***I love this fanfiction; I hope I never end it. Or maybe I'll write a sequel. Whatever. Reese says hi (Reese: I did not) shut up. Now READ!***

Npov

The Officer said that they wanted us all back in a week. We said that we'd come soon, and she let us leave. I went to my room and wrote. I wrote out everything to Kairi. The whole thing with the gangs, everything. I wrote until tears escaped my eyes and dotted the paper. I told her that I'd miss her, Xion, Sora, and Ven. That they were family to me. I told her that I hoped she'd never have to read it. I told her that I was sorry that I never got to see the baby. I told her that she is supposed to go through my bad thoughts sketchbook and read the captions. That they should give Xion a good Christmas. I stuck the note in an envelope and wrote Kairi on the back. I wrote a letter to Sora, saying that I loved him like a brother. I wrote a letter to Ven, asking him to adopt Kairi if dad sends her to a foster home. I wrote to Xion, saying that I loved her and that she was the best, prettiest little girl in the world. I wrote a letter to Roxas just for the hell of it, I told him that I loved him. I wrote a letter to Axel, telling him that he was the best friend in the world. I even wrote letters to Hayner, Pence, and Olette. After I sealed all but Kairi's letter I set them all except Kairi's under the front cover of my sketchbook. I taped Kairi's on top. I broke my promise to myself and I broke down crying. I have to hurt Roxas in a few days; I might even cause his death. I sighed and lay back on my pillows, but I was unable to sleep. I looked at my clock and saw that it was 11:23. Everyone would be asleep. I silently got up and tip-toed to Roxas's room. As I silently opened the door I had to bite back a scream, because he was already at the door. I let out a little meep and he laughed quietly. I smiled and he let me into his room. He sat on the bed and I sat on his lap, snuggling close to him.

"What're you doing up?" I asked him

"I should ask you, since you were sneaking to my room." He laughed

"Couldn't sleep." I admitted, "I hadn't slept well until you were with me." He nodded

"I hadn't slept on the floor, and I can't sleep thinking about the fight." He told me. I looked into his eyes. I sighed and I felt like a million pounds dropped from my face. The worry came out, but so did the relief. I took a deep breath and looked at him. He smiled, and it wasn't fake. I grinned back and kissed him. We started making out, and I pulled myself closer to him. I broke the kiss and rested my head on his chest. He leaned back and I drifted off to sleep in his arms, with the childish thought that he would protect me from anything.

Rpov

I fell asleep with her in my arms almost laughing at what Kairi and Sora's reaction to this would be. When I awoke it was because of Xion poking me in the face with a crayon.

"Xion!" I whisper/hissed. She smiled

"Kairi told me to wake you guys up. She said that she figured that Nami would be asleep with you." she reported

"Oh, who's making breakfast?" I asked sleepily

"Kairi's making snowman pancakes with chocolate chips for a face and a bacon scarf!" she squeaked. Namine lifted her head

"Oh hi Xion." She mumbled. "I smell Kairi's pancakes. Snowmen?" she asked

"Snowmen." Xion replied happily. Namine smiled and nodded.

"Why don't you go tell Kairi that Roxas and I are up." she said. Xion left the room and ran in the direction of the kitchen. Namine pecked me on the lips and snuggled closer.

"Morning, Sleeping Beauty." I laughed as she buried her face in my chest. She mumbled something that sounded like "Too early" and I laughed again. She sighed and lifted her face to me.

"Let's go get some snowmen before they get cold." She mumbled sleepily, "Wait… that can't be right…"

"What?" I asked

"Snowmen are supposed to be cold." She muttered and got up out of bed. She slipped on some of my slippers and bundled up in my robe. She opened the door and walked down the hall with me following. Sora did a double take when he saw Namine with messed up hair and in my robe, but Kairi said something that made him relax. I raised an eyebrow at him, and he blushed. Namine squinted at her snowman and started to eat it. Kairi laughed when she saw Namine randomly stabbing her pancakes.

"Namine's not much of a morning person." She laughed to me

"Damn right." Namine mumbled as she successfully speared a bit of her food and shoved it in her mouth. Kairi slid a cup of tea to Namine and Namine took a sip. Then she drank the whole thing in three gulps. She opened her eyes and seemed more awake. I shook my head, how did she wake up so early before?

"She hates mornings. She loves caffeinated tea." Kairi whispered to me. I nodded.

"Shut up." Namine mumbled. Her eyes were still squinty, but she successfully speared the snowman's head. I shook my head and ate my snowman. Namine's cell went off and she left to answer it. I sighed and left her alone, Xion wanted me to play with her anyways.

Npov

My cell went off and I ran to my room so I could answer it.

