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Overheard
There was a new pain in Amu's chest seeing tears in Ikuto's eyes. She hadn't seen him for three days now and somehow he looked so tired and worn out.
He idly knelt before the statue of Christ, "I'm sorry Amu. I'm sorry." He kept repeating. His voice trembled and the way his body was held up, he seemed so fragile at that moment. From the side Amu was almost afraid that even a soft touch would make him collapse.
"I'm sorry Amu. I should've never argued with you. I shouldn't have left afterwards either…I should have cared more for your feelings…I'm sorry," Ikuto whispered.
Amu's hand was already upon the door, ready to push it open but she stopped as another door opened. She held back, breathing deeply. What was she doing? Why did she ache to be by Ikuto's side again. Amu kept her sight on the Ikuto who was before her now. She recognised him. He was her Ikuto, the one that always placed her before everything and showered her with endless kindness. So why did she have that slight hesitation.
"Its been awhile Ikuto," Tsukasa said.
Ikuto turned to look at Tsukasa, "yeah. I guess I'm not the kind to pop in and just say hello to an old friend."
"So right," Tsukasa said with a laugh, "You look quite terrible. What happened?"
Ikuto sighed, his sight back on Christ before him. "Its back again Tsukasa. I thought he was gone for good this time but it turns out he's returned."
Tsukasa motioned for Ikuto to sit on a seat instead which he did. They sat side by side. "So Night Ikuto has returned then has he?" Tsukasa finally asked.
"He disappeared the fourth day I adopted her 3 years ago and he never showed up again. But recently I've been feeling really tired in the day, almost like I haven't been sleeping at all," Ikuto began to explain, "then when she and her friends stayed over once they said I wasn't in the house at night. The scary thing is, I don't recall anything at all."
Tsukasa eyed Ikuto with a conscious expression, "going out at night is just Night Ikuto's nature. What I'm concerned is…"
"Don't bother asking," Ikuto said before Tsukasa could finish. He unbuttoned his shirt and slid half of it off his shoulder to reveal a faint red line across his chest. Tsukasa's expression quickly turned to that of extreme worry.
Inside the confession room, Amu was clasping her hands over her mouth and nose so hard it almost suffocated her. Recognising the wound she made on Ikuto's chest, she broke down all over again. She was crying in fear and guilt. I'm sorry… Amu whispered in her mind, how could I have hurt him.
"He's out being violent again," Tsukasa stated. "Ikuto, this is dangerous. You know the other you is way too violent. We need to-"
Ikuto grabbed onto Tsukasa, "I don't care. All I care about now is my adopted daughter. She'd been missing for three days and I've asked everywhere, looked everywhere and waited but she never came back. I mean what if something bad happened to her."
"She was missing for three days," Tsukasa repeated.
Ikuto nodded. Tsukasa let out a small sigh, "trust me. She'll return. She will be fine."
"How can you be so certain?" Ikuto challenged.
Tsukasa raised his voice, "Ikuto what you need to do now is decide what to do about Night Ikuto and your split-personality illness. This can't go on. You can't let your other personality take over the real you and go out doing things that when you wake in the morning you don't know anything about. What about your daughter, isn't she going to be the most likely victim of night-Ikuto."
Ikuto clenched his fist and hit the side of the chair, "I know. I was so afraid that she would be hurt by my other aggressive personality. I forced her to lock herself in her room every night before its too late into the night and I've told her to not come out no matter what. If the other me doesn't see her, she won't get hurt by me…" Tears began to fall from Ikuto's eyes, "I will never ever hurt her… but its scary. I can't control this illness. It happens and I can't do a thing. I'm defenceless against the night Ikuto. If he decides to hurt Amu, I won't know and I can't protect her."
Tsukasa patted Ikuto's back, "Ikuto… I'm sure she is fine."
