Hey people! Sorry this chapter took so long! I'm actually down with a horrible fever that i hope will be gone by Christmas because it'll really suck to be sick on Cristmas!

First : Sorry if this chapter isn't really up to par but I had trouble thinking of a suitable response for Bella. Hard to think with this stupid fever!

Second : I read your reviews and it made me so happy! Yes, even the bad ones. I have to admit i might have made Edward a bit too...well you know.:p

Third : Hope you enjoy this chapter


BPOV

Oh my…I'm kissing Edward. My oh my is he a good kisser. Ugh…I can't get enough of him. Wait. This is Edward freaking Cullen we are talking about. The guy I hate. The bane of my existence. Why the heck am I kissing him? I should stop. I really should stop.

Before I could form any more protest, his tongue slipped into my mouth and I lost all of my coherent thoughts. All I could do was moan his name and kiss him some more. My moan seems to have encourage him and if it was even possible, the kiss got more intense. We continued kissing until the need for oxygen became too great to ignore. We broke apart, both breathing heavily while staring at each other intensely. Both his arms were still around my waist while mine were around his neck. Honestly we look like we were posing for one of those romance novels Alice like so much. I quickly pulled away from him and he let me go although he seems quite reluctant. Immediately I felt the lost and longed to be in his embrace again. I frowned a little. What has gotten into me?

"Um…so..well…ah" I stumbled over my words as I tried to make sense of it all. I cursed myself as I couldn't form any sentence at all. Speak Bella speak! Shoots…the kiss has been a mistake. A huge one but oddly enough I couldn't bring myself to regret it. That has been one of the best, wait scratch that, the best kiss I have ever had. Hands down, no questions about it. But shit, did it have to be Cullen?

Ugh, this is driving me mad! I love the kiss but hate the person. What's a girl got to do? Should I brush it off? Acknowledge it? He isn't helping at all. He is just standing there with a blank expression. His eyes are very intense though. Should I wait for him to speak? Should I speak? Aargh! I can't stand this tension! Calm down Bella, I told myself. Think rationally. I breathed in deeply and tried to organize my scattered thoughts. Okay, so the kiss was my best ever but the kisser was Edward who I do not like. So should I brush the kiss off and be angry at him?

What right did he have to kiss me? He just shoved me against the door and kissed me for heaven's sake! And all that rubbish about me being his? What is he? A fucking caveman? And to forbid me from seeing Jake! Who does he think he is? I should get a restraining order against him! Does he treats all the girls like that. At the thought of the other girls, I froze. Oh my god, I just kissed Edward Cullen, the playboy of the company, the manwhore. Shit, he must be laughing at me right now thinking how easy I am. A glance at his face showed that laughing might be the last thing on his mind but I would not fall for it. How many girls has he laid so far? I might just be another conquest since I upgraded my fashion sense. Pretty enough to get laid by the Edward Cullen. For some reason, the thought hurt. I made up my mind then; I refuse to be made into another conquest.

I took a deep breath and look him in the eye. "Look Cullen, I do not know what the hell you're playing at but the next time you do that I will kicked you so hard you won't be able to have any Edward juniors, understand?"

"Bella…"

I shook my head. I needed to get it all of my shoulders and salvage what dignity I have left.

"I'm not kidding Cullen. Pull that shit on me again I will file a sexual harassment suit as well as a restraining order. Let's get a few things straight and do not interrupt me. One, that kiss will not be happening again. Two, I am not yours. And seriously, that was creepy as well as possessive, with neither sitting well with me. Three, I am allowed to date whoever I want whenever I want and you, do not have a say in it, understand? Do not interrupt me!" I yelled the last part at him when I saw that he was about to interrupt. He just gave me an angry look and then gestured for me to continue.

"Right, where was I? Last and the most important so you better take note, I refuse, I absolutely refuse to be another of your conquest you hear me? I am not and will never be like those dumb bimbos you are always with." I ended my rant.

"Are you done yet?" he asked with a very angry look in his eyes.