"Axel?" I asked

"Yeah, I don't have much time, they're watching me. I called you cuz I heard Marluxia telling Xigbar that they were gonna kill you anyways. I can't do anything. You can't run. What are you gonna do?" he asked, worried

"I don't know. I have to tell Roxas. I just don't know. And the fight is in two days!"

"I have to go, they'll get suspicious. Tell me what you figure out." He hung up and I cursed myself. Why did I have to promise not to cry? This was gonna kill Roxas. I sighed and cried anyways. I wish I could say that I was strong and faced the danger fiercely, but I really just curled up in a ball and cried. I didn't cry for myself, though that was a little of it. I cried for my friends and my family. What were they gonna do without me? What was I gonna do without them? I wondered where Roxas was, I expected him to be listening outside my door. I calmed my voice. I wouldn't tell him about my dying anyways, just about my dying if he dies. That way he'll have something to fight for.

"Roxas?" I called, my voice shaking the tiniest bit.

"Yeah?" he yelled back

"Can you come to my room?" I called

"Sure." A minute later he was in my room. He opened the door and immediately saw my face. "What's wrong?"

"It's-it's I'm sorry." I sobbed. He crossed the room and sat next to me. I cried for a while until I was calm enough to talk.

Rpov

I waited for Namine to talk. I had seen her cry before, but this was different. She had something that mattered between life and death, otherwise she wouldn't have called me in. she calmed down enough to form short sentences.

"Axel called. He overheard Marluxia and Xigbar talking. I'm gonna die. Xemnas told Marluxia to kill me!" she sobbed. I was really confused, what about her dying?

"What?" I asked

"If you died and didn't choose me to free, I'd die cuz you love me." She choked out. I sat in silence for a minute. I smiled.

"Then I guess I have to stop loving you." I responded. She looked up at me with a mixture of sadness, worry, confusion, disbelief, and fear. I almost laughed. But I didn't.

"What?" she finally asked.

"Here's my idea. Tell them that I hate you for all of this. And that I never want to see you again. And that I wish you were dead." I responded.

"Oh, is that all?" she asked sarcastically

"I wish that you didn't have to do this, but if we don't you'll die." I said quietly.

"Okay, but do they have to know?" she asked gesturing to the living room. I sighed, do they? Maybe.

"Maybe." I said.

"I don't like taking chances. So, we fight, you storm out, I cry. Easy." She mumbled.

"Break a leg." I said

"You too." She said before we started shouting.

Npov

We screamed at each other about stuff, me pretending to try to make him stay, him being an ass. We whispered encouragement to each other. Finally I told him to slap me. He said he was sorry, and then slapped me so hard that the sound rang out. He stormed out, stalking to his room to grab some stuff, and then slamming the front door. I curled on my bed and cried. That was easy; I had enough to cry about. Kairi burst in and asked what was wrong.

"Roxas (sniffle) he got mad (sob) and he slapped me(whimper) he said he wished I was dead." I whispered. Kairi held me and rocked me. I nearly told her the truth then, but I held it in. Sora came in, and he looked madder than hell.

"What did he do?" he asked me. Kairi told him what had happened. Sora looked defeated. "Why would he do that?" he whispered.

"I don't know." I cried. I told them that I wanted to take a walk, and they nodded. I walked down to my work, crying. I was at the building, when I stopped. If I didn't die they'd choose someone else to kill, probably Xion. I sighed and turned around. I walked to the park that Roxas had told me he'd be staying at and sat next to him on the bench.

"Roxas?" I finally asked

"Hmm?" he hummed

"Don't get mad at me, but I didn't tell them." I said

"Why?" he asked surprised

"Because they'd probably kill Xion instead." I whispered. He looked stunned for a second, but nodded. It was better this way. I kissed Roxas and walked away. I went to his house and sat at my desk. I stared at Kairi's unsealed letter and I added more. I added about what had happened today. About if I didn't do this then Xion would die. I told her that I was staying at our old house. I wrote "Do not open until the 24th" on the envelope, right next to Kairi's name, and sealed the enveloped. I secured it with tape, and taped the sides down on my sketchbook for good measure. I packed my bags and grabbed two guitars and a few swords. Roxas would need the swords. I grabbed a little money and I left it all on my bed. I knocked on Kairi's door and she answered I handed her the sketchbook and I told her I loved her. I ran to my room and I locked the door. Kairi knew how to pick locks, but she wouldn't for a while. I grabbed my stuff and jumped out my window. I made sure to close it behind me. I snapped a branch off one of the trees and brushed it behind me to erase my steps as I walked through the snow. I cut across a few backyards until I was a few blocks away. I abandoned the branch and ran all the way to the park. I grabbed Roxas's arm and dragged him to my old house.

