, trying to hold back his anger, "Do you know how I would have to deal with this if I were to handle it the way I'm supposed to? I would have to kill you."
My eyes widened in shock. Silence claimed the air and we just stared at each other. Kill me? Seriously? At least Bella got the chance to become a vampire. But then, this wasnt a book, I wasn't Bella, and Kurt was a far cry from Edward. Maybe I should stop basing my descisions on a fictional romance?
But in another situation, I could see myself as the heroine of a novel. And Kurt would make an excellent hero, I suppose... Although the attitude would never work, his looks were flawlessly perfect for the part. His average yet appealing lips, his perfect chin, the pale skin-not a blemish in sight- and his eyes... The same deep, unsettling, crimson. Framed by those dark lashes...
Heat seared my cheeks and I dropped my gaze in embarrasment and defeat. This couldn't be treated like a story. Life never worked out that way, no matter what movies and books tried to make you think. There was a reason it was called 'fiction'. And how could I have been admiring his face? This was the same guy that had me pinned to his furniture not too long ago.
Assuming he won the unofficial stare-down, Kurt straightened, turned, and went down the hall. "Lock the door on your way out." My eyes flashed up and I watched him in detest. Lock the door on my way out... the jerk! I reached behind me, opened the door, locked it, and shut it back. He stopped. A shiver shot up my body. Why had I done that? I would have left right then, but I was frozen to the spot.
Kurt turned his head back to me, eyes fixed on mine. I felt a chill skitter down my spine. He stared, eyes cold and suddenly-disturbingly-empty. I grasped wildly for something to say.
"Uhhhh..."
It actually came out as more of an unattractive sound rather than a word. Weirdly set off by that, everything was thrown into perspective. I shut my eyes tightly and lowered my head. "Dammit." I muttered.
Why did it always go like this? Just when I needed to be at my best, just when I needed everything to go perfectly, I screwed up. And now everything was completely ruined with Kurt and it was all my fault.. and I had blamed him. Damn, I was stupid. Tears of regret burned my eyes. I squeezed my fists as hard as I could. I wasn't going to cry on top of everything else. I wasn't.
Then I felt icy cold fingertips on my cheek. I gasped, eyes flying open in shock, jumping back into the door. Kurt was barely inches away now, hand still hovering in the air. His eyes were wide, too, as if my reaction had been as much a suprise to him as it had to me. "Sorry." I said apologetically. His eyes closed and he dropped his hand. Breathing out a sigh, he said, "Do you know how hard this is for me?" His eyes opened, trained on my face. "I don't want to kill you. And yet if I don't... you have no idea how bad things could get."
"Tell me." I pressed. He just shook his head. I took a deep breath, hoping what I was about to say wouldn't make things worse. "Look, no matter what happens... I'll still be your friend."
He looked deep into my eyes, his face slipping into a morose expression. He said nothing more but turned to leave me again. This time I, too, made my exit. Today I would let him think about whatever troubled him so much about everything.
I did mean it, you know.
True, sometimes he made me want to stake him, cut off his head, and force feed it garlic...
But at other times he was the closest thing I had to a friend. And if he did betray my trust and spill my secrets- Well, I had pretty potent dirt on him now, too.
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Song: It's Not Me It's You~
Three R's! 33333 Author's Note:
This may not be the best chapter in the whole story and I may leave a few things unanswered for now, but it was vital as to getting them together again and facing some important truths. Like his identity as a vampire; and her feelings for him. 3 I hope you understand this and, although it wasnt my favourite to write-It was an important part of the story-But now we can get back to the fun ;3 ILY! And I really appreciate you reading this story :) Thank-you333
Also, for your wonderful support I'll add the next chapter along with this one ;)
