Tony did not get a second of sleep the night his son died. Looking back the next morning. He didn't even know why he bothered. How could he even think about sleep after watching his son die? He should have stayed awake and comforted his daughter. He imagined how hard the night must have been for Holly. Gibbs and Ziva had stayed the night. Gibbs slept on the couch and Ziva spent the night in the spare room. When morning finally arrived he climbed out of bed, tossed on some clothes that may or may not have been the same he wore the day before and headed downstairs. He found Gibbs and Ziva sitting at the table. Gibbs was reading the paper and Ziva was munching on a piece of toast.
"Tony" Gibbs greeted simply.
"Morning boss" Tony replied.
"How are you holding up?" Ziva asked.
"OK, I guess." Tony sighed.
"Just let me know if you need anything." Gibbs replied.
"You can't give me what I need." Tony replied.
"I know" Gibbs replied.
"Is Holly up yet?" Ziva asked.
"Not that I know of." Tony replied.
"I got her calmed down last night but she was still pretty freaked out when I went to bed but she refused anymore help. I would go up and check on her." Ziva commented.
"OK just let me get some food in me. I haven't eaten since lunch yesterday." Tony replied.
"Go ahead, it is good that you want to eat. I didn't." Gibbs replied.
"Hey can you guys clear out? I think it would be best to be alone with Holly." Tony asked.
"Of course" Gibbs replied.
"Just call if you need anything." Ziva added.
After Gibbs and Ziva left, Tony choked down a bowl of cereal and sat alone in silence. He looked at the clock on the microwave. It was almost eight in the morning on the first day of summer vacation. If this were like the past eight years. Holly would already be up, have eaten breakfast, and be arguing with Noah to get up and start the day already. While he sadly got ready for work. This year he was sitting alone in the kitchen, while Holly lay in bed, and Noah was lying in one of Ducky's drawers. Noah had been terminal. So everything was planned in advance. The casket was selected and so was the headstone. Noah was going to be buried next to Kate in Indiana. Director Vance had arranged for Noah's body to be transported via a private plane. So the family could fly together one last time. There would be a celebration of Noah's life at St. Marks Catholic Church for the friends that could not make the trip to Indiana and his funeral would be held at the Todd's family church in Indiana. All Tony had to do was set dates for the services, arrange the flight, and the worst part call Kate's family. Her brothers weren't so bad but her parents would be a nightmare. They hadn't bothered to come or even call when Noah was sick but they would be sure to make it seem like Tony had kept him from them, when he called. The one good thing with severing all ties with DiNozzo Senior was that he would not have to break the news to his father. Not wanting to put it off anymore. He took out his phone and dialed his in laws number.
"Hello?"
"Mark? Rose? It's me Tony."
"What's going on Tony?"
"I hate to tell you this but Noah died last night."
"What?"
"He had been really sick, remember?"
"Oh well I guess that you couldn't get him treatment because that would get in the way of your gluttony and movie addiction. That's why our Caitlin is dead too."
"You know what I just lost my son. I am not up for this. I will call you when I know the date of the funeral. I got the number for Matt."
His conversation with the Todd's only left Tony feeling more discouraged. He arranged for the celebration of life to take place on Monday at noon. Holly and him would fly out with Noah's body bright and early Tuesday morning and Noah would be laid to rest Wednesday at two in the afternoon. He updated Noah's obituary with the date of death and the dates of the services and emailed it to the paper. He looked at the clock on his laptop. It was nearly one in the afternoon and Holly was still not up. This was not at all like her. He walked upstairs and found her lying on the floor clutching the same photo album, he had found her reading the day her first met Ziva.
"Holly?" Tony called.
"I'm up" Holly groaned standing up.
"It's OK, nobody is rushing you. I was just wondering how you were doing." Tony assured.
"My twin is dead? How do you think I am doing?" Holly asked.
"I guess that was a stupid question." Tony replied.
"Ziva talked me down last night and Gibbs sat with me when I couldn't sleep but I still just feel so lost." Holly explained.
"That doesn't go away right away." Tony replied.
"What if I forget about him? What if my children ask about their uncle and I can't remember anything?" Holly asked.
"You will never forget him. Noah was such a presence. He will never let you forget him." Tony assured.
"He was always something of a mama's boy. I guess it's good that they are together again." Holly admitted.
"You are so wise." Tony replied.
"I am so glad that I at least have you." Holly replied.
"I am glad to at least have you too, you are my special girl." Tony replied.
"So how long do you think you will stay off of work?" Holly asked.
"I don't know, Holl. I may not go back." Tony sighed.
"Really?" Holly asked.
"I just don't know if my heart is it anymore." Tony admitted.
A/N: Will Tony end up leaving NCIS? New chapter will be up soon. Please review and thanks for reading.
