I am the words falling apart
chapter: 9
Come Undone
Keely sat sitting on the Diffy couch humming silently to herself as she waiting for Phil to return from his shower. He'd been gone for at least 15 minutes, but she didn't mind, in fact Keely was enjoying the down time. It gave her time to look back on what brought her to this moment. Closing her eyes she ran through the past month. A smile spread across her face as she replayed that day in the park.
"BOO!" someone whispered loudly
Keely flew off the couch and spun around
"Phil Diffy your mean don't sneak up on me while I'm, I'm...JUST DONT DO IT!" Keely punched Phil, who at the time was in a fit of laughter the shoulder then collapsed on the couch arms crossed.
"Hey that hurt" Phil said rubbing his shoulder, then hopping over the back of the couch plopping down next to Keely.
"You deserved it"
"yeah, thats probably true" he replied giving her a sideways grin
Keely tried to keep with her serious irritated look going, but couldn't contain the smile hiding behind her act. Phil leaned over and poked her lightly in the ribs causing her to break into giggles. Between laughing, and attempting to breath she managed to add a few "stop"s in there.
Keely grasped tightly to Phil's wrists, and using her all her body wait, was barely able to pin him down.
" Ha, What now" she smirked
"Fine, fine you win"
"I know, I always win " Keely said beaming with victory.
"Well aren't you little Miss Egotistical "
"Phil Diffy are you calling me Conceited "
"conceited, egotistical, self centered, You can word however you want, but yes, yes i am"
"Your just mean" Keely whispered, bringing herself closer to him.
"So I've been told"
The two were inches apart and getting closer by the millisecond Keely closed her eyes and leaned in...
"Phil I'm Home!"
The two jumped off each other standing awkwardly until Phil made a break for the kitchen.
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"Thanks for dinner Phil it was really...uh...fun" Keely said smiling widely and tugging on the seam of the borrowed shorts.
The two were standing outside her front door in yet another awkward silence. Phil looked out across her auburn leaves as they floated to the ground after falling from a nearby tree.
"Yeah it was" he whispered Turning towards her taking a step forward.
Keely instinctively took a step back and reached behind her for the door handle.
"well I should go, It's getting late and its kind of chilly out here" turning the handle she took a step back cracking the door open.
"ok, goodnight"
"night" she whispered disappearing behind the door.
Phil smiled and jumped from the porch
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when Keely entered the house she found herself face to face with her mother
"sweetie we need to talk" she motioned for Keely to join her in the living room. this isn't good Keely thought to herself.
TWO DAYS LATER
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Keely sat drumming her fingers nervously against her leg. She stole another glance at her watch they had been sitting here10 minutes and still hadn't said a thing. She turned to look at Phil only to find him staring at her.
"Hey... Phil...earth to Phil" waving her hand inches from his face she rolled her eyes in annoyance, this was going to have to stop. She usually found his staring at her cute, but not today. He was taking it to far, she couldn't concentrate, and it wasn't making what she had to do any easier,
"wh-wh- what" he said shaking his head bringing himself back into reality
Keely leaned in closer to him, "quit staring at me" she whispered
"I...uh, I..I wasn't" Phil said running his fingers gently through his scruffy hair.
"oh, alright what would you call it then?"
" I was just..."
Keely interrupted him, "you were JUST staring at me" she sneered
" I was JUST watching he cars going by" Phil turned away from her, and looked out across the park.
Keely bit her lip, and turned away. fishing her ipod out of her pocket. She turned it on and scrolled down to 'the last one' by the Cary Brothers. About halfway through she felt the hairs on the back of her neck begin to stand up. She could feel a chill creeping up her spine and knew instantly that he was watching her, His eyes caused her skin to burn she felt so vulnerable, she knew if he looked long enough he could see right through her., Keely brushed her thumb across the panel on her ipod turning the volume up as high as it would go, trying to get her mind off his stare, but it soon became to much. Yanking the headphones from her ear she turned to face him
"Okay, thats it! What is with you? and don't say nothing because you've been acting weird all day"
"I have not"
"Yes, You have. You keep staring at me and don't deny it because we both know its true. I tripped over air earlier and not one wise remark came from those lips so spill it future boy!"
"You know you haven't exactly been acting normal today either," he said rising to his own defense and quickly added "could you not call me that, there are a lot of people here."
Phil got up and grabbed her arm pulling her back behind some old tree's. Trying to get a little more privacy. Keely pulled away from him.
"Don't you go turning this on me Phil Diffy, if you have something to say man up and say it!"
Phil looked out towards the slide, where they had first met. He closed his eyes and gritted his teeth.
"Okay, I'll tell you, but you have to say whats on your mind too."
"alright deal." Keely said calming down a little
"You first" Phil said nervously
"No way "
"ok, fine, on the count of three we are both going to say whats on our mind "
"what are we 5?"
"do you have a better idea?" Phil asked angrily
" no.."
"didn't think so, now no joking, and no wise cracks, ok?"
"Fine" Keely said letting out a deep sigh
"one" Phil took in a deep breath
"two" Keely gnawed on her bottom lip, and giving her attention to the odd shaped tree behind Phil.
Both: "Three...I think I love you I'm moving"
"WHAT?" they yelled coherently
Keely began pacing around, to say she was freaking out would be an understatement,
how could he say that he didn't mean it did he?