"NO," Ikuto shouted, "Tsukasa, I'll never think she'd fine until she stands in front of me. Until I can see that she's smiling I won't ever believe she's fine. She's been missing for three days and… I've been constantly thinking what if the other me has done something terrible to her. What will happen then? Tsukasa, if it was the other me who made her go missing, even if I get to see her again - will she… forgive me?"
Tsukasa pulled Ikuto in for a light hug. "I believe the day Ikuto will win the night Ikuto in the end. Be strong."
"Thank you," Ikuto pulled away, "I'm going to look for her again."
Ikuto ran out of the church before Tsukasa could say anything. He sat still on the seat, stared at Christ and prayed in his heart that Ikuto would be fine. He stood up suddenly hearing a nearby door creak open. Tsukasa's eyes were wide as he saw the crying Amu unsteadily walking out the confession room. He gulped knowing if his speculations were right then the girl Ikuto was so frantically searching for was Amu.
"Amu, you- you are Ikuto's daughter aren't you? Did you hear everything?" he asked.
Amu cried out loud, dropping to the floor and clutching her chest. Tsukasa ran towards her and took hold of her hands, "stay calm Amu. Stay calm."
"It hurts Tsukasa…" Amu weakly said, "my heart really hurts. It does, it feels like its going to die any second. I'm suffocating."
Tsukasa took out a handkerchief and began to wipe Amu's tears. "I know it's a hard truth Amu but listen to me. I've known Ikuto for a long time. Ikuto has been fighting alone for some time against himself. He's already in so much pain himself so please don't be afraid of him. Don't hate him or anything, he truly cares for you- the real him. Please, try to understand his position - he's ill."
Amu shook her head, "its not like that Tsukasa. No, I can't possibly hate him. The one I hate the most is myself."
Tsukasa stared at her, "Amu…"
Amu sniffed, "I was being childish, selfish and I never card for Ikuto's feelings or even tried to understand him and what he does. I didn't listen to him Tsukasa. I went out my room at night, I betrayed him and went out my room and I saw him…"
Tsukasa gulped, himself breathing heavily too, "you saw night Ikuto."
Amu nodded, "I started to fear him and I started to distant myself from Ikuto. But it isn't fair on Ikuto. He didn't hurt me, he didn't want to, he didn't even know what he was doing and I… I did something so terrible to him Tsukasa. I was the one who placed that wound on his chest…"
Tsukasa dropped the handkerchief, for the moment feeling as bitter as his two friends. He hugged Amu, "don't blame yourself. Don't feel so guilty either. Neither of you two are wrong. What's wrong is the person who caused Ikuto to have such an illness. What should be blamed is the devil in his past who turned him this way." Tsukasa's eyes turned into a glare at the mention of Ikuto's past, "if anyone should pay then that demon should."
Amu calmed down. She stopped crying altogether though her heart still hurt. "Tsukasa what should I do?"
Tsukasa pulled gently away from Amu. "Be true to yourself Amu. Go with your heart. Are you hurting because he's hurt you? Are you hurting because you've hurt him? Or are you hurting because your apart from him?" Tsukasa patted Amu's head, "not everything we do is right or wrong but don't regret."
Amu nodded and put on a very weak smile, "thank you Tsukasa. For taking care of me these few days and everything else. I know where my heart belongs."
"Good luck, Amu, Ikuto," Tsukasa whispered watching Amu run out the church in just the same manner as Ikuto did. He turned to stare at the statue of Christ, "I know Amu cares for Ikuto and would rather…than that…"
Outside the church running madly in the cold, Amu shouted the name Ikuto over and over again. She didn't stop but headed straight home. Wrong, she had been entirely wrong about Ikuto. He did care for her, he really didn't want to hurt her either. Ikuto is not scary and even night Ikuto… Tsukasa is right. Neither of them are at fault. Ikuto, Amu said to herself in her mind, there will be a way, there will be way for us to return back to normal and for us to be happy together.
She paused at the door, breathless from running. Her heart beating and her hands shaky, she pushed opened the door and stepped in. Her tears fell over her smile as she and Ikuto looked at one another.
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