Title: My deadly Sin

Pairing: Atobe & Oshitari

Genre: Angst/Romance

Disclaimer: Prince of tennis does not belong to me

Warning: This story is primarily focus on eating disorder and its symptoms.

A.N. I just want to point this out again in case anyone missed it. In chapter 3, I meant to type Ootori and not Gakuto. So the content stayed the same in chapter 3 except I change my typo. This chapter will have both Atobe and Oshitari pov. –sigh- I try to stay away from multiple povs because I once went overboard and wrote an entire fiction using 4 povs. Yes, I should really delete that story but I kept the story for the nice reviews.

I love reviews so keep them coming and special thanks to Daisy for volunteer to beta this story from now on.


My deadly Sin

Chapter 9: The Past

The destruction of the past is perhaps the greatest crime of all.

(Simone Weil 1910-1943)

Atobe's pov

It had been a week since Yuushi moved in, no I meant Oshitari. I don't like the sound of Oshitari's name on my lips, and I really do hate having his name constantly popping up in my head.

I was prepared for more outrageous demands but Oshitari proved to be the perfect house guest. The servants seemed to adore Oshitari and had already started to treat him like he had always been here. Nonetheless, I still think everyone was all fooled by his charming looks and mesmerizing voice.

But that is not the worst thing that had happened; the absolute worst thing was the rumors and gossips that I had been hearing around the mansion.

"Master Keigo seems more energetic now that Master Yuushi moved in."

"Hey, why aren't you calling Master Oshitari by his family name?"

"Well Master Yuushi told us that we can call him by his first name. He is such a nice guy. I am so happy that Master Keigo found such a caring boyfriend."

"Yes, at first I was upset that Master Keigo had brought home a boyfriend instead of a girlfriend, but now I couldn't be happier. After seeing the two together, I am convinced that they are perfect for each other."

"Me too."

I can't stand hearing those lies over and over again. I had never been so angry at anyone before. Oshitari Yuushi was like a plague. For god's sake, Oshitari had become my second shadow. I swear he is everywhere and …

"Keigo, time for breakfast." Announced Oshitari as he walked through the door.

Speak of the devil; I was glaring at Oshitari and his tray of food. Normally, I would feel sick and repulsed at the sight and smell of food, but right now I am too angry to think straight. My mind and senses are overwhelmed with hate towards Oshitari Yuushi.

I closed my eyes and open them again.

Damn it, he is still here and doesn't appear to be leaving anytime soon, so I finally give in and answered, "I don't believe in breakfast."

Oshitari smiled causally and said, "Keigo, we are not having this discussion again."

I gave up. "Fine, I will take an apple and a cup of water."

"… and a piece of toast and that is the end of our discussion." Interrupted Oshitari.

I watched Oshitari as he ate a piece of toast covered with strawberry jam, an egg sunny side up, two pieces of bacon, and a cup of orange juice. The nauseating feeling was resurfacing again. I put down my toast after two bites and suddenly felt very sick and full.

I hate it. I hate how Oshitari was always forcing food down my throat, and there is absolutely nothing that I can do about it. I know that Oshitari was forcing me to eat just so he can watch me suffer.

Oshitari was staring at me when he suddenly said, "That is enough for today. We should both get going soon."

The drive to school was peaceful, but it did nothing to my calm my anger down. Finally, right before I got out of the limo, I snapped at Oshitari and said, "I hate you."

Oshitari walked quietly past by me and said, "Sadly, I don't."

That night I felt guilty, and normally I would have avoided Oshitari at all costs but the guilt was bothering me. Before I realized what had happened I was standing in front of the door that separated Yuushi from me.

Yuushi.

I guess it wasn't such an awful name after all. I don't know why I was waiting like a love-struck girl outside of Yuushi's bedroom, but I was feeling guilty all day because of that one comment.

"I hate you."

I turn the door knob slowly and was surprised to know that Yuushi had left his door unlocked. From the tiny glimpse of light, I can see that Yuushi was already in bed.

Blue

His hair looks amazingly blue under the moonlight. Yuushi really does look stunning. For the first time in days, I felt something other than anger at the sight of Yuushi.

His face looked troubled, and I had this urge to brush his frown away.

"Gakuto, don't leave me. Please don't leave me all alone. I love you." Whispered Oshitari.

