...Posting this late because for some reason,I can't go to sleep without posting it...

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(P.S.) the italicized paragraph in here means its a flashback...sorry for the writing errors. I've been having to use my iPod. Okay,now I'm gonna stop rambling...sorry,but this chapter feels like its gonna mess up the story to me,or else I'm just really tired..


When Logan awoke the next morning,he got ready for school putting on whatever he pulled out of his closet. Knowing that there were many texts from the guys that he refused to answer last night on his phone,he checked them now.

Six texts from Carlos,three long texts from James,and eleven from Kendall. They all went along the lines of saying "You okay?" "Don't stress over it." "We're always gonna be your best friends,Loges." And a lot of, "We're sorry" ones,too.

Not wanting to reply,he headed downstairs getting greeted by a nice smelling breakfast aroma. He saw his mother standing at the stove,working on cooking some scrambled eggs.

"Mom?" Logan said quietly and softly,fearing that if he did anything too rushed or loud,his mom would snap.

"Yes,Logan?" She replied,keeping her back to him.

Logan sighed, "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to be so stupid yesterday. And I'm sorry for being like that towards you."

His mother turned to face him letting him take a look at her face. Her eyes were red rimmed,and her nose puffy. It made Logan feel all the more worse, "Mom,I didn't-I didn't mean to make you cry. I am so sorry." Logan said feeling like crying himself so he could take the pain.

"Logie-Bear,I'm not mad at you. And you shouldn't be apologizing. I just..I never knew you went through all of that back in Minnesota. I'm the one that should be sorry. For not helping my own son! What kind of mother does that?" Joanna exclaimed feeling the tears coming back. But before she could say anymore,her son engulfed her into a big hug.

He spoke with a quiet voice,saying one thing that could make everything calmer and better, "I love you,Mom."

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As Logan walked into his school,he headed to his locker right away. A voice that called his name,made him smile his first real smile of the day,

"Logan!" Nicole's cheery voice came from behind him. But then her mood changed when she saw the look on Logan's face. Even though he was smiling,she saw right through that mask. Which was weird,since they've only known each other for a couple of days, "Something's wrong..isn't it?" She asked.

Logan sighed, "No. I'm fine.."

Nicole crossed her arms, "No,you're not fine. You weren't fine last time,so now you are going to tell me what's wrong,Logan." She commanded.

Logan laughed and pinched her cheek, "Aw..you're so cute when you're all bossy."

"Excuse me?" Nicole gasped,

Logan laughed once again while shrugging at her. She scoffed and pushed his shoulder playfully, "Damn straight I'm cute." She stated with a smile.

Logan looked at her,then looked around them. No one in the hallways that were paying attention to them,so he cupped he cheek and gave her a sweet chaste kiss, "The cutest." He whispered with a smile.

At the tip of Nicole's tongue was the question, "Can we talk?" But it never came out. Logan knew because he asked, "What's going on in that head of yours? You got a thinking face on." Nicole slightly smiled,an shook her head. Needing to ask the question,she ignored it instead. As if like a sign,Kendall approached them with a quizzical look on his face,

"Loges?" The blonde asked hesitantly.

"What's up,man?" Logan answered back with his own question.

Kendall still seemed to be distant when he spoke again, "Umm..you alright or...do we need to talk?"

And there it was. Was it another sign? Kendall wants to talk with Logan,why can't Nicole?

"I'm fine." Logan replied simply, "Dude...you can stop worrying now. You look like you're about to shit your pants,or something."

Kendall let out a sigh mixed with a laugh, "Um. Well. Main thing here that I wanted to say,I'm sorry. You know you're my brother,and I will uh..dude. You know I'll always be here if you need me."

"I know,Kendall." Logan said with a smile.

"Yeah,okay. Umm,I guess I'll leave you two alone then." Kendall said nodding his head before heading off to his own business.

"Told you something was wrong,Logan." Nicole countered crossing her arms again.

"Nahh." Logan waved her off,slinging an arm around her shoulders leading her away from the lockers, "You're just off,that's it."

"Oh. Okay. Be that way." Nicole said over dramatically. And Logan just laughed as they headed to their first class of the day.

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"What's up with Carlos?" Logan asks James in a whisper while they're in their history class. James gives him a questioning look,so Logan nods his head over to the Latino in the front row. He was awfully quiet today so far. James looks over and furrows his eyebrows before returning his attention to Logan. James shrugs slightly feeling a little worry bubble up inside of him. Their little ball of energy friend wasn't,well..he wasn't a little ball of energy today.

And that was bad.

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Jasmine and Nicole were on their way to lunch when Jasmine decided to speak,

"Soo! Give me the details on what happened yesterday." Jasmine demands Nicole like that's the news she needs to gush about or else she'll die.

