Authors Notes: It's abit shorter than usual, sorry about that! ; I'm a bit far behind on my writing! Hopefully, I can catch up quickly so these can become longer again.
But aye, look at their complex 'friendship' Pls, forgive me. They both have a lot of emotional problems that they can't become close yet.
I haven't even explained Karma's that well yet, that should be coming soon!
But yes, I think another fight is gonna happen. But Asano is gonna be an ass and involve a shit tonne of other people, his 'minions' if you'd like to call them that :P haha.
I hope you enjoy, please let me know if you want to add anything or take it away. I'd love to hear some feedback! Or what you'd love to see.
As always thank you for the love, love you all! ^w^
Neutral POV
Nagisa had not long returned back to school. That was obvious. Karma kept hearing people either talk shit or have knowledge about the two living together. They wouldn't dare talk about to his face, though, but some would occasionally come up to the bluenette to question how awful he was.
I don't get to shits. Why is there always drama? The redhead thought… Getting a little ticked off by it. Maybe it was because of what they were doing to Nagisa? Maybe it was because someone else knew about his life? Maybe it was because of Asano spreading rumours like a barn on fire. Either way, he didn't like it.
Now was no exception, they were in their tutor group which most made it out as a free time before the break. Karma leant back on his chair leaning it against the wall, sighing. I don't want to hear it, it's not like Nagisa could or would ever spill secrets. The boy grit his teeth, tsking at the annoying girls surrounding the kid.
Nagisa sighed. He had only been here for two days now, why did every kid need to know everything. Nakamura Rio trying to catch gossip with her goons. They never spoke to him, so why react to rumours now? It must be Asano's fault, considering no other kids came to their house. Nagisa thought, annoyed at his situation.
"Yeah, but what is like living with him? I bet you're jealous of his looks and his well everything."
"Is his room clean?"
"Does he play as many games as he says he does? Is he rich?" The lot kept scrambling closer to the blue haired boy and in his panic he shook his head. He didn't want anything to do with this, it was far too much attention daunting on him.
Nagisa hated the attention.
He'd only just recently stopped the anxiety from prying too much into his life, so now other kids were going to make it happen again… The bell went but unfortunately, the three were so loud they didn't hear it.
"Come on, Nagisa. We only want to hear a little gossip"
As the bluenette thought he was doomed, he felt a hand go on his shoulder.
"Yo' you've probably heard enough shit, did you want some peace on my roof?" Somehow to Nagisa, the redhead's voice had become a comfort. He didn't realise when or why but it made him smile. Those crystal blue orbs met gentle golden ones which only made the three squeak.
The three imagined the boys being in a romance. Another rumour to start, they three thought. The boys grimaced at the girls and Karma pulled him out of the crowd of three.
"Fuck I've had enough already, this never happens..." By living with Karma, the blue haired boy had already managed to pick up his speaking habits. Swearing is just one of them. They were hanging out like everything was normal now.
"Now you know how I feel 24/7. It isn't a fucking luxury. They're either gossipy, squeaking or trying to get your attention... I fucking hate girls" The two were sat where Karma usually sat by himself which was on top of the school building. The furthest place you could be away from the civilisation. You could be who you wanted to be up here as no one could hear. That, and no one dared to come on his roof.
If they did, they were idiots.
"Hate girls? That's a lie. I bet you'd date one from our school" Nagisa teased. As strangely close but distanced they were, he somehow managed to figure out what to say and what not to say around Karma.
Karma hated talking about his emotions, he refused to. Nagisa had also noticed how he had no close friends so maybe he just wasn't used to it? Or was it he hated being weak? Karma also disliked most people. He rarely had the time for them, unless it was for information or he had a plan in his head. Karma only did things if it benefited himself. Nagisa thought maybe by rescuing and helping him, he was saving himself also.
Nagisa knew there was something hidden in Karma, that made him so angry and despise people. But soon he realised, he probably would never find out.
"Nah met them all, fucking annoying. But hellishly fun to tease, like yours truly~" Karma stuck his tongue out, pulling his eye down. He felt Nagisa nudge him playfully and they both started laughing.