My heart stopped. I took my hand back and walked slowly back to my own room.

Who is Gakuto?

The person that Yuushi, no Oshitari loves is Gakuto. Then why am I here? Why is he here? Is this all just a game to him?

What if I was just a replacement?

A replacement for someone named Gakuto?

I want to laugh but I can't. It seemed fitting that the great Atobe Keigo was nothing but a mere replacement. Why was I surprised? I should be used to getting used by others. That night I went to bed feeling cold and numb like in the old days. The anger had faded and I found myself restoring back to my old self. The person that I was before Oshitari interrupted my peaceful life.

Oshitari's pov

Flashback

"Protected you? Why do you need protection?" Asked Oshitari suspiciously.

Gakuto looked at Oshitari angrily before replying, "Because looking like a girl in an all boy's school is just asking for trouble."

Oshitari took a long look at Gakuto and realized that he was right. Gakuto looked like a little princess.

Small, fragile and beautiful

"Why me? I am sure you can ask other guys to look after you." Asked Oshitari curiously.

Gakuto smiled and said, "I already told you, I like the way you look at me. Your eyes look different than their eyes. I hate their leering eyes. It is gross and disgusting."

End flashback

I woke up alone in my bed and slowly I walk towards my desk. Inside the desk lies my most prized possession.

An old black and white photo of Gakuto and me; I traced my finger tips over Gakuto's frame and smiled. In my eyes Gakuto always looked beautiful, especially when he was angry. Gakuto's eyes seemed so much more alive when he was angry. I remembered Gakuto always insisted on taking black and white photos because he was sick and tired of his flaming hair.

It wasn't until later when I finally found out why Gakuto hated his appearance so much. More importantly, I found out why Gakuto loathed his flaming hair—the bright red hair that I had always adored.

In the looks department, Gakuto had completely taken after his mother. If Gakuto was a girl, he would be the spitting image of his mother. The same woman who left Gakuto and his father before Gakuto can even talk.

Knock

Knock

My thoughts were interrupted as I glanced at the door, "Come in."

I was surprised to see one of Atobe's most trusted servants, Toru-san, standing in front of me.

"Excuse me Master Yuushi, I have come to tell you that Master Keigo is feeling ill this morning and he wanted me to notify you to go on ahead without him." Stated Toru.

"What is wrong with Keigo?" I asked.

"I don't know the exact details but Master Keigo told us not to call the doctor and that he will be fine after he gets some rest." Replied Toru.

I was feeling rather uneasy so I said, "Then I want to stop by and see what is wrong with Keigo before I leave."

"I am sorry, but Master Keigo insisted that no one disturb him not even you Master Yuushi." Commented Toru firmly.

"Did Keigo really say all that?" I asked suspiciously.

"Yes, I am sure Master Keigo will be fine once you get back from school today. We will make sure that Master Keigo gets his medicine and meals before you get home today." Answered Toru respectfully.

I nodded before saying, "Thank you Toru-san, and here is my cell phone number. Please don't hesitate to call if anything happens to Keigo before I get home."

Toru took my number and said, "I understand Master Yuushi."

Before I can react, Toru took my hand and said, "Master Yuushi, I've been meaning to say thank you for a while now. I am really happy that Master Keigo found you. I've never seen Master Keigo act so alive since you moved in. I want you to know that he is really just a good kid deep down. Master Keigo's parents were never around and no one ever taught the younger Master how to show love, so please excuse any of Master Keigo's childish behaviors."

I smiled at Toru's kind words and said, "I will, and thank you, Toru-san, for taking care of Keigo all these years."

The uneasy feeling never left me while I ate my breakfast in peace. I am surprised that in the last few days I had already gotten so used to Keigo's presence. The room suddenly seemed so lonely and empty without Keigo and his spiteful comments.

I know Keigo was lying about his sudden illness, but there must be something else that is causing him to avoid me at such great lengths. But what could be so important that would cause hium to ignore my hold over his secret? What could be so important that Keigo would send Toru-san to make sure that I don't question him in person?

Maybe I am thinking too much again. What if Keigo just wanted some time alone? This uncomfortable feeling won't leave me.

Is Keigo avoiding me for another reason?

Did I do something unconsciously?

But that is impossible.


TBC …

Chapter 10 Misunderstanding