School finished an hour ago and Tori has been outside my house for the last thirty minutes; not that I know how she figured out where I live. I don't understand why she won't just give up, is it not obvious by now that I don't want to talk to her? I've spent the whole day moping around at home; crying. Since the incident my emotions have been all over the place; I have never cried this much before.

"Jade! I know that you are in there and I'll stay here all night if I have to; it would be a whole lot easier if you would just talk to me!" she yells through the letterbox.

"Fine! Say what you need to say" I grumble from the other side of the door; knowing that the Latina will not give up.

"Can't you at least open the door?"

"No" I respond coldly before adding "My face is all puffy, I've been crying."

"I don't care about that" she replies honestly.

"Well I do."

"Ok then that's fine" she sighs, through the window I see her figure slide down to the floor and decide to do the same my side of the door.

An awkward silence fills the air neither of us knowing how to start, should I apologise for kissing her? But she came here so surely she has something she wants to say. I guess she is finding it difficult to know how to start being unable to play off of my facial expressions.

"I know you saw what happened with me and Beck" she starts; causing tears to once again start leaking from my eyes. "But what you think you saw and what actually happened are completely different things. He kissed me Jade, and yes in my drunken state I did kiss back, but as soon as I realised what was happening I pushed him away. I never wanted to kiss him, why would I when just before I had been kissing you?" her voice is starting to break now; as if she too is about cry. "It was amazing Jade, magical, something I have been dreaming of since the first moment I saw you. But you pulled away, you broke the moment and you just left me there; what am I supposed to think?" her voice is thick with tears now.

"You really didn't want to kiss him?" I ask between sobs,

"No" she responds in a similar manner, god we are both complete messes right now "The only person I want to kiss is you."

A wave of warmth floods through me,

"You are the only person I want to kiss too. But it's not as simple as that, is it? Being with someone? Being with another girl?"

"Isn't it?" she questions "since when do you care what anyone else thinks Jade?"

"I don't" I reply before adding "usually. This is all just so new to me, I don't know how to act; it's just complicated. At least I think it is."

"I think you need someone to want you Jade. Well, I do want you. So, be brave and want me back."

"Oh I don't know what to do Tori I do want you, but this is hard for me. Can't we just stay like this? Just for a bit?"

A brief silence follows my question before I hear her sigh and respond, "Yes we can, for a bit."

Thirty minutes of silence pass and my tears have finally subsided, she likes me back. Why is there still a pool of worry and fear building inside me then?

"Jade?" she says finally breaking the silence, "please let me come in."

As soon as I have opened the door her arms wrap around me pulling me into a hug; one which I happily return. She raises her head to look up at me and I meet her gaze, it's clear she has also cried a fair amount, but she is still beautiful. Leaning down I gently brush my lips across hers, I can feel a smile spreading across her face. Her hands tangle themselves in my hair as she deepens the kiss, nibbling on my bottom lip gently before swiping her tongue across my currently closed mouth. My own tongue readily responds and I open my mouth; moaning into the kiss as it deepens. She pushes me back onto the sofa landing on top of me without breaking the kiss, this feels like paradise.

'Brrrrrrinnnnggg' Tori groans at the sound of her phone in her pocket and pulls off of me,

"What mum?" she grumbles into it, God the look on her face is priceless, she looks so fucking cute when she's pissed. "Oh sorry I'll be right home" she rambles giving me an apologetic glance.

"Jade its nine o'clock!" she exclaims after having hung up the phone, "How did we lose track of the time? I'm sorry baby but I'm going to have to go home."

Pouting I pull her body closer too mine, "fine, as long as you come round after school again tomorrow."

"I would love that." She says with a smile, however her brow soon tenses "actually Jade, maybe tomorrow I should talk to Beck?" she asks looking up at me.

"Why?" I respond, confused now.

"I know you're not together anymore Jade, but he is still our friend, I'd like to know if he would be ok with this."

"But" I stammer looking at her "I'm not ready Tori, I don't want everyone knowing yet, I-I'm not ready. Please can we just give this a chance to work before introducing it to other people?"

There is a look of pain on her face, but what did I expect I have just asked her to hide our relationship. She sighs, looks up at me and her face seems to give in, pulling me into one last kiss before leaving she mumbles "Ok, but just for now".