The two always ended up ruffling each other's feathers like this. If anything the private maths lesson made them closer as afterwards they started homework, cooking and playing games together. Nagisa knew he had to play his teasing games to understand him more.
Karma eventually realised when they spent more time together, he liked and enjoyed the boy. There was so much he could admire, his bravery to show emotions and the determination in his heart to stick with something.
They both realised from their time together it was too immature to stay enemies. They dropped the politeness on their names and figured it was best to be friends. Nagisa had just guessed Karma picked him because of Asano and well, Karma was lonely. Some of it, he guessed right.
As much as they were friends, Karma couldn't let the boy close. If he let him close, he'd either hurt him or become hurt or he'd learn too much. That was a thought he couldn't bear.
Nagisa's POV
Fucking dammit... I was so far behind again and the teachers still haven't moved me to a lower set... They said it would take at least another week to sort my grades out properly...
Didn't they realise the amount of pressure and anxiety it constantly puts me through? I was still trying to beat my mother at her own game even at school.
Most of the lesson I tried to stay determined to do my best, but it usually daunted me the most when the class went quiet because everyone needed to focus. I then remember how smart they were and how I wasn't.
As I fell with my head on the desk in defeat I audibly sighed.
I felt a poke on my side. I turn my head my head to my right, noticing it was Karma who did it. I looked at him questioningly, was he gonna help me again? No that can't be it again? I've already had a week of him helping me… I'll probably end up pulling him behind if he does.
"I can either teach you it at home and you copy my answers now. Or I can teach you quickly" I scowl at him slightly, shaking my head. I couldn't let him.
I turned away from Karma, only to get another few stubborn pokes. "Nagisa, if you don't, you're going to get anxiety all day, just from this lesson… And we have several periods left" I heard him mutter… He really did know me well, and he hadn't seen that much of me. I sigh again, turning to him.
"But what if you fall short? I'll be to blame" I frowned behind my arm that hid my face. But he could tell from my eyes how I felt.
"I won't fall behind, I'm already a grade above the class. I already know this stuff… It's piss easy, take my god damn paper" I watched Karma pass his paper over with the answers on it, once again it was neat for me to read. I could tell if I didn't take the paper Karma would become stubborn about it. As I sat up and grabbed it, it was knocked out of my hand by a student who walked past.
Pft, fucking typical. I was now getting bullied by another kid again… Why does this happen? I sigh, beginning to slump my head back on my arms, but I was distracted when I noticed familiar orange locks….
Asano?
There was now a piece of paper on my desk from Asano who dropped it off. I saw Karma almost grit his teeth in the corner of my eye as he picked up his paper for me. This gave him a chance to look at the bit of paper before me.
"You don't have to go alone" I heard the whisper of reassurance, as he put the paper back on my desk.
What?
Was he protecting me again? As I looked concerned at the boy, Karma was able to look away before I could even respond. What was going through his head sometimes?
I decided to leave it for now, and perhaps question it another time. I take a look at the bit of paper...
"Karmas roof at lunch? I have to speak to you"
Next period went by in a flash. I suppose it would if you felt anxiety.
At first, I didn't notice it, as this was an interesting subject like history. Maybe it was because I knew Karma wasn't here as once class finished he gave me a pat on the back.
"You'll be good, don't think about it for now. I understand it's hard, but I got your back when you return" Even if he reassured me, it felt like nothing if he wasn't around.. I suppose that was emotional dependency calling… I sighed, catching myself think of him rather than the work.
Fuck.
This was ridiculous.
The bell went, saving me from thoughts. I gulped as I collected my belongings. The floor suddenly felt like it was spinning… It felt like motion sickness, as my emotions toyed with my vision.
Can I really do this? Is he going to shout at me?
As questions swirled in my head like a flushed loo of emotions… I was beginning to feel I couldn't breathe with the amount my anxiety asked me.
I tried to stand up to maybe drain my mental health away.
It kept beating me every time I tried to move my feet. As the floor spun, I felt I was being tied in a void of my emotions. I was stuck, it was suffocating.
