Chapter 9

"I still haven't forgiven you. You have so much more sucking up to do." Meredith mumbled as she woke up a few hours later with Derek still huddled up next to her.

Derek kissed the top of Meredith's head and slipped out of the bed.

"I'm sorry Mer."

"I know you are. But that doesn't stop me from taking advantage of the situation…" Meredith smiled eyes closing again.

"Mer… I'm sorry not just for the fight. It's just I realised I shouldn't be angry at them anymore and that it was because of me that I was holding onto… it…" Derek sighed as Meredith sat up looking more alert.

He grabbed Meredith's hand and rubbed it lovingly, fingering her rings.

"I realised that I was angry at myself for letting the marriage before get the way it was. Get so messed up because I wasn't in love with her anymore and I just felt like I had to be angry because I was married to her. Honestly though Mer. I was sort of relieved that I found them together. I mean I was angry because they betrayed me, but relieved because I didn't love her anymore and this was the excuse I was looking for to run."

Derek finally looked up at Meredith.

"But I love you Meredith. More that anything else and more strongly that I have ever in my entire life loved someone. I'm scared. I'm scared that I'm going to screw up our marriage because I love you so much I can't see straight." Derek smiled.

"We just have to leave it up to faith Derek. We've been through so much already and I love you. I'm just scared that I'm going to be a bad mother Derek. I'm scared that we will put our career's first and we will neglect our child and then soon enough we'll start neglecting each other and then stop having sex and BAM, our marriage is over." Meredith rambled on, her hands flying around, gesturing.

"Mer, I will never want to stop having sex with you. We've been together for 5 years and I'm pretty sure Cristina mumbled something about "rabbits" when she almost caught us in that supply closet last week." Derek grinned and ran his hand through her smooth locks.

"I'm glad we had this talk." Meredith held her arms out for a hug.

Derek moved into the comfort of his wife's arms and breathed in her scent. Lavender mixed with her signature scent.

"Me too." he sighed face buried in her neck.

"Derek, we can't…" Meredith moaned as he left kisses down her neck.

"Why not…" Derek mumbled, all rational thoughts out the window.

"Well one, we're a hospital and two, the most important factor; I'm not allowed to have sex. Remember this?" Meredith pushed Derek away and pointed at her stomach.

"Yeah the baby? Serves you right you know… you and your penis got me pregnant and then you can't have sex with me. Karma rocks…" Meredith grinned smugly.

"Hey, that's not fair. You want this baby just as much as I do." Derek crossed his arms and tried to look angry but failed laughing along with Meredith.

"Yeah well… This is also not an invitation to go sleeping with those interns. I've seen the way they look at you. And when they're on your cases I see them putting on an extra coat of lip-gloss and batting their eyelashes." Meredith rambled on rather bitterly.

"There's only one girl for me…" Derek replied.

"Yeah?" Meredith asked looking slightly relieved.

"Oh yeah, she's sexy, smart, funny, beautiful and very sexy…" Derek whispered huskily as he bent down to kiss her cheek.

"You already said sexy…" Meredith turned just as he was about to kiss her cheek so that he caught her mouth. She pulled him in for a passionate kiss and pushed him away again.

"You're like a freaking light you know… One flick and you're turned on…" Meredith said slightly astounded considering they had just had a conversation about why they couldn't have sex.

"You sound surprised… After all this time… I don't know how you can handle it. We could have done it twice by now…" Derek grinned sitting at the end of Meredith's bed playing with a bunch of flowers someone had bought.

"Derek!" Meredith threw a small teddy that Izzie had bought for the baby.

"Unlike you, I have self-control!" Meredith crossed her arms unsuccessfully over her large stomach.

"Baby Shepherd…." Derek read off the teddy bear. "Seriously?"

Meredith shrugged and grabbed a magazine someone had left for her. "Izzie" she mumbled.

"Ah well that explains it then…"

Derek looked at the teddy bear longingly and looked at the small ears and whiskers, fingering it slightly before looking up at Meredith while she read her magazine.

"Hey Mer…"

"Mmmm" Meredith answered, absorbed in her magazine.

"We can go home you know." Derek waited for her reply as the words reached her brain.

"Why didn't you tell me sooner?" Meredith pulled the covers off her bed and started packing up all her things.

"Slow down Mer." Derek quickly rushed by her and pulled her off her feet and back onto the bed.

"What are you doing Derek? I want to go home." Meredith whined and pouted.

"Stop pouting at me Mer, you know I can't resist" Derek groaned and Meredith pouted even more.

"Can we go home please?" Meredith said sweetly, rubbing her stomach reminding him that she was carrying his child.

"You are impossible. I'll pack up the things and we'll go home."

Meredith smiled sweetly and saw a glimpse of that familiar fuzzy, black hair fly past her door.

"Cristina" Meredith yelled.

Cristina stopped dead in her tracks before turning back to enter Meredith's room reluctantly.

"What do you want? I'm trying to get in on a surgery with Burke." Cristina muttered.

"I'm going home." Meredith grinned happily and smiled at Derek who was packing her things.

"Good for you. You're on bed rest right? So like home… no moving… no surgery… sucks for you" Cristina raised her eyebrows and rocked back onto her heels quickly before walking off.

The reality of her situation dawned on Meredith as her face fell.

"Meredith. Meredith" Derek rushed to Meredith's side inwardly thanking Cristina for her sheer stupidity.

"This sucks" Meredith complained frowning.

"It'll be fine. It's only for a few more weeks… I'll get you a new laptop with wireless internet and you can do some online shopping with my credit card…"

"Oh you're good… But as soon as I'm back in the hospital… I want in on a surgery." Meredith stubbornly said.

"Deal." Derek held out his and to shake Meredith's

"Deal." Meredith shook his hand and pulled him in for a quick kiss.


A/N: An update so soon:O! This chapter they're basically having a heart-to-heart about everything. Plus a little bit of fluff. :P (It's sort of long too... Well long for me...)

natzbadfairy- I updated very soon I think! Thanks for reviewing!

AFan17- I'm sure Meredith wants McBaby out of her ASAP! And just next chapter I will use the term McBaby just for you, because you reminded me of it! Thanks for reviewing!

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