"Okay. I walked,I talked,I breathed,I-"

"Don't be such a smart-ass." Jasmine says with a slight smile.

Nicole only laughs before explaining the little heated moment her and Logan shared the day before. She then listened to what Jasmine had to share, "You guys are gonna have sex really soon." And she said it so bluntly,it seemed like she thought of it as no surprise.

"Excuse me?" Nicole asked a bit shocked.

"Well have you guys done hand jobs?"

Nicole blushed like crazy before squeaking out a "No!"

Jasmine chuckled before countering her with yet a mother question, "No blow jobs either,then?"

"Jasmine!" Nicole shrieked,her face as red as a tomato.

"Look,all I'm saying is that by the way things are escalating with you and Logan,you guys are going to be doing those things soon. And as soon as you do that,you'll be wanting to try other things. And eventually sex,Nicole." Jasmine reasoned calmly as she opened the lunchroom doors.

"Well I didn't know this would happen! I never even thought a guy like Logan would want to hang out with me." Nicole exclaimed getting in line for her food with Jasmine behind her, "I don't even know what's happening between us,Jas. And I'm getting really frustrated over it."

"I'm sorry,Nicole.." Jasmine sympathized.

Nicole stayed silent for a bit before asking quietly, "You think he's just using me?"

Jasmine sighed a little before she sat down in front of Nicole, "I really wish that I could promise you that he genuinely likes you,but I just can't. Apparently people here say he's known as one of the ladies men around here. Im not gonna sit here and tell you that he's a player and those people are right about him...but I don't really know what to say,Nicole. I guess in my opinion,you should just see where it goes from here."

"Just keep...doing what we do?" Nicole asked shyly.

"Yeah. Keep shoving your tongue down his throat,and see if he would just keep going." Jasmine answered,taking a bite of her food.

"Wow. Way to put things gently."

"You know it,girl." Jasmine said with a wink, "Oh,hey look. Here comes your lover."

"Oh my gosh. Really,Jasmine?" Nicole asked.

Jasmine just greeted Logan with a smile,while smirking over at Nicole.

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Walking to Logan's home after school was always pleasant. But it always felt to Nicole that students stared at them while they were leaving the school premises. But she just brushed it off...

When they got to his place,Nicole was surprised that Mrs. Mitchell didn't greet them. But she ignored that and followed Logan up to his room.

"So today we had to do this whole worksheet. It was a lot of numbers,but I got half of them done using the strategies you told me. But..they're probably not right. I tried,though." Nicole told Logan as she sat down on his bed handing him the worksheet from todays math class, "Check em' please?" She asked.

Logan smiled and obliged. He sat down next to her inspecting her work,Nicole watching hopefully.

"Well...fifteen out of thirty of what you did...you only got four wrong." Logan told her,making her smile like there was no tomorrow.

"For reals?! Logan! That's the best I've ever done by myself!" She exclaimed. She got off Logan's bed with a gasp,covering her mouth at the same time, "That's the best I've ever done.." She whispered.

"And I couldn't be anymore pr-woah. Are you gonna cry?" Logan asked going to stand in front of her. She nodded her head frantically,and smiled,letting a couple of tears flow freely down her cheeks, "I only got four wrong,Logan. And I did it by myself." She drew her hand over his cheek slowly, "Thank you so much,Logan."

"Anytime." He responded giving her a sweet kiss on the forehead.

Well...wouldn't this be a good time to talk to Logan? Or try out what Jasmine suggested?

...maybe a talk would be nice...but still..

Before either could say anything,there was knock on the closed bedroom door, "Honey?" Came Mrs. Mitchell's voice from the other side, "Lunch is ready!"

"We'll be down in a sec,Mom!" Logan called out. He waited until his mothers footsteps walked down the stairs,until they were in audible,before pressing his lips against Nicole's. Letting out a content sigh when they connected,Logan drew a hand around her waist wanting to keep her as close as possible.

"Mm..." Nicole mumbled pulling apart, "I'm hungry."

Logan laughs letting her go,and heads to open the door of his bedroom for her, "Then let's go eat."

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Having enough time to fit in a full two hours of tutoring,and wasting and passing almost twenty minutes getting lost in each others lips,Nicole found out that it would go no farther than that for the moment. It was either because Logan just...didn't want that-even though it was kind of hard to think that he didn't want that when she could easily tell her got aroused when they did that sort it thing. And Nicole didn't help any by how she straddles him at the time.

Or maybe it was just because Mrs. Mitchell was home. And if she walked in on that situation...it probably wouldn't have ended well.

But all of this didn't exactly solve Nicole's problem. Maybe next time they would go farther. It would be better if they were at Nicole's home,though.

After watching some TV in Logan's room,they headed down for dinner.

And the food was delicious. Nicole didn't know how Mrs. Mitchell did it,but her food was just indescribable.

