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Chapter 9 - Goodbye
I sat on the porch with my head on Alice's shoulder. I looked over to the pond and the yard and saw something. It was Edward, he made his way toward me and Alice.
"Finally! Gosh Edward you almost gave me a heart-attack! Even though I don't have a heart" Alice squealed with joy while running and grabbing Edward around his waist.
"Sorry, Alice do you mind giving my wife and I some privacy. I really need to talk to Bella for a moment. I'll see you in the house," Edward spoke without leaving my gaze.
"Yeah no problem!" With that Alice had disappeared from sight.
I looked up at Edward, his beautiful features were troubled. Wow I was a horrible person, not only did I hurt my best friend but I also hurt the love of my life. It was so confusing to know what I wanted to do. I looked into Edward's eyes as he sat next to me on the top step of the porch.
"..I'm.." but I was cut off by Edward immediately. He placed his cool finger across my lips and shook his head slightly.
"Bella, I know you don't agree or believe what has happened. I understand that changing has not only changed you physically but also emotionally. The loss of our daughter has been the worst thing that could have ever happened to us. I wish I could have saved her but it was honestly out of my hands."
Suddenly Edward got up off the steps and stood looking down at me as he spoke sternly, "I know you want to leave, and I don't blame you. But I can't leave a family that has done so much for me. A family that not only has treated me like one of them but has also shown you more love than I could have ever imagined. I love you Bella but if you need time to go on your own then go..." Edward's face was emotionless. If I had a heart at this very moment it would have stopped just looking into his tortured eyes.
"If you want Jacob. Or if you want to see if you want Jacob then go, I won't stop you Bella from happiness. I wish I was enough." With that Edward leaned down and pecked my cheek and then swiftly walked into the glass house.
I sat there thinking of everything that had happened to me. My life had changed so dramatically, I was at the verge of death so many times. Not only that I had lost humanity and now I was immortal. I had lost my best friend the man who I potentially could have been happy with. I lost my baby who represented my love with Edward. I couldn't talk to my father who I could be danger to at any moment. And now I lost Edward...
I knew I needed to find answers and I needed to find them now. Who did I want and what did I want.
Edward's P.O.V
I got into the house and looked back at Bella my love who sat on the steps contemplating whether to stay or leave. It took every ounce of strength to stop myself from running back out and holding on to her. It was over and there was nothing I could do except wait; holding on to someone is like holding on to sand, the harder you push the harder it is to hold on to. It felt like Bella was finally slipping from my grip.
Bella was no longer mine. And I knew I had to accept it.
Alice's vision had showed me choosing between Bella or my family and I had chosen my family. The family that loved and needed me. Now it was up to Bella to decide what she wanted. It was either me and my family or Jacob. I was torn my beautiful wife was so hurt by my decisions if only I had never come back in the first place.
Alice came to my side and placed her tiny arm around my waist and placed her head on my shoulder as I starred at my dear Bella. The love of my life and existence had doubted the one pure and natural thing that I knew.
I knew I had to get away. "Alice I need some time if Bella leaves just let me know please," with that I was up the stairs in vampire speed.
I walked into our bedroom where a gold bed was in the center of the room. I sat down on the satin covered bed where I had proposed to Bella a few months ago and she had accepted, the same bed where Bella had tried to seduce me to act inappropriately when she was human and when her hormones ruled her every thought. The memories of my human Bella had taken over. I felt peace thinking of Bella loving me and wanting me.
"She's gone..." was the last thing I heard as I lay motionless on our bed.
***Please read and review... Thinking of ending the story within the next few chapters if you have any comments or direction for the story let me know =) P.S- I am so Team Edward if you want a hint to the ending ;)