"What's going on?" he demanded

"I ran away. I gave Kairi the letters I wrote, and I ran away." I said. I had taken Roxas's letter with me. I sighed and sat down on my couch.

"So you brought me here? This is where you were constantly beat up! How do you expect me to sleep here?"

"I slept here for years; I just thought it would be better than a park bench." I replied. He sighed and sat next to me, wrapping his arms around my waist. I pulled at the frayed spot on the couch cushion. I had missed this place. Even though it had bad memories it was still home. I can remember all the good things, mom and dad before dad went crazy, mom at Christmas, the horrible ballet lessons, my ninth birthday (it was my golden birthday), everything. I remember how mom looked so happy, cradling her swollen belly in her arms. She was pregnant before dad killed her. I hadn't really understood that until I was older, I probably knew back then, but my memory got screwed up since my brain didn't want to remember painful things. I was dragged out of my thoughts by Roxas getting up.

"What're you doing?" I asked curiously as he looked around my house. He just shook his head and smiled. I got up too, but just to stash my letter in my room and grab a candy cane from the cupboard. I sat on the couch again to watch as Roxas found the Christmas tree and some forgotten ornaments. I went to Kairi's room and grabbed her collection of free Mardi gras beads. I draped them around the little tree and stood back to admire our work. I walked to my room and took out the letter. The fight's in two days, so I better give this to him now. I handed it to him and told him to read it if I yell something about a mockingjay. (a/n: I just read the last book in the hunger games series! I loved it!) He looked at me questioningly, but I ignored it. He obviously hasn't read the hunger games. I sat on the couch and he produced a little velvet covered jewelry case. My eyes got huge as he sat next to me and told me only to open the case the day of the fight. My eyes threatened to cry, but I stopped them, I renewed my promise to not cry and I intended to keep it. I ran my fingers over the frayed patch on the couch again and I smiled. For some unreasonable reason, I was happy. I was happy just to sit next to him. I leaned my head on his shoulder and breathed a sigh of relief. We sat for what seemed to be hours until we decided to go and eat. We were just going through the motions, trying to make the thing that was going to happen in two days seem not to exist. The day dragged on forever, but the night was short. I actually slept, and I think Roxas did too. Then next day at breakfast I slammed my fork down, causing the table to shudder. Roxas looked up curiously and swallowed his eggs.

"What's up?" he asked

"We can't keep going on like this. These may be our last days. I don't know about you, but I'm going to do something special." I declared.

"Yeah! What're we gonna do though? We can't go back to our families. That would be suicidal."

"I don't know. Let's have a Christmas!" I burst, suddenly getting the idea

"Okay, there's a shopping center a few blocks away. I think it's a strip mall. I have a few credit cards and you have money, so let's go!" he agreed. I knew he was only doing it to make me happy, but it was better than what we were doing before, just sitting like useless lumps. I gave him half the money and he handed me a credit card. We ran to the strip mall like two kids would to a candy store.

"Wait, who do we buy stuff for?" he asked

"Each other and ourselves." I replied. I went to a jewelry store and bought a watch for him, and a few things for me. Then to all the other stores. We wrapped our gifts messily in the food court and wrote who they were to and from on little tags. With so much stuff weighing us down we slowly made our way back and gave each other gifts. I had pretty clothes and jewelry, books I could never read, and CDs that I couldn't listen to. Except for the Christmas carols one. I dragged out an ancient CD player and put in the CD. We sang along with the songs and I went to my room to change, while Roxas went in the bathroom. He came out in a sweater that was expensive and was the same color as his eyes. It was a gift from me. I changed into a red and green Christmas dress. It was a gift from him. We had pizza delivered and we ate until we were bursting. We went to sleep happy, but in the morning I awoke more scared than ever. It was the day. We slowly cleaned up the house from last night. We piled our stuff in my room. I had an idea. We would go to the fight looking our best, but the clothes would be altered so that they were easy to fight in. Roxas agreed, but he had no idea who would alter them that fast. I told him that he had never met Yuna before. She lived two houses down and she was a seamstress. She knew what I did, she was probably my only girl friend (as in friend that is a girl), and she was happy to cover up for me. We went down there and before an hour ad passed we had our clothes. His was a black and white outfit with a little bit of red, and two black and white rings (his outfit in kh2) and mine was a short dress like the one I was wearing on my first day of school, but it was black at the bottom, slowly fading to whit at the top. I wore a sparkling necklace with a black gem, but a white chain, and Roxas reminded me of my box. The one with soft velvet. I slowly opened the lid to reveal the thing inside and the note.