I refused to be coward by that look. I lifted my chin boldly and answered "yes I am"

"Good, because now I want you to listen. I'm sorry I treated you roughly. I really am. It's just…" he trailed off while running a hand through his hair, a habit I notice him doing when he is nervous.

"Yes?" I prompt him along. I honestly really wanted to know what he is going to say.

He looks me square in the eyes and continued "I was jealous"

I gave him a confused look. Jealous? Of what?

My face must have asked my question because he said "Look, I have never been jealous before, okay? So I might not have handled that situation well"

I snorted at that point. Might not have handled it well? Evidently, he thought the same because he gave a crooked smile and said "fine, I didn't handle it well at all and for that I'm sorry." He said it with sincerity and for a moment I almost believe him but I am still angry at him.

"I know what I did was inexcusable but I have never felt that way before. Not in my entire live. I know it's hard to believe but I really have never felt jealous before." He said while sliding down against the wall and patting a spot beside him. Evidently, we are going to have a long thought so I sat down also but not that close to him. He just gave me a smile and closed his eyes.

"I had life really good. Great family, awesome friends, fantastic grades, gorgeous girlfriends and the list goes on. So you see what I mean right?" he opened my eyes and looked at me.

I just rolled my eyes and gave him a look that says continue.

"So, I never really experience jealousy before till now. And I admit I might have handled it a bit better." He added ruefully.

"Jealous? Of what?" I ask not getting what he might be jealous of. My god, please don't tell me he is a cross dresser and is jealous of my clothes.

"Jacob of course. What else?"

"Jake? Why are you jealous of him? I asked again confusedly. I am a little relief my assumption was wrong.

He rolled his eyes at me as if saying "how dumb can this girl be" and I immediately felt defensive. It must have shown on my face because he grins and said "why else would I be jealous of Jacob?"

I was getting quite irritated. Can't he just tell me what he means? "Can you just tell me what you mean?" I snapped at him

"Fine, but I can't believe you don't know the answer to that. It's because he ask you out and well, I don't want you going out with him."

I glared at him. "I told you, stop telling me what I can and cannot do! Plus, Jake and I go out all the time for drinks." I revealed. His eyes darken and he looks almost angry. I just rolled my eyes at him but explained things anyway.

"He is a childhood friend of mind. We meet when I started working here. We go out for drinks every Wednesday. Oh shush, stop trying to interrupt!" I said when I saw him opening his mouth for a retort. "Anyways, we are not dating if you must know, although I don't see how it's any of your business. We are just friends going out for a drink to catch up with one another." I added although I have no idea why.

Edward just look thoughtful at that point. "So you and him are not dating?" he asked with a curious look.

I shook my head and said "Nope, our relationship is strictly platonic and besides, he is engage to Reneesme."

"For real?" he asked in disbelief. "I got jealous over nothing?" he said in amazement. "I can't believe it" he muttered to himself

Before I could say anything, he looked up and gave me an intense stare "So you aren't seeing anyone?"

"I don't see how it's any of your business."

"Bella, answer the damn question"

"I really don't see how it's any of your business but no, I'm not." I admitted feeling very embarrass. My two best friends are in wonderful relationships and I am still single. What's wrong with me?

"Bella, it's nothing to be embarrassed about. I'm not in any relationship too" Edward said

I look at him in disbelief. Edward Cullen? Not in any relationship? When I see him with a new bimbo every week?

He just gives me a ghost of a smirk. "I'm not kidding. I'm sure you seen me with plenty of girls but they aren't exactly relationship material are they?" he ask me. "In fact, I haven't been in a relationship since I was 15" he said thoughtfully.

I just gave him a weird look. This situation is getting more absurd by the minute. Am I really having a decent conversation with Cullen? The guy who until an hour ago I feel like murdering? The one that I now want to kiss again? At that thought I blushed again. For some reason I wanted to know why he have not been in a relationship. Fear of commitment? Refusal to give up his playboy ways? He likes having a new bimbo at his arm every week? For some reason I dread his answer but I wanted to know anyway.

"Why?" I asked

He looks at me and he seems to be having an internal debate. He still haven't answered me in a few minutes and I was starting to regret asking him that question.