Phil couldn't breathe, he felt his heart collapse with the words that had come from her mouth. She can't be moving. He felt like crying and screaming at the same time, but he knew none of it would help. He pushed her words to the back of his mind and walked over to the confused Keely who was still pacing nervously back and forth. he grabbed her wrist and spun her around.
"please say you don't really love me?" she almost screamed at him.
Phil could feel something jab into his heart, he didn't want to ask, but he knew he had to.
"You don't feel the same way do you?"
Keely desperately wanted to say yes, but she couldn't it would only make things harder. She couldn't admit to loving him, not when she was about to move, it would be best just to let him go. Closing her eyes she quietly whispered
"No, Phil i don't, I'm sorry"
Phil sunk into the grass pulling his knee's into his chest,burying his head in his hands. See slick she doesn't even like you, i bet you feel pretty stupid now ehPhil silently cursed the voice in his head, it Definitely wasn't helping.
"When do you leave" Phil mumbled to a brown spot on the grass.
"Next Sunday...Phil i'm..."
Phil interrupted "Don't bother, just go" he pursed his lips and wrapped his arms around his knees
Keely fought back the tears, she had done this to him, everything was her fault, but this was nothing new everything was always her fault. she attempted a nod and sprinted away from him.
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Phil sat there for at least an hour, he couldn't move, she had paralyzed him. He felt the nausea rising from the pit of his stomach. This is stupid slick get up. Come on get up it isn't the end of the world. Come on Phil, come on
Rain began Pouring down. The sharp pain of reality pelted him with every drop. He felt his knee's stiffening as his hands pushing him up. He took off running, the wind hit him on all sides, he felt his breaths shortening and his legs getting heavier, but he didn't care, he had to run he didn't know where he was going but destination wasn't important at the moment, all that mattered was getting away, he had to get away.
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Keely felt her feet come to a halt. Looking up at the freshly painted sign, she took a deep breath, She didn't question why she was here, somewhere deep down she already knew. Closing her eye's Keely found comfort in the only thing she could these days, other than Phil, but she was pretty sure she just lost him. Her fingers slid across the surface raising the volume. Rain came splashing down and she knew it was now or never.
"Welcome to the Pickford Medical can i help you Miss?
Keely paid no attention to the dark haired over worked, and most-likely under payed lady at the front desk. She turned down the left corridor and mouthed the room numbers to herself.2118...,2119..., 2120, ...2121. Keely came to a dead stop. This was the room. She reached out for the door handle but stopped before it came into contact with her skin.. She could feel herself pulling back. One foot followed the other until she felt her back collide with the wall. Her knees buckled and she slid down to the cold hard floor. Hours passed, song after song Keely tried to make herself rise from the floor, a janitor walked by and knelt down beside her,
"Excuse me Miss " came a muted voice to her left, she paid it no attention, her eyes were glued to 12 letters beneath the room number. Jason E. Teslow , below that were 6 other letters Crt. Con.. It didn't take a rocket scientist to figure out what that meant.
"Critical Condition" were the only words she could make flow from her mouth. She knew what that meant, and she knew it was her fault. The man was sitting next to her but she didn't care her eyes fluttered shut, sending her thoughts to the past.
"Please dad please" she quivered her lower lip and let her eyes melt her fathers heart.
"ok, ok but just this once and keep"
the girl cut him off,"i know i know keep it between us"
"thats my girl" he said running his fingers through her hair, and making a U-turn, at the light.
Keely swung around and retrieved her camera and microphone from the back seat. She was bouncing with anticipation, her first real-live interview, she knew her mother was expecting them for dinner, and would be mad if they were late and even madder if she found out it was over a quote on quote " silly ambition" , but right now that was the least of her problems, she and her father were going out on a call, and excitement was bubbling within her.
Suddenly she felt herself fling forward, and the car spun around to the left. She glanced over to see a horrified look in her fathers eyes, the tires screeched sending the car rolling. Her seat belt slammed into her neck causing all the air to leave her gasping she tried to avoid the darkness that was falling upon her
Keely felt someone frantically shaking her. Turning her head she lifted and eyelid and found herself face to face with the hospital janitor, squinting read his name tag Phil... Keely rolled her eyes, great just what she needed another Phil. She let the man help her to her feet, then looked around for a clock, Bingo, there was one hanging at the end of the hall, adjusting her eyes she could barely make out the numbers, it was Midnight. She was totally grounded.
"Are you ok?" she heard janitor Phil say.
turning to face him, she dropped her eyes to the ground silence echoed through the halls.
"no, I'm really not" fighting to hold back the tears she spun on her heels, bracing herself for what punishment lay ahead. Running to the revolving doors she heard the petter patter of the janitors feet as he ran after her could hear him calling her , but what did he know, what did anyone know? Phil and her father were the only ones who could ever understand her,she had pretty much lost her father, and she was losing Phil. Flying through the doors she let her tears fall, nothing mattered anymore. She'd be gone by next Sunday, and it was probably best.
A/N: sorry if the beginning felt rushed... it kind of was. I wrote the 2 days later before the beginning and was having trouble filling in the gap. I know theres a bunch of Mechanical errors and I'll fix them over time i just thought i should get a new chapter out so that everyone knew im not dead. I guess thats all tell me what you think
