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Chapter 9: Little Brothers, Partners in Crime

("You're my main man,

you're my go to.

And now I'm standing here

without you.

And it hurts.")


Jay's POV

If only I wasn't so bad at waiting for answers.

If only Nya would wake up again so I could have someone to talk to. (I was barely containing myself from bursting out of my seat and pacing around the waiting room, but I knew that would only make everyone else more anxious.)

If only Cole would come back so I could ask him if Kai was alright.

If only I knew I wouldn't like the answer I'd be given.

If only I could've seen Kai awake myself.

If only he had asked for me instead. (I didn't understand it. Why he asked for Cole. I mean, I knew he was the leader, that they were close, but Kai was my best friend.)

If only I had been there when Kai fell, when he was hurt.

If only I'd helped him, been there for him like he would have been for me.

If only I hadn't been preoccupied with the Aryan warriors, too preoccupied to save my friend.

If only the warriors weren't so strong.

If only they didn't take EVERYTHING from us. (Our home, our lives, and almost our brother.)

If only I hadn't become a ninja in the first place. (I couldn't do anything. I wasn't strong like Cole or smart like Zane or powerful like Lloyd or or brave like Kai...)

If only I didn't imagine being in his shoes. (Being in so much pain that he could hardly breathe, having to wake up to a missing part of himself that he never imagined would fail him or leave him, having to live with the trauma, the remembrance of how he almost died, and waking up alone to no one he knew.)

If only we were home, we were safe, and everything was okay, everything was back to normal, we had NEVER fought this war, we had NEVER lost this battle.

If only Kai and I weren't best friends, partners in crime, "I've got your back" kind of teammates, and the annoying but loved little brothers. (Lloyd included.)

If only I'd never met Kai. Because that would mean we never became ninja, he'd never have almost died, and I wouldn't be sitting here with an aching heart knowing I couldn't lift a finger to take away his pain.