Declining Nicole's offer on helping clean up,Mrs. Mitchell waved her off,dismissing her in a kind way. Nicole shook her head not understanding why she wouldn't except help. Well..how would Nicole know,anyways? She doesn't even have a mom.

Even though reminding herself of her mom made her sad,she smiled. Sure she passed away when Nicole was only about four,but she still remembered her. She still remembered how pretty she was. How much of a role-model she was. She was always there for Nicole,she even remembered how whenever she had a nightmare,her mom would sing her a song to calm her and help get to sleep. And her voice was just as beautiful as she was. Nicole remembered that song as if her mother had just sang it to her yesterday. She would replay their moments in her head whenever she was having a bad day,or when she couldn't sleep.

But one of the things she loved most about her mom,was her name. Sure,that might be a bit weird,but Nicole didn't think it was one bit.

Lily. That was her mothers name. The reason Nicole loved it so much was because of the meaning behind it. She remembered why and when her mom had told her what her name meant,

It was one weekday in the evening when four year old Nicole rushed into her moms room repeating over and over, "Mommy,mommy!" Her mother picked her up and inspected her, "Honey! Are you okay? What's wrong?"

Nicole shook her head from side to side, "Nothing! I just forgot that I had to ask you a question!" The little girl said frantically.

Her mom laughed and sat down on her bed,lifting Nicole onto her lap, "What is it,baby girl?" She asked tucking a strand of Nicoles brown hair behind her ear.

"Well,today I heard daddy talking in the living room. He said that he don't understand a word-"

"It's didn't,honey. He didn't understand a word." Her mom corrected with a chuckle.

"Oh. Sorry,mommy. Daddy didn't understand a word,then he said that he had to get a book out. It's a big word! I don't know what it was."

"Oh,sweetheart. That big word you're wondering about is called a dictionary."

Nicole furrowed her eyebrows, "Whats a...what is it again?"

Her mom chuckled and set Nicole down on the bed. She went to a bookshelf in the room picking out a very big book. She went back to her daughters side and put the book on her lap, "Nicole,sweetie," She began, "This is called a dictionary. It's a big,big book filled with a lot of words and their definitions."

"But,mommy,I don't know what definitions are either!" Nicole exclaimed with a pout.

"Definitions are what words mean,honey. Like...here! Like my name." Her mother continued to skim the pages until she landed in the 'L' section. Nicole watched as her finger scrolled down until it stopped and she spoke again, "Lily." She said, "Purity and beauty. My mother told me that was the meaning of my name when I was about five. But anyways,Nicky,that's what a definition is. It's the meaning behind a word. I don't really think it could be any more self-explanatory."

And when Nicole asked what self-explanatory was,her mother Lily,just laughed and kissed her cheek.

When Logan's voice sounded by her,Nicole was knocked out of her daydream, "Nicole? Why are you crying?" Logan asked putting a hand on her shoulder.

Nicole quickly rubbed at her eyes and sure enough,there were unshed tears. She just laughed a little before answering, "Just thinking."

"Since when does thinking make you cry?"

"Well,when you have a life like mine,you have some weird moments." Nicole answered smiling a bit.

Logan just gave her a weird look an shook his head, "You okay?" He asked.

"Yeah..just..yeah,I'm fine." She answered, "Um,I should be getting home."

"Alright,I'll walk you home." Logan announced pushing Nicole to the front door.

"You don't have to,Logan." Nicole said as Logan handed her her bag, "I can walk perfectly fine."

"Shhh! I'm walking you home,so shut up." Logan said with a smile before calling over his shoulder to his mom, "Ma,I'll be back in a minute! I'm walking Nicole home!"

As Logan closed the door to his home,he linked hands with Nicole and started walking. It felt so natural. Their hand seemed like they were a perfect fit. And yes,that is so cliché.

While walking,Logan made little jokes that were too horrible,they were too funny.

Still laughing from Logan's last joke,she punched in the code to open the front gates and they walked to her front door.

"Thanks,Loges." Nicole said with a smile,placing her back against the door.

"No prob." Logan replied wrapping both arms around her waist and lying his forehead on hers.

"You should be getting home." Nicole stated,pushing him off of her.

"Wow. A guy walks a girl home safely,and this is how he gets treated?"

Nicole laughs at him,but stands on her tiptoes to kiss him.

And they shouldn't be doing this. Nicole just can't not do it,though. She tries to ignore how gently his lips move against hers,or how his hands just wrap slowly around her waist,bringing her closer-if that was even possible.

When Logan pulls back,he smiles at her and tucks a loose strand of her hair behind her ear, "See you,tomorrow."

Saying goodbye,and giving another quick peck,Logan's on his way home,leaving Nicole to watch him walk away.

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