"Cullen, erm…forget that I ask. That question"

"Edward"

"Huh?"

"Call me Edward"

"Erm…okay? So, Edward forget I ask?" For some reason I like saying his first name out loud. Weird, I know.

"I love it when you say my name" he answered echoing my thoughts. "and I'm just trying to see how to tell you."

"Oh"

"Well, I had my first girlfriend when I was 13"

"No surprise there." I couldn't help but answer. He must have been a very good looking boy.

"Enough with your sarcasm. Now don't interrupt"

"Now you know what I feel" I couldn't help but say

He gave me a look and said "yes, it's annoying. Now do you want to hear it or not?"

"Fine" I grumbled but fell silent. I was curious about it.

"Her name was Tanya. We grew up together. And our families were really close. So you can imagine the delight when they heard we got together. They actually thought we would grow up, get married and grow old together. And I thought so too." He said with a pained look. I suddenly felt bad for him as I could see it brought up painful memories.

"You don't have to tell me you know?"

He looked at me and gave me a ghost of a smile. "Don't worry Bella. I got over it. In my own way but I got over it. And besides, I need you to understand." he still look pained so I scooted closer to him and held his hand. I know I shouldn't but for some reason I don't like the look of pain on his face.

He smiled at our entwined hands and continued his story "she was my first everything you know. My first kiss, my first love heck I even lost my virginity to her." I felt a flare of jealousy then and it puzzled me. Why am I feeling jealousy? I can't be having feelings for him right? I did not want to examine my feelings too closely so I turned my attention to his story.

"She was my one and only relationship." His voice seemed to become quieter as continued with a faraway look in his eyes as if he was relieving his memories.

I asked timidly. "What happen?"

My question jolt him out of his memories and he continued in a monotone tone as if he couldn't stand the pain of the memories. "She cheated on me. With my best friend"

I didn't know what to say so I just squeezed his hand. He look down at our hands and continued "my family and I went on a holiday. We got back a day or two earlier because my mum came down with a fever. I went over to her house to surprise her. But I was the one who was surprised. She was in bed with my best friend at that time and I was so shocked that I just stood there. The look of horror on her face would have been so comical at other times but no one was laughing then." He said darkly.

"Edward…." I said

"No, let me finish my story because this will be the one and only time I will say this, okay?" he asked me beseechingly. I nodded my head.

"Her sister Irina was the one who let me in. I guess she must have told her other family members too because I could hear shock gasps behind me. I look at Irina and I was appalled to see a look of sadistic pleasure on her face. Who would do something like that to their own family members? Granted what Tanya did was wrong but to embarrass her in front of her whole family. At that moment I made it a promise never to be in a relationship again. I found girls to be cruel and selfish and I didn't want to feel that hurt again."

I opened my mouth to protest "Edward, not all girls are that bad. You can't stereotype all girls into that category just because of two girls!"

He gave me a small smile "I know that Bella. I would never categorize you in that category."

I shushed and felt slightly flattered. Hey, don't judge me. As long as I'm not in that category…

"Anyways, I broke it off with her then and there. She somehow had no shame and still tried to beg me to take her back. She said it was an accident and a one-time thing. I was so angry. Does she honestly think I was stupid enough to believe she tripped and landed on him? From then on I guess I have been just fooling around."

I hesitated to ask. Where does that leave us?

"But Bella, you are different. And I think I might…"

I never found out what he wanted to say because both our phones rang at that point. For a moment I was pissed at my phone. Why the heck is it ringing? I glanced at the clock. Oh shit! The deadline! Edward must have had the same thought because he quickly got up and started shoving the approved articles into the file. I was slightly disappointed that we were interrupted. Who knows what could have happen?


Hehe....cliffy I know. I'm evil but i really needed to end it somewhere. I most probably will upload a new chapter before christmas but that would really depend on my idiotic miserable fever.

In case I don't, I want to wish you all a MERRY CHRISTMAS!! I'll definitely will upload before new year so I'll wish you happy new year then!:)

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